This is it people, enjoy because my notebook is empty :)
I'll need another sleepless night to write the next chapter.
At first this was one chapter together with the previous one,
but it's too long so I split it in 2 seperate chapters.
Hope you don't mind and enjoy reading it.
Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight and all it's characters
BPOV
I woke up late, feeling like a truck had run over my body. No surprise since I'd spend a couple of hours awake in the middle of the night. With some effort I made it downstairs, dressed in a pair of comfortable jeans and turtleneck sweater. Not feeling in the mood to oblige to Alice's demands, to try and dress fashionable.
Walking into the kitchen, the note on the fridge reminded me to call Charlie later on today and check if he would come home this afternoon. If not, perhaps Angela would want to invite me over for dinner. It had been a while since I'd seen her parents and little brothers.
Grabbing an apple and some orange juice for breakfast I sat down at the kitchen table. Outside the sky was all grey and cloudy, probably bringing us snow later today. After spending a considerable time having breakfast with Charlie, he had taught me how to tell by the sky and clouds, if the weather would be cold, dry or wet. This, according to Charlie, were snow clouds. And who was I to doubt the weather forecasting skills of Forks Police Chief?
With a sigh I got up and put my glass in the sink, next to the plate I had used last night. Not having the energy to rinse them, I looked around to find my school bag. It took me a few minutes to figure out, I'd left it in the car yesterday. So instead I collected the few books that I would need today and went to the car.
The drive to school took less time today, feeling more comfortable driving the car today. It took less effort to drive and I made it to school in good time. As I pulled into the parking lot, at the far end I could see Angela get out of her car. With a smile I parked next to her and waved. As I got out to greet her she waved at me also, waiting next to her car for me to join her.
"What did you do with your truck, and why are you driving in Rosalie Hale's sport car?" Her eyes almost popped as she looked at me, obviously she hadn't seen it yesterday.
"I forgot to tell you. Last Saturday, Alice took me shopping, but she was sick and so I ended up with Rosalie instead. She was very nice, we got to talking about cars.. and she offered to fix my truck" Smiling at Angela, I could see she was a little bit confused.
"You and Rosalie, went shopping together, and you got along? Wow, that's like being in the Twilight-Zone." Her words made me feel very uncomfortable. Rosalie had told me, she hadn't been my friend and after yesterday afternoon, it was difficult to imagine that because I really felt sure we were friends. But now the only person that had been my friend and honestly told me everything she could. She told me this friendship was strange.
"Is it really such a surprise?" Trying to hide my disappointment, I asked her. Looking down at the strap of my schoolbag as I added "Rosalie really has been very nice to me." Should I tell her about my mini breakdown at the mall... before I could decide, Angela answered my question.
"Yes it is a surprise, but only because she and Emmet were always so close. They never tried to be friends with anyone else. I'm sure she is really fun to hang out with." Angela added quickly. "It's ease to judge people if you don't really know them."
This time her voice sounded a lot more relaxed. " I'm sure she is a good friend, besides she letting you drive her 60.000 dollar car, she must really trust you."
Almost giving myself a whiplash I looked up at Angela. "How much?" I almost yelled at her. " Are you sure?" My friend stood there laughing at me. She couldn't be right, had I been driving around in a car that could pay of most of Charlie's mortgage.
"Last year whenever she would drive it to school, all the guys would talk about it. They are sure it should cost at least that." Angela laughed as she put her arm through mine and turned to walk towards the first class we shared together. It was History. Still thinking about the car, I didn't pay attention to where I was going and Angela very swiftly guided me to my assigned seat in the back. As I sat down I could hear a bubbly voice next to me speak with Angela. "What's up with Bella?"
"Oh, I told her the retail price of Rosalie's car" Was the only reply Angela could make before both she and Alice couldn't help themselves and started laughing very loud. At hearing their happy laughter and seeing both of them laugh, it was hard to ignore and I joined them. For a few minutes all we could do was laugh, tears were in my eyes by the time our teacher had entered the classroom. Calling our names, asking us to grab our books and pay attention. Angela managed to hold back her laughter and I held my breath as much as possible, trying to hold back.
The first hour we had a lecture, the second hour we could work on assignment for next week. At first I had found the back to back classes very weird, but now I was used to it and found it very useful. Still being able to recollect the subjects that had been discussed a few minutes earlier, it made it easier to finish my work.
