A/N: Before you blame me for not updating frequently, I did warn you. And school is crazy! One test after another, it's exhausting! Seriously, do the teachers think we're some kind of geniuses that can take on everything at the same time?
Yet again am I going to look into Caitlyn and her past more. I don't know if it's interesting for you or not, but the thing is, I want to post something, but I don't seem to get any inspiration on continuing the main storyline. And I do need to get out this out of the way before episode 24.
hateme101: Got it ;D But as I said, that won't be before Arc 2.
WildfireDreams: I will try to somehow make that happen, but it's gonna be hard. / Whoa, whoa, whoa. Since when is Near Caitlyn's love interest? o_O I mean, yeah, she cares for him and all, but she doesn't feel that kind of love for him, well, at least not yet...Maybe in the future... But not yet. Sorry if I made the wrong impression xD
Guest: Yushhh! Highfive!
jnk1234: I'll have to thank my friend for that, she did it xD
I do not own Death Note in any way or form. I only own my OCs.
Chapter 25 - Stability
-Caitlyn's POV-
''Ohh, how about this one? It's very pretty and the crimson red would suit you.'' Misa said excitedly as she stopped on a page with a dress for the fifteenth time.
''Misa, please stop.'' I said almost desperately. At the moment I was sitting on a couch near the older girl with my face buried in my hands, that's why the sound was a bit muffled. ''I appreciate that you think all of these dresses would look good on me, but I already told you it is pointless.''
''Of course it isn't.'' Misa objected cheerfully. ''You need to have a nice dress for your birthday!''
''Please, remind me how many times we've went over this?'' I sighed and leaned back, my hands finally falling of my face. ''I don't want to celebrate it. I think I made a good explanation why. I even went as far as telling you my past birthdays.''
''Yeah, I gotta admit, you sure had a messed up past.'' She acknowledged. ''But that's all just a coincidence. By the way, did anything happened on your later birthdays? How about the tenth?''
''Oh, that's easy to tell.'' I trembled a bit remembering. ''I was kidnapped on that day. I think I've already told you what happened next.''
''That's... terrible.'' Misa sounded serious and sympathetic. ''I know how you feel. I've lost my family too.''
''That's why you support Kira, right?'' I suddenly said. ''He punished the man responsible.''
''Yes.'' She said firmly. ''That monster got what he deserved and it's all thanks to Kira. For that I'll forever be grateful to him.'' She paused for a moment, then hesitatingly continued. ''What about your kidnappers? What happened to them?''
''They were also killed by Kira.''
''And how do you feel about it? Do you support him now as well now?''
I stayed silent for a bit and thought. Do I? Every since I found out, I've been thinking about it. But the moment I try leaning to his side, my mind is being over-floated with names of innocent people killed, for example, the FBI agents. That was wrong. He shouldn't kill innocents. No one who does that is good.
But then something else struck me. Even though all those criminals did horrible things, that doesn't rule out the possibility that they had families too. All of them could have had wives, husbands, children. Even if they didn't have any of that, they still had their parents and other people who cared for them. By punishing criminals, Kira probably makes a lot of people happy and grateful, but what about other innocent people who moan and cry for the victims of Kira? They did nothing wrong. They shouldn't deserve to feel that pain. I understand that punishing the ones who committed absolutely horrific crimes is for the best and saves a lot of others, but what about the ones who's crimes aren't so big, like robbery? For that a person doesn't deserve to die. For all we know, he could have needed the money to pay the bills to keep his family fed. Even if it was for a selfish need, for that a person doesn't deserve to die.
''No.'' I finally said after a few minutes. ''I don't. No matter the reason, killing people is wrong.''
''Oh. Well it's your opinion. But Kira punished the people responsible for your parents' death, doesn't that make you grateful to him?'' Misa asked and I could tell she was a bit disappointed.
''In a way, yes. I am grateful for that. But that doesn't mean I started supporting him.'' My tone got a little colder.
''I still don't get you.'' By the sound of it it seems she shook her head and sighed. Yeah, no wonder. For as long as I can remember, no one seemed to completely understand me. I still don't know the reason why...
/\/\/\
The young girl was sitting on the couch near the wall in the waiting room and trembling. She didn't understand what was wrong with her. It didn't feel like she was doing something bad at the time, she never does. But when her parents asked her why she did it, the young girl couldn't explain. When she thought about it, it seemed natural not to do it, it was wrong. But at that time she couldn't understand it. She was just...
The girl would have started panicking with all the stress put together if it wasn't for her younger brother to keep her company.
''I don't understand what happened.'' Rachel sighed from the chair in front of the table with a man in his mid-sixties. ''She has never done something like this...''
''She has always been a good and a nice girl to everyone.'' Michael added. ''After talking to her, do you have an idea why this happened?'' He looked directly at the older male in front of him.
The man with a silver beard and mustache looked through his spectacles to his hands, neatly folded on the dark wood table. He was silent for a moment, then directed his eyes to the worried couple in front of him.
''Yes, I do have a theory.'' Said the psychologist. ''I believe she has a personality disorder.''
The pair looked at him confused. They did not understand what he meant.
''Are you saying she has multiple personalities?'' Michael asked carefully.
''No, not that.'' The man slightly shook his head. ''Let me explain. It's a rather rare disorder. We all try to flex out our characters a bit to blend in with others, that's common knowledge. But Caitlyn has taken it to a whole new level. It would correct to say she doesn't have a stable personality. She... somehow reads other people's energies and changes her personality based on them. She does that unconsciously.''
