A.N: I'm so sorry for not updating earlier. College has been really hectic and I think my college is trying to overload us with homework. Also my beta reader is having some computer problems at the moment so this chapter might some mistakes in that i haven't noticed. I'm very sorry if there is. Anyway enjoy the chapter.

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I laughed so hard as Chris once again fell down with a thud. He really was no good at ice skating.

This morning I had woken up in Chris' arms and when he had awoken he told me he had a surprise. He ended up taking me ice skating. He didn't tell me where we were, all I knew was that I was having the time of my life. I was having fun trying to teach Chris how to skate but he seriously was rubbish at it. The only time he wasn't falling was when I was next to him; even then he brought me down with him a lot. Neither of us could stop laughing. What ruined it was the undercurrent of fear and worry running through us. We both knew that today was the final stand so to say. If Chris wasn't conceived by midnight then he wouldn't exist at all. I knew that was the reason Chris had taken me here. To distract us both and possibly as something for me to remember him by but I was trying not to think about that.

Chris got back up again with my help but slipped again, for the trillionth time...okay, exaggerating a bit. Unlucky for me he was still holding on to me so I fell on top of him still laughing. When we both calmed down enough that we were just smiling I realized the position we were in. I looked down into his eyes and saw he realized it to. I leaned down and our lips met. I couldn't help but think on how much I loved him.

"I love you to," he whispered as we pulled away. Wait, 'to'? Chris looked confused then sighed. "You didn't say that out loud did you?"

"No. I didn't," I replied. This could be interesting. "I wanna try. Think something." I could feel the pout on my face but oh well. I concentrated on trying to listen.

'You're way too childish to be a Slayer," I heard very clearly but I didn't see Chris' lips move. I could hear a slight difference from his usually voice but I couldn't tell how it was different. It was like it was more airy or that it seemed to resound almost in my head. I rolled my eyes at the comment and stuck my tongue out, which sort of proved his point.

'Just acting my age," I thought back. Chris got a distant look and told me Phoebe was calling. It was my turn to sigh, looks like the fun is over.

Today was also Wyatt's birthday party and the two younger sisters were using the celebration to try and get Piper and Leo to get laid, in the words of Paige. We changed our shoes and Chris orbed us into the kitchen of the manor.

"Hey. So how's it going?" Chris asked immediately at seeing Phoebe and Paige. They answered in negative which made me lose my earlier good mood. "Well, that's too bad because it has to happen today or I don't happen." I closed my eyes so that I could control my emotions. 'Sorry,' I heard in my head from Chris.

"Wait, today?" Phoebe questioned. Like he would joke about that, I thought to myself.

"Yeah. I did the math. And if I'm not conceived by midnight tonight, that's it. I won't be born, which means I won't be coming back from the future to warn you about Wyatt turning evil," Chris told her and he had. He had made his old room in P3 an astrological room. He was getting restless staying with Sophanisba so spent time at P3 going over charts and other things to work things out. Poor Phoebe got confused at the whole time travel thing which Chris and I understood perfectly.

"Hey, what about making a love potion and just, like, slipping it to them," Chris suggested. He was desperate so I could forgive the idea; I was nearly there when it came to agreeing. Maybe if it was a potion that just boosted the feelings already there I would feel a bit better.

"No, we're not tricking your parents," Paige scolded, which I was thankful since my own resolve was breaking. Chris reminded them that he was desperate.

"Hey, look, I have an idea. Call me crazy, but why don't we just tell them the truth?" Phoebe threw out. I sometimes wondered how she became an advice columnist with ideas like that; even Paige said how bad that was because of the performance anxiety that would cause. "We're already out of options." Chris said.

"And time," I added. A crash was heard from the other room and we all went to investigate. Just as Chris walked into the dining room I saw an arrow fly towards him. I quickly pushed him out of the way so he fell to the ground and Paige orbed it into the darklighter who must have shot it. I rushed to Chris' side to check for injuries and helped him up.

"Thanks for saving my life. Hope it wasn't for nothing."

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Phoebe walked into the living room where we were all sitting. In her hand was the eyedropper full of the demon's blood. Paige asked if there was enough to scry with and Phoebe said they would have to see.