My phone buzzed in my backpack and I grabbed it expecting it to be Charlie. Instead I had a text message.
Do you miss me?
That was weird, the number was unknown and the message wasn't signed. Curious to find out who it could be I replied.
Who is this?
Keeping my phone in my hand I waited to find out if the mystery person would reply.
If you miss me, you would know who this is.
Looking around the classroom I tried to see if there were any missing students. The only person I could think of was Edward.
Edward?
I could feel my cheeks flush, what if I was wrong? Or more important, what if I was right?
Yes, good to know you miss me
So it was Edward.. and wait. I hadn't written I miss him. Frustrated I let out a growl. That manipulative, ridiculously good looking boy was so irritating. I quickly replied to his assumption, correcting him.
No... just hadn't noticed your smug face.
That would shut his big mouth, wipe that smug smile of his face.
Smug face, did you pay that much attention?
Again he twisted my words, was he making fun of me?
It's difficult to ignore when I can't go around school without seeing you.
There that was very clear, telling him that me noticing him wasn't a compliment. Leaning closer to Alice I softly whispered "Why did you give Edward my phone number?"
She looked at me with a twinkle in her eyes. "I didn't."
But if she hadn't, how did he get my number. Grabbing my phone I typed another text.
How did you get my number
Within a few seconds he replied
You gave it to me, remember?
Rolling my eyes I read the text, did he think this was charming me. Well he was wrong.
Haha funny, aren't you smart....it's not going to work
Putting my phone back in my backpack I tried to concentrate on the assignment we had been told to finish by the end of class. Just as I picked up my pen, there was a buzzing sound from my bag.
What do you mean it's not going to work?
Oh come on, did I really have to tell him.
You know what I mean
His only reply was.
No sorry, I don't please enlighten me
No, that could never be enlightened as he liked to call it by text message. Angry I threw my phone back in my bag. Biting on the nail of my thumb I read what I had written in my notebook. Unable to concentrate I leaned over to Alice, passing her a small note. My zombie behaviour this morning had prevented me from asking her if she had written in my journal.
She took it and looked at it. Ignoring the looks our teacher was giving us she turned her head and smiled, the same twinkle I had seen earlier still in her eyes. "I didn't." After looking at me stunned expression she turned to collect her books and schoolbag as she stood up. The bell signalling class was finished as she got up.
Stunned I stayed behind, if she hadn't written in my diary. Who had? The rest of the morning I didn't see her again, or Jasper. It looked like they had gone home. Or perhaps Jasper hadn't been at school either.
I spend lunch sitting with Angela, Ben and Jessica. Glancing over to the table at the far end of the cafeteria a few times, not understanding why Alice didn't let me know where she was. In the two days we had spend together at school, she had become my closest friend and I missed sitting with her, Jasper and yes, even Edward. It took a lot of control to not pick up the phone and text him back.
"So Bella, you and Rosalie are tight buddies now ?" Mike was angled towards me looking expectantly at me. Next to him Tyler, Eric and Ben were looking at me also.
"I'm sorry Mike, what did you say?" Not paying attention to him, I didn't understand what he had said.
"Since you and Cullen are no longer together, I assumed you are friends with Rosalie Hale now." Mike looked at me, over his shoulder I could see Ben look at me expectantly. "Your'e driving her car, that must be awesome."
"Ehm sure, it's ok." How could I explain it frightened me to death to drive in that car with all the fancy buttons, custom made leather interior, six speed manual transmission and a speedometer that showed up to three times the speed my truck could ever manage.
"It's ok?? Bella how can you say that!" Mike yelled at me as he grabbed my hand and I leaned back trying to avoid his spit. "That car is a dream, I'd die to drive in it just once." Well if he wanted to die, all he needed to do was take the keys and drive it to Rose, she'd have his head for driving in her car... and I'd never have to be bothered by him again. Pulling my hand from his I got up from the table.
"I'll keep that in mind Mike." Not waiting for his answer I looked over at Angela who could no longer contain her laughter. She got up also and we fled from the cafeteria.
"Tomorrow you're giving me a ride Angela." If this was the way teenage boys reacted to that car, I wouldn't drive it to school anymore.
"Sure thing Bella, just text me what time you want to be picked up tonight." Each going our separate ways to class she waved at me and walked away from me.