''But Caitlyn wasn't even surrounded by troublesome people at that time.'' Rachel objected. ''That summer camp was for children similar to her that have different disabilities. I knew most of them, they were good children.''
''Now, here comes the most strange part. It doesn't depend on what kind of people they are. Different ones influence her differently. She could act like a gentle and caring girl when surrounded by criminals, and she could act like a cold person surrounded by nuns. That's probably one of the reasons why she hates being alone. She doesn't understand it, but when no one is around her, she doesn't know what personality to take.''
''But... but Caitlyn always seemed to be mostly the same all her life.'' The father shook his head in confusion.
''That's because she's been around the same people all the time and I could say she had more or less stabilized her personality, but when she got put around completely different people... I still find it strange that she acted so differently than her usual self. By this age the girl should have learned to control it, but I guess not. But with time her personality should more or less stabilize.''
/\/\/\
We were silent for a bit and just sat there. I understood how she felt, but I couldn't do anything about it.
Suddenly I heard a knock on Misa's door. After the girl gave permission to enter, the door opened and I heard Matsuda's voice:
''Lily? Ryuzaki wants you downstairs.''
''Don't tell me I'll finally have something to do.'' I said cheerfully and shot up. ''I was wondering when I'd finally be useful.''
I followed the man out of Misa's room and down the stairs to where all the others were at.
''Lily, I want you to come closer. I have a task for you.'' L said to me from his usual place. The smell of sweetness was already in my throat, but I didn't comment on it. I was used to it by now.
''Finally.'' I clapped my hands happily as I moved closer.
''We've successfully infiltrated the Yotsuba group's main office and now we're going to listen in their conversation.'' The genius detective filled me in on what they've been doing. ''I want you to closely observe their every word and give me a report after.''
''Got it.'' I nodded. ''Don't worry, nothing will slip past me. I can't believe that we finally went somewhere.''
''Yes, we've almost got them.'' Light stated confidently.
After a few moments a new voice that was coming from the computer spoke ''Well then, now that everyone's here, let's commence our regular meeting.''
''But if there's supposed to be eight, why are there only seven?'' Mr Yagami asked surprised.
''Maybe they killed one of them.'' I wondered out loud. ''I mean, that's jumping to conclusions way to quickly, but still a possibility.''
''Yes, it could be.'' L agreed.
''In order to further the growth of Yotsuba group and service it's financial interests, who should we kill next?'' Person A spoke (I'm just going to call them letters for now, since I don't know their names). That made almost everyone present gasp. I was too focused on the tone of the voice to fully register the words. Still, that wasn't such a shock anyway.
''See? It's just like I told you last week!'' Matsuda stated.
''But before that,'' Person A continued. ''There are several topics we need to discuss. First, there's the issue of Hatori's death.''
''Okay, now we're certain they killed him.'' I sighed. Probably just because he disagreed with them.
''That was unavoidable.'' Person B spoke. Okay, he too seems like with much power, similar to person A. ''To be honest, I'm relieved Hatori's dead. Kira has demonstrated that we must be committed to these meetings. We now know what will happen if we tried to leave.'' Alright, this guy went down on the suspects' list. It rather easy to tell by the voice if a person is talking about himself or not, and he doesn't seem like he is.
''I think we all understand what Hatori's death means for the rest of us.'' Person A said again. ''Let's not take it lightly. Now, moving on, our next topic is Eraldo Coil's report.''
''One of their members just died and that's all they're going to say?'' Mr Yagami said shocked.
''It's not surprising really.'' Kamiko muttered. ''It's obvious they all have distant relationships and none of them gives a damn about the others, they just care for themselves. '' Whoa, for some reason she's angered by this. I really wonder why.
''So did we really pay five million dollars for this report?'' Person C said irritated. Five million dollars? Oh wow, no wonder L has so much money. ''I mean, c'mon, he hasn't found out anything important about L like his face or his name.'' For some reason I really didn't like this guy's voice.
By his tone I can tell that he's more laid back than the first two. ''Is this Coil guy seriously going to be of any use to us?'' Wait... Who's Coil? By everyone's silence I could guess that he's on our side. Is he some kind of detective also? Ooh, maybe he's L! I'll have to ask about it later.
''Hold on a sec.'' Person A spoke again. ''There's something really interesting at the end of his report. Coil is warning us that we can't take L's existence too lightly. In particular he says that concentration of killings that are beneficial to Yotsuba will likely be noticed by L if they continue on Fridays and Saturdays.''
...Okay, I seriously need some catching up to do on the case. That's what you get when you become friends with Misa Amane.
''Sounds like this Eraldo Coil has figured out what we've been up to.'' Person D said after a pause. Ohh, he, like persons A and B, sounds confident and serious. Now his voice is really nice, I like it. ''I admit, it's quite impressive. At any rate, I personally think we should stop killing every weekend.''
''This is unbelievable.'' Matsuda breathed out. ''It's like they're trying to confess to everything.''
''Hmm, as long as we have this video as evidence, we could probably arrest all seven of them.'' Mr Yagami said seriously. Ah, but then Kira would never be found. I'd personally wait until I'm certain of who is Kira.
Why do I get the feeling I'm not the only one who thinks that way? Something tells me we'll run into a problem with this.