Fenderman (Him)
I've managed to keep myself away from all the n*ggers here for the most part. They all think they can beat me up well they have another thing coming if they were too try. They should be working for me. I have been here for two days and I already hate everything about it. They think they can take my right to own a n*gger they have another thing coming.
I sat at lunch and ate what they claim to be food when this n*gger came up too me and sat down at the table.
"Hey what do you think you are doing, n*gger" I asked furious and before I knew it he hit me. I hit him back surprised he really thinks he can fight me.
"Fuck you" he shouted tackling me too the floor and continued to punch me.
"Fuck you, you fucking…." I started to say and before I could finish everything went black.
Michelle
I decided too go too see Lena today. I need too fix this. I can't believe how much Martin has messed up.
I got their and went to her room and a blonde women came up to me, probably Lenas wife.
"Hey" she said confused at the sight of me. I know she doesn't know who I am.
"Hey i'm Michelle Duncan, Martin's girlfriend." I said holding my hand out and she shook it.
"Oh i'm Stefanie Foster. Lenas wife." she stated.
"Martin isn't here" she said and I nodded.
"Oh I know I actually want too talk too Lena." i said and she looked shocked.
"Uh Martin has been acting very odd with everything going on, I just wanted to talk to her and see how he is acting around her. I mean if she is ok with talking too me" I said and she nodded.
"Ok I will see if she is ok and if everything is good than I will let you guys talk" she said and I nodded gratefully.
"Thank you i'm just worried about him." I said as we walked in. I looked at her and she looked confused at the sight of me. You could tell she was really pretty. She is majorly underweight and you can tell she been though hell by the looks of her. I feel bad for her. She's delusional, has been though hell and I know I will probably make it worse for a bit. It's gotta happen some time. I can't blame her anyone in that situation would end up falling in love with the person that is nice too you and gives you food.
"Hey, so this Michelle, Martin's girlfriend" Stef said not realizing the affect of her words. Lena however looked devastated. I know she hates me with those two words.
"She wanted to talk to you about Martin" she said and looked Lena.
"Everything ok?" she asked her and Lena nodded.
"Yeah no, I'm 're fine." she said and Stef gave her a disbelieving look but nodded and left.
"Ok so I know you hate me" I said and she looks like she could cry.
"Look I know that you love him but he isn't who you think he is." I said and she shook her head not believing me. She really is in love with him.
"No!" she said stubbornly.
"Listen I know this is hard to hear but you need to listen because eventually this will stop being what it is now. I know Martin, ok. I have known him for a long time now." I said and she shook her head.
"No he loves me." she stated but she didn't sound as confident as she wanted to be. She sounds like she is trying to convince herself.
"He thinks he loves you, he does this when something is going on in his life that is just too hard to deal with. He finds someone that is in a worse place than him and tries to heal them" I said and she shook her head.
"Or he's just a nice person" she argued and I sighed she has a point but it goes past that.
"Yes he is but he's not actually in love with you. He just trying to ignore his problems with yours." I said but I don't think she is really believing me.
"Look I really need to apologize to you about something." I said and she looked at me worried.
"I went over to talk to him yesterday and he made a move on me and we you know… i'm sorry" I lied. Sure it hasn't happened yet but it will soon.
Lena
This can't be happening. Martin wouldn't have cheated would he? He couldn't have, he loves me. I have been distant lately, could I have really drove him into bed with some other girl. Maybe she's right, maybe I'm just his project. I mean why else would he be with me.
First I loss Junior and now Martin. What's the point? What's the point in life anymore. Maybe it's time I do this right and get to see my baby boy again.
Stef
Something was very odd about how Lena and Michelle interacted. Lena looked very upset when I said she was Martin's girlfriend. Why would that upset her unless… No that's not possible right. My wife, I can't even imagine her with a man. Her and Martin are just friends right?
I couldn't help but humor it for a second and it almost makes too much sense. She was delusional stuck in the early 1900s. She didn't know about me or even what lesbianism is so their is no way she knew she was one. She was treated horribly and Martin was getting her food and treating her nicely, why wouldn't she? After all food is love.
I felt tears come to my eyes as the obvious truth hit me full force. My wife had sex with a man. Her and Martin are probably still dating.
Everything hit me, all the clues I should have seen. My co-workers being shocked I allowed him to see her, how comfortable with him she was, Martin claiming I was her sister… the infection in her uterus that is really normally because of an untreated miscarriage. Oh my god she got pregnant by him.
I texted Mariana because I need to get out of her.
Me: Can you or Mariana come stay with mama
Her:sure, why
Me: I have some things I need too take care of
Her: ok are you coming home? she responded and I know she is worried.
Me: I'll be home maybe a bit late but I will be home before night time. I'll text Mike
I said knowing I shouldn't leave them by themselves when I don't know when I will be home.
Her: Mom, are you ok?she responded and I know i'm worrying her but I just need a bit of time before I go home.
Me:don't worry I really just need to do a few things is all.
