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Anyway this is Chap 25 and its really split me in 2 but instead of just deleating it and starting from scratch i'm just gonna go with it so if it is bad blame the impulsive impatient side of me that it typing right now!!!

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I Cant Sleep

"Remind me not to cross Meredith again, that's some black eye…"

George whispered to Izzy as they both looked down on a sleeping Derek, though the swelling had obviously reduced the dark angry bruise staining his skin made up for it.

"I know I bet he's come of worse than that Daniel, how wrong is it that I'm feeling like a proud mamma right now???"

"A little maybe but not much… … Is it wrong that I'm just a little scared of Meredith after seeing this?" George's voice was still hushed as they bent that little bit closer.

"Me too i mean she could go all cage fighter on us at any moment without warning… You know he really does have great hair it's so thick and glossy kinda makes you just want to run your fingers through it, I wonder what conditioner he uses?"

"I don't and do you know how unnerving it is to wake up to you two peering down at me like that?"

Derek muttered groggily, pushing himself up so suddenly it caused them to jump back with a screech as Derek himself groaned, his back protesting at a night on the cramped uncomfortable couch.

"Is Mer here?" He asked his hope being replaced by confusion as Meredith's two roommates looked at each other both trying to make the other answer him as they avoided his gaze.

"Uh no…. She left for the hospital already but she um well she told us to tell you that she's kinda confiscated your trailer…" Derek frowned as they both started to slowly back out of the room as Izzy continued "Oh and your car and we're not aloud to let you in ours!"

"Seriously?"

He demanded straight away reaching for last nights discarded jeans only to find both sets of keys missing and his wallet empty of all his credit cards leaving only fifty dollars in cash.

"Did my wife leave any other message?" Derek called after them his voice bordering on a chuckle now as his sense of humor started to kick in.

This was vengeful Meredith at work but he had always preferred vengeful Meredith to silent avoiding Meredith for the simple reason vengeful Meredith would talk to him if only to call him an ass.

"You don't mind???" George asked popping his head back around the door and almost but not quite smiling Derek shrugged.

"I do mind but not as much as when she plucked my eyebrows or waxed my legs…" Derek said and unable to hold back the wince that still came whenever he remembered that particular torture.

"You let Meredith do that to you??"

George asked feeling shocked but then he shouldn't be because if living with them had taught him anything it was that when it came to his wife there didn't seem to be anything Derek wouldn't do for her and it confused him because then there was last night.

And last night he could have almost believed for those few seconds that they had hated each other just like when Meredith had screamed at Derek that first day he arrived in Seattle, but maybe that's the couple they were, two people who could feel that amount of hate if that's what it was and still know underneath it all was love because that's what he could see shining in Derek's eyes now just at the mention of Meredith's name.

"I had no say in the matter she took advantage while I was sleeping."

"Oh what did you do that time?"

"Nothing really only Addison wanted to test out a new product she brought and so they thought they'd do my eyebrows while they were at it and as I was sleeping off a night out with Mark I was the perfect guinea pig…"

"Oh… Meredith she kinds of owns you doesnt she." But as Derek raised his eyebrows George felt the need to explain "Not that i'm saying your her bitch or anything it's just that... well she..."

Seeing his trouble and wanting to save him from digging any further Derek nodded with a laugh

"Yes O'Malley she does kind of own me."

"Right well thats okay she's your wife, wives own husbands and room mates apparently too but you know I could you a cab Meredith didn't ban us from doing that…"

"That would be good George thank you."

Stood at the nurse's station drinking coffee Mark couldn't hold back the laughter as he caught sight of Derek walking towards him and though his scrub cap was pulled down further than usual it did nothing to hide the discoloration around his eye.

"Well at least it doesn't clash with your scrubs and cap that's got to be something and I'm sure your little fan club will only sigh over you some more it does make you that little rougher!" He teased and met with a dark scowl from his best friend in return as Derek took the coffee from him taking a long gulp of it before handing it back.

