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Rose's POV
"R-r-r-r-r-r-rrrrroooozzzzzaaa!" Dimitri's booming voice sounded threw the house causing me to drop the glass I had been carrying with juice. The shattering was nothing to the thudding that was threatening to come out of my chest.
To say today had been a bad day would be an understatement. He had been in one of his moods from the moment his eyes had opened. I could tell he was trying to stay calm but nothing was being held back today. I knew it had to with the fact that another month had passed by and he could still not speak to me. He could still not walk well, and he still could not be the Dimitri he was use to.
He had been able to get movement back in most of his limbs, even if sometimes it was sloppy it was better. He was using his hands and arms well, though walking was still hard. When his therapist gave him a cane Abe had to step in to make sure Dimitri did not hit him with it. He used it though, when he really wanted to get somewhere. It was amazing to see his progress. Being the man he was he wanted more though.
We still had not been able to have sex, and I knew that was the real reason he was pissed off. When we had stopped for therapy it was something we had wanted something we had decided. This time around it was forced, he had no choice in the matter. He had tried a few times now to please me with his fingers and mouth but I had denied him, telling him I wanted to wait until he could cum with me. And it was true, I wanted to be selfish and take him up on the offer but I ached to have him orgasm with me. It was the reason he was still mad at me. No matter what I did now a days it was like I was walking on eggs shells with him.
The man also wanted to talk, it was in our nature to especially if you had been talking since you could remember. I understood, I really did. He was a lawyer, and without his voice he was the worst kind of lawyer. I felt for him and wanted to help, I could not imagine going through everything he was. I had not even been anywhere this bad when I had found out I was not able to have kids. Then again it was never something I had ever wanted.
"Rrrrrrr-rrr-r-r-r-roo-oooo-oo-zz-z-z-zaaa." His stuttering was getting worse and I knew it only meant one thing. He was beyond angry now. I just could only hope it was not at me.
I rushed upstairs, leaving the glass for me to clean up later. I walked through the bedroom and did not spot him. I worried for a second wondering where he could have stumbled to since I had left five minutes prior. It wasn't until I heard grunting coming from the bathroom that I was able to locate him. I opened the door and nearly had a panic attack.
"Oh my god Dimitri." I rushed forward to Dimitri who was on the floor in his boxers bleeding from a cut on his forehead. The blood was thick and dark and looked like it was gushing out in pints.
He looked a little disoriented, but other wise alright.I was thankful when his eyes met mine and he seemed to be all with me. I helped him sit on the toilet cover as I searched the cabinets for some first aid. He made no attempt to look my way after that, and I was concerned he may have a concussion. I gathered the things quickly and settled myself in front of him.
"Are you OK?" I cupped his cheek and his eyes met mine, though reluctantly.
"Y-y-y-yes." He sighed deeply as I started to clean the cut. I studied him closely making sure to take note of everything he did.
"Did you fall trying to get into the tub?" He nodded and winced when I dabbed the cut with an alcohol swab. I took notice that the cut was actually smaller than I thought. Head wounds always bled more, it was why people got so scared with them.
"T-t-t-t-ta-nnn-kkks." I smiled at him as his hand came and grabbed mine pulling it to his lips after I finished placing a bandaid on it, his lips placed a kiss on my knuckles and he grunted loudly.
"Its nothing. Are you sure you're feeling alright?" He smiled again and nodded. He knew I feared his injury could get worse. But the doctor said other than the stuttering there did not seem to be anything wrong with him. His body was healing properly and hopefully soon everything would be back to normal.
"Yyyyy-oo-u-rrrrrr-e t-tto g-g-g-gooood t-t-tt-oo meee." His smile dropped and he pulled me into his arms and buried his face in my stomach.
"No, I'm not Dimitri. I know things have not been easy but I am not leaving. I care so much about you." I pulled away and cupping both his cheeks and taking in his face closely. "I don't know what I would do without you."
