OMG NEW SAM'S JOURNAL. I'm finally getting more people to read this story and so far they are all addicted. I SWARE THIS STORY HAS MAGICAL POWERS that turns anyone into Seddie. Also I might throw in a twist to make it longer... HEHEHEHEH... Or Sam might DIE! Haha you will have to read and find out... Disclaimer I don't own iCarly or Sam dying (Just Kidding!)

To Mr. /Ms. /Mrs. Anon:

I know you don't like Freddie's POV but we needed Freddie's POV of the journal entries. You're lucky I'm not doing Carly's POV of it all. I'm just gonna... Wait and see. BTW that was the last entry soo you won't have to go through any more of his POV of the journal

Sincerely,

Rachim4

Freddie POV:

I didn't know what to do at that moment... I couldn't sleep all night. The girl I loved might die tomorrow and I might not get to tell her... I have to tell Carly though. I walked over to her apartment and knocked on her door at 2:00 A.M.

She came to the door and opened it rubbing her eyes "Freddie? What are you doing here its 2:00 o'clock in the morning.

I then walked in and said "read this! And bring it back to me tomorrow morning at the hospital when we go see Sam before the operation." I hand her the journal and then say "This was Sam's Journal... She gave it to me right before I left... You have to read it..."

Carly with eyes wide open now says "I will definitely!"

I walked back to my room and plopped back on my bed. My mom walked in and said "Good news I'm working tomorrow and helping with the operation on Sam!"

I then groaned into my pillow and said "Stop reminding me of her dying!"

My mom then sits next to me and rubs my back and she says "You really loved her don't you..."

I then sit up and say "How did you know...?"

She then says "I can tell by the way you look at her... the way she always comes onto your fire escape trying to make things right. She's the only one you have let out there... She loves you as much as you love her..."

Wow I can't believe my mom just said that I then say "It's much more than that mom. We have been figuring out these feelings for a while now and I might never get the chance to be with her if she doesn't make it!"

My mom hugs me and says "Don't worry I'll try everything to make sure the operation goes perfect!"

I then smile and hug my mom. It's been a while since I smiled...

[Next Day]

I woke up at 7:00 to my mom yelling "Hey Freddie don't forget were leaving in 20 mins!"

I then get a quick shower and do my hair. I throw on my t-shirt that says "Special Ham" and a pair of jeans quickly. I walk into the kitchen and my mom is cooking bacon and I decide to put half of it in a giant baggy or Sam if she ever got out okay. My mom then decided I should bring it all to Sam knowing her appetite after the operation she would be starved. I stuffed all the bacon into two giant bags. My mom and I ate half of one bag on the way to the hospital though. We arrive at the hospital and my mom clocks in and goes to check on Sam.

I get a text from Carly saying "ON MY WAY WE HAVE TO TALK! DW I have the journal! – Carls"

She soon arrived 5 secs later rushing in and trying to catch her breath as she sat next to me "WHY DID YOU GUYS TELL ME! ABOUT CALIFORNIA! I feel soo guilty... I didn't know she really loved you till I read this..." She then hugged me.

I then said "What's worse is that I love her and she might die!"

Carly then says "Well you have to tell her... You must or she will never know what it likes to have a guy love her..."

I then sigh and Carly cries on my shoulder and says "WHY DID I HAVE TO KISS YOU IN CALIFORNIA! Why did I have to date you and make-out in front of her!"

I then say "I was a jerk to her... "

Carly then says "No you're not. If you were a jerk she wouldn't love you... Sam has never loved anyone... and it takes a lot to say you love someone... If you believe in your heart that Sam is the one then nothing but your love will help her get through this. Your love will give her hope to live."

She was then cut off by my mom who says Freddie and Carly Sam's awake now if you want to see her before the operation. She looked at me and I knew what she wanted me to do... We both walked in and Carly immediately ran over to Sam and gave her a hug. "Oh my god I am soo sorry Sam for everything!"

Sam then says "Oww... but it wasn't your fault so you don't need to worry. I'm going into operation very soon so I'll be out before you know it."

I then gave Carly the look to leave and she says "Good luck Sam. Remember I am praying for you!" she then exits and I pull over a stool and sit by Sam's side and said "I read your journal last night..."

Sam the looks over at me and says "Oh..." and sorta slouches down... looking sad.

I then say "I know we've been through so much and I just wanted to tell you before you go into your operation that I..." I was cute off by my mom and a bunch of doctors who lifted her up onto a gurney saying stuff I couldn't understand and then I got up ran up to the moving gurney and said "I LOVE YOU SAMANTHA PUCKETT!"

I then saw her smile as she was pushed through the double doors to the operating area. I then walked back out next to Carly and said "She is going to be fine..." I hope...

While Sam was in the operating room I showed Carly the pictures of me and Sam in California to cheer ourselves up. I was telling her every little detail about me and Sam. She was very interested about everything that went on.

