My Past and My Future Collide
Chapter 25: The Hurt Always Returns
Mitchie woke up early the next morning. She was happy she made slight progress with Shane. She knew it would be hard explaining the whole summer. She had been denying her feelings for him all along. Got a boyfriend, which would be horrible explaining it to him, the one she loved. Then the stuff with Aaron that was even worse. Then everything coming back and realizing he was the one she needed, but did he need her. Thoughts were running wild. She had 5 days to figure this out get stuff ready for final jam and right now she didn't know which one she wanted to focus on more. All classes and such were working for final jam with extra time scheduled. She decided every second she could spend with Shane to figure this out was what she had to do. She looked at the clock realizing she had an hour before breakfast.
She grabbed her cell phone turning it on quietly so it wouldn't wake her friends who were still asleep for at least another 30 minutes. She finally got her phone opened to a new message screen and sent a message to Shane.
Shane woke up to his phone buzzing violently. He cursed for leaving it on but grabbed it opening it. He squinted his eyes as the light blinded him slightly. When his eyes finally adjusted he read the message form Mitchie. Why was she sending him at 6:30 in the morning?
Shane, if you are awake do you want to meet, I just want to start because everything is crazy with this and final jam, and I can't sleep so if you are awake, Shady Tree 10 minutes? Mitchie
He sighed closing his phone. He threw his blankets to the side and sat up rubbing his tired eyes. He had got some sleep but this was worth the missed 30 minutes. If this meant somehow getting Mitchie as a friend faster he was all for it. He slipped on a wife beater still in his pajama pants. He stepped outside of his cabin stretching his arms out. The sun had now risen and he headed through the dew covered grass to the all too familiar tree. This would be interesting.
He got to the tree and sat down leaning against it looking out at the still water. It was truly gorgeous. He was slightly nervous. The first thing was the music thing. He didn't want her to feel bad but knowing Mitchie she would. Why does he always hurt her but he had to explain it all if it was going to work. He sighed and waited for the girl of his dreams to appear.
Soon Mitchie arrives at the tree. She noticed he is still in his pajamas as she is. She sits beside him in her purple pajamas pants with a t-shirt know on instead of a tank top. She can't help but notice his toned arms and chest wearing his wife beater.
"Hi" She said quietly
"Hi" He said back smiling a little
"Did I wake you" She asked
He didn't want to make her feel bad. "No" he said confidently
"Okay, I'm glad" She smiled
"So should we explain the first thing, because I know I have a few things to explain" He said
Instantly her mind went into panic mode her mind flashing her every picture of everything she did this summer. He would not forgive her. Getting together with Trevor, writing songs about forgetting him, and that he was not worth her time. Letting Tess get pictures of her with Trevor which was horrible and sending them to Shane. She loved him but he would not forgive her even if he did love her. All the make-out sessions and the late nights out with him everything flooded her mind. The Aaron thing that was even worse.
"Shane, I can't" She said quietly
"Why not?" he asked kind of surprised it was her idea and she was the only definitely willing to do so
"We have forgave each other for lying but I don't know if we could forgive each other for things over the summer" She said sadly
This time his mind wandered. He saw Jenny everywhere his mind took him. He had really spent a lot of time with her. Now she was probably holding him back because he knew Mitchie wouldn't forgive form claiming he loves her then kissing Jenny multiple times. She hadn't claimed she loved him then got with Trevor. She screamed at him that she hated him. She would never forgive him she would have a harder time then he would. The image of them kissing that just he wouldn't get over that and he knew that. This wouldn't work how could they ever be friends again? They couldn't. Wow it's really over.
"I agree" He says almost sad
He had made progress with her. It was getting better or worse it was just stopped there and apparently that's where it was staying. They were hurt all over again but different this time. He was so close yet she was so far away. He was so close to her yet it seemed impossible that he would forgive her, she knew he wouldn't. He didn't want to push that they could work this out. He couldn't it was over.
"I'm sorry Shane. We can talk but I think this friend's thing just won't work" She said hiding tears it was her turn to cry though
"I'm sorry too" He said. He felt guilty if he came here in the first place they wouldn't be concluded they couldn't be friends.