He sighed deeply cupping my own cheek before leading my lips to his. His lips danced slowly with mine as his tongue traced the gap between my lips. I instantly opened my mouth for him granting him the entrance I knew he wanted. I deepened the kiss as I wrapped my hands around his neck, locking my fingers into the hair there.
"Mmmm." He pulled away chuckling and I laughed along with him. "I fucking love your kisses."
"Y-y-y-y-y-y-ooooooourssss b-b-b-bet-t-t-t-t-er." I smile slyly and pulled him in for another kiss. This time moving to straddling him.
It was an odd place to start making out with him, but the setting did not matter when I was with him. I had no idea when exactly kissing had become so fascinating to me. I loved everything about kissing Dimitri. The way his lips molded to my mine perfectly. The way his wet tongue felt as it battled against mine. The way I felt like I was being so fucking sexy doing something so simple. Maybe it was just the way Dimitri kissed, like he was all man, and he was.
Dimitri's disgruntled groan had me pulling back as I noticed that once again he was upset. I tried not to let on that I knew why, but it was always the same reason. Situations like this always made Dimitri go hard. He had never had a problem getting it up, if anything he got horny too much. Not that I minded of course.
Now a days though he had no control over his manhood. I knew it drove him crazy and tried my hardest to avoid situations like this. I had let it go overboard and once again he had been reminded of what he could no longer do. I held hope that some day soon it would happen, but he was no longer holding onto that hope. And I knew he would have a hard time feeling better until he could at least do the one thing he felt made him a man.
Dimitri's POV
After Rose had fixed up my cut she helped me into the shower. She came in with me and helped me wash my hair and body. I knew she had come in because she was worried. Though it had not been needed. If anything I was more embarrassed than anything. I had wanted to do something on my own and again had failed. I felt like an incompetent child, and I hated it.
I tried to ignore her as she worked, knowing full well my body would not react the way I needed to. She wasn't being sexual about it, but she looked so good scrubbing me down. Inside I tried to focus on her hands trying to relieve me of the tension and stress that was so deeply ingrained. Her hands worked magic into my shoulders and lower back and after she was done I kissed her hands letting her know how thankful I was.
An hour later we found ourselves at my mothers house. It was the first time I would be bringing her into that house as my girlfriend. I had imagined it all so differently. I never thought she would be helping me out of the car and up the front steps because I could not find my footing. It had been such a long and stressful day.
Today over all had been a terrible day. From the moment I had opened my eyes my body had been in pain. The therapy from the day before had taken its toll on me, and I had had another session a couple hours after waking. All I had wanted to do was go to bed, but I knew I had to do this.
I wanted so badly to get better, to no longer have to be looked after. I wished every night to wake up the next morning being the man I use to be. I wanted to go back to work, to continue to further my career. I wanted to have a fucking normal conversation with a person, any fucking person. And I badly wanted to be able to have sex. And was more than just my body craving it. I wanted to hold my Roza close, to reconnect with her in a way that only becoming one could do.
Everyone would have understood if I stayed home if I decided to lock myself in my room, but it was not them I was worried about. I hated how my whole life had become a routine, and a shitty one at that. Waking up to speech therapy then a few hours of physical therapy. All of which caused a deep frustration inside of me. It only got worse as my progress got slower. I had noticed the changes the progress but it was not enough.
Someone would make me my breakfast lunch and dinner, and it was not because I wanted them to. It was because I could not do it myself. Rose helped me shower, clothe myself, and even fucking tucked me in. I wanted to at least make believe that things were normal, that I was normal. And a dinner at my mothers house would do just that for me. No one would point out my stuttering or try to get me to do anything I could not.
"Awe there you two are. Yeva was just talking about how slow you were being." Karolina answered the door with a smile on her face, and I thanked her so much for it never faltering. I knew I was walking funny, but I could not deal with any more looks of pity.
"Uncle Dimka! Uncle Dimka." Karo was pushed away the moment the door was closed as Yulia made her way between her legs and closer to me.
"I missed you!" A huge smile plastered her little face and I could not help but return it.
