Okay, I know I promised I would be explaining the Andy-thing on this chapter, but things got a little out of hands! I just kept writing fluff, and fluff, and... I was reaching 10,000 words already and I thought the chapter was getting too long. So I've decided to cut it here so you guys can enjoy an update now! I'll save the rest for next chapter, and I'll try to have it finished over the weekend. I promise :)

Thank you for your kind reviews :) I really needed it this time!

P.s. I don't own glee.

Kurt woke up with an overwhelming feeling of warmth covering his whole body. Sebastian was all over him, arms and legs – but the boy looked so obliviously asleep that it was almost cute… Yes, his weight was crushing Kurt, but Kurt was embracing that weight gladly right now.

Mostly, because he was feeling safe. For the first time since they had started seeing each other, Kurt was feeling welcomingly safe. He didn't know what was ahead of them now that they had expressed out how they were feeling, and that, of course, came with a certain amount of risk.

But it was a good feeling of risk: the risk was just themselves, and it didn't seem too scary. For starters, Kurt had Sebastian all over him right now, and the boy was anything but scary from Kurt's perspective; which was Sebastian's right pectoral, actually. Yep, Kurt was enjoying a pretty good view of that particularly spot. It irradiated heat and it looked muscled in a slim way. Sebastian just had a good complexion; his body looked more sculptured than worked out, and that damn tan raised the boy's sex-appeal to ridiculously high levels.

Kurt felt a cocky wave of proud creeping up his chest while looking at it. He smiled idiotically, feeling empowered with the knowledge that he was the one enjoying that tan right now.

Dammit, Sebastian's skin was so close to him that it seemed almost sinful not to feel it, if that made any sense. Kurt could actually feel his own breath hover over the spot, bouncing right back to his own lips. He looked up timidly to check on Sebastian's dozed off expression. Then, Kurt couldn't help but bring his lips forwards and softly press them against a tiny spot of skin, right below a nipple. He also brushed accidentally the tip of his nose against it, and looked up alarmed to make sure he hadn't woken Sebastian up. Kurt sighed relieved – he hadn't.

Kurt run his fingertips with extreme care around Sebastian's side – barely touching him, almost playing. After a couple of minutes, he got a little careless and just couldn't stop himself from placing another kiss against Sebastian's ribbons. This time, he didn't even notice his nose crushed against the skin.

Nothing happened, though, so Kurt felt safe enough to press his cheek against the spot and rest it there, blissfully. Only two seconds later, though, he felt Sebastian's hand coming to lay on his hair, where it started to stroke. Kurt looked up, a little regretful.

"Did I wake you?" he asked on a whisper, locking eyes with an adorably asleep Sebastian, who was smiling lazily at him.

Sebastian nodded tiredly, but his smile didn't fall. He cleared his throat then. "It was a pretty good way to wake up."

Kurt smiled fondly. "I'm glad, then" he whispered, and rested his cheek once again against Sebastian's ribbons, getting a little dozed off too with the combing of Sebastian's fingers on his hair.

"Did I crush you too badly tonight?" Sebastian asked, with a lively tone that showed anything but remorse.

Kurt chuckled. "I can take it" he joked, then raised his hands slowly from Sebastian's hipbones to his arms, caressing gently the skin he met along the way. "I slept wonderfully, though" he breathed out, relaxed and peaceful.

A couple of minutes passed, and Kurt felt himself entering once again an asleep state.

Sebastian went down on Kurt then, to meet his eyes. Kurt's eyes were closed, though, but he could feel Sebastian's emerald and intense stare piercing on him.

Kurt opened his eyes, defeated.

"Hey there" Sebastian murmured, looking quite awake and playful.

Kurt groaned and closed his eyes again, regretting waking the boy up. "You're too energetic in the mornings" he complained, grumpily.

Sebastian chuckled. "And you're a little touchy, but I couldn't be more okay with that."

Kurt opened his eyes again and snorted, meeting Sebastian's cheery expression. It was one of those bright-like-the-sun smiles, like the smiles Kurt had seen on Sebastian's Facebook pictures, and it reached his eyes. Kurt felt a wave of warmth flooding his insides. So he could also make Sebastian smile like that. Hu. Good to know.

"You're still crushing me, by the way" Kurt told him, but he looked anything but pissed off.

"Mm-mh" Sebastian nodded, smirking cockily, and his hand started caressing Kurt's features.

