Chapter 25 - Bella's POV
You know Jasper is almost as bad as Edward with the whole guilt thing. He hangs onto things for way too long. Like Edward would never forgive himself for leaving I'm sure Jasper would do the same about attacking me last year. It must be a vampire thing…. Or maybe just a guy thing, either way I didn't understand it.
Edward stood with his arm wrapped around my waist for a moment before I felt myself flung into his arms and in the same moment deposited on the bed in our room. His body hovering over me his lips met mine with an electricity that sent heat waves down my entire body. I had barely seen him in the last two days and lucky for him I had been sleeping or he would have gotten a real ear full. At present wrapped around him my hands in his hair kissing an angel fallen to earth I was not complaining.
As he kissed me I slowly wrapped my leg over his hooking my heal around back of his knee pulling myself closer to him. His hand pulled my shirt up and I felt the ice cold satin of his hand against my ribcage. He pulled his lips away from mine leaving me gasping. "Is this okay?" his eyes were locked on mine. "Yes…. But…" He instantly removed his hand with my hesitation. He moved to pull away entirely but my leg wrapped around his held him. "Bella…." He moved a hand around to unhook my leg but I held on with all my might
"Edward Stop." I crushed my lips to his sucking on his bottom lip my hand once again in his hair. With my other hand I grabbed his sliding it once again up my body. Placing it gently over my left breast. I heard a deep growl coming from inside his chest as he gently flexed his fingers over my skin. The sensation of his cold skin on mine had my hart beating faster and my breathing to the point of hyperventilating. His kisses left my mouth and gently made their way down my neck and across to my shoulder. His cool breath on my skin made me gasp again.
The most perfect moment in my life until this point was then dashed as I realized I was once again alone in bed.
Lifting my head from the pillow I looked around to find Edward sitting on the cold stone windowsill
his face hidden in his hands. "Edward?" I sat up pulling my knees to my chest. He stood and faced the window. I head him breath a few deep breaths. "I'm sorry Bella…" He stood like a statue in a ray of moonlight motionless. I got off the bed and tip toed over to him the stone floor freezing against the souls of my feet I wrapped my arms around his waist. "What's wrong? Edward?" He pulled me off my feet sitting me on the desk. His hand gently brushing the hair out of my eyes. "It's this place, I can't…. we can't be together here." "Edward, didn't you say we had to work with what we are given?"
A slight grin crossed his face "Bella, you know how much I want you. You have no idea how much I want to make you happy but…" "But what Edward, it's you and me like always making out after my father falls asleep like always. Nothing has changed except the room. Unless there's something your not telling me." He leaned down and kissed me passionately on the lips and I locked my hands around his neck feeling him grab my waist. He lifted me off my feet and deposited me back on the bed.
After a few more minutes of amazing kissing he broke away "Sorry but I have to ask…. Why did you say 'but'? why did you hesitate?" I grinned at him "Because your silly, you asked me if it was alright if you touched me there when you very well know it's fine. For cripes sake Edward you were acting like it was the first time you touched me." He looked thoughtful for a moment and the half grin that makes me melt came across his face. "That is because Ms. Swan, my reality and my fantasies have been becoming more and more intertwined, I'm having a hard time keeping them straight." I sucked my bottom lip into my mouth nervously. "Bella…. Did I say somth…" "No, no… it's just…. You have fantasies, about me?" He rolled over puling me half onto his chest. Kissing my forehead. "Bella, if my fantasies about you were known to the world your father would have shot me the first time he met me."
I opened my mouth to say something but settled for resting my cheek against his chest and falling asleep while he twirled my hair around his fingers. This is what it was like to be completely and utterly in love.
Several hours later I woke to find a note written in Edward's hand.
Bella my love,
Last night also made my list of top ten nights. I cannot wait to make that list longer.
You are my heart and one true love.
I will be back to you with all the speed I can muster.
Edward
P.S. Take care of my heart I left it with you.
I rolled into the void Edwards body had left clenching the note to my chest and fell back asleep.