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Chapter 25

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A couple of days had passed, and things were not looking up for the club. Instead of going after they guys, they had gone after the women. For some reason, they had left Savannah for last, and that worried them the most, especially Juice. As if getting Cherry out of the country wasn't hard enough. They were hoping them not questioning her was a good thing. Juice was still on edge about it though. Even as he laid in their bed with her sleeping peacefully in his arms, he was worrying about it. On the upside, she had finally gotten through the night without waking up screaming. Maybe things were finally starting to look up for them, if not just a little bit. He wanted nothing more than to put this past year behind them, bury the lies and secrets and all of the hurt, bury it where no one can find it.

He looked down at the sleeping Savannah in his arms, giving her a weak smile as he kissed her head. He was running his fingers through her hair, just watching her sleep. He wished it didn't take almost losing her to realize that he loved her. He still hadn't actually said it to her yet, but he was taking baby steps to getting there. He was just lucky enough that she believed him when he told her he didn't sleep with that girl. He couldn't help but wonder if losing the baby was god's way of punishing him for lying to her, for cheating on her. If it was, he wished that he could have found another way to do it. Savannah didn't deserve to pay for his mistakes. She was the last person who deserved any of this pain.

She deserved a lot better than him. She deserved someone who wouldn't lie and cheat on her, for one thing. She especially didn't deserve that from him. He tightened his grip around her waist, needing to feel her against him. He was being selfish, he knew that, but he couldn't lose her. He needed her to keep him grounded. The life of the club would get hectic sometimes, and he needed her to remind him that he wasn't god, that things do have consequences. He was learning that the hard way this time. He just wished that learning this didn't have to cost him Savannah. He wanted to know why life was cruel enough to give her to him, make him love her, only to let him lose her with one mistake. Granted, he hadn't lost her yet, but he knew with one slip of the tongue, or if one person made a point of telling her, like Jax or Half Sack, he was screwed.

She would leave him in a heart beat if she found out that he, not only cheated on her, but he lied to her about it too. He had the chance to come clean about it, and yeah, he would have lost her then, but he now knew that he would have won her back. That baby would have been his chance to redeem himself to her, but now that chance to come clean and the baby were both gone, taking his relationship with Savannah away with them. He was holding onto her with the skin of his teeth. He was trying to keep hold of her as tightly as he could. He didn't want to lose her, and that much was clear. He needed her, and he hoped that she knew that at least. He wanted her to know he loved her too, but he wasn't ready to tell her yet. He couldn't even say it out loud to himself. He was just hoping he wasn't too late to say it to her at all.

"Juice?"

He flinched, startled by her voice, and looked down at her. She was looked up him now, rubbing the sleep out of her eyes as she looked at him confused. He was still running his fingers through her hair, now subconsciously doing it. "You okay? You looked like you were seriously thinking about something." she asked up to him. She pulled the sheet around her chest and she laid up beside him. He looked down at her, trying to hide his pained expression from her. He felt even worse when she reached up and stroked his cheek. "Hey, what's going on, Juice? You can tell me." she told him as she touched him. She was worried about him, and he knew that she had a right to be. He was starting to crack, and she could see right through him, even when he wished that she wouldn't.

He leaned into her touch, needing to feel her skin against his. He needed to know that she was still here, that she hadn't left him yet and she was still here. He needed to know that this wasn't just a dream. He surprised her by pulling her onto his lap. "Do you promise, no matter what happens, that you won't leave me?" he asked her, the worry loud and clear in his eyes as he looked up at her. He was subconsciously running his hands up and down her legs, unknowingly affecting her. He just needed to hear her say that she wouldn't leave him, even if he knew she would if she knew what he did.

She could see that this was really bothering him. She leaned forward, pressing her lips against his. He didn't hesitate to kiss her back. They lips moved in sync, moving slowly against the other. The kiss was slow and gentle, unlike how their kisses usually were. She pulled back after a second and rested her head against his, smiling at him as their eyes locked. "I don't think I could even if I wanted to. I care about you too much." she told him, still not fully understanding that this meant more to him than he was letting on. He gave her a weak smile before pulling her back into the kiss. She smiled into the kiss as he pulled her closer to him, deepening the kiss as he cupped her face.

His hands slipped under the sheet wrapped around her, running up and down her frame as he pulled her against him. She sighed into his mouth from his touch, gasping as he entered her for the first time. His mouth left hers and left a trail down the curve of her neck, nipping at the top of her breasts. A moan left her lips as he thrusted into her again. She grabbed onto the head board behind him, keeping her eyes on him as she grinded her hips against his, picking up the pace he had started. He groaned, letting his head fall back as he pulled her more against him. "S-Sav, do-don't stop." he moaned as she quickened the pace slightly. Her name slipped from his lips as he kissed her neck, causing her to giggle.

