Sorry I didn't post yesterday, Tuesdays are always busy at work for me. I hope you all like this chapter. Next chapter is going to be mind blowing I promise. (Wink, wink GreyFan79) I'll try and post tomorrow if I'm not too busy. Don't forget to check out the Pins for this page. And remember you can find me of Facebook, the link is on my profile.

APOV

I take Ava up to her room and help her pick out a pair of pajamas. I find the cutest pair of Team Umizoomi pajamas for her. After helping her get out of the clothes she was wearing, still in her undies I take her to the bathroom and help her wash up a little.

I wet the washcloth and put a little soap on it and hand it to her. She washes her face, her arms and her belly. Along with her legs and feet. I rinse the soap out of the wash cloth and hand it back to her. She repeats the processes. When she is finish I quickly dry her off and help her into her pajamas.

"All done"

"Yay!" she cheers. As she is picking out a movie from her little collection in her room I slip away into the bathroom and quickly change into my pajamas. When I return back into her room she hands me the movie and grabs my hand and pulls me out of her room and down the stairs.

As we are walking down the stairs she stops and looks at me.

"Ava what's the matter did you forget something?" She shakes her head no and says,

"Do you luvs Uncle Chwristin?"

"Ava we already talked about this before. I like you uncle very much" I smile at her, trying not to sound as if I am scolding her for asking me again if I love Christian.

We continue down the stairs and walk into the family room. Mia has set everything up for all over us. There is blankets and sheets everywhere. Pillows as far as the eyes can see. It looks like bed bath and beyond threw up in the family room.

"Mia what did you do to this room?" Elliot asks as he walks in.

"What don't you like it? Ava likes it and so does Ana. Right Ana?"

"Uh…yeah Mia it's….very…fluffy" I smile at her as I sit down on one of the oversized pillows that has the words Hot Stuff written on it.

"See Ana likes it. So quit your B.I.T.C. Elliot and find yourself a spot and get comfortable" Mia tells him.

Christian walks in from the kitchen with Grace and smirks as soon as he sees the pillow I am sitting on. He excuses himself for a moment and goes upstairs to change. Five minutes later Christian comes down in a pair of plaid Pajama pants and a white wife beater. The wife beater clings to his chest showing off all his well-defined muscles.

Christian comes and sits down next to me and Ava, he puts his arm around my waist and scoots closer to me. I rest my head on his shoulder and inhale his amazing scent. I don't know about you but the less clothes he has on the better he smells.

"So what movie are we watching tonight?" Christian asks. I hold the movie that Ava had handed to me before we left her room and read it out loud.

"Ever after"

"Oh great another stupid Cinderella movie" Elliot whines.

"F you Elliot I love this movie" Mia tells him.

"Whatever" Elliot says back.

Kate pops the DVD into the player and the large TV screen lowers from the ceiling and the movie begins to play. I must have seen this movie about a hundred times and each time I cry. It didn't fail that when Daniel's father died in the beginning that I broke out in tears. I look over to Mia and she had a few tears rolling down her face as she grips ahold of Carrick's arm.

As the movie played on I could hear Kate mumble something like 'How come I can't find a prince like that' of course Elliot heard what she said and slapped her lightly on her leg. Without even realizing I said the words 'me too' I could feel Christian tense up next to me.

I look at him and he is staring at me, it's not like I meant for those words to come out. I bite my lip and try to give him a goofy smile as to say I was only kidding. But it didn't help. He inched himself away from me but not too far away. It felt like he was ripping my heart right out of my chest with his action, and I know with my comment it must have been the same for him. I tried to reach my hand over to his but when I tried to touch just the top of his hand he moved it. I gasped quietly. I can start to feel my start to shake a little, I will myself not to cry. I take deep breaths holding back my sobs.

Ava looks up at me from my lap and frowns. "No no Auntie Ana no cry tha's get marry" I smile down at her and shake my head yes to her.