"Goodbye Shane" She said quietly standing up
"Goodbye" Shane said as he watched her walk away
This sucked. All hyped about working this out and it just fell apart. He tried and now it was over, he failed. He still wanted to sing his emotions out but he couldn't help but one tears fall down his face. He didn't want to face this. He slowly made his way to his cabin and crawled into bed the curtains pulled tightly closed at the windows. He locked his door and pulled the blankets over his head. He just wanted to stay here and grieve. He lost her, the next time he would face her was when he was singing his heart out. Not that it would change anything but he worked so hard for the one song he wasn't giving up. That song will be heard even if it tears him apart.
Mitchie walked away from the tree as fast as possible. She didn't want him to see her cry, what she was currently doing as she walked. Her eyes were going blurry from her wet stinging tears. She stumbled on the grass a couple of times then clearing her tears as much as possible. She heads to the kitchen. She was almost there when she saw her mom almost inside.
"Mom" She choked out and Connie turned around to see her daughters face covered in fresh tears
"Sweetie" Connie said walking over to Mitchie fast
Mitchie instantly hugged her mom. She wrapped her arms tight around her mom hugging her leaning her own head on her mom's shoulder. Connie wrapped her own arms around her daughters trembling body. Connie felt horrible. She knew instantly it was closure and she knew closure was never really tolerable.
"It's… Its… over" Mitchie said sobbing into her mom's shoulder and Connie sighed
"Sweetie let's go to my cabin" She suggested and Mitchie just nodded
Mitchie and Connie walked to Connie's cabin. Mitchie sat down on the one bed she had used for a few hours last summer. She sat on it curling her legs up to her chest wrapping her arms around them and putting her hear on her knees still sobbing a little. Connie sits beside her and rubs her back.
"Sweetie I have to go finish something quickly before everyone gets there then I will be right back okay" Connie asks
"Sure Mom" Mitchie said as Connie left the cabin
Mitchie lay on the bed still holding her legs to her chest. Yesterday she was so happy and excited they were trying to work it out and less than twelve hours it was gone again. This sucked and she was crushed. She knew closure would hurt but not this much I guess the hurt will always return, unfortunately.
Connie goes back to the kitchen sighing. She figures Shane is held up in his cabin. Since he wasn't in the mess hall or in the kitchen for food, they both love each other and she knew that, but why didn't they? She fixed the plate wrapping it in saran wrap then walking to his cabin knocking on the door.
"Go away" A depressed sounding Shane replied
"Shane, its Connie I have food for you" She said politely
"I'm not hungry" He replied knowing Connie was just thinking about him
"Please Shane, you don't have to eat just try?" She asks hoping he would stay healthy
Soon Shane opened the door quietly and Connie walked in placing the plate on the little table in the single cabin. She saw Shane with red eyes and a couple of tears down his cheek. He looked terrible and she knew it was bad.
"Shane, you will be okay" She says softly
"Eventually" He said sighing and sitting down "Closure sucks" He concludes
"Shane, it usually does" She continues
"I know, and thanks for helping but this is it" he says "The real deal"
"Well it is if that's what you think it is" She said
"It is and thank you" He says still sitting there heart broken
"Good luck with your song" She says leaving closing the door letting Shane be alone as he locks it once again
Shane sighs well sitting on his bed again. This was horrible. Connie wanted them together and they both gave up. They didn't have another choice though, he couldn't tell her about Jenny. He had to sing her the song at least. He sighed laying down covering his face with blanket again. Tears start rolling again and he sighs missing the one he loves.
Mitchie was slowly drifting asleep on the bed in her mom's cabin. She tried to dry her tears but they kept flowing. She thought she had cried a lot this summer but nothing compared to this. She wasn't crying though she was sobbing. It was like the world was over; anyway that's what it would seem like if you saw her. However the only thing that was over was her and Shane and it was breaking her apart yet again. She loved him, can finally admit it, and then realizes the most painful thing, they can never be.
This was running through her head really vividly until she fell asleep with a really sad and awful dream. She was tossing and turning in her sleep when Connie came in. She was ready to cry, the dream was horrible.
She was in a plain blank white room. There were flowers, balloons and teddy bears. She looked over to see an IV attached to her hand. Why was she in the hospital? She felt very weak and she was struggling to keep her eyes open. She heard the steady beat on the heart monitor yet it was slightly weak.
She suddenly felt a squeeze on her hand and on instinct she squeezes back. She lifted her hand seeing it was slightly wrinkled and so was the others, however it was a male's hand. She slowly tried to lift herself up but failed. Soon the chair was brought closer and saw the eyes and body of an elderly Shane Gray. In her eyes he was still just as gorgeous as when they were younger.
She smiled slightly as he returned it and sighed.