Kurt groaned again, but didn't make the least effort to shake Sebastian off him. He closed his eyes again, softened by the touch of Sebastian's fingertips on his face. First, they were on his cheek, drawing small circles towards Kurt's temples. Once there, they moved to Kurt's eyelids and smoothed them gently. Of course, Sebastian took his time when greeting Kurt's nose, running a finger up and down several times, with true dedication. Kurt smiled, amused. It was Kurt's lips turn then, and somehow Kurt could tell it was Sebastian's thumb the finger which was exercising a little pressure on his lower lip.

Before Kurt could realise what he was doing, his lips had already took charge and kissed softly Sebastian's thumb. He opened his eyes then, a little self-aware, and found a strangely mesmerised Sebastian looking right at his lips. They locked eyes then, for a very brief moment; very brief, because Sebastian's lips were quite quickly on Kurt's own, kissing them softly, as if afraid to be too aggressive for Kurt's asleep state. Kurt was certainly feeling more awake now, though.

He kissed Sebastian back and even wrapped his arms around him, with a mix of laziness and enthusiasm he could not quite decipher. Kurt felt like he had little energy, and yet it felt like Sebastian had enough for both of them. More precisely, Sebastian's warmth was all Kurt needed to be fed with right that moment.

It stopped at slowly as it started, but Sebastian's lips didn't abandon Kurt's face. The boy placed small, effortless kisses all over Kurt's cheek, jawline and temples.

Kurt wondered if his face would be telling how he felt. Because if it was, he could be in serious trouble. He was quite mesmerised and overwhelmed by Sebastian's loving gestures, and he doubted he could hide his fascination.

But he didn't have to… right? Supposedly, last night conversation had been about not having to hide anything anymore. Had it not?

Kurt shook the thought away and realised Sebastian was just observing him now while caressing his chest.

"Kurt?" the boy asked, timidly, and Kurt noticed Sebastian's expression was too self-absorbed right now to have noticed Kurt's mirroring face. He sighed, relieved.

"Hm?" Kurt made, casting Sebastian a small smile. He took a moment to enjoy Sebastian's lingering touch on his chest.

"I just remembered" Sebastian started, and chuckled somewhat nervously, "I haven't given you your present yet."

Kurt's eyes got wide with excitement. On his idiotically asleep state, the word 'present' enclosed a very specific and childish excitement. Then, two seconds later, his brain processed it. It wasn't just any present; it was Sebastian's. "You got me something?" Kurt asked, paralysed.

Sebastian chuckled then, more naturally this time. "Of course I did, gayface" he sat up and grabbed Kurt's thighs. He observed them thoroughly, with an intense stare. Kurt would've got a little self-aware if it wasn't because he was quite used to Sebastian's fierce and suggestive stares. "Mm" the boy made, thoughtfully. Sebastian took his dirty thoughts quite seriously. Kurt smiled, amused. Who knew what was on Sebastian's mind right now. "I got you two presents, actually" Sebastian added, then locked eyes with Kurt and smirked not-so-innocently.

Kurt arched an eyebrow at him, intrigued and cheery. "Did you, now?" he asked rhetorically, and sat up slightly. "May I… see them?" he asked, containing his excitement.

Sebastian bit his lip, considering it. "Maybe a more accurate way to put it would be that I got you a present, only yours to enjoy, and that I got us another present, which will be very much for my enjoyment and pleasure alone…" he smirked again, maliciously.

Oh, here it was again. Sebastian's hungry eyes didn't cease to affect Kurt. "Oh… should I be concerned?" he asked, gulping down nervously.

Sebastian came forwards and shushed him, playfully, then murmured on his ear: "Yes", and bit Kurt's earlobe, teasingly.

Kurt blushed and shivered, unable to focus on anything else than Sebastian's hands on his chest. Sebastian stroked it, very suggestively now. "I can't wait to see how it looks on you…" he murmured, then bit Kurt's earlobe again. One of his hands started running down dangerously fast and soon enough it was caressing the inside of Kurt's thigh.

Kurt remembered he also had two hands then, and slowly brought them to rest on Sebastian's lower waist. He observed Sebastian's abs and kept his stare there, too flustered right now to meet Sebastian's hungry eyes.

"Ca- can I…" Kurt tried to talk but discovered, quite unpleasantly, how dry his throat was. It almost hurt. "… pee first?"

Sebastian snorted and hid his face on the crook of Kurt's neck, unintentionally making Kurt shiver. The boy shook his head, amused, and all Kurt could focus on was the skin of Sebastian's forehead rubbing against his own skin. And how awkward he felt for asking permission to pee. Yeah, that too.

