Chapter 25: Incapable

Author's note: Well first I want to apologize for the late update even though its been a week. By my standards that's too long especially since I haven't been in school for like two weeks. I really have been thinking how I wanted this chapter to go. I know I talk to a few of you on whether Santana confronts Quinn or vice versa and I think this is the best way to go about it. This chapter was originally longer but I thought it best to split it.

The second part is I apologize for the so many mistakes of the last chapter. I obviously didn't read into it much to catch the mistakes so please forgive me.

Also I know funerals are typically in the mornings. I have attended so many I am well aware. But I accidentally didn't realize I wrote funeral instead of wake or service. So I thought I would just go with funeral instead and just work with it. So the funeral will be like a vigil since vigils usually happen at night. I know the way a funeral works but I am changing it alittle. you might not even notice.

Regualar P.O.V

Quinn had just walked out the school. She was so uncertain of everything that had just occurred. Forget the fact that Finn slapped her and he turned out to be a bigoted douche bag. Santana would have told her that. No it was everything Brittney was feeding into her while Santana and Finn fought. A part of her knew that it was probably some misunderstanding or some shit like that. But a bigger part of her, the part that was scared and insecure believed every single word that was said to her. There was an internal war going on inside her head. She was thinking of every scenario that could possibly happen. A scenario of where she ignore what Brittney said and went back to Santana only to find out it was true. A scenario where she went back with Santana knowing it is true and constantly feeling inferior to Brittney. That and so many scenarios ran through her mind. Quinn would always over analyze every situation. She didn't face a problem without a game plan. She would always think from the brain. But this time she was force to think from the heart. Something she was not use to and quite frankly uncomfortable with. I mean thinking from the heart how could she do that. What could she base love on? Her screwed up parents or maybe her past relationships in which she either cheated or got cheated on. Then there is her baby and how she went bat shit crazy to try and get her back from Shelby because she loved her?

She wanted to believe Santana she truly did but there was always that voice that told her not to. That she has lied to you all this time. She could easily lie to you again. But her heart would tell her Santana wouldn't do that to you she said she loves you so believe in her.

Santana's P.O.V

I watched as Quinn walked out the school with purpose. It hurt as if she tore my heart and soul and they were going with her. My knees began to buckle and my legs were shaking. I felt as if I was about to fall to my knees till the laughter of Finn's voice broke through.

"Hahaha Come on Lopez you didn't think she would actually stick with you did you"

"…"

"I mean come on your nothing but trash from the hood."

"And your nothing but a red neck bigoted asshole with a dick the size of your brain douche bag" I finally replied

"Haha she's fighting back really. For what Dyke your girl is gone give it up"

"I love her" I whispered out.

"What was that speak up"

"I love her"

"Your incapable of Love whore"

"That is it" Puck screams out

I don't know what happened next honestly because I couldn't hear anything Puck or anyone else said after that. I felt someone grab my hand and lead me back into the glee room. The person sat me down on a chair and rubbed my back

"San are you okay?" Blaine asks

"I-I don't know Blaine. It hurts. It hurts a lot"

Blaine's P.O.V

When she resorted to using my actually name I knew it was serious.

"Oh San"

"Is it true" She asked me

"Is what?"

"That I am incapable of love"

"Of course not Santana don't you ever think that way. You are loved and I know you are loving"

"But it wasn't enough for Q"

"Santana" I sighed out

"I love her yet it wasn't enough. She said she loves me yet it wasn't enough for her to believe me"

"Santana you know-"

"I should be upset, angry even for this especially since I have don't nothing wrong but I can't help but feel as if I didn't give her a reason to doubt us. I know we have been close for the past few days. But over the months we have been hot and cold and I spent all my time with Britt. Holding hands and holding pinkies would look like something more. I just wanted someone to be affectionate with me and it got out of hand till the point Britt made it a routine and I didn't have the heart to tell her no.

"Santana did you"

"Oh no don't take it the wrong way. I have never kissed nor had sex with Britt. It was all platonic to me but I knew it wasn't the same for Britt. I repeatedly told her that we were just best friends and nothing more but its Britt were talking about."