I texted Mike:hey stay with kids tonight? plz and thanks. Did you hear anything on Lena and Martin being together.
I said going too my car before getting in I texted David.
Me:few drinks? plz I really need it
Mike responded back with: Are you ok? Stef just go home and don't do anything stupid.
Me: go with the kids! i'm fucking fine
David:are you ok?
Me too David: yes drinks
Mike:fine but don't do anything stupid
David: Mike texted me worried
Me too David: I'm fine, see you at the the bar in fifteen
I got into the car and drove to the bar even though it's only 4:30 but hey it will be 5 soon.
Mariana
I'm worried about mom obviously something is wrong. It's not like her too do this. Especially with mama being in the mindset she's in. I feel like she's going to get a few drinks (I hope it stays a few at least) and that's what worries me. Other than the other night where she got drunk because Martin is making a big deal out of her living with him ( I really hope that she comes home but i'm worried she won't) where she got drunk she hasn't really even touched a beer since mama went missing because of having to manage everything. I don't know what's going on but I'm really worried about her. I hope she doesn't get really drunk and that she ends up being ok. She's dealing with a lot and i'm worried that if she isn't careful her cracking and dealing with it with alcohol will end with her going down the same road that Mike just got back from.
Lena
Mariana came into the room and for once I really wish I was alone. How could Martin sleep with her? Why didn't I see this coming? How could he just betray our family like that?
"Hey you ok?" She asked and I nodded hoping she can't tell I was just crying.
"You can tell me if something is wrong" she said and I nodded.
"I'm fine really just tired, what happened to your mom?" I asked and she looked worried.
"Oh she um had to do something" she said and I can tell that she felt bad about her mom just running out. I shouldn't be surprised today just sucks. Why wouldn't the only person I actually want to see just left. Stef never seemed like the person to just leave but I guess eventually everyone fails you.
"Oh ok" I said trying to hide my disappointment. Why can't I be left alone?
"I'm sorry she just really had something she needed to do" she said but she didn't seem convinced. It's my fault I should have known better than to hope for a second that she was different.
David
I showed up and Stef was already here and have had a beer down already. Shit this is going to be a hard night.
"Stef come on" I said and she groaned.
"Have one" she said pushing the newly filled beer towards me.
"Stef I don't think this is a good idea" I said and she rolled her eyes.
"David it's ok. Mikes with the kids and Marianas with the wife" she said and I sighed.
"Stef your kids are worried about you" I said but she dismissed it.
"It's just a few drinks what's so wrong with a few drinks?" She asked and I sighed.
"I know you are upset" I said and she rolled her eyes.
"Can we not talk about it." She said.
"Fine but a few drinks" I said and she nodded but I don't really believe her.
Lena
I know she can tell I'm upset because she's really trying to distract me.
"Hey why don't I help you learn to read" she said and I smiled at her.
"Really?" I asked and she nodded.
"Of course besides mom says you're extremely smart and a fast learner" she said and I blushed. I'm not smart, why would she say that. I'm still messing up my alphabet.
"Here let me pull up some easy books" she said getting out her phone and typing something in and then putting it in front of me.
"Ok just trying to sound out the letters I'll help you" she said and I looked at the screen.
"Wha-air..." I started trying to make sense of the the title words.
"Good it's pronounced where, great job" she said. I recognized the next word just by looking at it and hearing it on my reading thing.
"The...wa-la-d" I tried.
"Wild" she said patiently.
"Where the wild ...ta-h..." I tried and she interrupted.
"Like the word The it has the TH sound th-" she said showing me how to say it.
"Thinga-ss" I said and she nodded so I continued knowing the next word from memory.
"Are" I said and she smiled.
"Good" she said and switched to a new page.
"The ni-gahta"
"Night"
"The night.. What's that?"
"His name Max"
"Max w-o-ra-ee" I said.
"Wore"
"Hiss wa-ol-ff sauitt and ma-a-da-e..." I said and looked at her not sure about the next word.
"Very good... His wolf suit and made..." She said and put the sounds together a little bit nicer than I have.
"Also don't be intimidated by bigger words it's just like the other ones..." She said putting to the first three letters MI and F.
"Mis- the ch make a cha sound so misch-Ief makes the if sound. Mischief" she said and I nodded.
"What does that mean?" I asked not recognizing the word.
"He is causing trouble" she said and I nodded she gave me a look of go a head and I continued.
"Ofa owne ka- nada" I said and she laughed a little to herself.
"Of one kind but very good keep reading" she said and I smiled. I'm reading!
David
I can't count how many she downed before I could rip it out of her hand. She's wasted and I mean drunk.
"Stef come on" I said trying to get her to move.
"No fuck you! I want to stay" she whined and I groaned.
"Ma'am is there a problem?" She asked her.
"I don't want to leave!" She said.
"Ma'am I'm going to have to ask you to leave" she said and I gave her an apologetic smile.
"I'm sorry we will be leaving" I said border line picking her up and pulling her away.
"I don't want to go fuck them" she shouted and I put my hand over her mouth.