Sebastian dug up his face and locked eyes with Kurt, casting him an 'I-don't-know-what-to-do-with-you' smile. "Sure" he said, amused, and the hunger of his eyes looked somewhat calmer now. "I'll tell you what" Sebastian patted Kurt's thigh again, this time more out of habit, "you can even get some breakfast."

He got up then and put his briefs on, throwing Kurt his own too. Kurt thanked him with a small smile, because he was not quite comfortable with being constantly naked, and right when he was about to get out of bed too, he noticed Sebastian had just offered him a hand to help him get up.

Kurt narrowed down his eyes at him, unable to contain a chuckle, but Sebastian just smiled mindlessly, and soon enough Kurt dropped all suspicion and took it. He got up with Sebastian's help, but it didn't seem to be on Sebastian's plans to let go of Kurt's hand just yet, so they made it to the kitchen holding hands just as if they had always done so. Kurt couldn't help but notice the gesture, and his stomach got much more agitated than it had earlier in bed. As usual, it was Sebastian's little loving gestures, those that could go easily unnoticed from the outside, the ones which affected Kurt the more.

So, naturally, when Sebastian stopped walking and turned around to face Kurt, it took said boy by surprise, since his mind had inevitably wandered off to happy places full of Sebastian's little loving gestures.

"By the way, if you wanna wake me up like that every time we sleep together… it won't be the worse" Sebastian suddenly said, then scratched his nape smiling coyly and went to the sink, losing the hold of Kurt's hand then.

Okay, that had probably affected Kurt more than the handholding thing.

/

"I- wow" Kurt looked up to Sebastian and just got lost on the bright look the boy was giving him. Kurt was at a loss for words and felt incredibly aware of everything. "This is amazing" Kurt whispered, lowering down his gaze again to the book he had just unwrapped. Sebastian had given him an old French edition of Baudelaire's Les fleurs du mal – and when he said old, it was old indeed. It dated from 1890. It was amazing. Of course, the book was not on his best condition, but it had gone through a dedicated restauration and it was now quite protected with plastic layers on the covers.

Sebastian smiled too. "Really? That's great" the boy said excitedly, then scratched his neck somewhat awkwardly. "It's great that you like it" he added, visibly containing his excitement.

Kurt was still a little shocked, though. "I love it" he emphasised, smiley. "It feels like a have a piece of History in my hands" he said, his inner nerd quite moved.

Sebastian sifted his sitting position on the bed, clearly enthusiastic. "You do" he came forwards to sit beside Kurt now, "a piece of Parisian History, actually – I got this in Paris" he explained.

"Oh, shut up!" Kurt said overwhelmed, then gave the book another look full of promise and dedication. "I have a piece of Paris in my hands!" he said excitedly.

"Exactly" Sebastian chuckled.

Kurt looked at him, quite surprised, and had a realisation. When Sebastian recited for him Enivrez-vous, Kurt just took in the sensuality of the situation. The sensuality of Sebastian's reciting and the alluring words he was reciting. But now, with the book on his hands, Kurt's appreciation took a step further. Sebastian could recite like that because he was actually quite a nerd for Literature too. In Kurt's opinion, that required a certain sensitivity. A deep one.

"Here" Sebastian grabbed the book and opened it on a particular page, "this is my favourite section – les Tableaux parisiens" he showed Kurt, and Kurt noticed there were some pages marked with Post-it flags, though they didn't stick out from the outside. You had to give the book a closer look in order to notice them, actually. Kurt put his finger on one of them and looked at Sebastian.

The boy bit his lip, embarrassed. "I marked some of my favourites" Sebastian explained, uncertain. "I shouldn't have, should I?" he asked rhetorically, then tried to remove the sticker but Kurt stopped him.

"Don't you dare" Kurt chuckled, then took the book from Sebastian's hands. "I love that you did that" he added, somewhat lower and coyly.

He locked eyes with Sebastian then, and for a moment they just stared at each other, feeling extremely self-aware.

Kurt felt a little exasperated with himself for the awkwardness, so he came forwards and planted a kiss on Sebastian's cheek, acting on an impulse.

Sebastian smiled at him, a little surprised.

"Thank you" Kurt told him, then minded his new book again.

Sebastian rested his hand on Kurt's shoulder and caressed it. "You're welcome" he said, more regained.

Kurt proceed to peek random pages on silent while Sebastian rested his chin on his shoulder. They remained like that for a while.

Sebastian suddenly clear his throat. "Oh, about the other present…"

Kurt gulped down nervously. He had the feeling that the other present wouldn't be that sensitive. Sebastian got up and looked for his luggage, which was still unpacked. He came back with a black plastic bag. It looked discreet, at least.

