Alone at 18
Chapter 25: Tears of Happiness and I Love You's
Mitchie's Point of View
It is now 9:00 the third day I have been gone. I am sitting in my house in my room with my lyrics book on my lap with the bedside lamp lighting up the room. It wasn't really bright so the room was dimly lit but it was relaxing and peaceful that way. I loved it. I had left Parker's house earlier today well he was at work. I forget to tell him this morning I was leaving but I would somehow get in contact with him eventually. I have gotten some sleep I was still exhausted though. I was still upset about leaving Shane. Again and again I was still trying to convince myself that it was the best thing but for some reason now my mind was telling me differently, why now why not before I left. I sometimes which he was going to say I love you because I knew if he did I wouldn't of had the heart to leave and I would have said it back and I wish I could. I know I will probably never see him again. I don't think he would try to find me, if he respected my wishes. I secretly wanted him to disrespect them and find me though, I am confused as you call probably tell. I was trying to imagine my life without seeing him again, in the way I used to, up close, personal and being held it was unbearable so I did my best not to think about it at all but I now know it was almost impossible to not think or dream about him. He was the love of my life but I can't go back. The only possible way was if he came here and found me. But I know deep down I wouldn't want to go back to LA, I was starting her and I think if he found me, even though I love him I would stay here. The only thing if that ever happened would he stay with me. That's a big if though; hell he might not even want to look for me because I told him I didn't want to be found. God I can be so stupid sometimes!
I was writing random things not really being able to think of anything or create a line that makes sense. Completely and utterly incompetent at the moment I give up setting my book to the side along with the pencil and sigh. I look out of my window and I see a shooting star fly across the sky. I smile and close my eyes making a wish. Hey a girl can dream. Do you really blame me? I smile getting up and changing from my day clothes to sweats and a t-shirt. I left the light on in my room as I made my way down stairs and slipped on a pair of flip flops I had left by my back door. I opened the door and walked outside heading towards the gorgeous beach I grew up on. The wind was cool, but I don't think I will be out here long. Actually I probably will be but I didn't want to go back to get a sweater, I didn't care I just wanted to get to the spot I always use to lay and pray to my mom and dad. I was frustrated with writing, sad because of Shane and I just thought this would be the perfect thing to do.
I climbed over the one sand dune that separated the house and the beach. I walked over it and down closer towards the water to the right of my house. I sat down and leant back on my elbows a smile on my face as I looked up into the sky. I closed my eyes and then opened them again gazing at the beauty of the stars. I smiled happily just loving being here. Smelling the salt air and hearing the ocean waves hitting the rocks not far away it was the most peaceful feeling in the world, you would not understand how amazing it is until you actually experience it.
I finally laid back and just closed my eyes listening to the crashing of waves and steadiness of the ocean. I would shiver slightly as the ocean breeze swept across the beach. It was the most amazing feeling in the world. This was one of the many reasons I don't think I could ever leave this place. It was peaceful any day at any time of your life you just had to let it be. It was gorgeous and breathe taking. It was romantic and no matter what the sky was always clear unless there was rain clouds were hanging in the sky. This was my hometown where my parents raised me. I knew it and most of all it gave me a feeling of comfort that I have never experienced before. You have those feeling you just know are right. You get one when you find the one you are to spend your life with, mine Shane, which will never happen. The feeling when you just know and I can honestly tell you I have the feeling that this is where I am meant to stay so I am going to stay and live my life here. The only thing though is part of me is wondering that if Shane found me and I asked him if you would stay here too, would he? Who cared I would never know would I. I stopped my mind from thinking and just lay there is a total state of peace my eyes closed. I would always belong here, a place I will forever call home.
"I thought I would find you here" I heard a voice. I opened my eyes and turned my head looking up to see Parker
"Yeah, hi" I said smiling
"Hey" He said reaching out his hand and I took it standing up
"What are you doing out at 1:00 in the morning" He asked
"What are you?"
"Touché" He said and I giggled
"Got you there. I didn't know I had been out that long" I said
"Oh, I just got back from a date and wanted to go for a walk. I was walking down the road and saw your light on, I knocked but you didn't answer so I decided to check the beach and here you are." He said and I smiled
"Thanks it is kind of cold" I said
"Do you want to go inside" he asked
"Not yet" I said smiling
"Alright well hi" he said laughing and greeted me with a hug
"Hi" I said laughing hugging back, it was rather warm and comforting even though it was just a friendly hug everything felt right. He was truly my best friend and I would forever thank him for that.
