Note: Someone requested this be from Angela's perspective because they want to understand what she's thinking these days. For the record, I have no idea what Angela is thinking – but it's kind of fun to try to figure it out.

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Title: Yesterday

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I know that relationships end. Friends and lovers come and go. The important thing is to value them while they're part of your life, and let them go peacefully when it's time.

That doesn't make a breakup any easier.

Wendell's a good guy, and I enjoyed my time with him, but I knew I had to end it. It's not like we had a real future together.

Last night, I told him we needed to call it quits. After I got home, I called Brennan. She was at Booth's doing paperwork, but when I told her what happened she insisted we meet for lunch today.

That was fine. I was looking forward to her telling me the anthropological meaning of my breakup over good food. Of course, that was before she called me back, asking if it was OK if we went to the zoo instead. Apparently, Parker had asked her to join him and Booth at the zoo today and, when she said she was going to have lunch with me, Parker told her that I was cool and that I should come along.

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I have to admit that the zoo was a good idea. Fresh air and walking around after a 9 year old is probably better for me than sitting in a restaurant moping.

We wandered through the zoo, admiring the way the great cats moved and marveling at the giant pandas. We watched the elephant training demo and had a big discussion about how dangerous hippos really are. We laughed at the monkeys and visited the Amazonia exhibit.

Parker is an inquisitive child, and Brennan was in her element. She has done a lot of traveling and has dealt with many of the animals we saw in their natural habitat. Parker drank in the stories of her travels. Booth, on the other hand, drank in the sight of Brennan and Parker bonding.

They were pretty cute.

It was a good way to get out of my own head. I mentally captured some of the moments in case I felt inspired to paint them later.

Eventually, we needed a break so we stopped for lunch.

We all lined up and choose our food at the cafeteria-style restaurant. When we all had our sandwiches and drinks (and Booth and Brennan had reached an agreement on whether it was appropriate to buy brownies for dessert), we took our trays to the cash.

Brennan insisted on paying, saying that she had been going to pay for my lunch anyway. Booth protested, claiming that the zoo restaurant was overly expensive. That precipitated what they would call a "discussion". While they talked, I took Parker and we found a rare free table.

While we waited, we talked about the zoo – you know, what we'd enjoyed so far and where we wanted to go next.

Finally, Booth & Brennan sorted out who was going to pay for what and arrived with our food. As we ate, I started to feel like a fifth wheel. It was like I was the outsider – the only one who wasn't part of their little family.

It made me wonder when my life went so off course.

My celibacy project was supposed to let me connect with people in a deeper way – and it did. I started to figure out who I was – just me, without a relationship. The thing is that when I did, I realized just how much I missed Hodgins. As my celibacy project neared the end, my mind was filled with the idea of us, together again. I started dreaming of our kids running into the house covered in mud, ugly bugs in a jar with nail holes punched in the top. I dreamed of family ski vacations and trips to the beach. I started dreaming of romantic evenings with Jack in front of a crackling wood fire.

When I hinted that that's what I wanted and he said no, the rejection was devastating. It wasn't until I'd already slept with Wendell that I realized that I hadn't told Hodgins I wanted him, just that I wanted sex.

Of course, by then it was too late to change my mind. I threw myself into my budding relationship with Wendell and tried to forget about Hodgins.

It worked, for a while. That whole house of cards fell apart when I thought I was pregnant. The kids that I want weren't supposed to happen with Wendell.

Jack was so caring while we were trapped in the lab. I mean, I know it wasn't up to me – or Hodgins – to make decisions about Wendell's life, but it is up to me to make decisions about my life.

Whether I was pregnant or not, Wendell's not the guy I should be with. Being with him when I'm still in love with Jack isn't fair to any of us.

That's why I broke it off.

Sitting in that noisy restaurant watching Brennan with Booth and Parker, I knew what I had to do.

First, I needed to take some time to let the sting of my relationship with Wendell fade for all of us – me, Wendell, and Hodgins. Then, I needed to start over with Hodgins – convince him to forget about our past failure and try for a new future. I needed to do it myself – forget yesterday and move into tomorrow.

I have no illusions that it's going to be easy, but doing what was easy is what's gotten me here.

To get the future that I want, I need to leave the easy behind and go for something far more rewarding.

Wish me luck.

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