As I did Mike's words repeated in my head. Since you and Cullen are no longer together. The only free Cullen was Edward. Edward had acted weird around me almost every time I had seen him.
The words in my diary flashed at me Edward and Bella. I stopped and couldn't believe how stupid I had been. All the signals had been clear, I had even questioned the thought myself a couple of times. Edward was my ex-boyfriend. All the time, he had known and not told me anything.
Probably thinking it was funny. Betrayal coursed through my body, everyone had known and let me make a fool of myself. Angry I grabbed my phone and typed a text to Edward.
I know what you are, leave me alone
That would make him back of, give me time to think. I would need to talk to Alice and Rosalie also, in person because no matter how Edward felt about me. I still needed them to be my friend. The rest of the day went by in slow motion. Lack of sleep was taking it's heavy toll on me, making me struggle to stay awake and at the same time I kept checking my phone but there was no reply. By the time the last class was over I welcomed the sound of the bell, signalling I was free to go home. Getting up I first went over to my locker and dropped of some books. As I got there Alice was waiting for me with Esme.
"Bella!" From across the hallway Alice called, ignoring all the people that were now looking at her. Pushing past some students I got to her as fast as possible, worried by the way both she and Esme were waiting for me.
"Bella, I'm sorry for not staying at school. There was a family emergency, we all had to be home to take care of it." Her eyes were sad as she spoke to me and from the corner of my eyes I could see Esme look at me with a sad expression also.
"Is everyone ok? Did anything happen to your brothers or sisters... to Carlisle." Suddenly the thought of one of my new friends getting hurt caused me to panic. Looking over to Esme she shook her head and stepped forward. Placing her hand on my arm she looked at me.
Sensing something was wrong I pulled away from them. "If you are all fine, why are you here?" A horrible feeling deep down started to take hold of me.
"Remember how your father had to go up north for his work?" Esme looked at me waiting for me to acknowledge her statement. It remember me, I should have called him.
"Yes, I was supposed to call him this afternoon. The note said there was a problem with large animals and he wasn't sure if he would be back on time this afternoon."
"Emmet and Carlisle. They both have their hunting permit and joined your father this morning. After a few hours, they tracked the animal that was causing trouble." Esme's voice was calm. Too calm.
"When they got close to it, cornering it up in the mountains. The animal probably got scared and tried defending itself, it attacked them." Esme's looked at me, in her eyes I could see regret . Her beautiful face lost in sorrow.
"No...." Putting the pieces together, I could feel my knees give way and Alice her hands shot out at me, holding me up. "Charlie, is he..." Not being able to finish, I looked at Esme. Alice her hands were securely wrapped around my arms, holding me up and comforting me at the same time.
"Carlisle and Emmet were there, they rushed him back to the hospital. He's not in a critical condition but has to stay in the hospital up north for a few days. He is being operated now, they allowed Carlisle to operate on him there and I'm sure he is doing all he can to have your dad transferred to Forks Hospital. I'm so sorry Bella." Esme finished what she was trying to explain to me, as she did her voice sounded confident in the knowledge her husband was working his best on my father. And she should be, he had saved my life also.
"Carlisle can fix Charlie." My words sounded shaky, but the hope they gave me was all I had right now.
"Yes he can. And until he can come home, we think it would be best if you would come and stay with us. At least tonight so you won't be alone at the house, worrying about your father." Alice wrapped her arms around me and pulled me close. She had been silent all the time. Looking at my tiny friend and her loving mother. They weren't giving me a choice, i had to go with them.
"OK, I'll come home with you." Allowing the last of my resistance to crumble I wiped the tears away from my eyes and smiled at Esme.
"Yay." Alice seemed to have come back to life again and bounced next to me. "We've got all your stuff in the car already, do you want me to drive Rose her car home?" Glad to at least won't have to suffer another anxious car ride I gladly handed over the carkeys. Alice snatched them from me and disappeared outside.
"Do you want to stop by your home first sweetheart, Alice packed your bag but perhaps there is something you need to do or look after before you come to our house?" Esme had wrapped her arm around my shoulder, pulling me close to her as we walked outside. Her gesture was warm and comforting. But at the same time felt weird. Like Alice her touch was cold.
"No, there is nothing to do at home. I'm sure Alice has packed enough things for one evening. She's very efficient." The last was an understatement and my careful words made Esme's eyes light up. "Yes you could say she is efficient, that is a very nice way of describing her."
