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BPOV
I turn the sticks over in my hands and shake them. I'm not exactly sure what this is suppose to do by shaking them but for a moment it makes me feel better that the answer is clear.
"Pregnant"
"Pregnant"
"Pregnant"
"Well I guess I'm pregnant then." A tear escapes my left eye and I start to breath heavily. I rest my head against the corner of the baby blue porcelain bathtub and rock back and forth. I stay there for a few minutes to gather myself and try to clear my thoughts. Right now my mind is running a mile a minute and it's going through all the possible scenarios that come with pregnancy. It's a good thing that I'm close to the toilet because I can feel my stomach turn and make its way up. I lean over the ceramic throne and spew my contents into it. My stomach is now empty and bile has taken over in the toilet bowl. Once my stomach has decided enough is enough, I stand and rinse my mouth out with water and take a gulp when I'm done. I put both hands on the sink and look at myself in the mirror. I see my reflection, pale colored skin, full pink lips, deep chocolate brown eyes and dark brown hair. I touch my mouth with my fingers and trace the lines of my lips. I shake my head and cover my mouth completely with my hand. I close my eyes and try to hold back the tears that threaten to slip. After I've composed myself I bring my head back up and look into the mirror again. I take my hand away and a big smile is reflecting back at me.
I love Edward so much and I feel like I've been such a cry baby to him. How he stands me I don't know. Is it really so bad that he's got money? Why is it such a big deal to me? I shouldn't let what happened with my parents years ago influence my current relationships.
What am I going to tell him? Should I tell him right away? Or should I wait and gauge his reactions with Alice?
"Oh God Alice" I moan. She and I are pregnant together, this is way too much to handle. Actually, this is going to be too much for Edward to handle. Poor guy, I should call him. I should tell him that I don't care about his money, that I love him and want to be with him. Tell him that this break was a stupid STUPID idea. I'm not sure what I was thinking at the time. Maybe I'll tell him it was baby hormones.
"No I can't tell him that." I mutter to myself.
But I should call him and tell him that he's going to be a father. "Oh Shit." I hope he doesn't think that I'm pregnant so I can use him for his money. And I shouldn't do it over the phone.
"OOOHHHHHHH!" Why does this have to be so complicating. I turn to open the door, it swings open and I scream.
"AAAHHHHHH SHIT ANGELA YOU SCARED ME!" I clutch one hand to my shirt and one to my head.
"Actually I think I just peed a little." I look between my legs and notice a small wet spot.
"Oh this is so embarrassing." I look at Angela and her eyes are as large as saucers. She looks around the bathroom and notices the tests. She starts to shake and points a finger to the spot on the floor where three white sticks are resting.
"Is…is…..is….that…..that….what…..what…..Oh just tell me what it is. I think my eyes are deceiving me." She gasps.
"Well now that depends, those there could be many things. It's all about frame of reference Ang." I lean against the door and sigh. I could practice telling Edward with Angela I guess.
"Pregnancy test?"
"Yu-P" I say popping the p.
"There's three of them."
"Yu-P"
"And they all say what exactly?"
"Yu-P"
"NO!"
"Yes!
"NO!"
"YES!"
We stand there for a moment not moving. She's studying my face, our eyes are darting back and forth at each other and I can't keep in my emotions anymore. I smile and start crying tears of happiness. She embraces me in a hug and I grip her with all that I have.
"Is this a good thing Bells?" She whispers into my hair.
"Yes I think so. I mean I'm happy. I love him and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. Yes this is a little out of order, but who says it has to be perfect." She hugs me tighter and I hold onto her while I sob into her shirt. We stay like that for a while and when all my tears are gone and my crying has turned into hiccups, we pull apart.
"When are you going to tell him?" She asks.
"I don't know. Not yet, that's for sure. I want to wait. I still need to get a blood test to confirm what the sticks have already told me, I could be wrong because from my calculations I think that I'm only three weeks. Are you able to take pregnancy tests that early?"
"Sure you can, that's why they came up with them. Don't you ever watch that commercial, gosh, that actress is so serious. It's supposed to be a happy time and she's all business. I mean….."
"Angela! Focus!" I raise my hands in her face.
"Right sorry" She pats me on the back and hands me another tissue.
"I just hope that he's happy and that he wants this baby."
"Ok answer me this." Angela asks leading me to the couch.
"I thought that you were on the pill?"
"Yeah I am, and I've been faithful to it too. I haven't missed a day. Not that I can remember anyways." I tilt my head to the side and think.
