Ok I want to warn you that this is a bad chapter, so grab the tissues before you start. I broke this chapter up, because I am going to do it from Adrian's POV. So make sure you review and I will post the next chapter.

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His lips were not as I remembered not that I thought they would I just didn't think it would be this bad. They were cold, hard, and demanding. His tongue traced my lips attempting to gain access into my mouth but I refused to give way to his demanding tongue. I could feel when Adrian walked, my heartbeat speed up and I had to fight with all of my might not pull my body from Dimitri and run to Adrian and wrap my arms around him and tell him how much I love him. But I knew that I couldn't so instead I pulled Dimitri further into the kiss opening my mouth allowing his tongue to enter and letting out a soft moan. It sounded so fake to me but I was hoping Adrian wouldn't notice. I had to use all of my self will not to bite his tongue off when he shoved it down my throat, but I was doing this for Adrian. I would hurt him to keep him alive.

"Get your hands off of her" Adrian hissed his voice growing louder as he got closer. I broke the kiss off turning toward him and placing my body between Dimitri and Adrian. I knew that Adrian wouldn't do anything that would put me or the baby in danger and I was just hoping that Dimitri would do the same.

"Adrian" I said my voice weak because I was breathless from the worst make out session ever.

"What is going on here Rose?" he asked his eyes pleading for me to tell him it was all a mistake and as much as I wanted to I couldn't.

"What does it look like we are doing?" Dimitri said, I didn't have to look at him to know he was wearing a smug smile on his face. What I wouldn't give to whip that smile off of his face with my fist.

"You shouldn't be here" I said when I felt like I could control my voice and not give away what I was truly feeling.

"What the hell is going on? Rose what has he done to you?" Adrian asked his eyes searching mine. It was the first time I actually looked at him and I could see that he was running on little to no sleep. The dark circles under his eyes were clearly visible, his eyes that use to shine that beautiful green seemed to have faded to a dull green. His face seemed to have sunken in and I was assuming it was from not eating.

"Like Dimitri said what does it look like we are doing, I think it was pretty clear. And he has done nothing to me that I didn't want him to" I said not recognizing my own voice. It was so cold and distant but the words had the effect I was looking for. Adrian's face dropped his eyes broke from mine and blinked back tears that were now forming in his eyes.

My arms started to reach forward wanting to comfort him when Dimitri grabbed them pulling them back toward my body before Adrian looked back up.

"Rose I promise I am going to find you before he can force you to do anything else. I am so sorry this has happened" he said ignoring Dimitri completely focusing solely on me. The sudden movement in my stomach caused me to flinch and break eye contact with Adrian.

My hand reached protectively over my stomach where the baby had kicked. But this kick was not like the one that I got when Dimitri touched me but the way she always responded to Adrian. I couldn't help but smile a little knowing that she recognized her daddy. But that smile quickly faded when I realized that unless I found a way to get away from Dimitri this baby would never get the chance to meet her father.

"How is she? How is our baby?" Adrian's broken voice asked. My eyes snapped away from my stomach back to his.

"Our baby is doing great" Dimitri growled wrapping his arms around my stomach covering mine. I looked up at him and smiled. "Yes she is" I said feeling my heart rip into two.

"Little Dhamphir please tell me why you are doing this" Adrian said taking a step closer. I knew the closer he got the more danger he would be in.

I moved my eyes back to Adrian. "Because this is what makes me happy. Being with you was nice, it was fun and easy. You gave me something Dimitri never could and I can never thank you enough for that gift but now that I know Dimitri can accept this baby as his own my life feels complete" I hissed my lies at him. I wasn't sure if I was breaking Adrian but every word that came out of my mouth tore a piece of my heart, body, and soul away and I began to fear that once I was done there would be nothing left.

"You are lying" Adrian pleaded. "You would never put our baby willingly in danger for anyone not even the love of your life whether it be me or him" he sobbed pleading with me with his eyes to give him some clue this was all fake and I didn't mean a word I said.

Instead I tightened my face and continued to destroy him with my words "It has always been him, when I would lie in bed with you at night I would think of him. When I felt your arms around me I would picture it was Dimitri pulling my body toward his. When Dr. Olendzki told me I was pregnant I wished that it was with his child not yours. I don't know how else I can tell you that I am grateful that you were able to give me this child but I don't love you" I said earning a very hard kick from the baby. I let out a slight hiss and grabbed my ribcage rubbing where she had landed a very hard kick.

"You never loved me? It was all a lie, some game to try and get over Dimitri?" Adrian asked slowly his face started to change from anguish and pain to anger.

"No I never loved you but you were a good distraction until I could get back to where I belonged" I said allowing no emotion to seep through.

"You are just another blood whore, what did you think that if you couldn't have him I was the next best choice. What with my name and money you would have it made" he yelled his eyes burning into mine. Yes get angry because if he was getting angry that meant he was believing it and if he believed it he would let go and move on.

