I had been the entire day nervous, because I couldn't stoop thinking on this dinner. Firstly, it would be just the two of us and not his whole family and secondly he made this dinner look like a big deal. I just hoped there won't be an surprises, at least not an unpleasant one. My mind knew it very well that Edward wouldn't do anything to make me angry right now. He has been trying very hard to win my trust to destroy it with something stupid, but I didn't trust him. That much was obvious. It was very difficult to be near him right not and the path to forgiveness seemed a very long one.

Since Tanya left, I have come to feel better. I didn't have to worry about seeing her horrible face or hearing her malicious remarks. I still can't forgive myself for being so stupid and tolerating her. I just hate it that I was so unsecured and she played with me like that, but I had learned something from this experience. I had learned that there is no place here for weak people. One should use every weapon that has to secure his survival. She had showed to me that just being Princess would give me the respect. I should feel like one to get it. If I don't really believe that I am the princess this will be reflected in my actions and my insecurities will be used from my enemies. There are no small offenses of disrespect behaviors. If you don't prevent it from the beginning, this behavior will continue. I should have done it with Tanya, but I didn't and she continued to do it, because she could see I was week.

I was not pleased with her punishment, because my heart wanted to see her head hanging on the gate of the palace, but there is a time to everything and this is no the appropriate time. If I had asked Edward to behead her, this would have been seen as an act of jalousie. People would see a rancorous woman, who can't keep her own husband and I couldn't tolerate it. She had disrespected me more than once and for that she had to pay. For that she will pay. I had to be intelligent and show my people I was a forgiving woman, who didn't get blinded by her feelings. By not killing her I made Queen Esme own me something. Tanya was her niece and I know that the Queen loved her. About their love I didn't care at all, but I just pretended to care for Queen Esme's fillings. Isn't that what a good daughter-in-law does? Very soon I am going to be the Queen and I am sure Tanya will come back. Edward will be the King and I know very well that as much she loved Edward she loved the power she got though him. That day I will be there waiting for her, but till than I am going to let her head on her shoulders.

Like most of the days I just came form a village. I go there to see if my orders are being followed and to see the construction of the school. This was quite an unique school, because it would be just for the children of the village and not for the rich children. I wanted to make sure that everything would be as good as in the other schools. When I asked Edward about it, he seemed really touched. I think it remembered him Masen. This was his dream. Helping poor children to study. Giving them the chance to be someone. I could sense the surprise in everyone. Even in the people form the villages the happiness and joy was mixed with distrust and surprise. I didn't miss the displeasure in the noble women's face as I spoke for this project. For them this was just throwing money, but I knew that that wasn't the truth. Nobles were just a bit more than ten percent of this kingdom. I couldn't accept to be the next Queen of a kingdom, whose majority of the people can't write their name. I could't be the Queen of people that died every day because they didn't have any knowledge about health and perseverance of it. I wanted they to want me as a Queen and not accept me, because they have no other solution.

After coming from the village, I felt quite dirt and ordered my maids to prepare me a bath. I took a really long one, because I needed to relax and think about this night. The warm water was soothing my muscles so good. Lately I was so tired. I have been moving so much lately to take care of everything that I am totally dead on the evening. If it wasn't for food I would sleep form midday to the next morning. I start washing my body slowly and enjoying the relaxing feeling. The water feels so good that I decide to stay a bit more...

I move my body and hear the splashing of water. Slowly I open my eyes, but it is very dark. My body was very cold and stiff. I can't believe I slept here. Very quickly I try to move but I feel dizzy. I get out of the water and start drying my hair. I go to light a candle because it is very dark. Dark? Oh my God. I was supposed to meet Edward around 7, but now is at least nine. I change quickly into e very simple white gown and leave my room with wet hair and without any make-up. It was so good that his rooms were near mine, so no one would se me in this condition.

I knock on the door and wait for him to open it. I feel very nervous. I had so many planes for today. I wanted to use my best dress for this, but now I am here with wet hair. Way to go Bella scrammed my mind. Thanks God Edward opened the door.

" Oh Isabella!" he looked surprised to see me. Or maybe surprised of the condition you are stupid.

" Hi, Edward! I am really sorry that I am so late. I just overslept." He looked totally lost. He was checking me from head to tow and he didn't understand, why I was coming to him like this.

" You overslept and you have a wet hair?" Ops. It seems that I have to explain to him, how stupid I am.

" I kind of slept while taking a bath." I was so reed. I could feel it. I felt so ashamed. Who does something like that?

" You what? Why didn't your maids wake you up?" Oh, common Edward can you drop this please, I wanted to say to him but better tell him the entire truth, so he stops with his stupid questions.

" I sent them away. I wanted to take my bath alone" The expression on his face was hilarious.

" Isabella, they are there for you. You know that, don't you?"

" Of course that I know it, but I wanted a moment to relax alone. So why are you making it a big deal?" I just want to close this stupid argument.

" Because you may have gotten cold. How much did you sleep in cold water, Isabella?"

" Just a few minutes. Can you stop with the melodrama please? I am hear right now and I apologized for being late. Can we go one right now?"