"Well you know what they say?" She says straight faced.
"No what do they say?"
"The best protection is abstinence. And from your situation we can see that's been an issue."
"Thanks Nurse Webber." I stand and walk into the kitchen to look for my remaining Twix bar. Angela comes up behind me and leans against the fridge holding the offending craving.
"I just hope you know what you're doing. I Googled Edward Cullen after he came to the house that night and he's got some pretty heavy credentials, he knows how to roll with the best of them. I just don't want to see you get hurt. You're my best friend and I love you. Promise me that you'll be careful." I grab the Twix bar out of her hand and bite off all the caramel and chocolate, throw it in the sink and eat the cookie.
"I promise Ang, I know you're looking out for me and I'm going to be careful."
"Ok good and I'm happy for you, I can't wait to see this little thing." I giggle at her statement and stuff the rest of the bar in my mouth. She turns to walk away down the hall and yells over her shoulder.
"Hey, do you want me to make an appointment at the hospital for you with Dr. Cope? I can make sure it's confidential so Dr. Whitlock can't see it if he's on." I had told Angela that Edward's brother in law was Jasper at the fundraiser dinner considering that they work together.
"Uhhh…sure I guess, tomorrow maybe? I'm flying to Paris first thing in the morning on Monday for a brief meeting and I don't want to be worrying all weekend about it." I yell back at her.
"Sure thing, can you come at lunch?"
"Yeah I can."
"Ok babe, see you then."
"Thanks Ang and goodnight."
"Night"
I sit myself down on the couch and flip through the channels, I stop on channel 28 and what's on but "The Baby Story". I watch for a few minutes and it's the part where she's giving birth. Ahhhh…I start to get dizzy and I think I might pass out, instead I head for the bathroom and vomit my Twix bar into the toilet.
The next morning I wake up and I'm feeling cheery for some reason. It's Friday and I can't wait for the weekend to come. The excitement is floating in the air for my trip to Paris. I've never been before and I'm totally thrilled to be going, for FREE at that. After my huge breakfast and a coffee, I head out of the apartment and catch a cab to work.
I step out onto the 72nd floor and I see Tanya sitting at her desk.
"Good morning Tanya! How are you this morning? I just have to tell you that the color of your blouse really brings out your eyes." I smile at her and she looks at me like I've got three heads. I shrug my shoulders and turn to walk to my office, but not before I notice that Edward and Alice are standing outside the conference room with their mouths wide open. I walk over and stand in front of them.
"Hi, good morning" I look back and forth between them and Edward's eyebrows are creased and he's looking confused. Alice on the hand has her eyes wide and her mouth pops open even wider.
"What's the matter?" I say as I turn around in a circle to see if something's wrong with the back of my pants.
"Uh, nothing Bella good morning." Edwards the first to speak. Alice on the other hand looks at me with her head bopping back and forth with squinty eyes. Then out of no where she screams, "OH NO WAY!" Both Edward and I jump as she yells. Edward quickly grabs her stomach and asks if she's ok. It's only then when his hand is on her stomach that I realize that Alice has somehow figured it out.
I gasp and cover my mouth with my hand. Edward then turns to me and asks if I'm ok. With Edward volleying back and forth between his sister and myself, Alice and I are locked in stare.
Mine is secretly begging her not to say anything.
Where as her stare is demanding the truth.
"WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON HERE? CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TALK TO ME?" Edward yells.
"Uh nothing Edward, I just thought that maybe I felt a flutter or something."
"But Alice you're only 3 weeks pregnant, isn't it a little early to feel something?" He puts his hands on his hips and raises his eyebrows at her.
"Oh could've been gas then, who knows?" She takes my hand and yanks me into her office. I follow cause I'm not about to be confronted in the middle of the hallway.
She rushes into the office and leads me to the chair.
"SIT!" She points to the black leather chair.
"I'd rather stand thanks!" I firmly state back at her glaring. Was she insane to almost blow it out there in front of Edward, she was about to ruin everything.
"Bella, I'm thinking that in your condition you should SIT down." Now she's the one talking firmly. I slowly lower myself down and cross my legs.
"What would you like Mrs. Whitlock?" I ask in a polite tone.
"Cut the shit Bella, tell me, are you?" She stands behind her desk with her hands on her hips. For a moment I'm not sure what to say. I'm nervous and scared yet excited and thrilled at the same time. I look down at the bur berry carpet and think for a moment.
"Well, I can see by you not answering my question that you are." Her voice is softer now and she comes around her desk and sits in the chair beside me.