Kurt eyed the bag while biting the inside of his mouth, unsettled. Sebastian's hand found its way back to Kurt's shoulder again, easily.

"I won't be offended if you don't like it, or don't want to use it" the boy said, kindly.

Kurt turned his head to face him and casted him an intrigued look. "I'm not gonna reject a present from you" Kurt said firmly, and gave Sebastian a small smile. He grabbed the bag then and found a small, black box wrapped with a black lace inside.

Sebastian's breath brushed Kurt's ear and sent a chill down his spine. He picked one of the ends of the lace and pulled it, undoing the wrap. He opened the box then, and found what it looked like a piece of underwear. Kurt looked at Sebastian, surprised.

"You scared me" he shook his head and grabbed the briefs. They were black and cotton silk, and looked quite fancy. But Kurt noticed then that they also seemed pretty small, like there was not enough fabric to them. He flipped them and realised that there was actually some fabric missing. On the backside, more specifically. His butt would be at full display. Kurt's saliva got thick and he gulped down with difficulty, nervous.

Sebastian's hand stroked his shoulder then. "It's okay if you don't wanna wear it, Kurt" he said, calmly. "It was mostly a present for me, after all" he chuckled quietly.

Kurt bit his lip and looked at Sebastian, slightly embarrassed. Sebastian looked calm, though, and returned the look with a sweet smile. "I'll wear it" Kurt heard himself say, shockingly. "I mean, maybe not right now" he giggled, awkwardly, "but I'll definitely wear it someday… for you" he clarified.

"Make it a surprise, then" Sebastian suggested, cheekily, and bit Kurt's earlobe playfully.

Kurt turned around then and kissed Sebastian eagerly. He might as well go crazy if he didn't. Kurt was feeling all this energy, sexual and non-sexual, towards the boy, and needed to do something with it. So he wrapped his arms around Sebastian's neck and captured his lips with want.

Sebastian held Kurt on his arms too. He bit Kurt's lips, mostly, and not too hard, but it kept making difficult for Kurt to kiss Sebastian properly. And it made him feel more urgent and needy every time he tried – which was probably Sebastian's intention. After a couple of frustrated groans from Kurt, Sebastian chuckled cheekily against his mouth and finally kissed him fully, with so much intensity that it took Kurt's breath away.

In fact, it wasn't long until Kurt needed to break it and catch his breath, his chest raising and deflating violently. Sebastian run a hand around it, soothing it, then brought his lips to said place to continue the job. It didn't sooth Kurt so much, though. It made him feel more aroused, of course.

Kurt took a hold on Sebastian's hair and held the boy gently against himself, trying to make his breathing somewhat steadier. He was feeling quite agitated, excited, and every pore of his skin was burning with desire for Sebastian's lips to touch it.

Suddenly, Kurt blinked and he was now lying on his back, pressed against the mattress. Sebastian was on top of him, keeping him warm, and his kisses got somewhat less wet, less suggestive. This time they kissed more calmly, as if coming back from a hurricane. Kurt caressed Sebastian's cheeks with his hands, simply delighted by the idea of being able to do just that. He smiled fondly when he felt Sebastian's lips on his cheek.

Kurt felt happy, but he wasn't even aware that was what he was feeling.

"You're amazing" Kurt told Sebastian warmly, kissing the other boy's chin, then jawline, then neck. Kurt could feel they were both hard, but for some reason, right now their kissing wasn't about going all the way to orgasm. It was just about… kissing.

Sebastian looked at Kurt then, a mix between joy and surprise dancing on his eyes. "It's your doing" he whispered then, cockier. Which was pleasantly weird, since he usually looked cocky about his own actions.

Kurt smiled fondly, though. Sebastian's cocky smirk was a huge turn-on for him, no matter what the boy was feeling cocky for. "No, it's yours and yours alone, meerkat" Kurt murmured, not even thinking. His mouth had somehow found a direct line with his emotions, and it seemed like it had eliminated the intermediary – Kurt.

Kurt felt Sebastian's lips once again on his own, and he welcomed them cheerily. Their mouths soon got wet and sore, their kisses gradually lazier. Eventually, Sebastian got off Kurt and laid beside him. They cuddled and their lips just happened to rest against each other, not even kissing anymore.

It was probably noon, maybe later, but it felt like time didn't even exist right that moment.

/

About two hours later, Kurt found himself in the shower with Sebastian. But they were doing anything but taking a shower.

At first, Kurt had felt really determined to soap up Sebastian with his own hands, but then, as he started wrapping the boy in foam, Sebastian grabbed Kurt's hands and slowly placed him against the wall, with calculated premeditation.

