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Bella's POV

Suddenly, everyone was rushing around. I... I couln't think. I couldn't speak. I... I had to sit

down. I felt empty. That hole in my chest, the one from when Edward left, it was back. My baby

was gone. I could barely hear Edward's cussing even though he was pacing in front of me. I felt

invisible.I felt like nothing. I could barely walk to the couch. I walked slowly... and then the floor hit

my head.

Suddenly, I was sitting on Edward's lap on the couch. He was whispering to me, "Shhh. It'll

be okay. We will go get her."

I couldn't respond. I couldn't do anything I had no control. I was on the couch lying down;

Edward had resumed his earlier stance and was once again pacing around the room muttering

curses.

"When do you want to go?" I could hear Emmett ask. Go where? I couldn't register

anything in my brain.

"As soon as possible. We just need to bring some stuff and pack up the car," Edward said.

The whole family was involved in the planning of bringing Nessie home. Everyone was loud and

walking around packing and preparing.

"Stop!" I screamed. "Stop! Stop! Stop!"

The room froze as I began banging my hands against the couch. She left, so I had to fight

for her. I owe her this.

"STOP!"

Edward rushed towards me and tried to comfort me but I pushed him away.

"Let her go." I whispered though I knew everyone could hear me. That's when I allowed

Edward to cradle me. Dry sobs wracked through my body, shaking me.

"Just let her go," I cried.

"What? Why?" I heard Rosalie say.

"Just let her go," I heard Esme say; supporting me, "She will come back when she is ready."

As I began to control the sobs I said "If we search for her we either will never find her or we

will find her."

"We want to find her!" Emmett roared.

"If we find her and force her to come home... she'll just try to leave again. Or she will hate

us for forcing her home. She needs this." I said softly.

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Nessie's POV

We were on a plane. I couldn't believe we had actually done this. All I kept picturing was

my parents. They way they would look when they found the note. They would all follow me and

force me home. I kept looking behind me even though we were on a plane and there was no way

they could be on it. Jake was sleeping next to me. I could feel his snores and when I looked at him,

my problems melted. All the problems created were worth it when I saw his sleeping face hovering

over me. My face was cradled in his chest. It was paradise smack dab in the middle of hell. The hell

I created when we left was worth it because of the paradise I can have with my Jake. We will go

back eventually, but for now we need to start our own life. I am technically eighteen I can get a job.

Waitressing would be nice. A small cafe somewhere outside of the U.S. Jake could fish or

soomething. We could buy a small little shack on the beach. I wondered for a sec if we would get

married. Maybe now maybe later. It doesn't matter. We have forever.

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Edward's POV

I couldn't believe Bella told us to let her go. To let our baby go. With Jacob. Damn.

Bella is still not doing too well. She has layed in bed for a full 24 hours now. She won't talk. She

won't shower. She won't do anything. She has no emotion. I am... I don't know how to help her. I

don't know how to feel. I feel sad; I miss Nessie. I feel mad that she left us. I feel useless; nothing I

do helps Bella. I feel restless; I want to drag Nessie back to us. But, I know Bella is right. Nessie is

just like me. She needs time. I did the same thing. I rebelled against my family. Then, what 90

years later? I left Bella so that she could be happy. That's why Nessie left, so Bella and I could be

happy. Nessie didn't realize that now we need her to be happy. I have no heart but without Nessie

that hole has grown bigger. I miss my daughter. I need my daughter.

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Nessie's POV

We knocked on the door.

"Hello?"

"Hi Dad," Jake said.

"Jake, Nessie. What a suprise," Billy said letting us into his house.

"Umm.. Dad... We have a problem," Jake said turning to his father.

"Oh god! You aren't pregnant? Are you?" Billy asked.

"No! God no!" I said as Jake looked at me, his eyes filled with sadness for the baby that

could never exist.

"Dad. Nessie she can't uh..."

"I can't have kids," I said. It was better to be blunt.

"Oh! I am sorry," he said awkwardly.

"Don't worry about it," I said, "Umm... well the reason we are here. Well, we... we ran

away."

"Jake! Damn! What were you thinking?" he said.

"It was my idea!" I said.

"Dad, we just need a place to crash for the night. Tomorrow well, I don't think we should

tell you where we are going. Just in case you know."

I thought of Daddy.

"Okay. I might regret this in a couple days though. If you two are here can you atleast go

and see Charlie. He was a little upset that he didn't really get to see his grandaughter last time she

came to town."

"I am not sure that's the best idea Dad." Jacob said.

"We will go visit him," I said. I wanted to say goodbye.

"Are you sure?" Jake asked turning to look at me.

"Yeah. I don't know... when we will see family again. It would be nice," I said. I felt guilty for

dragging him into my rebellion.

"I want to be here with you," he said softly. He can read my mind better than my father

can.

"I'm gonna go... uh set up your bed," he said to us, obviously not trying to interrupt our

moment.

"I love you," I told Jake as he led me to the couch and placed me on his lap.

"I love you too. That's why I am doing this," he joked.

"Thank you," I said, my tone turning serious.

"Wherever you go, I go babe," he said smiling.

I kissed him. He turned me around so I was straddling his waist. I opened my mouth and

his tongue poured into mine. Our breath was heavy as our tongues twisted into each other.

"Ahem," Billy coughed. Jeez, we have no self-control. People have to interrupt us A LOT!

Jacob laughed as I got off of him. My face turned red.

"Sorry," I said to him. Billy just smiled. I think he was happy to see Jake so happy and in

love.

A little JxN fluff! Hope you liked this chap! It's a little sad, but it's good! I am gonna try and update tonight or tomorrow! Please read and review! Happy Holidays!