A/N: Thank you all for the feedback. I'm Sorry that the chapters are taking so long to post for this and all the other stories. I'm trying my best to keep up with them. I'm going to be trying a lot harder now but with the holiday season here already and all the craziness already beginning its going to be hard. I hope you'll continue to read the stories, though, even if the chapters take a while.
Part 16
--------Kendall's House--------
Greenlee sat outside in the driveway not sure how long she'd been sitting here looking at Kendall's house, a house she once lived in with Kendall and Spike and had been hers but that was a long time ago and things were different now. Greenlee looked down at her hands, which were still on the steering wheel...her hands ready to turn the ignition and drive away and just forget about going inside to talk to Kendall...she hated when Kendall and her talked if only because when said talks were planned in advance they always ended up hurting her, Kendall ended up hurting her.
Greenlee sighed and placed her head against the steering wheel and closed her eyes remembering the one day in her life she would always remember more vividly then any other. One that was years ago and still played the largest part in her life till this day.
------January 13, 2012------
Greenlee stood in the living room of the house she had bought with Kendall screaming and yelling at the woman she loved more then anything. Kendall had done it again, Greenlee would have been able to get past this if it had been the first time Kendall had done this but it wasn't the first time and Greenlee couldn't get over it this time. She was through! Greenlee had packed her bags and was leaving she couldn't take this anymore. Kendall needed to pick who she wanted and she needed to stick to that choice not go from one to the other every other month. Greenlee needed stability and with Kendall she realized she could never have that, not as long as Kendall still had Zach in her life.
Greenlee was just at the door when Kendall stepped in front of her and literally got on her knees and started crying. Greenlee wanted to side step Kendall and just get out the door and not have to come back but she couldn't. Kendall had her arms wrapped around her legs and she couldn't get free from Kendall's grasp and she wouldn't dare look down at Kendall because she knew if she did then she'd never be able to leave.
"Greenlee, I'm sorry." Kendall cried. "I'm so sorry. Please don't go. Don't leave."
Greenlee refused to look down at Kendall, she refused to feel like crap every day because Kendall couldn't make up her mind, she wasn't taking this anymore. If it wasn't about Zach it was about Ryan...if there was something wrong with them she'd never talk to her about it she'd always run to one of them, and after catching her in bed with both of them at least once, Greenlee was done she wouldn't do this anymore she couldn't keep putting her heart out there to get stomped on.
"Kendall...get up...!" Greenlee said shaking her head and looking to the side forcing herself not to look at the woman on her knees in front of her.
Kendall looked up at Greenlee with a tears streaming down her face. She slowly stood up in front of Greenlee and begged. "Please Greenlee, don't leave. I'm begging you." She sobbed.
"Yeah...like you were begging Zach not to stop, last night." Greenlee said bitter hatred lining her words. "I'm done Kendall...I won't keep putting my heart out there for you to crush. I don't deserve that and you don't deserve to be given the opportunities." Greenlee said picking up the bags she had placed at her sides when Kendall had launched herself at her, finally ready to leave the house.
Kendall knew right then that she had lost Greenlee for good and it was her own stupid fault. She looked at the way Greenlee was looking at her and didn't know what to say to her. She had no excuse for what she did.
Greenlee pushed past Kendall and was about to leave when something stopped her dead in her tracks. This time it wasn't Kendall trying to stop her, Kendall was standing behind her staring at the opposite wall tears falling from her face ever millisecond, that had said her name. It was Spike. The six year old boy who's voice was filled with tears as he stood at the other end of the living room staring at his mother and Greenlee. He had been watching from his hiding place as his mother fought with Greenlee but couldn't hide anymore.
"Greenlee don't go." Spike said and then ran over to Greenlee, pulling on her shirt as he looked up at her. "Please don't leave...don't go...please." Spike cried as he looked up at Greenlee. "Mommy's sorry...she is...please don't leave us...don't leave me." Spike cried and put his head against Greenlee's hip as he cried.
Greenlee felt her heart brake and had to hold back her sobs from coming. As much as Greenlee loved Spike she couldn't stay anymore, she couldn't stay here and get hurt again and again, she deserved much better then that.
Greenlee placed her bags outside the door and kneeled down in front of Spike and pulled the little boy into a hug and let him cry on her shoulder as she cried on his trying to find the strength to actually go through with her plans.
"I have to go bud. I can't live here anymore. I'm not leaving town for long. I'll be back...I promise. You can see me whenever you want after I come back." Greenlee said pulling away from the little boy to wipe away his tears.
"You promise?" Spike asked hiccupping while wiping his own tears and runny nose with his long sleeve.
"I promise." Greenlee said and kissed his forehead and stood back up. Greenlee turned to her right and looked at Kendall who was looking at her with tears falling, a hand against her heart while another covered her mouth, the look Greenlee sent Kendall's way dared her to not let Spike see him, she was lucky she wasn't fighting for the right of custody and the house which she was quiet sure she could win.
Greenlee and Kendall shared another look before Kendall just looked away and walked up to Spike and held onto her son's shoulders as they both watched Greenlee pack the last of her things and get into her car and leave. Once the car was out of sight Spike pulled away from Kendall and ran up the stairs to his bedroom and slammed the door behind him, leaving his mother to stare in the direction Greenlee's car had just gone off in. The sun was setting in the distance and Kendall realized when the sun rose again and tomorrow started everything would be different. Kendall sighed and stepped into the house and closed the door on the sunset and on another chapter of her life.
------Present------
Kendall had broken up with Zach the day after Greenlee left, or so Greenlee was told. The brake up hadn't been smooth and Zach ended up leaving Pine Valley and hadn't been heard from or seen since. Greenlee had laughed when she received that news from Maggie, after everything all it had taken for Kendall to realize what she was going to lose; (being her) was to actually lose it.
