Ianto finished feeding Conner his bottle and burped the child. The entire time, the Doctor just laid there staring at the wall not paying attention to Ianto nor his child. Ianto was surprised that the Doctor didn't try to run while Ianto was occupied but just like aboard the TARDIS he seemed to have given up his fight. Ianto adjusted Conner holding him out to the Doctor. The Doctor made no move to take his child so Ianto took the decision out of his hands. With gentle pressure on the Doctor's shoulder, he guided him so that he was laying on his back. Carefully he laid Conner down on the Doctor's chest, moving the less damaged of the Doctor's arms to hold the infant in place. He checked to make sure that the ice pack was still against the Doctor's ankle before laying down and taking the Doctor into his arms. He rested his forehead against the side of the Doctor's head as he began to speak.
"I've been here," Ianto stated as he gently ran his fingers along the Doctor's bandaged wrist. The Doctor glanced at him briefly in confusion before returning his stare to the ceiling. "I've been to the very bottom where I felt that I had no other choice but to take my own life. If it hadn't been for my sister, I wouldn't be here. She found me and saved me. Because of her, I went on to University before working at Torchwood. I know from Jack that you don't agree with Torchwood but we have done a lot of good. We have saved countless lives over the years and all the help that I have given them would never have happened if I had succeeded that night."
"Jack has also told me stories about you. When I first heard of you, I was working for Torchwood One," Ianto admitted. He heard a soft growl from the Doctor's throat and he couldn't help but smile. "According to the official Torchwood charter, you are enemy number one. We are supposed to capture you on sight and if capture isn't possible, then we are to kill you. Jack would never allow it, though and for good reason. Despite what Torchwood says, you are a good man."
"I'm not," The Doctor whispered finally, his voice so low that Ianto had trouble hearing him.
"You are, though. Jack has told me about all the people that you helped save. You were up there on the Sycorax ship on Christmas day. He even told me how there was a year that never happened for anyone else but the people at the eye of the storm. If it wasn't for you then the universe would have ended. The universe needs you, Doctor, even if you don't agree at the moment. More than that, Jack cares for you and so does Donna, Martha, and Conner. You have people who love you and want you to be safe," Ianto informed him softly.
"And you?" The Doctor questioned turning his head so that he could look at Ianto.
"I barely know you but Jack cares for you and so does Martha. You also gave Conner a chance for a good life, even if you aren't sure how you feel about him," Ianto responded. He leaned up kissing Conner softly on the side of the head. Laying his head back down, he gently pressed his forehead against the Doctor's. "I love Conner and have been enjoying caring for him. Jack and I both hope that we can still be part of his life when you finally decide to take him with you."
"I don't think I am going anywhere soon," the Doctor answered. He wasn't stupid and he knew that Jack was going to make him stay until they were sure he wouldn't try to kill himself again. At the moment, he still wanted to. He wanted to run from the bedroom and onto the TARDIS to finish what he started. Only he didn't. He just laid there feeling the heavy cool weight of Conner on his chest and the warm body of Ianto pressed against his side with his arms holding him tightly. He could feel the burning pain of his wrists and the ache in his ankle dulled by the ice.
"No, but that's alright. You can stay here with the three of us until you are ready to travel again," Ianto agreed. Hearing a knock at the door, he raised his head to see Jack standing in the doorway with three steaming cups.
"Mind if I come in?" Jack questioned.
"Not at all," Ianto responded. Jack came into the room as Ianto sat up on the bed in order to take the cup without spilling it all over himself. He took his cup of coffee from Jack, holding it in his hands. The Doctor turned his head to look back at the ceiling. He could see Jack holding two more cups out of the corner of his eye and he thought about just ignoring him. Instead, he placed a hand on Conner's back as he forced himself to sit up. He took the cup from Jack bringing it immediately to his lips. The tea was overly sweet and too hot for a human to consume. He hummed his pleasure as he took another sip. The bed dipped next to him as Jack took a seat. He didn't pull away as Jack wrapped an arm around his shoulder holding him.
"How are you feeling?" Jack wondered.
"Lost," the Doctor admitted.
"I promise it will get easier. Ianto and I are going to be right here with you," Jack promised him. He pulled the Doctor carefully making him lean closer. The Doctor finished off his cup of tea and handed it back to Jack. Holding Conner with both arms, he leaned his head against his shoulder. "Martha called me while I was trying to shower."
"When will she be getting here?" The Doctor wondered, his voice hollow.
"I told her not to come. Your wrists are bandaged and you will be fine with me and Ianto for a few days," Jack answered him.
"Thank you," The Doctor whispered. Jack kissed the Doctor on the top of the head before leaning his head to rest against the Doctor's.
"Rest now and in the morning you need to call Donna and let her know that you are alright. I also need to contact Gwen in the morning and pass off the running of Torchwood for a few days," Jack explained. He turned slightly setting his cup down on the bedside table before releasing the Doctor. He took Conner from him carrying the sleeping baby back over to his cot. He laid him down in it making sure he was comfortable. Turning out the light in the room, he then returned to the bed. He took Ianto's cup from him placing it next to his own. The Doctor didn't fight as he was helped to lay back in the bed. Jack fixed the blankets so that all three of them were tucked beneath them as Ianto snuggled against him from behind holding him tightly to his chest. Climbing into the bed, Jack laid down in front of them. Jack laid his arm across the Doctor, resting his hand on Ianto's arm. None of them slept right away as they laid in the darkness just holding each other for a moment. Jack wondered how he could help the Doctor as Ianto just hoped that he got through to the Time Lord. Exhaustion eventually took over, though, and soon they were all sleeping peacefully in each other's arms.