"Yes, I figured it wouldn't take long for you to propose. The baby threw me for a loop but once I got past the fact that she was part yours I grew to love her" I said letting my eyes glance down to my stomach because if I looked at him for another second I was going to break down.

"I am tired, you know how I feel so I ask that you leave my dreams alone. I don't get enough sleep as it is I don't need the little that I can to be interrupted by you or to be restless trying to keep you out" I said letting disdain fill my voice.

"You won't have to worry about ever seeing me again" Adrian hissed at me. I glanced up to see his fist bawled up against his legs the look on his face was full of hate and disgust. The same look I would have on my face as soon as I got in front of a mirror. "My aunt was right you were and never will be good enough for me. Enjoy your life with your dead boyfriend and bastard child" he said before slipping from the dream completely.

I stood in shock letting the words sink in. As soon as they did I jolted up in the bed running for the bathroom. Slamming the door shut I hunched over the toilet throwing up everything that I had in me. Tears stained my cheeks and my heart felt like it was trying to get out of my chest because it was so disgusted by me too. I sat down leaning my head on the toilet letting the tears flow freely. I cried for the words that I said, the pain and anger I had caused him. I couldn't be mad at what he said, he was right I was never good enough for him but him calling our child a bastard tore the last thread that keep my bleeding heart together causing a wound so big I wasn't sure I could survive it or better yet if I wanted to. Because laying against the toilet I didn't want to do anything but die, that was until the baby kicked and the realization came that I had to stay alive for her. But the small reminder of my miracle sent another wave of pain through my chest and caused another sob to break from my chest.

"Roza" Dimitri said knocking on the door.

"Get the hell away from me. I gave you what you wanted, Adrian hates me now. The least you can do it let me grieve for what I have lost in peace" I said kicking the back of the door to let him know he was far from welcome in this bathroom. I heard his footsteps retreat away from the door.

Closing my eyes I took a deep breath in and let my mind slip into Lissa's I wasn't going to allow myself to do this but I had to make sure he was ok and that our friends and family were there for him.

LPOV

"We should go after him" I said the look on Adrian's face was beyond broken when he opened his eyes again before running out of the gym.

"Give him a minute" Oksana said standing up next to me to prevent me from following Adrian out the door. We were currently back at the Academy, after the guys caught a few Strigoi they were able to get some information as to where Dimitri was taking Rose. Just thinking his name made me see black, I tried to will that anger in knowing that my emotions effected Rose more than she ever let on. Thinking about her alone with a monster almost nine months pregnant, I couldn't imagine the terror she must be feeling but she was so much stronger than me in so many ways. I felt my eyes start to tear up, wishing and praying that she was ok.

"He has been strong for me, I need to be there for him" I said trying to shake my arm free.

"Lissa listen to me, what I saw in his head was awful and he needs time to deal with it on his own before you go and try to give him comfort, that I am sorry to say I don't think will work" Oksana said her voice gentle but stern telling me she wasn't going to let go until I agreed to give him space.

"Fine, but at least tell us what happened that has him this upset. And how he got into the dream, we have been trying for days now and she keeps blocking us" I said sitting back down on the chair that had been brought into the gym since that was were we had the search party stationed.

It surprised me how many people were looking for Rose, but then again she was engaged and pregnant with a royal and not any royal but the Queen's favorite nephew. Although Adrian used compulsion on the Queen to get the initial help she was now offering it freely. Well I guess I can't say freely when Adrian and I both told her we would make a move to remove her from the thrown if she didn't assist us in bringing Rose back. Then Abe had hired over a hundred people to assist in the efforts and Sydney was now using her sources to help. After all it didn't surprise me she was loved and respected by so many and we were all determined to get her back.

Oksana started speaking and I returned my attention and focus back to her so I could hear over the loud chatter of everyone that filled the gym.

"I am not sure how he got in but there was little to no resistance so I don't know if she was preoccupied and didn't put it her barriers, but I have a feeling she did what she did on purpose" She said quietly not wanting everyone to hear our conversation. Christian, Mark, and Eddy moved forward so they could hear her.

"What did he see because I thought he would be ecstatic that he got in and was able to see her. Oh my Gosh is Rose ok, please tell me nothing has happened to her" Eddy spoke up. I know after losing Mason that losing Rose would be just as painful for him if not more.

"Rose is alive and well. I can only get glimpse of what was going on in his head and trust me he has so much I don't know how to interrupt it all. But from what I got Rose told him that she didn't love him and that she was happy to be with Dimitri. She is going to raise the baby with Dimitri and asked Adrian to stop looking for them because for once she was happy."

"Why would she say that?" Christian asked.

"Oh my gosh he has to be using compulsion on her because she would never say anything like that to him. I saw them together, that was not fake" I said. When I saw Rose with Adrian it was like nothing I have ever seen before. Their aura's were so bright and colorful and would constantly merge together. I had asked Adrian about it but he told me that he had never saw two people's auras merge. Since I was new at seeing auras I dropped it there with a little disappointment that he hadn't ever seen Christian and my auras do that.