Together we walked outside were we could see Alice leave the parking lot, the top of the car down and music playing loud on the radio. All the guys were staring at her and the car as she sped away. Shaking my head at her behaviour, I was happy Esme was driving me in Carlisle's safe and understated black Mercedes.
Getting into the car I closed my eyes and rested my head against the headrest as she started the car. Unlike Alice she didn't turn on the radio and I enjoyed the complete silence.
"Esme?" My voice sounded far away.
"Yes sweetheart." The way she said sweetheart made me feel warm on the inside. I could tell by her tone of voice, she meant what she said. Perhaps after adopting 5 teenagers, taking me home for the night didn't seem as so much trouble for her.
"Where will I sleep?" It felt weird asking her this, but it was the only thing I was worried about. Alice and Rosalie hadn't been mysterious about the fact they were a couple with Jasper and Emmet. Edward had said it himself, they shared a bedroom.
"Oh, don't worry about that. We'll work something out. Move around the boys to get you a comfortable place to sleep." She replied with a soft chuckle as she turned into their driveway.
Rosalie and Alice were already waiting outside for me. "Bella, we're giving you Edwards room. Rosalie just finished it for you." Grunting inwardly I let them pull me inside. Great after asking him to leave me alone, I was now invading his personal space.
Alice took my hand and started to show me around upstairs. At the far end of the hallway was Edwards room, it felt weird to be in his room.
"Rose, would you mind staying with me?" I looked at my friend, remembering how good a listener she had been last Saturday. Hoping she would I sat down on the edge of the bed.
Her beautiful face warmed but the light didn't seem to reach her eyes. "Sure."
Closing the door behind her Alice quickly left the room and Rosalie walked over to the bed. Sitting down on the end also, turning to look at me. "What is it you would like to talk to me about?"
Relieved she understood why I had asked her to stay I took a deep breath.
"It's Edward. I know what he is."
Nervous I looked at Rosalie. In return Rosalie was looking at me with big eyes, seeming stunned by my words.
"Edward... we dated. I understand now why he was acting so weird, it must be tough to be around your ex-girlfriend." Not really understanding why this afternoon I had been angry at him, and now... was I defending him? Mentally I slapped myself. Find that angry feeling that had made me tell him to leave me alone.
Across me on the bed Rosalie still hadn't moved.
I could feel her cold stare burn my skin, making my face flushed. Fiddling with my sleeve I looked down, trying to feel less uncomfortable. It wasn't working.
"You remembered that Edward is your ex-boyfriend? That is what you want to talk to me about?" The words came out very slowly, her voice full of relieve. She leaned back and let out a nervous chuckle.
"Yes" Not understanding what had first caused her so much stress and after that hade made the stress disappear so quickly. "I've made such a fool of myself." This time my voice cracked as I spoke.
"After coming home from the hospital, I didn't remember anything. Then Renee found a diary, she gave it to me. But when I started reading it, it was horrible. The things I wrote were horrible." Letting my tears flow freely, I knew if I didn't stop talking soon... there would be no stopping. My tears made Rosalie's laughter stop and she scooted closer to me.
"Oh Bella. I'm so sorry, if we had known. Alice or myself, we could have told you." This time she grabbed my arm and pulled me into a tight hug.
"It's just.. you don't understand. I loved him so much Rosalie. How could I have ever lost all my memories of him?" Sobbing in her shoulder I let her hold me. Finding comfort in her cold strange hug. I looked up at her, tears making my visions blurry but at the moment didn't really matter to me.
The past few days had been terrible. Thinking back, first Edward had hurt me by ignoring me, after that he had hurt me by flirting with a stranger, then he had flirted with me, tricked me into studying with him, confused me to the point where I had the most awful nightmare I could remember ever having and now today the text messages. And all of this, shouldn't have mattered to me if deep down I wouldn't still have feelings for him.
Remembering what it said in the diary about him my heart broke a little more. He had left me, saying I couldn't come with him because he didn't want me anymore.
"He must have been happy to come back and find out I had lost my memories of him. At least he wouldn't have to deal with a lovesick loser following him around." To my surprise Rosalie grabbed my shoulders, I winched at the pain as she gripped me a little bit too tight.