Kurt let the boy have it his way, but felt a strong shiver once his back and ass cheeks were pressed against the freezing cold wall. Sebastian noticed and changed the direction of the water falling, so at least a couple of taps would drop some hot water over them. He placed his arms between Kurt's back and the wall, though, to make it less cold for Kurt.

"Sorry" the boy murmured, then kissed Kurt's cheek as an apology.

"It's okay" Kurt smiled at him, overwhelmed by Sebastian's care. He rubbed his still soaped hands around Sebastian's back and kissed his clavicles.

Sebastian closed his eyes, and Kurt could have sworn he had never seen that expression on Sebastian's face. His look was intense, but in soft way. Harmless. Vulnerable. Kurt could read on Sebastian that all his defences were down. So he keep kissing his shoulder, holding the boy tighter and gentler, doing everything he could think of to make the situation as safe and pleasant as possible for Sebastian.

Sebastian's mouth rested on Kurt's forehead. "I'm so glad you didn't leave" the boy said quietly.

Kurt squeezed Sebastian's back carefully. "I'm glad you asked me to stay" he smiled, feeling blissfully high. He didn't want Sebastian not to grant himself some credit.

"That's right" Sebastian breathed out, chucking quietly. "But I wouldn't have dared to if you hadn't been so brave…" he added, then got a little tense.

Kurt kissed Sebastian's chest again, as in telling him that it was okay to express his thoughts out loud. "I bet I looked all blushed and scared, though" Kurt joked, to break the tension.

"You looked beautiful" Sebastian whispered, then bit Kurt's nose, a little more regained.

Now it was Kurt's turn to feel disoriented and vulnerable. Who was this wonderful man and how come he had so many nice words for him? He looked up at Sebastian, speechless, but Sebastian grabbed his hand and took him to stand straight, no longer pressed against the wall. Kurt appreciated it.

Sebastian grabbed the soap then and started washing Kurt's skin with his own hands, just as Kurt had planned to do himself on Sebastian. He couldn't quite move right now, though.

Sebastian rubbed his hands thoroughly along Kurt's torso, and Kurt was so spaced out that it took him about half a minute to realise that Sebastian was biting his lip, with a conflicted expression.

Kurt gulped down, confused. "Is everything okay?" he asked, tentatively, making Sebastian stopped on his hipbones.

Sebastian looked up at him and stared right into his eyes, struggling. "I need to ask you something" the boy said eventually.

Kurt instinctively placed his hands on Sebastian's shoulder, needing to keep the contact with him somehow. Otherwise, the shower felt too cold. "Anything" Kurt nodded, lively.

Sebastian looked down, somewhat nervous. "It's about Blaine" he let slip.

Kurt tried not to be concerned, although he had a pretty good idea where this was going. "Okay" he nodded again.

"It's been like… what? Three months?" Sebastian asked then, somewhat insecurely.

Kurt knew instantly that Sebastian meant how long it'd been since Blaine and he broke up. He swallowed down a nod on his throat. "Almost five, actually" Kurt said, timidly.

Sebastian frowned. "Five? When?" he asked, confused.

"Next month" Kurt admitted, and had to contain a chuckle for his stupid response.

Sebastian rolled his eyes. "Okay. So four" he corrected, then got silent.

Kurt really didn't like this conversation, so of course he waited for Sebastian to keep talking. If the boy wanted to talk about Blaine, maybe ask for an explanation, then he'll have to do just that: ask.

"So I guess I was wondering…" Sebastian scratched his nape, nervously. He pressed a tap to buy himself some time and started washing Kurt. "What you feel about him" Sebastian added, finally.

Kurt sighed, a little nervous. Sebastian certainly deserved an explanation about that. "I unfell for him a long time ago" Kurt admitted, even though that made him feel incredibly guilty. "Probably before we broke up, if I'm being honest" he bit his lip and looked down, not really happy about it.

"Is that- different from… loving him?" Sebastian asked, unsure.

Kurt nodded. "It is. I still love him" Kurt explained. "Like friends do" he rushed to add – he didn't want Sebastian to doubt that in the slightest. "I just didn't know that was the way I was loving him" he confessed, embarrassed. "And I hurt him."

Sebastian closed his arms around Kurt's then. Kurt looked up, not really sure what he'd find on Sebastian's face, but thankfully it wasn't coldness. The boy just looked understanding, and thoughtful.

"You feel remorse?" Sebastian asked him, studying his eyes.