"Calm down, ok" I said and she had tears in her eyes.
"Come on we can just go home and you can sleep it off" I said and she sat down on the curb next to my car tears now streaming down her face. I have been friends with her for like twenty years and I think I have seen her cry maybe four times the entire time. I have seen male cops cry more than I have seen her.
"Sleep it off right" she said laughing humorlessly.
"I'm gonna wake up tomorrow and Lena is still going to be delusional and it all is still going to be happening. The asshole Martin is still going to be with Lena, that's not going to change. None of it is going to change. The only thing i'm going to sleep off is the alcohol that is making it better and i'm gonna wake up with a massive hangover called life." she said and I sat next to her.
"I'm sorry. I know everything sucks right now, I do. I know you keep getting told it's all going to get better and it's not helping but one day you will get her back." I said and she sighed.
"What if I don't though? What if I never get my wife back? This is all my fault" she said and I shook my head. I know she feels guilty. After all she knew their was a kidnapper out their and she didn't make sure that her wife got back safe. Anyone would blame themselves but that doesn't make it her fault. She made a mistake, it doesn't mean she (or her wife) deserves this and it's definitely not all her fault. The fault is a hundred percent placed on the asshole that took her.
"Hey it's not your fault" I said and she laughed humorlessly.
"I should have made sure that she got home safe, I failed her" she said and I shook my head.
"It's not your fault, Stefanie" I said and she sighed.
"If it's not my fault then whose is it?" she asked and this is what's wrong with people. She honestly didn't even think of the person who took her as someone that should be blamed. That's what's wrong with society.
"The kidnapper"
Mike
I ordered pizza for the kids and using Stef's money from her wallet paid for it.
"Alright eat up" I said and got a call from David. I silently cursed to myself as I dismissed myself to talk to him. Great I hope she's not too wasted. All the kids are worried sick about her even though no one has said it everyone is worried she will become an alcoholic. After all this isn't like Stef at all, she's clearly just snapped a little bit. Stef isn't the one to go get drunk with her kids at home waiting for her worried and a delusional wife upset in the hospital. I really hope this isn't her actually snapping. These kids need a level headed parent that is calm in the crisis and if Stef becomes an alcoholic then they won't have that. I will probably have to watch them and hopefully get there grandparents help but still.
"What's going on?" I asked worried.
"Stef is drunk... Like drunk drunk" he said worried and I sighed. So much for a few drinks.
"Like blacked out just puked on the side of my car drunk." He said and I groaned.
"Great are you ok to drive" I asked.
"Oh yeah I just need help with her when I get back to her place. She just passed out and by how dead out she is we are carrying her in" he said and I groaned. Great no hope for not making a scene and worrying the kids.
"Ok we will handle it. Thanks" I said.
"Yep be there in ten" he said hanging up. Great this better be a one time thing. All these kids have seen me struggle with being an alcoholic the last thing they need is to see their mom to especially when they need her the most.
Brandon
Dad went out to help David with mom, so much for a few drinks. What if she actually becomes an alcoholic? She just randomly snapped today? I know something happened that set it off but Dad didn't tell us, even though I know he knows. It has to be bad in order to cause her to snap like this and what if she keeps doing it? She can only handle so much and I think she reached the crossing line. Mom was luckily conscious but more drunk than she should be.
"Go upstairs" I said too my siblings not wanting them too see this. Callie took them upstairs.
"I'm fine B" she said hugging me but she is far from fine.
"You really need to go to bed" I said holding her upright.
"Come on Stef" Dad said and she glared at him.
"I know you knew and you didn't tell me" she said pissed and I still don't know what is happening but Dad looked guilty.
"I'm sorry Stef." he said giving me a look of 'go upstairs'.
"You knew that my wife was in a relationship with Martin and you just didn't think it was important too tell me" she said shocking me. What? No wonder she got wasted.
"I tried, come on let's get you to bed" he said going to help her go upstairs.
"Don't touch me!" she said angrily and I sighed.
"Come on, mom" I said knowing i'm the only one she will calm down for. She looked over at me and sighed guilt coming to her face. She knows she shouldn't be coming home this drunk and causing a scene and she feels bad about it.
"I'm sorry" she said and i helped her up too her room.
"Sleep it off" I said getting her into the bed.
I came downstairs and dad still looks guilty.
"What the hell?" i asked him and he sighed.
"Brandon" he said trying to scold me but knowing it's not going to work.
"You should have told her, you knew this would happen" I said and he nodded.
"I know I tried, I just couldn't do it." he defended himself and I sighed.
"Is she gonna be ok?" I asked and he sighed.
"Yeah just really hungover tomorrow." he said and I shook my head.
"That's not what I meant" I said and he nodded.
"I know. We won't let it happen ok" he said but i'm not so convinced. I know my mom said she wouldn't let him become an alcoholic and look how well that turned out for her. What if we can't stop it?
Ok please keep reviewing. So I know this looks bad, don't worry I won't let it become that bad.