"Can you excuse me for a moment I need to use the bathroom" I move Ava rom my lap and place her to the side between Christian and I. I slowing get to my knees and raise myself t my feet and walk out of the living room not looking at anyone. I'm biting my lip so hard I swear I could taste blood. I trying so hard not to cry as I walk out the family room and into the foyer and up the stairs to the second floor.

CPOV

I watch as Ana gets up from her spot of the floor and walks out the family room. I know she is only seconds away from crying. I feel like a total ass hole. I know she was only mentally replying to Kate's comment. But it did break my heart in two when she said 'me too'. How could she not think of me as her prince? I want to be her prince, white knight.

I excuse myself just like Ana did, I pick up Ava and bring her over to where Kate and Elliot are sitting. Ava was a little upset but I have to find Ana and talk to her. Before I walked out of the family room Elliot made a whipping like sound to indicate I was pussy whipped. That fucker can go kiss my ass. If being with Ana makes me pussy whipped then so be it. Because I love her.

As I walk up the stairs to the bathroom, I can't help but to think to myself does she even love me too. She hasn't really said it. At least not in the way I would hope for her to say it. When Ava asked her if she loved me, she said that she liked me. A lot. Love is a very strong word to say and I have been hesitant to say it to her. I was so close to saying it to her tonight on our way back from Elena's.

When I am with her I feel like a teenager again, she makes me feel young and full of life. I know the rest of my family can see it too. Everyone has commented on how much younger I look. I want to tell Ana how much I love her and how much I want to be with her and even spend the rest of my life with her. Wow did I really just say that? Did I really just say that I want to spend the rest of my life with her? I stop mid stair and think about it for a moment. She is so beautiful and kind and loving, my parents adore her. Mia already thinks of her as a sister. Ava, Ava just loves her.

Ava is already calling her, her Aunt. That just has to be a sign. I have never brought any of my Sub's to my parent's house or anywhere outside my penthouse but Mia has brought boy friends over before and Ava never took to them like she has with Ana. Even some of Kate's personal friend who she has known for years, Ava never calls them Auntie.

I stand outside the second floor bathroom and I can hear the tiny little cries coming from Ana behind the bathroom door. Fuck if that doesn't make me feel sick. Even after the whole Cross bullshit today I should have never acted the way I did. I knock on the door lightly.

"I'll be right out" I hear her say softly.

"Ana it's me, open the door baby" I her cries quite a little but I don't hear her walk towards the door.

"Anastasia please open the door" I plead. But still nothing, I was just about to leave to go back downstairs and grab the key to the door from the housekeeper but I hear the door slowly unlock and open just a bit. I turn back around and open the door. Ana is sitting on the edge of the bathtub with her head lowers and her hands stilled in her hair.

I slowly walk over to her and kneel down in front of her. I slowly spread her legs apart a little so that I can be between her. I need to feel close to her right now. As I kneel in front of her I take my hand and lift her chin to look at me. Her eye are puffy and red. Her lips are swollen from crying and biting on them while holding back her sobs. I hate seeing her like this.

She keeps her eyes down not wanting to look at me. Right now at this moment she looks as if she is a Submissive not wanting to make eye contact. I don't want that from her, I don't want anything from her like that. She will never be my Submissive. EVER!

"Baby please look at me" I say softly to her. Her eyes slowly travel from the floor up my body and finally meets my eyes. God I'm such an ass hole. I should have never rejected her hand when she tried to take mine. It's so hard for me to remember that she is just a teenager, she acts so mature for her age at times and it always slips my mind that she is only 19. Before I even get a chance to speak, in a low whisper she says,

"I'm so sorry Christian" A single tears escapes her right eyes. I catch it with my thumb and wipe it away. Bringing my thumb to my lips and kiss it. I lick my lips and taste the salty ness from her tear.

"Don't ever be sorry Anastasia for anything, I know you didn't mean to say it"

"You are so much more to me than a prince Christian" She whispers to me

"I know, and you are so much more to me than anything in this world" I move my hand from her chin and wrap my arms around her waist. My knees are killing me but I don't give a shit right now.