"Just give her time"

I sat there holding her as she cried out her heart from being betrayed by her best friend and cried over the loss of her girlfriend. I knew we had to head to San's mother's funeral but Santana was like dead weight at this point. Everything outside must have died down cause the glee club walked back in all gossiping around, taking their bags and leaving. Only four people came up to Santana and I. They were Puck, Kurt, Naya and Rachel. Puck went to sit on the other side of Santana while Kurt kneeled down in front of her. Rachel awkwardly stood nearby while Naya came and sat down next to me to whisper in my ear.

"I'm going to fix this then meet you guys at the funeral Okay"

I turned to look at her. I wanted to ask her what good it would do Quinn needs time but the look she gave me told me there was no room for negotiations. I was scared of her walking around in case her father showed up but she wasn't backing down. So I sighed and told her okay. She kissed Santana's cheek and with one last look at San she walked out the door.

After a few minutes and encouraging words from me and Kurt we were able to get her to calm down. Kurt and Rachel don't know about the abuse Santana has endured and now is not the time to tell them. I am not sure why Rachel stayed around. I think its because she feels guilty for what her boyfriend said but either way it isn't on my priority list. After awhile we all file into Kurt's car. Since Quinn was not here Kurt dropped off Rachel with the notion we would speak more tomorrow. Kurt then drove to Quinn's house and dropped us off. I kissed him goodbye and took Santana inside with Puck following us. I knew Kurt wanted more details but when it came to Santana and me he knew to lay back until I agreed to tell him

We walked inside after fishing out the key from the plant that Santana knew it would be and there was no sign that Quinn has come home. Santana got even more depressed and just walked up the stairs to Quinn's room and slammed the door. Puck and I looked just looked at each other and sighed. We then went to the room we were staying in to get dressed for the funeral.

'It is going to be a long day'

Santana's P.O.V

After crying some more once my face hit first on Quinn's bed I got dressed. I borrowed a white button down and put on some fitting black slacks and heels. It was about time to leave and I knew Puck and Blaine would be ready to leave but would be scared to rush me. A part of me hoped Quinn would come home and we would make up or at least she would be there for me today of all days. But neither happened and I was getting upset.

'Why should I be crying I did nothing wrong. This isn't my fault' I thought out loud and left the room.

I walked downstairs to find Blaine drinking some coffee and Puck watching TV. They both heard my reach the last step and looked at me sadly. I guess I should have washed my face before heading down.

"Stop looking at me like that"

"Santana" Blaine says but I cut him off

"Let's go I don't want to be late. No need to make it more of a show then need be. For god's sake they are all going to glare me down no need to be the lesbian who ran late"

"What about Quinn?" Puck asks

"What about her? It obviously isn't important to her so what about her" I force out angrily

I said what I had to say and walk over to Blaine's car that was left here after he first came over. It was a silent trip to the church. No one was willing to cut the tension in the air. I began to shake from the fear of seeing family members who did not like me. I shook from the emotions that dawn on me that I would be in a room with my mother for the first time in years. Even if she was dead she was still there. I shook from the anger I felt towards Quinn and I shook from the loneliness of not having her by my side.

I stepped out the door of the car. I could see they were about to walk inside the church when one of my Aunts or distant cousins looked back and noticed me. After that it was like wild fire as each person whispered in the ear of the person in front of them and looked back at me. I put on my best HBIC face and walked to the front.

The priest must have been acting ignorant or really didn't know who I was because he asked me who I was in relation to Maria Lopez

"I am her daughter"

"Yea right she would have disowned you if she knew. You're lucky your father is nice enough to leave his house open for you" My aunt on my mother's side told me.

For the most part I ignore the banter and derogative words I hear behind me so I could avoid making a scene

"Could we start please?" I ask the priest

I was waiting for him to glare at me or say I am not allowed in the church or something from hearing the words of my so called family. He must have figured out I am a lesbian.

"Of course" Is what he says with a smile. Not what I was expecting but I will take it

He turns around and whispers to the altar servers to begin walking. I stand in front of all my family with Puck and Blaine standing a step behind me. I look to my left and right hoping I see a girl with blonde hair standing next to me but there was no one.

'I guess this was how it was always meant to be. With me being alone'

A/N: All in all it's a decent chapter. Next chapter which I will probably update tomorrow or sometime mid week will be the first Quinn and Santana interaction It focuses on Quinn and how she figures out either if what Santana says is true or not with a little help from someone.