A few hours passed by Freddie pacing around his chair and Carly playing More Buffet on the pear pad. (A/N that's a real app that's sooo fun!)

Soon my Mom came in with a straight face. I then ran up to her and say "IS SHE OKAY? ALIVE?"

(A/N I was gonna stop here initially but I couldn't leave you all with such a short chapter!)

My mom then turned her face into a smile and said "She's asleep now but you may see her in a few hours when she wakes up.

I then screamed "WHOOOHOO!" as Carly did the same and I gave my mom a big hug! Carly then texted everyone in her cellphone and 5 minutes later she started getting replies like crazy.

Then my mom says "She will be let out in 4 days and be put in a wheel chair for 2 weeks then crutches for 1 week."

Carly then says "UH OH! How will she get into her apartment! The elevator in her complex has been broken for years!"

Then my mom said "No to worry. I called Pam and told her that her everything and told me about the elevator being broken and I offered to take her in and she said yes!"

I then said "You're not serious mom! Aren't you afraid we might do stuff or that she might give me some tropical disease!"

My mom then says "Since you two love each other I don't think you would want to be broken up because she did something wrong or you both did something bad. If you really loved her you would obey my rules for her sake of her staying there."

I then say "Don't worry mom me and Sam aren't going to do anything... besides she's in a wheelchair what could she do... Doesn't she have to be pushed around everywhere?"

My mom then says "I'm giving her one of those wheelchairs where you can move it with a joystick so she can move places. You can also push it and move it manually."

Carly then said "Wow I thought they only had manual ones!"

I then laugh and say "The power of technology."

Carly then takes me to get a smoothie. I decide to get Sam one just in case she's thirsty. I got her an extra supreme Large, the largest size they have, of the strawberry splat.

Carly looked at it with shock and said "Are you sure she can drink all of that?"

I then look at her and say "She hasn't eaten in two days Carly!"

Then Carly laughs and says "I guess it would be the perfect size for her" we laughed as we left the smoothie place and back to the hospital.

Once Carly and I got to the hospital she got a text from Spencer saying "CARLY! I set the kitchen sink on fire and it won't go out!"

Carly then freaked out "Oh my god SPENCER SET the Kitchen sink on fire I have to go!"

I then look at her confusingly "HOW?"

Carly then said "I don't know! But tell Sam I'll come over tomorrow after school!" as she left the hospital.

I then sat down in the chair and dosed off for a bit since I didn't get any sleep last night. I soon was woken up 2 hours later by my mom who said "Freddie she's awake..."

I got up out of my seat, grabbed my stuff and followed my mom into the room. I almost cried walking in seeing back brace on Sam and her left arm in a cast and her left leg in a cast. She had another cast around her stomach as she smiled.

My mom soon left the room and I walked up to her and pulled up the same stool, to the right side of her bed, and sat on it and whispered "Hey Puckett." brushing a piece of hair away from her face.

She smiled at me and reached up to my cheek and held it "Nub..."

I then pulled out the bags of bacon, her smoothie, and her journal and said "Look what I brought the princess. Bacon, an Extra Super Large Strawberry splat, and your journal so you can write in it while you're stuck in here. Besides soon you'll be stuck at my house with my rules..."

She lightly laughed and punched me and said "ow..." in a faint voice.

I then say "Does it hurt... or did it hurt?"

Sam then looks at me and says "It doesn't hurt and I was asleep when they did it so I didn't feel a thing." I could tell it hurt her because she tried shifting herself but stopped.

I then grab onto her hand and say "Don't worry you'll be fine soon. Carly, me, Spencer, my mom, your mom, everyone that loves you is going to be here to help you every step of the way."

She blushes as I grab her hand as she says "Come closer..." in a fainter tone like she was weak...

I get scoot closer to her and place my hand on her cheek and lean in and kiss her. She kisses back with just as much passion not wanting it to end.

Soon after 15 secs of the perfect kiss she smiled then grabbed a piece of bacon and slapped me with it. "You're a good boy Benson whether I hate you or not."

I laughed and said "Oh yah Carly couldn't make it because Spencer se the kitchen sink on fire but she will be back tomorrow after school. Also I showed her the journal and she read it..."

Sam then said "HOW did Spencer set the kitchen on fire?... WAIT YOU SHOWED HER MY JOURNAL!"

I then flinched back "SORRY! She had to know! You might of died!"

Sam then said "I knew you might show her so thanks... Now GO Mama needs her beauty rest and it's late!"

I laugh and kiss her forehead as I get up and say "See ya Puckett!"

I then turn around and say "Does this mean we're... ya know... together?"

Sam then laughs and says "Hmmm maybe..." she smiles and throws a piece of bacon at him.

I then eat it and say "Taking that as yes" as I walk out and leave.

Sam soon snoozes off holding the bag of bacon.

Sorry it took so long to update I didn't know what to write... Review please!