Chapter twenty five. Confessions.
Danny pov.
I found my way to the boys bathroom. As i felt that tears were coming from my eyes. I can't handle this any longer. I washed my face with the dirty water from the dancing, i thought it would help to cool me down. I lifted my head to see red eyes appear. I took a deep breath and tried to hold it as long as possible. I felt the world disappear, i was just a black hole. I knew i can't do this to carrie but what am i supposed to do? keep on pretending that everything is right when nothing is? Keep on smiling? I can't take it. Suddenly i was slammed out of the spiral. ''danny what are you doing?'' a concerned dougie asked running thwarts me. ''nothing. What i do best.'' I said running my fingers through my curls. He went to sit next to me on the dirty floor. '' now for real whats up with you lately?'' i sighted. '' i don't know, nothing is right anymore.'' He looked at me ''i got that but why what happened?'' ''swear that you won't tell anything.'' Said. I can't believe that i'm going to tell this. He nodded ''i swear.'' I waited a few minutes. ''remember when we just started? I use to be ill allot? Well i get ill when thing happen to me. good or bad.'' Dougie looked confused. ''and with all the problems lately thingg aren't going great with me either.'' Dougie took another sip of his drink and said ''why didn't you say anything?'' ''cause i'm just me. its not that important anyway.'' He had a smile on his face and said '' sure you are important, don't be silly.'' I looked at him. ''but tell about it.'' I took a deep breath and said. '' its just a depression. I've had many without you guys even knowing so.'' ''wait what?'' ''its no big deal doug. Trust me.'' i should have know that he wouldn't understand. ''well its like this guy once said to me 'we'll get through this together''' my eyes lit up, he remembered this conversation we had almost 8 years ago. It was when he was down because of his dad. Dougie got up and said ''feeling like going back?'' i nodded and grabbed my phone who was practically on the other side of the room.
''there are you!'' carrie said hugging me. ''he was in the bathroom.'' Dougie said going over to deli and wrapping his arms around her. '' you're just in time to cut the pie with me.'' i looked over at tom and he seemed to be okay with it. She took the knife and smiled at me. ''quite dangerous?'' i said jokily probably half the room started to laugh. I smiled at harry who nodded and went to get my birthday present for her. ''carrie?'' i said going on my knee. ''with the blessing of your father and tom i would like to ask you for your hand.'' The expression in her eyes was priceless. With her eyes filled up with tears she jumped into my arms. ''yes.'' She whispered and kissed me. i looked over to her father, he was smiling with her mum and tom by his side. Again everybody was clapping. It seemed to be the theme this evening. At least there was good news. ''i love you.'' she whispered in my ear. ''i love you too.'' I said as i hugged her tighter. Harry shoot me back to reality ''great two are engaged one is almost father and what about me?'' i laughed and wrapped my arm around him '' you? You'll die alone with 40 cats.'' ''cheers mate.'' He said, ''i'm going to be over there.'' he was going over to izzy. Carrie found her way to gi deli and some other girls. ''welcome to the club mate.'' Tom said with a smile ''but know, the rules are the same.'' I raised my eyebrow. Dougie bit his lip seriously. When tom got over to the girls side i said ''don't worry. Its out of my head it's just with times.'' It didn't seem to make him feel better. ''i just got engaged i'm not going to feel bad am i?'' he smiled ''okay.'' I took a deep breath and said ''i'm going to the bathroom if you need me.'' he nodded and got over to harry and izzy. On my way there, there were some people saying congratulations. I nodded friendly and continued my way to the bathroom. Finally alone, i needed this. I went to sit back on the same place as dougie found me. in the cabinet next to me there were two people making out but i don't care. I leaned with the back of my head against the wall and looked up. Why are you doing this to me? i asked myself. Whats wrong with me i just got engaged and my best friend is going to be father, i should be the happiest guy in the world. Why am i not? Why am i still so miserable? Hearing the two people next to me slamming against the wall slapped me back to reality. I got over to the sink and made my face wet again. Looked in the mirror until i had enough strength to go back out. Nothing is as easy as it seems these days. Man up danny your beautiful fiancée is waiting for you outside. I took one last look in the mirror and walked out. ''here is your pie darling.'' Carrie said handing me a big plate filled with pie. I looked at her and found myself smiling for real this time.