"At least he waited until after the party to attack. That was nice of him," Piper commented.

"You know what I don't understand is why would the darklighter attack at all? I mean, with all of us here at the same time. Its suicide," Chris queried and Piper said that that was more of a reason to stop him. Leo mentioned that he thought the Dark lighter was after him or Wyatt, making Paige suggest he, Piper and the baby go hang out with the Elders. Apparently that wasn't allowed though. Rules were made to be broken as far as I was concerned.

"Alright, so then we'll go to the magic school. You'll be safe there; you can't be hurt, right?" Piper proposed.

"That's great. One big happy family," Paige hinted and the parents went upstairs with Wyatt to get him ready.

"Think now's a good time to tell them?" Chris questioned once they were out of earshot.

"No. The sooner we take care of the darklighter, the sooner we make you," Paige replied. For some reason the 'make you' comment sounded very wrong to me. Phoebe went off to scry for the demon and Paige said she was going to start on a love potion.

"I thought you were against it?" I asked. I wasn't sure if I was lecturing or happy that she was going to make it.

"Not if it's gonna save one of my two favourite nephews," Paige remarked, giving Chris a wink and walking out the room.

"I'm going to go over the dates again and the astrological charts," Chris told me. "Want to come?"

"I think I'll stay here and make sure they actually stay on track," I replied indicating to Paige and Phoebe. I didn't want to be stuck in that room again, worrying over everything. Plus if we were left alone in a room there was no guarantee we would actually do anything constructive. Chris nodded in understanding and orbed out. I took a deep breath to calm myself down. What I wouldn't give to fight a demon right now, I thought. I went up to join the girls. I didn't really want to see their pitying stares so I leaned against the attic doorway watching them work. I could feel a funny feeling coming from Chris. 'You ok?' I sent to him. I think I was getting the hang of the whole telepathy thing. 'Don't know, I just have this strange feeling. I had an interesting chat with Clarence though,' he sent back. I think Clarence was the cleaner at P3 so I was kind of curious. Chris just said that he would tell me later when we were actually in the same room. I heard an explosion from the potion Paige was making and went back to focusing on the sisters. From what I gathered of what Phoebe said that wasn't supposed to happen.

"Or maybe it just wasn't meant to be," Phoebe said when Paige said it might have happened because she was trying too hard. I instantly straightened and anger start to blossom in my body.

"Phoebe," Paige exclaimed. At least one sister was on our side.

"Come on, you weren't thinking the exact same thing?" the middle sister retorted.

"No. Okay, fine, but for like a second. The point is Chris is meant to be," Paige replied. Even though she said it was just for a second, it hurt that Paige would think it full stop.

"You really think that," I forced out. I wanted to scream and shout at them for even suggesting it. Both girls snapped their heads towards me and I walked more fully into the room.

"Buffy, I just meant that..." Phoebe tried to excuse.

"Screw you, Phoebe! I know it was damn well meant to be," I interrupted. There was no way I was going to accept that. There was no way the powers would let me fall in love with him if it wasn't meant to be...right?

"Buffy, I know, but there's only so much we can do. Especially now with that Darklighter out there. I just think that we have to face the reality that Chris's destiny might have been just to come here and warn us about Wyatt, and that's all," she explained. We heard a noise from behind me and I turned to see Chris there leaning against the doorframe like I had a minute ago. I didn't even notice him orb in. Phoebe apologized.

"No, it's okay. I've actually been wondering the same thing," he responded.

"What?" I whispered, not wanting to hear this. If he was giving up then there really was no hope.

"You have?" Paige questioned at the same time, I thing drowning me out.

"Yeah. I've had the strangest feeling, like, I don't know, it's really hard to explain. But it feels like I'm, I'm floating, like I'm not really here, you know?" Chris told us. I didn't need Phoebe to say that wasn't good, I could already tell.

"Well, you have to fight it, we still have time," Paige commanded. I think I was still in shock that Chris had given up to really say anything. The scrying crystal started spinning out of control on the map which Paige said she had never seen before. Phoebe suggested that it might mean that there was more than one demon. The sisters ended up leaving to go deal with the potential multiple demons with Paige telling Chris to finish the potion.