"Mitch, you are awake" He smiled slightly
"Yeah, I'm really tired Shane" Mitchie said running a hand noticing it is gray
They were both elderly probably in their 80's. Mitchie was in bad shape in the hospital. Shane was there. Even if they had been separated when they were younger he was there. She sighs her eyes getting heavy the heart rate on the monitor slowing. She was getting weaker
Shane sat their holding her hand knowing she was fading. He said slightly squeezing her delicate hand as she returned the squeeze lightly.
"Shane what are you doing here?" She asks
"Being where I should've been a long time ago" She looked at him confused "At your side"
"Shane, you found your true love and had a wonderful family, you should be with them" Mitchie told him her eyes getting even heavier
"Mitchie, you had a family too but Jenny wasn't my true love" He said slowly knowing she still didn't know about that one summer
"Then why did you marry her?" She asked confused
"Because I couldn't be with my true love" He said
"Who was your true love?" She asked
"It was you Mitchie, that's why I am here" He said "I have and always will love you" He said quietly
Mitchie sighs her eyes closing "I always loved you too Shane, but we were just too different" She says laying her head back down
"I know but I love you Mitchie" He says standing up stroking her hair
"I love you Shane" She sighed quietly and fell asleep
Soon Shane heard the constant beeping of the heart monitors flat line. He leaned over kisses her forehead then left the room with the help of the nurses as the doctors rushed in to unsuccessfully save his love. He was with her for her final moments.
"SHANE" She screamed struggling within the blankets as Connie walked into the cabin. Mitchie was kicking under the blankets. Tears were streaming down her face. Connie walked over shaking her daughter gently
"Mitchie, sweetie wake up" She called
"NO, don't let me die SAVE ME!" She screamed crying hysterically
"Mitchie" Her mom called shaking her again and Mitchie shot up shaking violently
"Mom" She called hugging her mom crying again
"It's okay sweetie it was just a bad dream" She said hugging her daughter
"It was a horrible dream mom" She said sniffling
"It's over its not real, do you want to talk about it" She asked and Mitchie shook her head
"I can't" She said removing her head from her mom's shoulder
"Okay, how about you watch a movie or rest, you probably need it" Her mom suggested
"I have class" Mitchie exclaimed
"No, Mitchie its okay I talked to Brown you are excused for today
"Thanks mom" She said hugging her
"Sweetie I know this is hard but you will get through it I know you will" Her mom said squeezing her daughter's hand
"Thank you mom, I will" She said
"We are all here for you" Her mom said
"Thanks, do you mind if I stay her for now?" Mitchie asked
"No go ahead I do have to go back to the kitchen though" Her mom said
"Okay bye mom, I'm not coming to lunch but maybe dinner" Mitchie said and her mom nodded as she left.
Mitchie slowly laid down again closing her eyes. She eventually fell to a dreamless sleep. No dreams were disturbing her. However her face was still covered in tears. Why was it so hard? Right she was in love with someone she could never be with, right?
Caitlyn stepped out of her the classroom and into the warm sun. She was heading towards her second class. She was confused that Mitchie wasn't there and she was hoping she was alright. She was almost to eh cabin when she saw her boyfriend running full tilt towards the cabin area. What was he doing?
"NATE!" Caitlyn screamed her curious mind causing her legs to chase him "NATE" she called out of breath hoping Nate would stop.
She was getting closer when he finally heard her and turned around to see her stop almost right in front of him breathing heavy. "Where are you going, so fast?" She asked
"I have to go see Shane, Jason is on his way so his brown" Nate says breathing heavily
"Is he okay?" She asked surprised
"No I don't think so" He said catching his breath
"Apparently him and Mitchie said goodbye for good or something" He said and Caitlyn's eyes went wide "Apparently it's over and he locked himself in his cabin, he let Connie in with food but for maybe 3 minutes. I would love to spend time with you but he really needs me" He said
"Where's Mitchie?" Caitlyn asked
"I think with Connie or at her cabin" Nate said
"Bye Nate" Caitlyn said kissing him quick
He returned the kiss "Yeah bye babe, I will catch up with you later" Then took off running
She saw him running. Wow it was bad if Shane locked himself in the cabin. Caitlyn finally thought of Mitchie. She needed her immediately. Caitlyn took off towards Connie's cabin forgetting about class only worried about Mitchie at that exact moment.