Kurt nodded and bit the inside of his mouth. "I know how it must look like from the outside" Kurt said, coyly. "But… even though this makes an awful person, I wasn't in love with him for three years" he let slip, still feeling uneasy. But mostly, concerned. Concerned that Sebastian might doubt the authenticity of his feelings. "It's okay if you can't believe it right now, though… I just hope you will eventually."

Sebastian casted him a confused smile and squeezed Kurt's arms. "Why wouldn't I believe you?"

Kurt shrugged almost imperceptibly, also feeling confused. "I don't know. I guess I'm not feeling very comfortable on my own skin right now" he admitted, giving Sebastian a nervous smile. "I sound like a mess."

Sebastian arched an eyebrow at him and squeezed his arms again. "Kurt, that was not my intention, really; I just wanted to-"

Kurt nodded, knowingly, making Sebastian shut up. He didn't want to make Sebastian feel bad about himself too. "I know that, don't wor-"

"No, I don't think you do" Sebastian cut him, shaking his head. Kurt stared at him, a little surprised, but decided not to interrupt the boy again. Sebastian looked vulnerable, and Kurt felt like his heart was about to leave his chest every time Sebastian looked like that. Coy, yet brave. To Kurt's eyes, Sebastian's vulnerability was an act of bravery, knowing how much effort it took the boy to show it.

"You always feel true to me, okay?" Sebastian finally breathed out, finally making Kurt step out of the dark zone he was getting into.

"Really?" Kurt couldn't help but ask. Sebastian just gave him a sweet, small smile, and Kurt was able to breathe easily again. "Oh, thank God- I was starting t-"

Sebastian lips silenced him then, and Kurt relaxed, thanking the boy with a tentative rub of his thumbs on Sebastian's sides.

/

"Come on, babe – there's got to be something" Sebastian asked Kurt calmly, while his fingers kept pacing Kurt's back. Kurt was lying face down, comfortably, and not having to worry about getting possible boners was a plus.

Kurt bit his lip, doubtful. Of course he had some kinks and fantasies, but… No, it was too embarrassing.

"Well, I gue-" Kurt struggled to look casual, like he hadn't even given it a thought before, but the truth was he had.

Sebastian lowered down his hand to the small of Kurt's back and stroked it. "Kurt, there's nothing to be embarrassed" Sebastian whispered, kindly. "It's just your body telling your mind what it needs – it's natural" the boy rubbed his hand around Kurt's sides, affectionately.

Kurt looked down. He knew Sebastian was right. God, why couldn't he find it so natural too? Sometimes he hated how shy his body could be. And his instincts.

"I know" Kurt admitted, biting his lip. "I guess I've never had a very close relationship with my body" he added with a small smile, locking eyes again with the beautiful boy he had in front of him.

Sebastian narrowed down his eyes at him, concerned. "Why? Do you not like it? Your body, I mean." Sebastian was trying to figure him out, and it moved Kurt a little, since he was usually the one trying to decipher the other boy.

"Oh, I'm way more comfortable with my body now than I used to" Kurt nodded, relieved when he thought back of the days when he didn't even want to know about gay sex. Thank God he had overcome that. "I just- didn't pay it much attention until I started using it with… Blaine" he added, a little dubious.

Sebastian smirked, amused. Probably by Kurt's subtle way to say 'having sex', Kurt guessed. "So you started discovering your body when you started having sex. Is that it?" Sebastian summed up, still studying Kurt.

Kurt nodded.

"What about on your own?" Sebastian asked again, caressing Kurt's arm now. "You started listening to it then?"

Kurt wasn't sure he understood the question. "Listening to it?" he felt a little awkward. Of course he knew what that meant. It just surprised him, since he was pretty sure he hardly ever did that. "I'm not sure" he let slip, biting his lip and trying not to feel embarrassed.

"I'll be more specific" Sebastian told him, taking in Kurt's indecision. "After your firsts intimate encounters with Blaine…" the boy phrased, and Kurt couldn't help but smile a little at that – Sebastian had no problem to say 'fuck' or something equally less euphemistic, so if he chose to phrase it that way, it was for Kurt. "You felt comfortable enough then to- start… discovering it on your own?" Sebastian said, but he didn't look more satisfied with his words. "I don't really know how else to put it" he scratched his nape.

"It's okay" Kurt smiled at him. "I get it" he nodded. Then he bit the inside of his mouth, because he had to talk now. "I don't think I did, though" Kurt admitted, awkwardly. "I- um… didn't really- feel the need to further investigate… on my own" he explained. "I mean… I didn't know there was more to know" he added, witnessing how Sebastian's pupils dilated.