She had once scared the living day light out of me, but now I missed her. I longed for the day when I would be able to take her again for a long weekend. When I could throw her up in the air and catch her. Hell I even craved a conversation with her, just so I could feel a little closer to her and her deceased mother. She motioned for me to pick her up, and my heart broke just a little more. I knew I was not strong enough to do it, and I feared dropping her.
"Here Yulia." Without missing a beat Roza picked her up from behind so Yulia could wrap her hands around my neck. She nuzzled in there and took a deep breath causing a strong sense of comfort to roll through my body. Something I never thought that child could bring to me.
"I love you Uncle Dimka." Her words were soft and whispered and I immediately wrapped my arms around her small body. It was awkward since Rose was still holding her but it was much needed. "Do you love me?" I pulled back alarmed and was afraid of what was to come. I wanted to answer her, but she was so small, and I seriously did not want her pointing out my stuttering, even if it was innocently.
"Y-y-y-y-y-e-sssss." She looked at me strange but it was then shifted into a smile, a smile that relaxed me almost as quickly as I had tensed up..
"Good. You're the best." With that Rose put her down and she ran off into the other room.
"Everyone is in the living room dinner isn't quite ready yet." Roza and I followed as she held onto me making sure I would not fall. My feet slipping out from me a few time, and I thanked her for not even acting like it was out of the ordinary.
We spent, or well everyone spent the time talking and catching up on the gossip. I on the other hand started to let my mind wonder. There were many things bothering me, but at the moment I could only think of one. I had hated what Jesse had done to my family, to Roza, but I could not help but hate myself. He was an evil and cruel person, who deserved a lot of bad things, but I could not get over the fact that I had killed him.
I almost felt out of place with the people in the room. I had no idea how they could completely bipass the fact that I had killed a man. I had taken his life, and in a way I had wanted to. Time and time again Rose had told me I had no choice but I felt like it was not true. At the moment all I had seen was red. I hit him trying to seek revenge for all the people he had hurt.
I could have stopped, a few less punches and he would be in a county jail, not buried six feet under in the local cemetery. Yes, the man had been a horrible man. Taken a life, and nearly a couple more. But he was still a living being. And being the lawyer I was I wanted justice. An eye for an eye only went so far. And most of the time it got you no where.
"You alright?" Rose leaned in and caught my eye and I forced a smile and nodded. She knew what was going on inside my head, and instead of leaving me to it she tried to make me feel better. To let me know she was always there for me.
Rose's POV
Being around the Belikov women was quite an experience. They were all so talkative, and the conversation never seemed to run dry. There was just something about them that was lively and I really liked it. It was amazing that I could honestly fit in with them.
I thought I would stand out like a sore thumb. Thinking we would never have anything to talk about, but I was wrong. I talked to them for hours and never seemed to stop talking. I felt bad that Dimitri could not join in, but Olena had assured me it was ok. She had informed me that Dimitri was never one to join in their chatter. I had to stop myself from telling her that was besides the point. He was more upset that he couldn't even if he wanted to.
I was very aware of his mood. It was not hard to miss. At first I thought it had to do with the fact that he could not speak, then it hit me. Again I was so enthralled by the idea that I could read someone so well, then again this was Dimitri. As he sat there staring into space I knew Jesse was crossing his mind. He would grimace the same way every time the events would make their way into the front of his thoughts.
There was nothing more that I wanted to do than to make that guilt go away. Jesse deserved a fate worse than death, but he was still alive and human. I had no idea how I had dealt with my first kill, though I knew a lot of it had to do with the person I use to be. If it happened now I was sure I would fall into the same guilt that was consuming my Dimitri.
I just had to make sure I was there for him no matter what. I did not plan on leaving him, but I knew I had to be on my toes. One little thing would set him off and I was not ready for him to have another break down. He had had one a few days before and I ended up with a lot less plates in my kitchen.
"Roza I heard you got a new case." My head snapped up to where Viktoria was sitting watching me closely.
"Yea, its going to be tough but I think I have a few good leads." She nodded slowly, well knowing I could not give her any information on it.