Shane's Point of View
I was taking the off ramp to Santa Barbara and I was beyond awake. I didn't even feel tired. I was probably over tired so I didn't feel it but my adrenaline was rushing through my veins at an unbelievably fast pace so I just wanted to get there. I arrived in the town and pulled into a gas station as the need fuel light came on in my car. I filled up my car then went into the little shop. I bought a bottle of juice and drank half of it before I even paid for it and the gas. I was thirsty to say the least. I paid up and went back into my car.
Before I headed out of the gas station I took out my phone and called my parents. It was about 12:45 so I was sure they were asleep but sounded anything but that when they answered on the second ring.
"Shane?" they asked
"Yeah hi mom, hi dad I arrived. I am at a gas station I am about to head to find her, I will let you know what happens but it will probably be in the morning or early afternoon, but I am safe okay?" I answered
"That's good, good luck son" my dad said
"Go for it Shane, I am really proud of you" my mom said
"Thanks bye you two love you" I say smiling and hang up. I remembered I have no idea where her old house was and the beach behind it was most likely where she would be. I walked back into the gas station. "Sorry to bother you but do you know where the Torres home stead was"
"Yeah across town its 167 beach view road" the guy said and I nodded smiling huge
"Thank you" I said leaving climbing into my car. I pulled out my iPhone went to the directions app. Typed in the address and studied the map. I would be there within minutes. I smiled placing it on the other seat and turned out of the gas station heading towards the woman I love.
I pulled up to the house and parked in the driveway. I saw the light up in a room and smiled knowing she had clearly been here. However I was hoping she was on the beach. I would try the house after if she wasn't at the beach. I walked around the back of the house and up the sand dune that was very visible. I was just coming down it when I saw her figure in the shadow of the moon. My heart did sink though, she was hugging another male and I have no idea what was happening. She couldn't have found someone already could she, did she really want to forget me. I was about to turn around when they pulled away, surprisingly I was close enough to hear them talking.
"Thanks for being an amazing friend pancake" She said I was confused
"You can use my real name you know, Parker does it ring a bell. If you don't stop I will call you milkshake" He said
"It's better than pancake that is for sure" She said in her teasing tone and I smiled remembering it. She sat down on the sand and wrapped her arms around her shivering
"It's cold Mitchie shouldn't we go inside" the guy said
"We should but I'm not yet. I don't want to I want to stay and look at the stars okay" She said I would know that
"You are cold though" He said
"Then go get me a sweater if you want me to be warm" she said
"Alright I will be right back, in your old room" He asked
"No in my old parent's room I moved in there" She said and he nodded
"Alright I will be right back"
I walked back into the darkness so I wouldn't be found. I don't want to see anyone but her. She would be the first to see me and I was making that possible. He walked passed where I was. I smiled as he disappeared down the dune and I started towards her as I saw her shivering as the breezed passed through the beach. I took off my leather jacket coming up behind her and I shivered slightly. I could handle being cold as long as she was warm. I slipped the leather jacket around her shoulders staying behind her and silent.
Mitchie's Point of View
I felt a leathery material hit my shoulder and I wrapped it around me tighter. I didn't really want my leather jacket. It was usually cold but this was somewhat warm. I pulled it closer and was about to ask him why he got it for me instead of a sweater that would be warmer. However it hit me immediately and I felt dizzy. The scent was unmistakable. The scent I recognized so well the leathery scent of his jacket mixed with his shampoo he used and cologne. It could only be one person, Shane. I turned and met his brown eyes.
"Shane what are you doing here?" I asked
"Mitchie" he said falling to his knees and wrapping his arms around me. I didn't hesitate and hug back tears feeling my eyes.
"Shane" I said tears starting to fall "what are you doing here"
"Finding you" he said pulling away tears visible in his eyes. I promised myself there was one thing that I had to do when I found you before anything else" he said
"What was that?" I asked
"Say something important to you" He said
"Okay" I asked
"Mitchie Torres I love you" he said and now tears started falling faster. Because I was happy though, I still needed to talk to him we needed to talk a lot but what was happening now.
"I love you too" I said wiping tears until he removed my hands from my cheeks replacing them with his as his warm mouth captured mine in the most loving kiss I have ever experienced and I met it with the same feeling. We were both in love. There was a reason I left but now I knew it wasn't for him. Everything happens for a reason and maybe this was the reason why I left. To know we were meant to be together, no matter where we were, what we did, or who we were, we were meant for each other and anything can withstand that, anything not matter how horrible we will however always find our way back together, it's weird how life has its own way of showing us what is meant to be.