The boy was obviously containing his surprise, but Kurt could see it on his eyes. He didn't feel offended, though, because Sebastian's hand kept stroking him reassuringly.

"You do now?" Sebastian asked, calmly.

Kurt turned his head and hid it on the pillow, embarrassed. "I don't know" he mumbled.

"Kurt, I can't hear you if you hide your mouth" Sebastian told him amused, and dug up Kurt's head. "Don't feel embarrassed with me, I'm not judging you" the boy smiled at him, truly. "I just want to understand you, really."

Sebastian's calm and casual expression relaxed Kurt a little. Kurt sighed. "Okay" he nodded, sifting to lay on his back now. He stared at the ceiling.

"So… you don't know if you want to… further investigate?" Sebastian repeated, and this time he smirked cheekily. Kurt slapped his arm, blushing. Sebastian chuckled and grabbed Kurt's hand. He kissed it, playfully.

It didn't help diminish Kurt blush, so he looked back at the ceiling again.

"Is it too weird that I don't?" Kurt asked, conflicted. "I mean… when I hear you say 'listening to your body', it sounds great but… I guess it's never been my priority" he admitted, then looked back at Sebastian. "But it should, shouldn't it?" Kurt asked regretful.

Sebastian shook his head, still holding Kurt's hand. "No, it's not an obligation, Kurt" he said, calmly. "There's not a 'should' on what people feel. Maybe you listen more to your inner self, or something" the boy commented, thoughtful. "I mean, you tend to overthink a little" he chuckled, but cut it short when locking eyes with Kurt. "Ahem, and maybe I tend to over-listen to my body" he added, amused.

Kurt chuckled too, rolling his eyes. "You have a point, though" Kurt meditated it. "I mean… mind and body are tangled up, aren't they?" he asked rhetorically. "But… how do you do that?" he rolled on his back, resting his weight now on his right side to face Sebastian. "How do you listen to your body?" he looked at Sebastian expectantly.

Sebastian returned the look, but it seemed like Kurt's question had got him by surprise. It took him a few seconds to react. "I guess… you pay attention to it?" Sebastian suggested, a little dubious. "You don't ignore what your guts tell you, or avoid acting on it, I think" the boy arched his eyebrow, thoughtfully. "I'd never had to think about it…" Kurt smiled at him, though. Sebastian returned it. "Let's try something" he proposed, suddenly looking excited.

Kurt casted him a suspicious look. "Okay" he agreed, anyway. If only for how cute Sebastian looked when he was excited.

"Great" Sebastian said, then bit his lip. "You're gonna tell me one of those fantasies and we're gonna make it real" he smirked, cheekily.

Kurt gulped down. "Oh" Crap. "Can't we use one of yours?" he asked, frantically.

Sebastian rubbed Kurt's sides reassuringly, but the cocky smile didn't leave his features. "We sure can – eventually, babe" he said, amused. "Not tonight, though."

Kurt closed his eyes and made a face, feeling defeated. "Fine" he agreed, reluctantly. "You're so mean" he pouted, but came closer to Sebastian and looked at his chest. "Could I…" Kurt mumbled, unsure, "um- hide my head there… while I tell you?" he asked, timidly.

Sebastian smiled incredulously, then puckered his lips containing a chuckle. "Oh, Kurt" the boy said, moved and amused at the same time. "I so wanna make fun of you right now" he admitted, but sighed, playfully. "Okay. You can hide there."

Kurt didn't give it a second thought and rested his head there, wrapping one arm around Sebastian. He sighed. "Okay. I'm ready."

Sebastian chuckled quietly. "Shoot."

"Okay" Kurt repeated, taking a deep breath. "Back in high school, on my sophomore year… I was a cheerleader" he blurted out.

They fell in silence. Kurt couldn't see Sebastian's reaction, nor did he want to. But the boy felt a little tense all of a sudden.

"No way" Sebastian breathed out. He sounded shocked.

Kurt nodded, then realised Sebastian might not get that was what he was doing. "No kidding" he admitted.

"Wow" Sebastian made, less tense now. "I can't believe I missed that. Dammit" he sounded quite frustrated.

Kurt chuckled, more relaxed now. "Oh, I'm very glad you did" he admitted. "You would've mocked me forever."

"Ps- duh!" Sebastian chuckled, then brought his hands to Kurt's hair and stroked it. "Then I would've bribed you to give me a private pass…" he said suggestively.

Kurt shivered. "Really?"

"Well, that depends. Did your uniform include one of those insanely lascivious skirts?" Sebastian asked, intrigued.

