Chapter 25

Plans

Tanya POV

I perfected my strapless dress that went to the middle of my thigh. It was skin tight and was a dark burgundy color. There were 1 inch strips of black that zigzagged around the dress. I had 6 inch strappy stilettos that were open toed. They wrapped around the front of my foot with several loops and they made my legs look longer because of the 2 inch platform on the bottom of the heel. I flicked my curly blonde hair out of my face and stared up at my mate.

He was pacing around in his room and I giggled at his cuteness. He whipped his head over to me and I flirtatiously wiggled my fingers at him before blowing him a kiss. He nodded at me and then returned to his pacing. I walked up to the house and just as I was about to knock, the door opened. Alice smiled at me and invited me inside, making me smile.

"Tanya, I can't say I didn't see you coming because I did, but what are you doing here?"

I smiled and said, "Oh, I'm here for my date with Edward." I heard the pacing stop above me and I smiled wider.

Alice was thoughtful for a few moments and said, "Edward isn't going to go out. He never does, only to hunt or to be alone."

I bit my lip and said, "Yeah, well that's about to change. Edward is too much of a gentleman to break my heart."

Alice raised her eyebrows and said, "I didn't mean for that to sound rude, so I'm sorry. And he is a gentleman. I am a psychic." I smirked at her and pushed my hair out of my face, grazing her face slightly.

"Well, maybe you aren't as good as everyone thinks you are." I winked at her before heading up the stairs to Edward's room. I stopped in front of the door and knocked enthusiastically. I heard Edward turn around and walk to the door. He opened it and I smiled brightly at him.

"Hi, Eddie!" I closed the distance between us and put my hands on his abdomen, scrunching up his shirt in my hands as I kissed his cheek. He gently pulled my hands from his shirt and he smoothed it down while giving me a small smile and a nod. Ahh, so cute.

"Hello, Tani." My smile faltered and I swallowed back the venom filled words that were about to spill out and suppressed the powerful growl that was making my chest vibrate.

He nodded, "I apologize, but what you feel right now is what I feel when you call me anything other than Edward."

I gave him an understanding look. I kissed his cheek again and grabbed the hair at the nape of his neck. I closed my eyes and leaned forward, but I felt him stiffen in my arms and carefully pull away from me.

I raised my eyebrows, "Too soon?" He stared at me and nodded. I intertwined our fingers together and squeezed his hand before bringing it up to my lips. He slowly and carefully pulled out of my grasp and I gave him a questioning look.

"Tanya, I don't think you understand my feelings for you." I felt my eyebrows furrowing and I tilted my head like I had seen Bella do. I know for a fact that I do it cuter than she does.

Don't you think so, Edward?

He cleared his throat and said, "I'm in love with Bella. And we may not be able to be together, but that doesn't mean I'm going to just forget her. I'm hers for the rest of forever even if we can't see each other."

I titled my head again and gave him an innocent smile, my eyes wide and momentarily blank. He looked into my eyes and I let everything that I felt for him show in my eyes. I saw guilt and apologies swimming in his liquid gold eyes. I felt my dead heart skip a beat and I put my hand on his knee, loving the spark that ran through my body as soon as our skin came in contact.

He shook his head and sighed, dropping his head into his hands. "Tanya, please listen to me." I stared into his eyes and gave him an encouraging smile to continue. He ran his hands roughly through his bronze colored hair and stayed quiet. He lifted his head and took my hand. "I do not think you are my mate." I searched his eyes and smiled at him, making him look puzzled and then even more guilty.

I shook my head and put my hand on his shoulder, "You're just in denial, baby." He sighed again.

"I am in love with Bella. If you want to date me, go talk to her. My heart is hers to do whatever she wants with it. If she tells me she wants me to date someone else, I will date someone else. For now, I'm waiting for her."

I stared at him and noticed he was really concerned about me. "But you feel bad for me."

He cleared his throat again and rubbed the back of his neck, "I don't like hurting you."

I smiled triumphantly, "Then go on a date with me." He pinched the bridge of his nose and shook his head again, and stood up.

I stared up at him and felt my heart melt just a little bit more for him as he nervously fidgeted as a human would. "Bella is the world to me." I nodded seriously, with a small smile pulling up the corner of my mouth.

"But you can't be with her. I can be with you, baby."

He crouched in front of me and I internally struggled with myself. I wanted to close the distance between us, but if I waited for him to make the move, it would feel better when he kissed me.

"I want to be with her, even if I can't."

I tried to nonchalantly brush off the anger that was building up inside of me for that fish.
Edward smiled slightly and then his eyes went distant, "She may be a fish, but her tail is beautiful." He smiled wider and I noticed he wasn't even acknowledging me anymore. I waved my hand in front of him and his eyes snapped to mine.

"Oh, I'm sorry, Tanya. I seemed to have gotten lost in my thoughts." I slowly trailed my finger from his neck to his chest.

"May I ask what you were thinking about?"

He caught my hand in his own, and I smiled when I felt the spark inside. "I was just thinking about Bella." I swallowed the growls and raised my eyebrows questioningly.