"There was no compulsion, but that is not what has him so broken. He knew she was lying for whatever reason that seems to be unknown at the moment, but even though he knew it was a lie he couldn't control his anger and said some really hurtful things to her and he can't get back into the dream to tell her that he is sorry" Oksana said looking down at her lap a tear falling from her cheek. Mark moved to her side wrapping his arms around her.

"I think he has had enough time to himself and don't try and stop me" I said standing up knowing that Rose would want me to be there for Adrian when she couldn't be. No one protested and I walked through the doors out of the gym into the cool night. I wasn't sure where he would go but I figured I would check his room first.

I knocked on the door, I wasn't sure why he insisted on staying in his old room all the time but it seemed like every time we came here he insisted that he be given the dorm he lived in while we were still in school. There was even a time that he made another visitor move to a different room so he could have his old dorm. I brought my hand to knock again but he was not answering, I lifted my hand to the door knob and twisted not to surprised that the door was unlocked. I walked in fumbling along the wall until I came to a light switch. I flipped the light on and was mildly disgusted with how dirty the living room was. There was clothes on the back on a chair a small blanket on the couch and a few bottles of water on the table next to a dirty plate.

"Adrian" I called walking past the pile of clothes on the floor and walked toward the bedroom. The door was open so I walked in turning the light on. The room was spotless the covers seemed like they hadn't been slept on. The only thing that was in the room was one suitcase that was leaning against the wall. I walked over to it, realizing that the bag did not belong to Adrian but it was part of a set of suitcases I had bought Rose for her graduation present. I leaned down laying the bag down and unzipping it wondering why he had brought her suitcase. What I saw inside brought tears to my eyes. The bag was full of Rose's clothes, shoes and her favorite monkey slippers that we had bought when we were fifteen. I always made fun of her for wearing them but seeing them now I would give anything for her to be sitting on the bed swinging her monkey feet at me.

I zipped the bag closed trying to get the tears to stop so I could find Adrian. I took one last look at the bag that Adrian had packed her and walked out of the apartment. The night was cool and the sky was beginning to lighten up showing the day was about to begin for the humans and end for us. I thought about checking Rose's old room but I didn't think he would go there, then I remembered Rose always talking about the lake behind the gym. I walked that way and was not surprised when I saw Adrian's stiletto on the ground staring off into the distance away from me.

"Adrian" I called to him so he would be alerted I was there.

"Go away Lissa" he said his voice low and broken.

"Rose would not be happy if I left you out here by yourself. I don't know what happened completely but anything you said to Rose I know she will not blame you" I said kneeling next to him laying my hand on his back attempting to give him some comfort.

"I called her a blood whore and said she was never good enough for me. How can she forgive me for that. She is the love of my life the mother of my child and I called her one of the things she has no respect for. Oh my gosh I called our baby a bastard" he sobbed breaking down bring his head down to the ground, his body shaking as the sobs worked their way out.

"Adrian she loves you no matter what you do or say" I said wishing that I could take away a fraction of his pain.

"It would be better if I didn't know she was lying when she said that she didn't love me, that she used me until she could be back with Dimitri but I knew she was lying I could see it in her eyes no matter how hard she tried to hide it from me I could see it and I still said those awful things to her. I don't deserve her. Her and that baby deserve so much more than me" he said jumping to his feet pulling his body from my gentle touch on his back.

"Go back to the gym Lissa" he said before running toward the darkened woods.

I pulled myself from Lissa's mind, feeling like I couldn't breathe. I shifted my body attempting to reposition myself to get air into my lungs but I couldn't. The tears were pouring out of my eyes my chest was constricting fighting to get oxygen in. Finally a sob that had been building in my chest rose and spilled out filling the silent room with an awful noise that startled even me. As soon as the awful noise stopped I sucked as much air as I could in trying to fill my lungs to full capacity.

I said this would work that he would believe me and move on but all it has done is broken him further. How could he not believe me, my voice was so cruel the looks I gave him so cold and the fact that he had seen me kissing Dimitri. How could he see right through it. Because he loves you and knows you better than you think. How could you not see that this would never work my mind yelled at me.

I rolled my body up as tight as I could get it without hurting the baby and cried. Soon there were no more tears and I laid there on the bathroom floor staring at everything but not actually seeing anything.

The dream was dark like they had been before Adrian started to visit them at the ski lodge. This would be my life full of darkness and void of all the people I love except this baby. When I woke up I was laying in the bed, I had to assume Dimitri moved me sometime in the night, I glanced over my shoulder and was relieved that he was no where in the bed or the room.

I slipped my feet off of the bed and walked toward the door to go into the bathroom. My hand grabbed the door knob but I paused when I heard Dimitri talking. I was assuming he was talking on his cell phone until I heard another voice. We were no longer alone.

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