Shane was still under his covers avoiding Brown and Jason who were currently on his porch. He was ignoring their begging for him to let them in. He did not want to though. Why couldn't they just let him be alone? He sighed trying to drown them out. Soon enough they heard them leave then heard a slight knock on the back door.
"GO AWAY!" Shane screamed
"Shane" He heard a whisper and knew it wasn't Brown or Jason
He sighed, only Nate would no to go to the back door. Shane forgot to lock that one, since it was the only cabin with one.
"Fine" Shane said still laying under the blankets
He heard Nate slowly enter and pull a chair to the door to hold it closed. Nate sat on the bed and Shane felt him do so. Shane slowly removed the blankets form his face and Nate and sadness all over his face. His best friend and practically his brother was definitely sad Shane's eyes were red and puffy. His hair was disheveled and sticking up in places. His cheeks were stained with dry tears and he just looked sad, purely sad.
"Shane what happened" Nate asked concerned
"I don't want to talk about it" he said honestly
"Shane, you obviously need someone to tell you something or to say something otherwise you would've screamed and told me to go away even though the back door can't lock" He stated
"No you would've came in anyway" Shane said
"Shane I respect your wishes, you said I could now what happened" Nate asked
"We just ended it" He said
"Ended what you never really started" Nate states
"We aren't friends we ended all that Nate" Shane speaks upset
"But why" Nate asked
"We were going to try to be friends, but we can't" Shane said upset yet again
"Why, yes you can" He said
"She won't be able to forgive me for what I did this summer Nate, you know that" Shane said
"She could if you told her and you will forgive her" Nate said
"It's not that easy I won't be able to forgive her for getting with Trevor, I thought I could, and yeah it's not as bad as I did but I would have one hell of a time trying to say I forgive her and mean it" He says
"How can she not forgive you" He asked
"I sent her a text message saying I love her then I go get really close with Jenny and kiss her numerous times, yeah she'll forgive me" Shane said and Nate sighed
"Right" He said "Well why can't you forgive her and try"
"Because I won't be able to forgive her fully" Shane said "She even said I wouldn't be able to, we are just better off this way"
"I thought you were fighting for it" Nate stated
"I was and I lost, I am going to sing to her, it won't change anything but I am letting it out: He said "After this summer it just has to be over, for good" Shane concluded choking up a little bit
"Shane, just don't lose yourself over this, if it is meant to be it will work out" Nate said standing up
"I will leave you alone okay, just come for dinner after" Nate said looking at the discarded breakfast plate
"Not tonight" Shane said "I can't"
"Alright I will bring you food but be safe if you need me text me" Nate said putting the chair back in its normal place
"Alright" Shane said sighing lying back in bed
"Bye" Nate said closing the back door as he leaves.
Shane laid there in plain silence letting the moments past. He loves Mitchie nothing would change that. It truly was better left unsaid. Always was now that it is revealed everything fell apart. They can't even be friends. Life sucked. He laid there letting sleep take his body over.
A/N: Sorry I took so long this week has been well hectic. Just really busy! I know it isn't that great of a chapter. It was kind of sad with the Dream and all that. There is 5 Chapters left in this story. The next two are solo chapters. One is Shane one if Mitchie it works to set up the final 3 chapters. Anyway please read and review, since it is so close to ending. I have 148 and I have to thank all the readers! Keep reading and sorry for errors.
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Summaries...
Some Say Opposite attract, I disagree
Mitchie Torres and Shane gray are each part of one of the most famous, rich and known families in the world. They are both freshman in an away from home private school. They both attend their planning to own it. Both of them want to own it, and plan to dominate it. It's the want, the need of power and similarities that bring the two together. Will similarities be the reason to stick together, or again do opposite attract
THAT WAS THE FIRST CHOICE SEOCND CHOICE IS….
Just your average guy right?...wrong
Mitchie Torres is ready to leave New York at the age of 20 and has sent out flyers for jobs all over the United States and lands a sweet deal. A job teaching a teenage girl the joy of piano and music, piece of cake right? WRONG. One problem, she is rich and into everything but music. Mitchie moves to Palm Springs living in now an extravagant house as Palm Beach is very rich. Besides just teaching music he meets a guy, Shane Gray. He is a rich member of the Palm Springs. Girls are always acting so when he meets Mitchie who is new he starts over. He introduces himself as Shane. He doesn't tell her or lead on that he is rich, basically hiding one side of him to her. When she finds out does that change everything and had romance already blossomed. He is just no average guy but was that just it was she just and average girl?
Please let me know if you haven't done so already.
~Kim