"Shut up!"

"So your mood matches the color of that beauty too?"

This time Derek didn't even bother to speak simply glowered causing Mark to chuckle.

"I've never loved kiddo as much as I do right now did you know that… Oh and remind me later to catch up with Karev!"

"What, why?"

"Oh he bet you two would have made up after you chased after her last night but I knew my girl would hang you out to dry and she didn't disappoint."

"Seriously?" Derek said shaking his head wondering just exactly when his oldest friend had taken to betting on his marriage or more to the point his wife.

"McJerk Dr Bailey needs you for a consult," Meredith interrupted them slipping a patients chart back into the rack as Mark kissed her cheek.

"McJerk?" He repeated and Meredith nodded

"Or McAss he can take his pick i dont really mind which…"

"McJerk could grow on me." Derek nodded his mood lifting a little as he watched the corners of her lips twitch as Mark turned back to him.

"So sleeping on the couch last night how was that?"

"Oh just great and so was waking up this morning to find my wife had stolen the keys to my car, trailer and taken my credit cards…"

"Seriously?"

Mark turned to Meredith with ever growing respect in his eyes, he wasn't blind he know how much Derek had hurt her last night and just what it would take for her to keep this up and not give in because for some reason two of the most stubborn people he had ever met seemed to have so little of it when it came to the other.

"Technically it's not stealing and when a husband calls his wife a whore he loses all of his rights." Though her voice was calm neither were death to the underlying anger.

"I did not call you a whore!" Derek growled lowering his voice as eyes turned their way.

"No but you meant it!"

"And I said I was sorry."

"And now we will see how sorry I can make you." Meredith whispered patting his cheek lightly before walking away leaving them both staring after her.

"I love her!" Mark told him and Derek nodded his own eyes alight with admiration even if all he really wanted was for her to turn around and fall into his arms telling him that she forgave him and that it was okay but that wouldnt be her and he loved her for all that she was.

"So do I and I don't think I would want her any other way!"

Derek didn't know whether to laugh or run for his own safety when he stepped into the elevator to find its only other occupant was Meredith.

"I hate you!"

She told him fiercely as she folded her arms across her chest and knowing a smile might just earn his left eye a shiner to match the right one he nodded moving to stand as close to her as he could without actually touching.

"I deserve that."

Stealing a glance at him from underneath her eyelashes Meredith almost wished she hadn't as another wave of guilt washed over her at the sight of his eye just like it had this morning when she had stood and watched him sleep.

She knew him well enough to believe what he had said was in anger, anger that wasn't directed at her but that didn't mean she could rid herself of the voice that kept repeating maybe a part of him had meant it and it was that voice keeping the anger alive.

"Come here." He whispered huskily as he saw the turmoil in her eyes, tipping her chin up Derek bent his head and kissing her gently.

Taking his time to savor her taste as her lips parted beneath his, her hands finding their way into the curls at the base of her neck as he moved them both back against the elevator wall, this kiss the complete opposite to the one they had shared last night.

"I haven't forgiven you…" Meredith breathed when his mouth left hers to trail down her throat sucking and biting as Derek moved his hands up underneath her scrub top.

"I know," He answered as he kissed his way back to her ear as his hands found her breasts causing her to moan as she arched against him.

"And we need to talk, when I'm not so mad we need we need to talk… talk Derek… …"

Her words were swallowed by his mouth meeting hers again and this time the kiss wasn't soft it was hard, demanding and only ended when the doors started to open and Meredith broke away pushing at his chest for release.

"I still hate you and this doesn't change a thing!" Meredith hissed only for Derek to grab hold of her and snatch another kiss

"I love you and you could never hate me Meredith Shepherd no matter how much you may want too!"

And that was half the problem Meredith thought as she made her way down to the cafeteria as her fingers touched her still swollen lips if she could hate him then maybe her life wouldn't be so complicated but she also knew she would of never have gotten so far without him

"Bump into Derek did you?" Addison asked as Meredith joined her at the table.