"Mitchie moo you are cold I have seen you shivering and I know you want to be under the stars, but I think we should go inside, talk we will definitely need to do that." I said
"Let's go inside" she said standing up as did I wrapping my arm around her holding her close
"We can talk when we are warming up"
"Shane we need to talk and I don't know what outcome our talk could have. Good or bad are the options we will always end up together but for tonight can we just be together, no talk, no relationship stuff just us." I said
"We are a couple though, you said we will always be together" He said
"Yeah we are a couple just let's not worry about that tonight" I said
"Okay but I need to ask one question first" he said
"Anything" I said
"Will you be my girlfriend" He said holding out his watch and I smiled holding out my wrist
"Make it official" I said smiling and he fastened the watch around wrist. I smiled leaning into him kissing him as he kissed me again. I just wanted to be with him tonight to love him.
It is now an hour later Parker went home and me and Shane our in my room on my bed in a pretty sexy situation. He was currently only in boxers our lips connected my hands trialing up and down his chest. I was in booty shorts and a bra and his hands were traveling up my sides and fingering the clasp of my bra never undoing it. I didn't know why but I felt if we let our promises go it would mean more than just making love with the one we would love forever. It would be proving that our love was real for only the love of your love was strong enough to be able to remove your purity married or not.
"Mitchie if we keep going I won't stop" He moaned against my lips
"Your purity" I said
"Until Marriage" He said
"Mine was different" I said and he looked at me still kissing me softly "my promise was to stay pure until I found the love of my life and only your purity can be taken by the one who loves you enough, and you will only let your purity be taken if it was that person after or before marriage" I said kissing him
"As long as you love the one with your life and want to be with forever, your purity is wide open" He asked
"Yeah, but yours is after marriage" I said "If they are the person who you love to let them take it" I murmur
"And if you feel about it that way how would you know if the other person feels the same before you marry them?"
"You don't unless you risk your promise" I said
"You only marry the person if you love them and know they are the one who you want to spend the rest of your life with" He said
"Exactly and that's my promise without the marriage" I said
"I feel that way about you, I want to be with you forever" He said
"We will always end up together" I said "Forever we are going to love each other and be together"
"Married is just a title after all" he said
"There is only one way to know if that person would ever let you take your purity" I said
"To risk the promise"
"I already found the answer to my promise, the one I'm willing to give it to, but are you willing to risk your promise" I said to Shane "One way to find out, and in another way to tie us together, to know we are forever destined to be together for whoever takes the purity, is your soul mate, because there is no way to say no if they are the one you are destined to be with forever" I said and he looked in my eyes his eyes full of fire and love and passion
"I give my promise to you" He said kissing me his hand traveling to my bra clasp undoing it as the material fell from my chest and I felt it slip from my body to the floor.
"You are traveling a risky path" I said
"You are worth the risk" he said
"I found my promise, it's yours" I said and he kisses me more full of love
"I 'm not risking my promise because you gave me yours mine is yours therefore it is confirmed."
"Until I found the one I want to spend the rest of my life with"
"Marriage is just a label" and that was the last words that escaped our mouths that night, as we bound our connection in the most sacred form, by making love. You may think it was wrong as we had purity rings and maybe in gods eye it was in some way but if you saw it from our point of view. We both wanted to spend our lives together. The one we wanted to love forever and that was my promise and Shane's just without the label. The thing is as we fell asleep we knew this was real, we may be young and we may have "broken" our promises. However in one instance we just accomplished them I know knew I was no longer alone at 18.
A/N: That is chapter 25 and I cannot believe I am updating this chapter already. I didn't expect them to break their promise it just happened. The story isn't over there is a bit more leading up to the tour. Does she go back I mean they are meant to be together, twists could still happen and I am writing up to the tour. Does Mitchie go on tour, does she get a part of the tour, so many things could happen right? I decided that it won't be a sequel. It will be part of this story in this same section but the title at the beginning won't be alone at 18 Chapter whatever number, it will be a different title and chapter 1. Same section same story line with the tour and many things can change being with the band and the two people who couldn't stand you at all. I thought it would be slightly easier that way. Anyone else think that is a good compromise, between a sequel or a longer story? I thought so. Anyway this was a reunion and the bonding of their love. Anyone else extremely happy about the outcome of this chapter? What will happen next and family reaction find out in the next chapter? I will update as soon as I can hopefully soon. Read and Review. Enjoy!
~Kim