"I'm sorry; I thought you said you were thinking about Bella." He nodded and I crossed my arms over my chest, "But you're with me! And we are going on a date. Why would you be thinking about her?"

He put his hands on my knees and I flashed him a genuine smile. "I'm in love with her. It doesn't matter who I am with, I will always be thinking about her. I will always be thinking how beautiful she is in the water, or how adorable she looks when I catch her staring at me. I always think about how she makes it hard to breathe whenever she's around me and I don't even need to breathe. I didn't know mermaids existed, and the fact that she is one only makes me love her so much more because she is breathtakingly beautiful. No matter what happens, I will always be hers. We can't be together and if she moves on, I'll be more than happy to know that she's happy instead of sulking around like I do. And even then, my heart would still be hers. I know she could break my heart, she wouldn't intentionally, but she could. And if she did and asked for me to come back, I would do it in a heartbeat."

His eyes sort of glazed over and he got that adorable smile on his face. He continued, "It kills me to be away from her like this and it rips me apart when I know she's so close to me and feeling the same as me. If I could, I'd take everything back. I'd rather her forget me forever so she wouldn't have to hurt like I do."

I touched his cheek gently and then gave him a soft smile. Seeing him talking about her like that… I felt a deep pain inside my abdomen and I winced. It felt like he just stabbed me in the stomach and twisted the knife. I wish someone would talk about me like that. I swallowed a sob and began thinking about everything and anything but the pain.

His eyes were still so distant. He wasn't talking to me or acknowledging me. He was too busy thinking about Bella. He got up and grasped my hand, carefully pulling me up, "Don't worry. I'm sure you'll find your mate soon and when you do, I will be more than happy to see you happy." He kissed the back of my hand and I found myself leaning forward, completely focused on his parted lips in front of me. I gripped his shirt and pulled him to me, ignoring how he tried to pull away.

Just as my lips were going to meet his, I heard a low thudding coming from outside, "Edward."

I sniffed and opened my eyes when I smelled mermaid. I went to the window and sure enough, a brunette was there. "Edward. Please, I need to talk to you." Edward kissed my cheek gently and I felt my heart break all over again.

"Please Tanya, don't be upset. There is someone out there for you, it's just not me." I nodded and was momentarily thankful I couldn't cry. I bit my lip and swallowed the lump in my throat, feeling it tickle as I bit back the sobs that wanted to shake through my body.

He opened his bedroom door for me and walked me out, giving me a breathtaking crooked smile before leaving with the brunette. I carefully and calmly walked out, allowing my emotions to go completely blank. I ignored Jasper as he stepped forward and made an attempt at comforting me.

I walked out of the house and went back to Victoria. I felt completely numb and I focused on the clicking of my heels as they met the pavement at a human pace. I started to get annoyed and soon enough, I was taking in rapid breaths through tightly clenched teeth, glaring at nothing in particular as I stomped to the warehouse. I started to purposefully add more force to the stilettos that I had just spent $400 on.

I flexed my fingers and lowered my chin so I could glare at anyone who looked at me for more than a few seconds from under my eyelashes. I allowed my hair to create a curtain over my face, so no one could see the tears welling up in my eyes. And just like that, I wished I was human. I want to be able to feel the hot trails that my tears would leave as they slipped down my cheeks. I wanted to feel those same tears leak from the corners of my eyes when I rolled onto my side and clutched my pillow to my chest as I lie in bed. Anything to soothe the ache in my heart.

I composed myself and felt my quivering frown turn into a tight line as I glared. I broke into a run and nearly ripped the factory door open as I entered the abandoned building that Victoria and I had taken as our safe house. I stomped inside, getting more and more irritable as my heels clacked against the tile, echoing throughout the entire building. I snarled and Victoria came out.

"What now?"

I growled menacingly and threateningly, feeling the relief replace a fraction of the anger that was slowly eating away at my coherent mind. I was getting more and more blinded by hate with every single day that I was kept away from my Edward. I glanced up at Victoria and realization dawned on her face.

"So, what do you want to do now? Do we kill Bella?"

I shook my head and she continued, "Do we snitch?" I shook my head furiously, trying to clear it of all my thoughts, which was near impossible considering I was a vampire and had a photographic memory.

Victoria gulped audibly and seemed to hesitate, not wanting to infuriate me further, I'm guessing.

I dropped my head into my hands and closed my eyes, loving the way everything went completely black and allowed my mind to escape reality at least for a little bit. Victoria's throat clearing tore me from my soothing relaxation method.

I huffed and my head snapped up to glare at her, "WHAT!"

She shrugged and repeated what she had said, "I was saying, what would you like want to do now?"

I leaned into the couch and my hands made their way to my hair, making me clutch it roughly and clench my eyes shut as I spit out through gritted teeth, "What do you think we do? We break her." Victoria gave me a smile and I noticed my glare turn into an evil grin. I nodded thoughtfully, "We break her slowly and painfully." I smirked as the most perfect idea popped into my head. Emotionally or physically, I was going to kill Bella Swan. It didn't matter which one. Either way, she'd be gone and Edward would have to turn to me. Edward was going to be mine soon. Bella wouldn't even know what hit her.

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