I'm alive!
Sorry about the huge unannounced Hiatus
This might get confusing so, when its this Rukia thinking to herself. When it's this, it's Yuki thinking to herself.
This will be continued in the next chapter because right now, it's brimming with too much emotions and I figured, I'd separate it where Rukia's emotions and feelings are throughly expressed in the next chapter.
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It went quiet, just as Rukia promised.
Ichigo felt the tension all around him as Rukia sat still while holding onto Yuki's hand. He noticed Yuki squeezing her Rukia's hand as she sucked in her lips. Yuki is doing this for Rukia, because, if Yuki had her way, Ichigo would have to face Yukiko and run the risk of losing Yuki.
"Yuki." Ichigo addressed oddly, "I know I've done some stupid things and I fully apologize for what I put you through..."
You aren't sorry! You're only sorry because no one loves you!
Hm? Apologizing? Heh, your words are meritless...
"Rukia," Ichigo's attention now focuses in on a raven haired woman who patiently sat across from him. "We bother were young and I was torn between you and Inoue.."
So you never loved mom?
I was just an option?
"But when I got you pregnant, I knew I had to do the right thing and marry you."
Are you trying to say you were forced to marry mom?
You pitied me.
"I loved you as much as I could. I'd spend time at work thinking about going home to you smiling..."
So I'm guessing this was before the wretched Yuki entered your life.
Only because you pitied me...
"But there has been times where I thought to myself, what if Rukia wasn't pregnant?"
Then the wretched Yuki wouldn't exist and mom would be happier with her life.
You never fully loved me? Is that it?
"But I'd shake it off and think of Rukia smiling. After all, Rukia and I are destined to be together..."
That bullshit won't fly! Mom could see right through that!
Yet that wasn't enough for you to keep your hands off of her..
"Then Yuki was born.."
This time-this time Yuki's hand tightly squeezes Rukia's hand and Rukia knew. Rukia knew no matter how angry-how disgusted she is with Ichigo, She has to be there for Yuki. Rukia mustn't break down in sobs and hysterics because, if she does, Yuki would think it's all her fault her parents had a divorce.
"It was the moment your life died isn't it?"
Rukia's eyes widen the moment Yuki uttered those words as tears streamed down Yuki's red puffy cheeks. The hurt in Yuki's voice was felt and Rukia knew Ichigo felt it too. Yuki was in pain and Rukia's motherly instincts kicked in.
Slender arms wrapped around a crying, sniffling Yuki who can't seem to catch a breath.
To be known as nothing more than an option?
To be known you weren't wanted?
The pained anger Yuki bottled up has fully unleashed itself.
Muffled screams and angry stomps against the floor was nothing Rukia couldn't handle. After all, Rukia understands the pain Yuki is going through, and knows Yuki must let it out in order for her to grow- because of this, Rukia envies Yuki.
Yuki has all the moral support she needs. Where she can unleash her emotions anytime she wanted to and there would be a guaranteed safety net to catch her if she happens to spiral down into the dark pits of despair. But Rukia? The one Byakuya calls his only pride? The only one Yuki always rely on?
The pressure of being the only one that feels as if the weight of the world is crashing down on her and there is nothing you can do but smile as the pain starts to slowly eat you alive.
A flusted Ichigo watches Rukia and Yuki confused. Was he suppose to wit and watch or was he suppose to slowly leave the tension filled room, or was he to stay behind and attempt to coax Yuki?
Letting out a metal sigh, Ichigo gets up off his seat as he slowly advances Rukia whose hugging onto a sobbing Yuki. Though, the moment he got a little too close, Rukia looks up at Ichigo who was desparate for an answer. He just wanted to make things right.
"Rukia?" Ichigo's voice quietly called for her and Rukia knew. From just the look in his eyes he too was pained to see Yuki like that. He wanted to be the father he was suppose to be to Yuki.
"Go away!" Rukia angrily mouthed. "You're going to make her angrier!"
"Just let me hug her. Just this once." Ichigo mouthed back with a pleading undertone as Rukia holds onto Yuki tighter as she thought to herself, Kurosaki is making an effort to comfort Yuki... Should I deny his chance?
Does he deserve a chance?
Letting out a soft sigh, "Yuki..." Rukia softly mumbled against Yuki's hair, "You have to be strong now...You're a Kuchiki and Kuchiki women are strong. When Kuchiki women are strong, they have to do things they don't like-"
"But mom!"Yuki screamed against Rukia's chest, "He doesn't deserve to to tell his side first! He doesn't know how hard you cried during the countless nights we were at uncle Byakuya's place. The countless sleepless nights when I had to come and make sure you were okay! The didn't even care about us until now!He's only sorry because he has no one to love!"
This here-this pained Rukia when Yuki reminded her the sleepless nights at Byakuya's place. The nights where Yuki would pretend to be pained and ask to be with her just to comfort Rukia and makes sure she was okay with everything.
"Yuki.." Rukia continued to softly talk to her, "If you wish to be older, you have to be strong Yuki... You're a Kuchiki and Kuchiki women are strong... You have to learn when things don't always go as you want. You can't change-"
"Fate." Ichigo breathlessly finished. "You can't change fate."