"Bella Swan, don't you say that." Her eyes looked black, furious as she spoke to me.
"My brother, with all his flaws.. has one thing good in him. That is his love for you. It took me a while to figure that out." Her voice sounded tormented as she gave me time to process her words before she continued.
Before any one of us could say anything the door flew open and I looked up to see Edward in the doorway. His entire body tensed up at the sight of Rosalie and me. Or at least I hoped it was the both of us, not just me.
His expression was hostile almost making me want to crawl away and hide from him. Rosalie opened her mouth to say something but as quick as he had appeared, even faster did he make it out of the door. For a moment I thought I'd imagined all of it. But I knew I was wrong because the door was open and it should be closed.
Rosalie let go of my shoulders, stood up and looked from me to the door, back to me again. Like she was deciding if she would stay with me or follow her brother. After several minutes there was a soft knock on the door, Alice peeked her head through. To my surprise Rosalie rushed over to meet her, pushing Alice back in the hallway and closing the door behind them. After a few seconds Alice came walking in, elegantly sitting on the bed next to me, folding her legs underneath her body as she turned to face me.
"Bella. I'm so sorry. Rosalie told me what you remember and how Edward just came walking into the room. She's gone to try and talk with him. Don't worry she will find him and reason with him." Her usually bubbly voice sounded tormented.
"You left me, you all left me." Out of nowhere I remembered the feeling of being lost without them. Another headache starting to build at the back of my head as I tried to remember something more. I needed to know, now. Feeling like I was crumbling apart again, I wrapped my arms around me and took a shaky breath.
Alice was sitting close enough to hug me but instead she reached out to my face. Her cold touch feeling like ice on my flushed skin.
"Bella, I'm so sorry for not being able to answer all your questions. I know what you will ask me but please, please understand." Her large golden eyes were now begging me.
" Yes we did leave you behind, I can't tell you why we left. Just know some things happened, things you can't remember. And until you do remember, I can't tell you why we left. But us leaving it was a family decision and Edward.... He hoped it would hurt less....so he lied to you the evening we left."
Her words gave me hope. "He lied to me?"
With sad eyes she looked at me " Yes, he told you he didn't want you but that's not true."
As Alice her words slowly sank into my mind I tried to understand what she had said. Only two things registered, most important Edward didn't want to leave me. And if that was true perhaps that means he still wants me now, loves me also.
Second of all. There was something unspoken between the lines, something she couldn't tell me. A secret. And that secret had everything to do with my memories. Slowly I nodded and in return she smiled a sad smile at me.
"I'll give you some time to think." Excusing herself from me, she skipped out if the room and closed the door behind her. I welcomed the silence and curled up on my side, too exhausted to care this was Edwards room, or Edwards bed. For the first time since loosing my memory and coming home I had a taste of what I was missing and it felt like that missing part of me, could never be replaced.
EPOV
"You're acting like a stalker Edward."
The very rude but true words made me look down from the conversation that was taking place in my room. Rosalie was standing below the tree I was sitting in.
"Want to go for a quick run in the woods?"
Her face was angled up towards me so I could see she had a friendly smile on her face but in her eyes I could see it wasn't a question. This was a demand. Knowing not to refuse anything to my sister when she had that look in her eyes, I took one last glance at my room, Bella was still there with Alice.
I pushed myself of the branch I was sitting on and let myself fall the ground, landing on my feet with a silent thud. Roaslie had already started to move back into the forest, not bothering to wait for me.
Thanks to my vampire vision I had no trouble following her, I could see her blond hair shimmer in the moonlight. Within a few seconds I caught up with her.
She slowed down her pace and smiled at me. "Let's stop here, we're far enough from everyone else to talk." Speaking to me she did her best to hide what it was she wanted to talk to me about....making me curious what was going on.
I slowed down to a walk, joining her in leisurely stroll in the woods. If it hadn't been close to midnight and if we wouldn't be miles away from the nearest hikingtrail, this would seem almost normal. Except this was Rosalie with me and neither of us were normal.
Knowing that the only reason she ever came to talk to me was if she had trouble with Emmet I stopped. "What is going on Rosalie, is everything ok with you and Emmet?" Perhaps they had a falling out over what happened today.
Rosalie turned towards me and grabbed my hand. Very uncharacteristic for her. In her mind I could see her en Emmet.. the picture was very graphic...too graphic. Eeeww ok so no problem with her and the big guy.