"Alice, I just found out last night. I haven't told Edward yet and I don't want to, just yet. I'm scheduled at the hospital for a blood test at lunch today. So please can you not say anything until I tell him? Please." She takes my hand in hers and I face her. She has tears in her eyes and a smile on her face.
"Oh Alice, I'm sorry I never meant to make you cry…I just thought that maybe….well that possibly…." I'm cut off my rant be Alice cupping my cheek in her hand.
"Shhh…Isabella, don't worry, I'm not going to say anything. I promise."
"Thank you, thank you so much."
"But I need you to know something. I want you to listen to what I'm about to say and listen carefully, do you understand?" Her voice is strong and sure. I nod my head and take a deep breath the same time Alice does.
"Edward is a good man. I'm not just saying that because he's my twin brother. I'm saying that because he is. I know you know this but he loves you, dearly. He would do anything for you and desperately wants to be with you. I know that he can be somewhat, hmmm…..how do I say this, I know that he can unintentionally financially over bearing but see, he doesn't even realize that he's doing it. I guess what I'm trying to say is that if you were to strip all the material stuff away from him, he would still be that same guy underneath it all. Just give him a chance Bella." She finishes her explanation and pats a tissue to the corner of her eyes. I nod my head in understanding.
"Thank you Alice. I always knew that, but it was good to hear from someone else just the same." We hug and hold each other for a while.
"Congratulations by the way. I'm sorry that I never said it the hospital, I'm embarrassed that I passed out." We both giggle and I stand to leave.
"Come talk to me if you need anything. Anything at all ok?"
"Ok, thanks." I walk out of her office and down the hall to Edwards. I knock lightly and peak through the door. He's on the phone and when he notices me he holds up one finger signaling me to wait a moment, but waves me in. I walk in and stand in front of his desk patiently.
"Right I understand…. We'll be there as soon as possible….. Can you call my company's lawyer?... Yes I would like that….. Thank you for informing me so quickly." He hangs up the phone and sighs a big sigh while leaning back in his chair.
"Edward what's wrong?" I ask concerned.
"There's been a development." He picks up the phone and dials Alice's extension and waits a moment.
"Alice you're going to have to come to Paris with us…yes that's right…..like tonight if possible…..I'm sorry….thank you…..of course, have Tanya book it for just after lunch…..ok bye." He hangs up the phone once again and looks over to me, his eyes are hard and his breathing has picked up. I'm a little nervous at this point but say nothing.
He leans forward and puts his head in his hands. Instinctively I rush to his side and stand before him. He turns towards me in his chair and pushes his head on my stomach. My eyes grow wide and suddenly I'm very nervous. His arms wrap around my waist and I'm once again lost in the sensation that is Edward Cullen. I can see the rise and fall of his chest and I rub my hands up and down his back and through his hair.
Sure we have issues, ok I have issues, but that doesn't mean I don't love him or that I can't comfort him.
He skims his nose along my stomach and lifts up my sweater and starts to kiss my belly button. Oh if he only knew what he was kissing exactly. And because I'm a horny pregnant woman I give in completely.
"Edward I need to talk to you." I say breathless. He moans and continues to stroke my back with his large hands.
"Later, I just need this right now." I nod my head even though he can't see.
"God Bella, I love you so much. I don't think that you realize how much I do." His hands travel down and grab my ass. He starts to roughly massage my cheeks, slowly pulling them apart and back again while mumbling, "Too long, I've waited to long". I pull him up to a standing position and he slowly crawls up my body. He brings his hands from my ass around to my front and cups my sex. We both moan in unison and I want to touch him.
"NO! Let me do this. Stay still." Once again I nod and he continues to rub me with one hand and the other is rubbing me from behind. Both of his hands are now on my lower body. He stops for a moment and I whimper at the loss. He walks over to the door, closes it and locks it. Then he comes back to me and starts to undo my pants. He pushes them down pooling at my feet, then raises my arms and lifts my sweater over my head, leaving my hair falling on my chest. He leans back and appraises me from top to bottom. He slowly walks around me, like he's stalking his prey.
"Something's different about you." He taps his chin with his finger. My breathing hitches and I'm looking back and forth at the window in front of me while he's behind me. He comes around and stands tall. With a flick of his fingers he snaps off my bra and my upper torso is fully exposed. I'm getting turned on every second of this painful torture. He palms both my breast and flicks my already hardened nipples. I yelp at the pleasure and I rub my thighs together to relieve some tension.
"Na ah!"