" Just a few minutes repeated he to himself."

I walk into his room and see the food in the table. It is untouched.

" Oh, you haven't eaten anything?"

" Well, I was waiting for you." He lowers his head as he answers. He does this every time he feels uncomfortable.

" You know I am very hungry. I haven't eaten dinner so we can't let this food go bad, can we?" He smiles and comes to the table. He offers me a chair and than seats just next to me. We eat in silence since I am quite hungry and I don't want to talk right now. In fact I eat a bit too fast than normal and Edward seems to notice that.

" Sorry, It's just that I was very hungry." I say to him after seeing his surprised face.

" Oh no problem at all." I just hope you like the food. It is cold now.

" The food was just fine. If feels so good to eat." That was a weird thing to say. I really have to think before I talk.

Edward was trying very hard not to laugh but in the end he couldn't stop.

" I am sorry, but you are so funny sometimes."

" I kind of deserved that with my stupid comment about food."

My hair are still wet and I feel a bit cold. Edward sees this and grabs my hand and brings us on the sofa in front of the fire-place. Immediately I feel better. I snuggle in the sofa enjoying the warmth coming from the flames. I felt quite childish right now. I turn my heat and see Edward's eyes fixed in me. He seems to study me and there is something in his eyes, that I don't understand. They way he is seeing me right now makes my feel uncomfortable. That's why I turn my head away form him.

" Well, this is a bit different form the night I had in my mind, but is very nice nevertheless." After hearing him I face him again.

" I am sorry to destroy your planes, but I was really tired. I don't know, what is going one with me these days."

" Oh, don't feel bad please. I just wanted to spend some time with you. It doesn't make a difference for me if you have the best dress on and your hair are combed meticulously or if you have this simple white dress and your hair are wet. "

He grabs my hand and looks me in eye "Well, I seem to like the second more. You look really pretty Isabella." My heart was coming out the place and my cheeks were totally reed. I wasn't used to this compliments.

" Is seems like you can't handle so well complements?" He says to me with a smile.

" It is a bit difficult to believe this in the state I am" I was being totally honest. I wanted to kill myself for oversleeping.

He doesn't like at all, what I say. His eyes seems totally dark and angry.

" You are gorgeous, marvelous and totally mesmerizing. Believe me please, when I say this to you. With this beautiful brown wet hair and this gorgeous eyes, you are the prettiest women I have ever seen. I know it is my fault, because I haven't said this enough to you, but now I know my mistake and I will make sure you know it everyday how beautiful you are."

Oh my God my heart was beating so fast. I couldn't even contain myself. I din't know what to do. I didn't know what to say. This had been my dream. My husband and I staying together after a long day. Just we two without the expensive clothes, make-up or our obligations. I had dreamt of our night together like this with wet hair and simple clothes, or maybe even without them at all, when we talk to each other and encourage each-other to be strong and face our duties together. It seemed so surreal after so much time. After I had give-up that dream. After I had accepted that my husband wasn't that man and would never be.

" Hey Isabella, what are you thinking? Why are you so quiet?"

I squeeze his hand in mine and look at him" It is very nice being like this." I would be blind not to see his smile.

" I want to you, to have just like this moments with me. I don't want you to be sad. I want to make you happy Isabella"

" You know, it may seem very childish to you, but I prefer to be called Bella. My family and friends call me Bella. I am Isabella in the court, when I am being a princess. This name remembers me my duty, but Bella it is just me." I wait for his answer. I don't know, what will he think about this. Will he find it childish?

" Ok than Bella it is." He pauses a bit and speaks again. " It sounds really good Bella" he says my name one more time slowly.

" You don't find it strange, do you?"

" There is nothing strange about you. You are wonderful. I can't believe I was so blind not to see , how great you are. I am really sorry. I know that you can't forgive me now, but I win your forgives one day. I promise you it."

"Why aren't you saying something Bella? Please say something to me?" I was on the verge of the tears and I couldn't say anything to him, but I did something very irrational. I hugged him tightly, because I needed some peace in my life. Because after almost one year it was great to hear something good from him. I feel as he hugs me more tightly and cradles my head on his shoulder. I feel his lips on my hear and hear him saying " I promise I am going to make it better, I promise it to you."

I don't know, how much we stayed like that hugging each-other. " Hey Bella, why do you think about sleeping here?"

I didn't want to sleep with him. Not right now. It was too soon " Oh Edward I don't…

" I just meant you to sleep in this bed with me. I remember your condition and I am going to win the right to be in your bed. I just meant, that it would be better if you stayed here. You don't have to go out with a wet head and I can keep you warm." He was begging me with his eyes.

" Ok than, it…

I don't get to finish my sentence, when he lifts my in his arms and brings me to bed. I can't control my giggles and that it great, because I can't remember the last time I giggle…

Hola Amigos!

Tomorrow I have a crazy test with Integrals and statistics, but in stead of learning I saw the indian version of " Romeo and Juliet" "Goliyon Ki Raasleela Ram-Leela" and cried my eyes out and of course I wrote this baby.

Don't forget to leave me some love or hate, whatever you fell.

-E