Kurt slapped him playfully. "Of course not, Sebastian! Have you never seen a male cheerio?" he asked, outraged.

"I have not" Sebastian chuckled. "But I really hope that is where your story is going, though" he suggested.

Kurt bit his lip nervously. "Maybe."

"By all means – carry on" Sebastian said, suggestively.

Kurt rolled his eyes, but soon enough he felt incredibly nervous again. This was the hard part. "Well… you can imagine the rest" he said, evasively.

"I really cannot" Sebastian breathed out, exaggerating his confusion.

Kurt resented Sebastian's lack of cooperation and rubbed his forehead against the boy's chest.

"Marble…" Sebastian said, caressing Kurt's nape. "This is aimed at helping you" he said calmly, with a kind tone. "Do I enjoy seeing you all freaked out and embarrassed? Sure" Kurt pinched him, "ouch, but that's just a collateral perk" he chuckled. "Seriously, though. I enjoy much more the fact that you let me know what you wish, Kurt" Sebastian added.

Kurt dug up his head and couldn't help but locking eyes with him. He casted Sebastian a small smile and held the weight of his head on his chin. He would not hide anymore.

"When I wore that uniform I felt unexpectedly powerful" Kurt commented. "I was more respected, less bullied-"

"What?" Sebastian asked, perplexed. "You… you were bullied?"

Kurt was taken aback by Sebastian's concerned expression. "Well, yeah- I mean, it's obvious, isn't it?" Kurt said, giving Sebastian a side smile.

But Sebastian didn't find it funny. "It is not" he stated, then bit his lip, annoyed. "Fucking public schools" he murmured, outraged.

"Bas" Kurt said, scratching Sebastian's chest. "I put that far behind me a long time ago – don't worry" he told Sebastian sincerely.

Sebastian didn't look so convinced. "Kurt, it's no wonder why you've never felt comfortable with yourself. Those things destroy people's self-perception" he explained.

Kurt felt a little unsure. He had always been quite certain that all the bullying had only made him stronger. "I- I never really listened to them" Kurt insisted, although right now he was more trying to convince himself than Sebastian. "It just made me bitchier" he joked, awkwardly.

Sebastian gave him a dubious look, but let it be. "Well, we're working on that now, anyway" he said, suddenly confident. "Tell me the rest of your fantasy."

Kurt nodded. He decided not to protest anymore. "It was quite simple" he side smiled. "I just fantasized I'd get the attention of some young, hot, smart teacher. Who, in my mind, would always wear suit and tie" Kurt explained. Sebastian smiled at him. Okay, it hadn't been that hard. "Oh, there's something else" he suddenly remembered, "the suit and tie were ultimately replaced by Dalton's uniform when I met…" he stopped, a little self-aware.

Sebastian looked a little uncertain. "If this fantasy was about Blaine I'm not sure I can go through with it" he chuckled, awkwardly.

Kurt shook his head, blushing furiously. "Oh, no, no, no" he assured Sebastian, although his deduction was quite understandable. "I meant that when I met Blaine, and then attended Dalton, well… the teachers' uniform was quite similar so…" Kurt fidgeted with his own hand. "So I started imagined a Dalton teacher" he cleared his throat. "My fantasy worked with someone older, you know?" he joked, awkwardly.

Sebastian nodded, visibly relieved. "Okay" he looked around, thoughtful. "You think a Dalton uniform will do, then?"

Kurt regarded him suspiciously. "What?" he asked, nervously.

"I know I'm not older either, but…" the boy smiled, cheekily, "I have the uniform here… call me a sentimental, but I brought it to New York" he joked.

Kurt gulped down. Crap, did that mean they would play it for real? "Oh, you don't have to… I mean, I feel better already" he said.

Sebastian chuckled. "Liar" he accused Kurt. "Now. Where's your cheerio's uniform?" he arched an eyebrow, amused.

"Ohio" Kurt rushed to say, then smiled awkwardly. "It's a pity, I know, but-"

"So if I go to your apartment now, you're telling me I won't find it in your wardrobe, is that it?" Sebastian cut him, studying Kurt's expression thoroughly.

Kurt tried to avoid Sebastian's gaze, but that'd only seem more suspicious. "I- I- yeah, you won't" he said, too trembling to be convincing.

Sebastian smirked, suggestively, and stared at Kurt for a few seconds. Kurt didn't know where to hide. Sebastian got up then, casting Kurt a malicious smile. "Get dressed. We're doing this."

Just kill me already, Kurt thought, desperately.