This here-this here pissed Yuki off. If Ichigo was destined to marry and be happy with Rukia, he would wouldn't have done that hussy-but he did and this is the price he has to pay.
Fate? Yuki though inwardly Screw fate!
With puffy red cheeks and stuffy nose, Yuki manages to look at Rukia as she manges to sputter, "Mom... You aren't going to buy that pathetic excuse are you- I mean, you can't possibly let Kurosaki back in so easily.. Not after what he did to us..."
A smile forms on Rukia's lips as she thought to herself, You've grown so much Yuki....
"But Yuki-"
"NO!" Yuki angrily stomps her foot. She refuses to let Ichigo back in so easily.
"Don't let Kurosaki win you over with a-"
"Yuki~" Rukia calmly cooed, "You need to stop interrupting me and let me finish what I want to say.."
Quickly wiping the tears from her eyes and snot from her nose with her sleeves, Yuki sharply gasps between her words. "O-o-oh Ok-kay-kay Mom..."
With nothing but a warm comforting smile, Rukia sweetly taps Yuki's nose, "Let's let Kurosaki finish his pitiful story so you can have your turn..."
Nodding her head, Yuki sports a big bright smile-dispite having puffy red cheeks and a stuffy nose, Yuki manages to happily sputter, "Okay!"
Kissing Yuki on her head, Rukia quietly whispers, "Remember Yuki, you're the only one I'll ever truely love..."
"But you can't only love me though..." Yuki slyly added. "You have to save some love for maybe uncle Renji, Hisgai fuku taichou, or Hirako Tai-"
"What about me?" Ichigo quickly added with an optimistic smile, "Maybe some for me?"
"No." Yuki quickly quipped. "No love for you."
Quiet laughter escapes Rukia's mouth as she nudges Yuki, "Go on now, let him finish.."
"But Mooommmm..." Yuki pouts, "Do I have to?"
"You're a Kuchiki, Yuki, and-"
"And Kuchiki women are strong..." Yuki disgustingly chimed. "But I'm still a little girl.. I'm not a woman yet.."
A sly grin crept upon Rukia's face once she started to pat dry Yuki's face with her white silken sleeve. "Yuki..." Rukia sweetly cooed, "You can't keep go back and forth from being a little girl and a big girl..."
"But I can be a big little girl!" Yuki eagerly chimed with her head held high. "That way you can always sing to me before I go to bed."
Playful laughter spills out from Rukia's mouth as she taps Yuki on her nose, "Come, let's go and show Kurosaki how strong Kuchiki women are..."
A smile and nod was all that was need to get Yuki happily back to her seat, something Ichigo would never understand.
Seating herself next to Yuki who holds onto Rukia's hand, Rukia looks at Yuki smiling as she whispers to her, "Remember Yuki, Kuchiki women are strong."
Ichigo, who nows sit across from both Yuki and Rukia, feels the love and care radiating from them. He longs to be part of that.
He wants the family he once had.. He wants the family he left behind back.
But Yuki isn't letting it happen... Not that easily...
Clearing his throat, Ichigo hesitantly continues.
"After Yuki wax born, I loved her the moment I saw her. I made sure I loved her as much as I loved you Rukia."
If you loved us you won't have left us.
You didn't love us. You loved Inoue..
"But, there were times where I couldn't handle the pressure of being a father. After all, there were many things I wanted to do after high school..."
You're basically telling us, mom and I were holding you back in life?
We were nothing but dead weight?
"That was when I started to talk to Inoue..."
Yes, that wretched sea cow that nearly destroyed mom and I made her move on a sad excuse of a man.
Of course, this is the moment you and my best friend backstabbed me without me knowning at the moment...
"It started off as friendly talks at late night coffee shops... but it was that one night-"
"I know what happened that night." Yuki callously chimed. "Yuriko and I know wha-"
"Yuki..." Rukia sweetly coos, "What did I say about Kuchiki wo-"
"But being a Kuchiki woman also means you don't take shit from a sad excuse of a man." Yuki quickly retorted as she stared at Ichigo. Yuki wasn't going to make it easy for Ichigo. Hell, she plans on making it so awkward and difficult for him, Yukiko would be proud.
"Yu-"
"No." Yuki quickly cuts Rukia off. This time-this time Yuki will have her voice heard, regardless of what Rukia has to say.
"No mom. No." Yuki quickly added before Rukia said anything else. "He has to hear what he put us through. The tears we wasted on him meant nothing to him. He doesn't know what it truly feels like to be nothing a mistake to someone. He doesn't care about us enough to even think what would happen if he screwed that thing. He doesn't know about the sleepless nights we had. The times where we always looked down upon because of what he did. Even Uncle Byakuya couldn't even bear to look at us for the first two weeks we were there. Plus, he" Yuki disgustingly notions Ichigo, "doesn't even know why he is sorry and the worst thing of it all, he always tried to tell us how he felt but he never asked us how we felt. He doesn't even care what we have to say because he is too busy trying to tell his side because he-heh, he doesn't care about what we have to say because, if he did, then maybe-JUST MAYBE. Maybe, he might gain a THIN shred of respect from me. MAYBE."