"Do you know when their trials are?" There was no need for her to say their names, we all knew who she was talking about. No matter what they always seemed to be in our lives, I just hoped soon we would be able to put it all in the past.
"Next month. It usually takes longer but Alberta is working her ass off with this one. She called me yesterday to tell me. You know to testify." I said the last part softly. Full aware that Dimitri had been hoping to be better by then. He wanted to tell his story, and have people understand him. His condition had been kept track of, but I knew him being there would do a lot.
"Well good. We'll be there." The Belikov women had someone mustered up the courage and gone to Jesse's funeral.
At first I had been confused not knowing why they would do such a thing. But then after going there with them I knew why. It was closure. It was their way of seeing that the man that had killed their beloved was finally gone.
It had also somehow been closure for myself too. I hated Jesse, for many reasons. But I hated him the most for what he had taken away from me. I was finally in a set of mind where I could honestly see myself maybe some day having a child. I knew even with my lady parts there and working that I would have a timer ticking but now I had nothing. Yes, Dimitri and I could adopt, but it was just not the same. It would not be our child, no matter what anyone told me.
"How's your therapy going?" Dimitri was startled out of his state as his sister sifted the conversation.
"O-o-kkkk-kk." Dimitri shrugged and returned his gaze to the plate in front of him, thankfully missing the look of pity on his sisters face.
Dimitri's POV
Any sane and straight man would be hard as rock when having someone as sexy as Roza in their presence. I knew this because it was the way I had always been when it came to her. Rose just oozed sex appeal. Not many people had been able to see it, but I had. I had seen everything she was capable of from the very beginning. It was why I had thrown the rules out the window.
She had been worth, and still was worth, every broken rule. Everything that happened bad or good was worth it, if in the end the prize was her. She was so much better than she gave herself credit for. Don't get me wrong the woman could and would be a bitch, but when she cared about something she went full force.
I knew I had been giving her a hard time as of lately. My so called control was no longer there. Honestly I could say that most of the time I was not even trying. What was the use? No matter what I did nothing seemed to get better. Yes I could move my hands and arms a little more. Hell with a lot of hard work and effort I could walk without that god forsaken cane. But there was so much more missing.
My speech was on the top of that list. I had always considered myself a quiet person. A man of very few words, I spoke only when spoken to. It was part of my job to verbalyl convince people, but I never once thought about how much I actually spoke. It is not something you know you do so much until you are not able to do it as you use to.
My speech was getting better, if you could call it that. With some effort I could make my words stutter out less. But the stuttering was there. I could not say one thing without my mouth continuing on without me. It was the main reason I still felt so trapped. I could walk around, hell even leave the house on my own if i wanted to, but I could not talk to anyone.
Rose had been the only person who I had been able to communicate the most with. And that was only because she seemed to calm me down. The calmness was not whole, but at least it was semi there. I sighed again, well knowing she was trying so hard and I was not making it any easier on her. I closed my eyes only hoping I could start being the man she thought I was.
Her small hands wondered down to my thighs as she soaped them up, and I looked down again hating myself for not being turned on. Well, I suppose you could say I was turned on, more than so, but it was not showing. My body tingled in all the right ways but it would not show. And it only fueled the hate for myself even more. I wanted her, I really did, but there was nothing I could about it.
"You want me to clean you off." She grabbed the nozzle and started rinsing me off spending extra time rubbing my stomach. One that I knew was losing its muscles the longer I went without working out. But she was more than enjoying the view and feel of me if her smirk was any indication.
"K.." She nodded and turned to grab her soap but I stopped her.
I reached for it instead and instructed her to turn around by twirling a finger in a circular motion. She followed the order and I put some body wash into my hands starting to rub it into her shoulders and back. I could hear the slight moan that left her lips and decided it was time she get a little bit out of this. She had denied me for the last time. The least I could do was please her if I could not please myself.
My hands slippery and wet slid down to her waist and I squeezed her a bit emitting another moan from her. Her body fell slightly backwards and her back pressed against my chest. I took that as an invitation and slid my right hand down the front of her body.I was glad that for once my body was working with me.