She started kissing his neck, nipping at the skin as she started to kiss down. His eyes rolled back as she started kissing his chest, still moving downward with her kisses. His breathing hitched as she got lower. "Sa-Sav, what are you, ah, yo-you doing?" he asked her, or at least, attempted to. She just shook her head as she continued to kiss down his abs, kissing each on with just as much affection as the last. He groaned when she finally got to where she was going. He jumped, not expecting her to do that. His jaw dropped as a moan left his throat, his body convulsing as she continued. "Oh-oh god, Sav." he moaned as he gripped the sheets tighter in his hands.

He could vaguely hear the door being knocked on, but he didn't want her to stop. He tried to ignore it, but he knew that she could hear it to. He groaned when she started to pull away. He was quick to grip her hair, keeping her in place. She giggled, but didn't move. "They-they'll go away. Don't, ah, don't stop." he groaned, letting his eyes close as he sighed. The knocking continued, but he just kept ignoring it. He just wanted to finish this. He didn't want her to stop, he needed her. "Tha-that's it, baby." he said out breathlessly as she continued. She had done this before to him, but something about this time was different. He didn't know what it was, but he wasn't complaining either.

"J-Juice?"

He felt his heart stop. His eyes snapped open as his eyes darted to the doorway to their bed room. Standing there was Savannah, who wore a horrified broken hearted expression on her face. He found himself confused and slowly shifted his eyes down to who ever was going down on him. His eyes widened fearfully when the girl lifted her head up. She was no longer Savannah looking back at him, but instead she was the girl from the other club, the girl he had cheated on Savannah with. "Still want me to keep going, baby?" she purred up to him. He couldn't do anything but scream.

Juice shot up screaming in his sleep, his body covered in sweat as he was breathing heavily, his eyes frantic as they looked around. He flinched when Savannah touched his arm, looking at him with worried eyes. He was jumpy, that much was clear. She just didn't know what had freaked him out so much. "Hey. Hey, it was just a dream. Juice, baby, it was just a dream. I'm right here, you're safe."she told him as she stroked his cheek, trying to give him some sort of comfort to calm him down. She didn't know what was wrong, but she could see that what ever he had dreamed about, had really freaked him out.

It took him a minute before looking over at her, his breathing still shallow as he tried to catch his breath. He was still freaked out by his dream, that much was clear to them both. He didn't know if this was another dream or real. He pulled her to him, wrapping his arms around her tightly. He needed to feel that she was real, that this was real, and that it wasn't a dream. "Don't leave me." he said into her shoulder as he held onto her more. She didn't know what was going on, but she didn't care. She wrapped her arms around his neck, holding onto him while she buried her face in the crook of his neck. She whispered soft nothings to him, reassuring him that she wasn't going anywhere. "I'm so sorry, Savannah. So sorry." he actually cried into her shoulder, taking her by surprised. Whatever he had been dreaming about, had really hit him hard.

She was curious to know what he was sorry about though. She wasn't sure if he meant it to be for something he did or whatever the dream had been about. She was still curious none the less though. "I forgive you. Whatever it is, I forgive you, Juice." she told him, though she wished she knew what she was forgiving him for. She knew better than to ask at the moment though, not when he was like this. Right now he just needed her to hold him and tell him that everything was going to be alright. He clung to her, just needing to keep his hold on her. He never wanted to let go of her again. He couldn't risk it. One wrong move, one wrong word, and she'd be out of his life forever. He just couldn't risk it.

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After Juice had fallen back to sleep, Savannah slipped out of their bed and put on her robe before leaving the room. She was hoping that he wouldn't wake up again, and she was now glad that he was a really deep sleeper. She went into the kitchen after grabbing the house phone and hopped up onto the counter. She dialed a number and held it to her ear as she listened to it ring until someone picked up. "Hey, big brother. I was hoping you could spare a few minutes for your baby sister. I'm bored and Juice is fast asleep." she said into the phone to her brother. She knew that wasn't the real reason she had called her brother, but she was pretty sure he knew that too. Jax could always read her like an open book.

"Hey, Sav. What's going on? Juice boring you or somethin'?"

She couldn't help but laugh at that. Juice was anything but boring to her. She liked having him around, she felt safer with him. She liked knowing she wasn't the only one in the house, especially at night. She really liked having him hold her too. She felt like nothing could touch her while he held her. "He's not boring me, Jax. He's just sleeping. He woke up screaming a little while ago." she told him. She bit her lip, wondering how much she should tell him about it. She shook her head, she could trust her brother. "Hey, um, you would tell me if Juice did anything to hurt me, right?" she asked him, hoping to god that he'd tell her that he would. Not that she wanted to believe Juice could hurt her, but she liked knowing that her brother had her back.

"Yeah, Sav. I got your back."

She was a little nervous with the fact that he had hesitated with saying that, but she was going to trust him on this. He hadn't let her down before, why would he start now? She knew that she could trust her brother. He was her brother after all, she just had to have faith that he would put her first before the club when it came to Juice. "Thanks, Jax. You're a good big brother." she told him. She was still hesitant, but she felt better knowing that her brother had her back on this. "Anything for you, Sav. I'll talk to you later." he said before hanging up. She hung up after he did and took a deep breath as she put the phone down beside her. She looked up, hoping to god that she wasn't going to get played.