"No, what… why would you even think that?" She stuttered only for Addison to laugh as she looked her over from head to toe.

"The glazed look in your eyes, your hair looks just like a mans hands have been running through it, your top is all tucked up at the side and oh yeah the biggest give away the hickey on your neck … So hating Derek is going well?"

Blushing Meredith snatched the compact mirror Addison was holding out for her and groaned throwing herself back in her seat at the sight of the red stain on her skin and the clearly visable imprints of Derek's teeth.

"Shut up!" Meredith said moodily as Addison laughed at her "It's not my fault, he looks at me and then I… I forget I'm trying to hate him, I forget everything and he's so…?"

"Oh Mer you don't have to explain yourself to me, I want nothing more than to see you two happy, making out all over the place… You two aren't just starting out you have been together for ten years, he was the first guy you ever loved and for him well as he would say your it, you both deserve this chance to fix this, for Derek to fix what he broke!"

Addison told her softly reaching out to take her hand and squeeze it softly, and there was a little part of her doing this for what some would say selfish reasons but if her and Mark were going to move their whole lives here then she wanted them to be together.

"So you think I should stop punishing him?"

"No but I do think you should at least let him know what you want from him… Last night was about him finally facing up to what he has done so let him make it up to you Mer,"

And looking in to the green eyes of the person who had been her closest friend for so long Meredith nodded slowly.

"Okay."

It was long past midnight when the cab dropped him at the house after an emergency in the pit had kept him in the O.R for hours and just when he had thought the patient would make it they had lost him and now all he wanted was to curl up next to Meredith and lose himself in her but catching sight of the pillow and blankets waiting for him he knew it wouldnt be happening.

Meredith heard him come in but knowing he was home didn't help as she only seemed to toss and turn more, her bed seeming too big all of a sudden and with his scent all over the sheets it was impossible for her to relax enough to sleep. Deciding to throw her pride to the wind after another hour of staring up at the ceiling Meredith threw the blankets back and made her way downstairs.

At the first sound of footsteps Derek put it down to wishful thinking refusing to believe it was really her as they came closer until a warm body came down next to him and the scent of lavender seemed to fill the room.

His arm went around her tightly as he moved the blanket to cover them both scared that she might change her mind given the chance and though there was little room to move he didn't care he was just glad to have her there.

"You really hurt me."

She whispered into his neck and when he felt the wetness of her tears his heart broke, tears burning his own eyes as he kissed her hair

"I'm sorry."

Derek said softly wishing he could stop doing it once and for all and why he was even able to do it in the first place to the one person who had always been there for him giving him everything but taking so little.

"It's not enough this time, I need more from you…"

"What Mer,just say it and I'll do it?"

"I cant tell you what to do it's up to you to fix this Derek but i need to be sure that we can do this, that you take me as i am even with what has happened, even with Daniel and the rest...I don't want to lose you Derek but I don't know how much more I have to give…"

"You wont lose me I'll figure this out Mer I promise." He murmured into the darkness turning slightly so that she could fit herself more to his body so that every part of them was touching as her breathing slowed deepening as she started to finally drift into sleep.

"I'm sorry about your eye,"

And Derek felt her lips move over the skin in soft soothing kisses before thry touched his lips just once

"Dont be i deserved it and you deserve better..."

How can we get it back again?
Oh sometimes a man can say things
That he really don't mean
Well I'm sorry baby
Bring your lovin' back to me…

Like i said nothing was how i wanted it very much in this chap and the characters refused to argue for me but that will change cos know she's asked him to fix it so McDreamy has to stand up to the plate... Anyway i cant talk about it cos il end up more disappointed so PLEASE love it or hate it REVIEW and on a different note so that i can concentrate on one or the other what would you like first ...

Prequel or Sequel???? Most votes win!!!