She gasped a bit as my fingers ghosted past her pelvis and dove straight between her lips parting them for me. Her head soon fell back as well and I watched as her eyes closed as my thumb landed on her clit. I took comfort in seeing her like this. In knowing that in some way I was still able to cause this type of reaction in her.
"Dimitri, you don't have to." Her voice was husky fully showing how much she wanted this. I knew she would stop me no matter how much she wanted it, but I was not going to let her.
"P-p-p-p-plea-s-s-s-s-see." She whimpered as the last syllable left my lips but no further complaints left her.
My thumb rubbed small circles against her and she started panting. I used that as my opening and slipped in two fingers, relishing in the feel of her wet core against my now non-shaking fingers. I slipped in and out of her in a quicker pace and her moans soon filled the shower.
I was about to kiss her neck when a feeling filled me completely. It was a well known feeling one I was use to but had not felt in a long time. I stopped what was doing causing Rose to groan in frustration.
"Dimitri." I looked at her confused as her mouth never opened. I was certain she had said my name but it was odd that she had not opened her mouth.
She turned around smiling up at me and splayed her fingers across my pecks. Pulling my head down to meet her lips. The kiss was intense, hypnotic. I kissed her with everything inside of me and once again the feeling built inside of me.
"Dimitri." My eyes shot open this time well knowing that Rose was not saying my name, but I was certain it was her voice.
"DIMITRI!" I shot up out of bed confused. I took in my surroundings to see Rose sitting next to me a confused look on her face.
I looked around again confused and then the reality hit me. I had been dreaming, it had just been a dream. My hand went between the sheets and I was actually relieved when I could confirm it was not a wet dream. I would have been a little upset if I could do that in a sleeping state but not awake. I sighed laying back down as Rose hovered over me still confused.
"Are you OK?" Her eyes looked over me quickly and she opened her mouth again. "You were making weird noises."
I could not help the chuckle that left me. Of course I was making noises I had been dreaming about touching her, seeing her naked. It had been too long, since I had been able to take her sexually. She had been denying me and my body hated it so much that it was reliving things I wanted in my sleep. My brain had been doing this for weeks now.
Without nodding or even trying to say anything I leaned upwards grabbing her face and brought her lips to mine. She tried to stop me so I deepened the kiss. I wanted nothing more than to kiss her, to do the things I had dreamed about, whether she let me or not would be the next thing to figure out.
She again tried to pull away but I grabbed onto her tighter. The action caused her to land on my chest as I wrapped my arms around her waist. It was then that something hit me. Her hips naturally rubbed against mine and I felt myself up against her stomach.
For the first time in over a month I was hard, fully erect and ready to take her. She pulled away as soon as she noticed a smile on her face. This time I knew it was going to last longer than that first time and I fully intended on giving her everything I had. I had been longing for this moment for so long, and I had no time to question why my body was now giving me it.
Physical therapy had taken a lot out of me, but at that moment I did not care. I was going to please my woman, and somehow manage to please myself. There was no if ands or buts about it. I had waited far too long to let a moment like this slip.
With all my might I flipped us over and landed on top of her. The familiarity of the situation felt like home to me. Her body underneath me, her lips upon mine. The way she felt was even better than I had remembered. I had not felt this alive in such a long time. And even though I really wanted the sex it was more than that. After everything we had been through I would be able to reconnect with her in a way I had not since before the kidnapping.
I loved Roza with all my heart. With all my being. And not being able to show her physically had been killing me. I longed to touch her, to caress her softly. I needed her to know that she was everything to me. Everything and so much more. I needed her in my life like I needed the oxygen in my lungs to live.
My tongue darted out into her mouth as my hands moved down to take her nightie off. My movements weren't as smooth as they had once been but it was better than nothing. I was at least able to get her nightie off without hurting her. Her more than eager hands made their way between us and she pulled my pajama and boxers down with the help of her toes.
Without thinking I placed myself at her entrance well knowing that she never wore underwear to sleep, at least not lately. I knew it had been to get me horny. She had been doing things like that a lot, trying so hard to help me. I did not know what had been missing but fuck was I happy it was back.