"What I wanted was to talk to you." She paused, still thinking of Emmet and her making out in the garage. Hiding her thoughts from me and I found myself curious to know what she would say. Looking at her, I waited. Allowing her to enjoy our little talk.
"About you and Bella."
This surprised me, almost stunned me. Before I could object or question her she looked me in the eyes and again surprised me. They were kind, unlike the Rosalie glare she had perfected in the past half year whenever Bella was around me.
"Please hear me out." This time she didn't speak but begged me with her mind, yes begging was something Rosalie wouldn't do in public.
Folding my arms I stood and waited, giving her a chance to tell whatever it was she needed to tell me.
Rosalie took a deep breath and started talking to me.
" When you came into your room, I was in the middle of a very painful conversation with Bella. At first I was shocked when she told me I know what Edward is. .. but soon I realised she wasn't revering to you being a vampire. She figured out, you are her ex-boyfriend."
Thinking about the text message she had send me this afternoon I felt both relieve and disappointment. "Rosalie, she send me a text saying I know what you are, please leave me alone. She wants me to leave her alone." I couldn't help but feel devastated again as I remembered the words.
"She is a human teenage girl that felt angry and confused this afternoon. You know how they are, at that age humans change their mind a thousand times a day. The only thing that won't change, is the way she feels about you. Even with her memories lost about your relationship together, she feels drawn to you. There is a connection between the two of you that goes deeper than a human crush. You and her, you've bonded on an emotional level, the way vampire's would with their mate. You're a vampire, that would explain why that happened. Don't deny you have these feelings also." The last words made my heart ache, yes I still had these feelings. Rosalie continued talking, carefully watching my eyes as she did.
"She doesn't understand and to make things worse. She did remember some things about you, the wrong things. Plus everyone kept the fact you two dated a secret, for the obvious reasons. You know your history together and I can really understand why you have made an effort to try and stay away from her. "
Already knowing what would come next I folded my arms across my chest, waiting for her to finish. Rosalie had never tried to hide the dislike she felt towards Bella and my relationship with Bella. So far I found her words very mild.
"It took me some time to realise. But this evening when Bella told me how she feels, I can relate to the way she feels. When Carlisle changed me and I started to wake up. I heard you talk about me and knew I had been changed to become your mate. For a moment the prospect of getting my happily ever after made me feel loved. It really excited me. But you turned me down, didn't want me. That really hurt me and for decades made me bitter, I'm over that now offcourse." She smirked at me with a twinkle in her eye.
"Offcourse" I added. Not being able to hold back my laughter at her joke. We both laughed a little while until she became serious again.
"What I'm trying to say Edward. You are pushing her away because you think you are a monster and think she should get the choice to be with you, knowing who and what you are. But right now she feels drawn to you and besides feeling confused and sad about loosing her memories. She now also feels pain without knowing what she is hurting for. It must be terrible for her and you are the only one that can stop it. You have to go tell her you love her, be together with her." As she finished the last words she smiled at me, her eyes showing she meant everything she had told me.
The last sentence left me stunned. I sank to the ground landing on me knees and buried my face in my hands. Right now I felt like my whole world had been turned upside down. The same Rosalie that had once told me it was wrong to be with Bella, was now telling me it was the right thing to do.
A very hesitant touch of her hand on my shoulder made me look up and for the first time ever I could see her resemblance to Esme, her warm heart carefully showing through the cold ice queen facade she carried with so much pride.
My hand went up and covered her fingers, giving them a soft squeeze to acknowledge I understood. Very quickly she pulled her hand back, stepping away from me. "Right that's enough brother sister bonding for one night." She let me know silently.
"Go get your girl Edward!" She laughed excited for me, as she pulled me up by my shoulder. Giving me a push towards the house.
Not waiting for her I went back, entering through the glass doors in my room. There were no curtains in my room and it amused me to see Alice had managed to fit a king-size bed in the tiny space. Bella was sprawled on the bed, fast asleep. She was still wearing her shoes, jeans and bulky sweater. Softly I removed her shoes and pulled the blankets over her legs. I wanted to lay down next to her also and wrap my arms around her, but decided we first needed to talk. Instead I sat on the couch and watched her sleep. Hoping that our talk tomorrow would go as great as everyone expected it would.