Chapter 25 Screw the rules

Randy's POV

To hell with Hunter and his warning, I wanted Raven and one way or another I was going to have her, even if it took me forever. I had never felt this way about anybody, not even my ex wife so I wasn't going to pass up the chance just because Hunter was throwing his weight around. I made my way up to her room later that night hoping that she was awake and hoping that she would talk to me after me being a jerk. I just looked at the wooden door for a moment wondering what I was going to say, I figuered the truth should do it. With three blasting taps I waited patiently for her to answer. I knocked again hoping that I had the right room.

"Who is it?"

"Randy"

"Randy?"

"As in world heavyweight champion Randy Orton, the Apex predator, the legend killer, the viper"

Halfway through my speil of names she opened the door, that cold ice in her eyes. "What do you want?"

"I was hoping we could talk" I said softly my heart tried not to crack when I saw that look in her eyes.

"Well I'm listening" She said leaning against the door

"This was a conversation I was hoping to have inside"

Sighing she stepped back "Well come in, I guess"

We took a seat at the foot of her bed, I was inches from her and I badly wanted to take her hands in mine but I didn't really feel like being punched at that point in time so I left it.

"If you've been avoiding me throughout the weeks I wouldn't of noticed, I've been really busy" She said bluntly, instantly the hurt flared up in my eyes "Yeah see I have noticed I just don't get why, I thought we were friends"
"We are friends Rae"

"Oh I thats how people show their friendship these days, sorry I was mistaken"

I let out a heavy sigh, I didn't expect her to make this easy "Raven there's something I have to tell you"

In one big breath I told her why I was avoiding her and what happened with AJ. At the end of it she just looked at me blankly.

"Wait, thats why you've been avoiding me? I thought it was because..."

She trailed off again, I saw that look in her eyes, like she was about to say something important but stopped herself just in time.

"Because why?"

"I suddenly thought I repulsed you" Raven mumbled looking down at her scarred hands.

"You could never repulse me. Raven I really like you and I would like a chance for you to see that"

She shook her head slowly "I don't think so Randy"

"Raven please I'm just asking for a chance, right now the only one I want is you"

"Yeah right now. What happens in a couple of days? A couple of weeks? A couple of months? A couple of years?"

"Raven I only want you, I want to try a relationship with you and if that means no touching at all then so be it"

"I can't do that to you Randy, relationships are hard enough but being in one with me will be ten times as hard, your life is hard enough without adding me into the mix"

"So your not even willing to try?"

She looked at me sadly "I did try once and all I got was pain. I've had enough pain now I just wanna be left alone"

I stood up apparently this was a waste of time, no I wasn't giving up, I just wanted to give her room to breathe. "Ok"

"Ok?"

I just shrugged "Ok. I'll see you tomorrow at work"

I left her sitting at the foot of the fancy bed to think.

After Randy left Raven put her head in her hands wondering if she had done the right thing. If being alone was the right thing then why did she feel nothing but an empty sadness. She had no idea what to do, she wanted Randy but at the same time she didn't want Randy. Sighing she took out the coin her sister had given her, when she was lost the coin made her choice and now she was lost more than ever.

"Heads I do it, tails I leave him be"

Nerves raked her system as she tossed the coin and caught it in her hands. She didn't want to look at it for fear of what she could be looking at. Slowly she moved her hand and looked at the shiny metal, a smile made its way across her face, it was exactly what she was hoping for.