Greenlee looked up at the house and took a deep breath. Things were different now; Kendall and she were different people. Greenlee sighed and unlocked her door, taking the keys out of the ignition her mind made up, things were different and everything they had gone through was over and they remained acquaintances. To be honest Greenlee just really needed to know what Kendall could possibly want to talk to her about.
Greenlee took another deep breath and raised her hand to knock on the door only to have it open right before her knuckles touched the wooden door. Greenlee stepped back slightly surprised.
"Took you long enough." Kendall said as she looked at Greenlee. "I thought you'd never make up your mind." Kendall said giving Greenlee a small smile.
"Wasn't sure if I was going to make the right choice." Greenlee said looking at Kendall.
"Well, did you make the right one?" Kendall asked as she stepped aside to let Greenlee in.
Greenlee stepped into the house and looked around the house she had refused to step foot into for almost 7 years. Greenlee turned back to Kendall when she heard the door close. "I'm not sure yet." Greenlee said honestly.
"Okay." Kendall asked. She closed the door after Greenlee walked in. "Do you want to sit down?" She asked as she walked into the living room with Greenlee following behind her.
Greenlee looked over at Kendall and found she was dilly dallying around what ever it was she wanted to talk to her about and that bugged Greenlee.
"Sure..." Greenlee said and sat down. Greenlee may be bugged about it but it didn't mean she could play along.
Kendall sat down across from Greenlee and didn't know how to start the conversation. She wanted Greenlee back but wasn't sure if Greenlee would just laugh in her face. "Greenlee..." She said quietly.
Greenlee waited and waited and still Kendall hadn't said anything but her name. Greenlee finally sighed and looked down at her hands. "Do you still keep the wine in the cellar?" Greenlee asked as she stood up.
"Yes." Kendall said. She watched as Greenlee was starting to walk towards the cellar door when she finally found her voice. "I want you back." She blurted out.
Greenlee turned to look at Kendall and nodded her head and closed the cellar door. "Maybe you have had too much to drink." Greenlee said noticing the wine glass on the coffee table in front of Kendall for the second time.
"I have not." Kendall said. "I had poured the wine into the glass when you had knocked on the door. I am not drunk."
"Then you must be insane." Greenlee said turning to face Kendall.
"Okay, this is not how I wanted this talk to go." Kendall said as she stood up. She picked up her wine glass and walked into the kitchen.
Greenlee watched Kendall walk away and rolled her eyes, but didn't follow the Kane woman. Greenlee wasn't positive she wanted to continue the talk...she wasn't sure about much these days, but she wasn't sure she didn't either. Greenlee groaned at her own minds indecision. Kendall walked back out of the kitchen and saw her ex-lover still standing where she had been. She thought when she walked back into the room, Greenlee wouldn't be there.
"Do you believe in soul mates, Greenlee?" She asked.
"Kendall..." Greenlee said a tone telling Kendall not to play with her.
"Do you?" Kendall asked as she continued to stared at Greenlee.
Greenlee sighed. "I used to." Greenlee answered honestly.
"I do." Kendall said. "I believe everybody has soul mates. I believed Bianca and Maggie were soul mates. I still do." She said as she sat back down.
"And you believe I'm yours?" Greenlee asked as she stood where she was, her eyes on Kendall.
Kendall looked at Greenlee in the eyes. "Yes." She answered. "I know I have messed up our lives royally and have no right to ask if we could try again but I'm going to. Is there anyway that you could forgive everything that I have done and give us another chance?"
Greenlee eyed Kendall for a moment and thought about it and felt like laughing. After seven years and two failed attempts to make things work with Robin here Kendall was trying to get her back. Greenlee really did feel like laughing, if Kendall had wanted to get her back she should have done it years ago now...now Greenlee wasn't sure what to do. Nothing and no one could ever change the way she felt for Kendall. No one but her could make the decision to get back with Kendall or continue on the path they were on now.
"What's made you try now?" Greenlee asked as she stepped forward. "Was it the fact that you haven't been with anyone for the past two years or was it the fact that you saw me with Maggie?"
"Because I miss you." Kendall said standing up again. "It has nothing to do with me not being with anyone for over two years or seeing you with Maggie. Yes it hurt but not the way you might think. It hurt because I know Bianca and Maggie should be together and before you say they shouldn't, tell me this, do you know what the hell is going on with Bianca? She knows something and I know it has to do with why she and Maggie are not together. But she isn't saying a damn thing."
Greenlee cleared her throat and coughed lightly before covering her mouth and looking up at Kendall, her allergies coming in at the worst time possible. "You know..." Greenlee started and sneezed. "...everything has to be put on someone else. You can't ever say something directly! You want me back...fine good for you...too bad it took you...(sneeze) uhggg...seven years (sneeze)." Greenlee covered her mouth and nose and then glared at Kendall.
"Bianca fucken cheated on Maggie...hell she still is! Bianca lost all faith in Maggie after accidents she couldn't control happened. Hell after everything all it took was two..." Greenlee looked down realizing it was three accidents. "...three accidents to brake them up." Greenlee said shaking her head. "And that first accident caused them to lose a child, Kendall. Even the infamous Maggie and Bianca couldn't handle losing a child." Greenlee said looking down sadly.
Alex's death had been the last and final straw on an already thin stretched marriage. The family lost a child and the mothers lost not only a child but their hearts and their love for the other. They both blamed Maggie for the death of the child...Maggie blamed Maggie for the death of their youngest son and in the end it was something that almost threw her off the edge right before the divorce. Greenlee still hated Bianca for that, Maggie had been on such a thin rope after Alex's death and then Bianca just pushed her over that edge with the divorce. Alex's death was a topic no one talked about but everyone thought about and now Greenlee couldn't help thinking about it.
TBC...