No longer being able to wait I moved my hips forward and made us one. The feel of her around me was too much. I had to slow down in order to not cum right then and there. Her walls were slick and tight around my engorged cock and I wondered if it had always been this good.
"Mmm Dimitri." My eyes found hers in the dimly light room and we both smiled as I pulled out and thrust back in.
Rose's POV
After dinner we had gotten home and went straight to bed. Dimitri had spared me a few sorry and pathetic looks before I had shut off the lamps and given up myself before falling asleep. His loud grunts woke me up and I was scared he had been having a bad dream.
His sneak attack kisses had told me exactly what he had been dreaming about though. The thought thrilled me and excited me and I could not hold back kissing him back just as passionately. And nothing felt better than when my hips jumped forward to find his hard length full and ready to go.
"R-r-r-ooo." His head fell onto my shoulders and he tried to place himself in a postion where he could move and not fall over.
His cock sliding in and out of me was almost as if I was having sex for the first time. After the accident that one time we had done it had been great. It was sweet and touched me emotionally. But this was a complete different level. As I focused on his motions, on the feel of his cock touching every part inside me I felt closer to him than I had the entire time I had known him.
This was what loved felt like. This feeling and happiness carrying me off into the sunset was exactly what we had been needing. And the faster and deeper he went the better it felt. Moans slipped out from my lips loud and breathy as I clung onto his shoulders for dear life.
My hands having a mind of their own slipped down further until I could cup each of his butt cheeks. Butt cheeks that felt so fucking good underneath my hands. I gave them a tight squeeze before pushing him even closer to me. The motion cause his pelvis area to rub against my clit, further bringing me into the bliss he promised to me.
"God you feel so fucking good." He grunted in my ear before pulling his face from my neck.
His eyes were near pitch black but they did not hide the love that shone there. There was so much for me it was overwhelming, and oddly enough sent even more wettness to my core. I could feel my juice slipping out making his thrust smoother, wonderful.
"F-f-f-fuck!" Dimitri's brows furrowed and I knew he wanted to cum.
"Cum baby!" I cared not that I had yet to reach my peak. I had one up on him and I was willing to wait until we could do this again.
"N-n-n-n-o. C-c-cum." He may have been stuttering but the command was there. And as always I was powerless.
I concentrated on the way his dick went in and out of me. Of the feeling that twitched in my stomach every time he filled me to the top. I swore I could feel his tip rubbing up against my walls as he pulled out. I had never imagined sex with Dimtri could be like this. That I would be able to feel all of him this clearly.
It was like every nerve in my body was on fire. Like every nerve ending was working its hardest and I was so fucking close.
"Dimitri... Dimitri..." His name slipped out of my lips drawn out and loud.
He shifted a little and managed to pull one of my legs up and onto his shoulder. I wanted to tell him to stop working so hard but when he slid in a different angle hitting my g-spot I yelled out in pleasure instead.
Over and over his hard long length went in and out of me. Over and over I screamed out his name in pure adultery pleasure. I had thought sex with him that first time was good, and trust me it was fucking fantasic but this was on a whole other level.
"R-roza!" My name slipped from his lips and tears of joy spilled from my eyes as I crashed into my orgasm.
He had called out my name without a stutter. Not only that he had finally been able to cum for the first time since before the accident. I kissed him with all my might as I repeated over and over how much I loved him.
"I love you Dimitri." His eyes shone with so much, it was making my heart ache, in a good way.
"I-I-I L-ooo-ve Y-ooooo-u." He kissed me again and and I felt as he somehow was able to get hard again. Needless to say we had a lot of catching up to do, and we were going to do a lot of that.
Ok so the chapter is about 1,000 words shorter than I had really wanted it to be, but I could not go on!
I really hope you all like it, esp since it ended with a lemon ;)...
Anyways what did you think? About Dimitri's progress? About his inner demons? About Rose trying to be helpful? And lastly of the way they reconnected?
If you guys can be as amazing as before I will work just as hard for another fast update? Deal?