"I do?" She asks. I can't believe she would question me on this.

"Yes Ana you do. I would trade everything I have just to prove it to you how much I care for you"

"You don't have to do that Christian" She lightly giggles

"I know I don't but if you asked me too I would and I wouldn't even think twice about it. I don't ever want to lose you. Not today, not tomorrow. Not for the rest of my life, I never want to let you go. You may not even realize this but you have done so much for me in the short time we have known each other. You make me feel alive, young. And when I'm around you, you make me forget just how fucked up I really am"

"You're not fucked up Christian" She rolls her eyes while looking at me. I can feel my palms start to twitch and I am trying to control the urge I have to take her over my knee and spank that beautiful ass of hers. I lower my head for a moment and close my eyes tight. I keep telling myself to breath and focus. She isn't your Submissive, she isn't your Submissive. She's your girlfriend. The woman you love, you didn't love the other ones. That's because she is nothing like them, I tell myself. I open my eyes and look at her. Her beautiful blue eyes, every time I look at them I feel as she is looking into my soul and warming my heart.

God I love this woman. One day I am going to make her MINE. And by mine I mean my wife, my soul mate, the mother of my children. The queen of my universe. There is nothing I wouldn't give right now to tell her I love her. But I feel that as of right now I need to wait. I want it to be the right moment, the perfect moment. Even though I know for sure she is it for me. I want to make sure she feels the same. I was going to tell her in the car but my fucking phone had to start ringing. But I am glad it did.

"I am Ana, I really am. But you are changing the way I see myself, and for that I will be forever grateful. So thank you, thank you for everything"

"I didn't do anything Christian, you did it all on your own"

"Ahh but you did" I tell her in a silly tone to lighten the mood and tap my finger on her nose. She blushes. She is perfect.

"I'm sorry for not taking Taylor with me to Elena's. I should have listened" She tells me.

"Even if you did, Cross would still have been there"

"I know"

"You're safe and sound now, and I am going to keep it that way" I kiss her on the forehead.

"We better get back downstairs, I don't want your parent's to think we're doing it in their house" She giggles.

"I suppose your right" I stand to my feet and offer her my hand to take. She slides off the edge of the tub and stands. She looks at herself in the mirror. She shakes her head at the sight she sees. No matter how she looks I think she will always be beautiful.

We walk back downstairs to the family room, and everyone's eyes lands on us. Elliot is smirking, I can already tell he thinks we were fucking all this time. Kate is smiling at Ana. My parents are just shaking their heads, and Ava she is just staring at the TV screen.

"I'm going to make a cup of tea. Do you want anything?" Ana asks.

"No I'm fine" She lets go of my hand and head towards the kitchen. Kate lifts herself from her spot of the couch and follows behind. I take the seat Kate was sitting at. My brother pats me on the shoulder as if he is saying 'way to go bro'. Fucking idiot.

APOV

I walk into the kitchen. I grab the kettle and walked over to the sink and added some water, when I turned around to go to the stove Kate was standing there against the kitchen wall smiling at me.

"What?" I asked

"Soooo how was it? You know the make-up sex?"

"Kate we didn't have sex" I tell her.

"Oh come on Ana you can tell me, we're friends. Friends always share juicy details about their sex life"

"True. But honestly Kate we didn't have sex. Actually we haven't had sex yet"

"What!" Her eyes went wide and she shakes her head a little turning to understand what I just told her.

"Christian and I haven't had sex. I want too. But to be honest I'm a little scared. He's kind of…BIG" I look down at my feet blushing.

"Oh My God. You're joking?"

"No I'm not. I'm still a virgin too" I whispered the virgin part.

"Does Christian know?" I nod my head and reply

"Yes he does, and it doesn't bother him"

"So you guys haven't done anything sexually with each other?"