He hooks his finger on the strap of my thong.
"This has to go." With a tug he rips the offending barrier from my body. Now I'm completely nude and I'm breathing heavy. He steps back and REALLY looks at me. His eyes soften.
"Isabella, you are the most beautiful creature I've ever seen. And I'm about to show you just how beautiful you are. Are you ready?" He asks as if it was no big deal. I nod and I can see the obvious erection tenting his pants. He see's my discovery and smirks.
"All for you babe, all for you." He walks back over to me and kisses me slowly at first, then it turns into something more, rough and domineering. I slide my foot up his leg and hitch it over his hip. He takes one hand and plunges into me from in front and the other hand he plunges into me from behind. I can feel the two hands working together as one and it's bringing on a whole new sensation. His mouth is still on mine as he's pumping in and out of me from both sides.
"Edward I can't take this, I need more." I cry into his shoulder.
"You got it babe." He pulls his hands out, licks both of his hands clean and steps back. My eyes bug out and I'm excited about what's to happen next.
"Touch yourself." He commands and I comply immediately.
He takes off his jacket and places it on the sofa in the corner, then unsnaps his cufflinks all the while watching me pleasure myself. He rolls up his sleeves to his elbow. The feral look in his eyes are making my hand move faster circling my clit. He groans and reaches for his tie. He takes it off and undoes the first button on his crisp dress shirt.
My heart is beating so fast and I'm becoming close to an orgasm just watching him undress. He stalks over to me fully dressed still and purses his lips.
"Stop, put your hands out in front of you." I stop my ministrations and lick my own fingers. A growl comes from his chest.
"You really shouldn't have done that." He stalks over to his closet and shuffles through a selection of other ties and pulls out a silver one. He walks back over to me and ties my wrists together and then with the silver tie he blindfolds me.
I'm throbbing with need and he doesn't touch me for a few minutes. His phones rings and it couldn't be any worse timing.
"Edward Cullen." He snaps into the phone. I'm left standing there naked, bound and blind.
"Good morning Jacob, how are you this morning?"
ARE YOU KIDDING ME? HE GOING TO LEAVE ME HERE IN WANT AND NEED WHILE HE'S ON THE PHONE.
"Why yes Jacob she's right here, but she's tied up at the moment." He chuckles and rubs my nipples through his fingers. I moan and lean into his hands. He instantly pulls away.
"I would love to do lunch with you but I'm leaving for Paris just after lunch. Perhaps when I return?" He talks to him for a moment and then ends the call.
"You know Isabella, I should just leave you there and continue to work, but if I did that I wouldn't be able to concentrate now would I." I shake my head.
"I think I've left you wanting long enough." I nod my head in agreement. He pulls my wrist and licks the fingers that were pleasuring me earlier.
"Very nice. Always so sweet." He guides my hand down and rubs my sex with my hand. He pushes my finger inside and out again. He pulls his own hand away and fondles my breasts. He gently bites my nipples and grabs my ass all while I'm still rubbing myself.
"Fuck you don't know how amazing you feel." He envelopes my hand again pumping in and out of me while my juices coat both our hands. He chuckles, "well maybe you do."
"Edward I'm so close, please just…I…." I pant.
"Tell me what you want. I don't know what you want Isabella."
"You, I want you, I'm sorry for everything. I just want you." My breathing could challenge a hurricane by now.
"That's what I wanted to hear. Your wish is my command my beautiful Bella." I hear the snap and zip of his pants and before I know it, he pushes me against his desk, bending me over and enters me from behind.
"Keep touching yourself." I rub fast and furiously while he pounds into me over and over again. Both our orgasms come at he same time and I'm about to scream, but he covers my mouth with one hand and squeezes my full breast with the other.
We both groan at the same time and we ride out or climax smoothly and gently. I feel him put his full weight on my back and I welcome it. We rest like that for a few moments breathing deeply and slowly.
"Best fuck ever." He says his breathing coming back to normal.
"Excuse me?" I'm suddenly mad and I flip over and rip off my blindfold. I stare at him and I feel like I'm about to rip him a new one, when he realizes what he says he guides me to the couch and sits me down. He walks to his bathroom and wets a cloth with warm water and comes back to me and starts to clean me up.
"Isabella, let me explain."
"What is this? What's going on between us Edward?" I ask shaking my head. I recoil at his attempt to touch me and I stand to get my clothes. I'm so stupid. How could I ever think that this would've worked out? Now I'm pregnant. Great, way to go Bella.