"Jenny," Chris said when they left. I turned away. I couldn't deal with this, not now, not ever.

"I can't lose you Chris, and I defiantly can't deal with you just giving up," I threw over my shoulder. He came up behind me and held me loosely.

"I'm sorry," he whispered in my ear softly. "I promise I won't stop trying till I can't anymore," he told me just as softly. I relaxed and leaned back against him, memorizing the feel of him. My heart hurt at the thought of him no longer being here. A part of me knew that I would have to anyway but I didn't want to think of that.

"You need to finish that potion," I reminded him reluctantly after a moment. He agreed and went to work in silence while I sat down.

"Buffy," Chris murmured a bit later. I looked up and mu heart dropped at what I saw. I could now see right through Chris' left hand. We looked at each other not sure what to say. We were saved from trying to when we heard Phoebe's and Paige's voice. Chris gave me one last look that walked down to see them. I took another breath then got up and followed him at a much slower pace.

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I hadn't said a word since Phoebe and Paige had returned. Piper and Leo had disappeared in the fight which made the probability of Chris being conceived even less. I watched as Chris' whole body slowly went see through and I had to block my emotions completely to stop myself from breaking down. The girls were smart enough to let me have my space which is why I was sitting on the stairs outside the attic, staring at nothing while the sisters tried to come up with how to save their sister.

I saw Chris coming up the stair so stood up. He stopped in front up me. He whispered my name and I felt a tear run down my face. He went to wipe it away for me but his hand ended up going through my check which didn't help at all. Chris put his hand back down and we walked into the attic in silence.

"Sorry, I don't mean to be pushy but..." Chris told the girls. They looked shocked at his appearance. Paige joked that he didn't look so good but they did a spell to call for their sister. When they finished Chris disappeared.

"Chris!" I shouted. I looked to the girls. "Please tell me that was what the spell was supposed to do." I begged.

"Of course it was," Phoebe answered but I could easily tell she was lying. Chris reappeared which gave me a short amount of relief.

"What happened?" I quickly asked.

"I just saw Piper and Leo," he said. Phoebe quickly told him to ask Piper what to do.

"Don't give up," I pleaded as I saw him disappear. Once again he reappeared but he seemed even more invisible this time. He was just able to tell us that his parents thought that someone made a portal for the darklighter to get through before two darklighters interrupted us. The two sisters threw a potion at the demons, vanquishing them. Phoebe said something about Piper but I was too focused on Chris who was slowly disappearing.

"It's too late, and not just for Piper and Leo. Take care," Chris told them then looked at me. "I love you Jenny," He whispered before completely disappearing.

"Chris!" I yelled. My vision blurred. "Chris!" I felt myself fall to the floor and the girls rush to my side. "Please Chris," This time even I could barely hear my voice.

"Buffy, I'm so..." Phoebe started but I interrupted.

"Don't!" I demanded. "We'll get him back. We will get him back." The problem was I didn't know who I was trying to convince.

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Paige orbed us to magic school so that we could talk to Gideon. As soon as we got there I stepped away from the sisters not being able to stand the contact. Gideon walked in and greeted the girls who gave him an edited version of what was going on. Gideon ended up giving them a book to reverse the portal.

"Buffy, we'll be back soon," Paige said to me but I didn't answer I just stared at the floor in front of me. I felt them orb out and saw from the corner of my eye that Gideon was coming to me.

"Buffy? So you're the famous Slayer," he said to me. "I'm very sorry for the loss of your whitelighter." I just nodded. He made some excuse and left. I leaned against the wall and slide down to the floor. I was wedged between a table and a bookcase and there was another table in front of me so I don't think anyone would have seen me. I curled into a ball and silently sobbed and cried myself to sleep.

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When I awoke to the feel of familiar sheets and a familiar hand moving a lock of my hair out of my face. I slowly opened my eyes not even hoping to dare what I was thinking.

"You're not real," I whispered. Chris smirked at me from his seat next to his bed in his room at Sophanisba's place. I lifted my hand to touch his face. I needed to check. When I felt flesh I felt tears start to form in my eyes.

"I'm real, Jenny," he promised. "I'll never leave you."