"Oh we have" I smirk and she smiles. God I love Kate, she has become more and more like a sister to me. As the kettle starts to whistle on the stove I go over and turn the burner off. Kate goes to the cupboard and grabs two mugs.

"Well my sex life is amazing. As a matter of fact Elliot and I have been thinking about having another baby" Kate says

"Oh Kate that is amazing" I tell her

"It won't happen right away because I'm still on the shot, but we were thinking when it's time for my next shot to just skip it. Elliot and I don't want Ava to be the only child"

"I think that is just wonderful. I was an only child and I hated it. I always wished to have another sibling, ether younger or older. I really didn't care"

"Well let me be the first to tell you that me and my brother Ethan were always going at it like cats and dogs with each other. He is only 2 years younger than me. We hated each other while growing up. But now, now we love each other"

"I'm sure Christian, Elliot and even Mia were the same way as well? Have you and Elliot told the rest of the family about wanting to have another baby?"

"No not yet. We were thinking about just waiting until it happens, so please don't say anything to anyone"

"I promise my lips are sealed"

"So do you think you and Christian will ever have kids?"

"Kate please. We're not even married and we have yet to even have sex"

"When do you think you will?" God she asks a lot of questions. Must be her reporter personality coming out.

"I don't know. Like I said I want too, but I just want to make sure that Christian is the right one. I don't want to go and give it up only to not be with him later. I'm not saying that Christian and I will get married but I was thinking about holding out until then"

"Wow talk about old fashion"

"Yeah I know" I frown.

"Don't worry I think it's a great idea. In fact it kind of makes me wish I was a virgin when Elliot and I got married. This way I wouldn't have felt so guilty for wearing white at my wedding" She giggled.

While we are finishing our tea I can't help but to think, would Christian be ok to wait until I was ready? However long that might actually be. I mean if Christian and I do end up getting married how long from now will that be? 1? 2? 3….5 years? Would he be willing to wait that long? Maybe I should talk to him about it. After a while he is just going to get sick of blowjobs.

I know some women like to use their back door. But to me that's an exit not an entrance. I cringe at the thought. How some woman find that pleasurable is beyond me.

Kate finishes her cup of tea and places it in the sink and returns back to the family room. My cup is empty but I sit there staring into the cup. I know I'm starting to get tired, I always stare off into space when I'm tired or day dreaming.

"Hey" I hear from behind me and then a hand on my lower back and a kiss on my temple. I snap out of it and turn my head towards Christian.

"Hey"

"Everything ok? Kate came in but after five minutes when you didn't follow I started to get worried" Wow five minutes I have been staring at my empty mug.

"Oh sorry"

"It's ok. I just wanted to make sure you were all tucked in before I go upstairs and go to bed"

"No way of me talking you out of it and sleep down stairs with Ava and me?" I ask him. I already know he is going to say no. But it doesn't hurt to ask. Those two nights him and I slept together in the spare room at Escala he had no nightmares. He swears it was just a fluke, but I know it wasn't.

"Ana I can't, you know that"

"I know but what if…" he stops me

"I already know what you're going to say. It was just a fluke. I don't want to end up having a nightmare with Ava being right next to me. It would kill me if I happen to do something to her while I am sleep, not to mention how it could scare her"

"Alright" I frown. I just wish for once he could see that it wasn't a fluke. Come on two nights in a row, no nightmares. The only one he had was after I got out of bed and went into the kitchen to cook us breakfast.

He takes my hand and we walk into the family room. Everyone is pretty much T.K.O. Even Ava is fast asleep on her blanket. Grace and Carrick are nowhere in sight so they must have went to bed a while ago. Mia is snoring away and Kate and Elliot are peacefully asleep in each other's arms on the couch.

"Looks like everyone is a sleep" I state.

"Yeah"

"How about I tuck you in" I wink at him. That's all it took because the next thing I know he grabbed my hand and was running up the stairs taking two at a time. He burst open his old childhood bedroom door and nearly slammed it shut locking the door so that no one can enter.