"Isabella, just hold on a minute dammit! You never let me explain, you always run away from me and I'm tired of it!" He exclaims. I stop at the door and turn to face him with my arms crossed in front of me.
"When I said best fuck ever, what I meant was, what I did was not making love to you. I took control of you and told you what to do. If I was making love to you, I would've taken you back to my place and we wouldn't of left until after lunch. Do you not understand? I just fucked you, in animalistic sort of way." He stops in front of me staring and daring me to challenge him.
I uncross my arms and nod my head.
"I'm sorry, I know how you feel about me and I'm sorry I over reacted." I stand there with my head down trodden.
"I really enjoyed myself though. Thank you." I whisper.
"Bella, you have to tell me if I go too far. I never want you to think that I'm just using you or that you're just a fuck to me. I would never think that, I would never do that." He tilts my chin up to his eyes, so warm and inviting.
"Bella can you please just give me another chance? I promise that I'll change. I'm going crazy inside knowing that we're not together." He pleads with me.
"No Edward, I don't want you to change. I'm the one who's insecure and acting like a child, I'm sorry. I want you back and just a few minutes ago proves that I can't be without you. Please accept my apology. We can make this work and I'm willing to try." He looks at both my eyes and smiles. He takes me in a big hug and twirls me around.
"Bella, oh Isabella I love you! Thank you. I love you so much. You've made me so happy." He puts me down back on my feet and I glance at the clock on his desk. Shit its 11:30.
"Edward I need to go, its lunch and I have to be somewhere." I scramble to assemble my clothes and slip my shoes on.
"But I thought we could go to lunch?" He pouts.
"No can do babe, umm…..I'll see you at the airport?" I bite my lip and turn the door knob.
"Uh sure I guess. I'll send Dave for you."
"NO! No it's ok. I'll just catch a cab and meet you there. I've already packed early and my suitcase is waiting by the door."
"Ok, I'll see you there." I nod and turn to leave, not before I quickly run back to him and kiss him fiercely.
I quickly grab my purse and run to the elevator. I pass Tanya's desk and she glares daggers at me.
"Suck it up princess."
The door opens and I step in, as I wait to reach the lobby I take my hand and touch between my legs.
"Shit." I'm not wearing underwear.
"It'll be fine Bella don't worry, this won't take too long. They're just processing it now." Angela is sitting next to me holding my hand. I had some blood drawn and now the results should be ready any minute.
"Isabella Swan?" And old lady calls from the desk. Angela and I stand and walk back with her to a small office.
"Dr. Cope will be in with you in a moment dears." We thank her and wait for the good Doctor to come in. I smile at Angela and she smiles back and pats my hand.
The door knob turns and a middle aged woman enters.
"Isabella Swan? Hi I'm Dr. Cope, it's nice to meet you. Hi Angela." We both say hello and I shake her hand.
She flips over some papers in my chart, studies the information for a bit then closes the file up. She turns to me and inhales deeply. All three of us stare at each other not saying a word.
"Ok." I say breaking the silence.
"So Miss. Swan, what would you like to hear?" She asks.
"I would like to know if I am pregnant." The anticipation is killing me.
"When was you're last period?" She asks.
"I'm honestly not sure, but I haven't had sex in a long time up until about a month ago."
"So what makes you think you're pregnant?"
"Well I have all the symptoms and I took three e.p.t. tests and they all confirmed that I was."
"Well Miss. Swan, July next year should be a very exciting time for you then."
I let out a puff of air and tears start to roll down my face.
I'm pregnant.
I'm pregnant.
I'm pregnant.
I turn to hug Angela and she's crying too.
"Is this a happy moment? Or should I discuss your options with you?" I turn back to face Dr. Cope.
"No…I'm sorry…..I'm very…h-h-happpppyyy." I sob at her.
"Well then let me give you some pamphlets of becoming a new mom. Is the father involved in any way?"
"Well I haven't told him but I'm sure he will be. I think." Angela looks at me confused.
"Ok let me also give you pamphlets on becoming a single mom and counseling centers available in your area."
I thank her, take the pamphlets and head out of her office linked arm in arm with Angela.
"Hey, can I give you a ride to the airport. I have your suitcase in my car. I brought it with me after you called saying that you were leaving after lunch."
"Sure that would be nice thank you."
"Great let's go. Oh are you hungry?"
"Yeah we're starving." We laugh and walk out the hospital doors.
A/N: I promise I promise I promise Paris is next. I didn't realize that I was writing so much. Like I said before, I would rather get it out to you faster rather than you waiting forever.
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