Amber
All the way to La Push I thought about Amber. Last night had been all but forgotten by the time I made it to my house to pick up Spirit. When I walk in I find Spirit lying on the couch and Quil and Embry wrestling over the remote on the floor.
"What are you two doing?" I ask. They both look up startled. I roll my eyes and pick up Spirit.
"Where's Edward?" asks Quil.
"What's that supposed to mean?" I ask as I glare at him. By now Embry had the remote in his hand and had sat back down on the couch.
"You two are attached at the hip usually," says Quil.
"We are not! Besides, he went hunting and I'm taking Spirit to Amber's," I say as I walk backwards towards the door.
"Is something wrong between you and Edward?" asks Embry quietly from the couch. Shocked I turn and look at Embry. That was a mistake. Embry was looking right in my eyes and I had a feeling he knew something was up.
"There's nothing," I mumble before running out the door. I walk across the street to Amber's house and knock on the door. It didn't take long for Amber to answer it. She was still in her pajamas and looked a little tired.
"Hey Bella," says Amber stepping aside and letting me in. "What brings you here, where's Edward?"
"Edward went hunting so I came here to see you…and to apologize," I say. Amber seemed confused as we walk to her room and sit down on her bed. Spirit jumps up between us and lies down.
"Why do you feel the need to apologize?" asks Amber.
"We haven't been hanging out like we used to. I've been spending all of my time with Edward," I say as I scratch Spirit behind her ear.
"I've hardly noticed. I've been busy with patrol, and when it's not that it's Jacob," says Amber.
"I feel so bad though. We promised each other that a guy wouldn't stop us from hanging out," I say.
"We've both just been busy. I really don't care," says Amber.
"Well I'm still sorry," I whisper.
"Well I can't accept your apology," says Amber. That really hurt. I wince and look down at Spirit who was enjoying the fact that Amber was rubbing her belly. "There's nothing to forgive, Bella. You haven't done anything wrong." I almost cried. Then I pick up the box that Alice had sent with me.
"So, do you want to see what Alice got Spirit?" I ask.
"She's dressing Spirit now?" asks Amber. I giggle and open the box.
"She said I wasn't appreciative or something like that," I say as I pull out an ice blue scarf and matching hat as well as four little boots. "Help me dress her."
Soon Spirit was standing in the middle of the room wagging her tail with the outfit on. She didn't seem to mind it at all. Amber grabs her camera and takes a picture.
"So how are things with you and Jacob?" I ask. Amber gets a huge grin on her face.
"Awesome. We've been patrolling together lately and it's been really fun. He's so funny," says Amber happily.
"Yeah," I say with a smile. "I kind of figured."
"That's not important though," says Amber insistently. "Something is bothering you, I can tell." I was shocked. "Spill it!" she demands.
"It's nothing," I whisper.
"Tell me! It has to do with Edward doesn't it?" asks Amber. I sigh heavily. The girl was just too perceptive sometimes.
"You're probably gonna think I'm dumb," I mumble.
"I still wanna know," insists Amber.
"Fine. Last night Edward and I were kissing and it got a little heated and he pushed me away," I murmur.
"That jerk!" shouts Amber.
"Then he walked into the bathroom while I was bathing because I screamed and we started kissing again and he pushed me away again! I was so frustrated that I actually cried. So this morning I woke up and he wasn't there so I went downstairs and he had made breakfast," I say. Then I pull out the Tupperware container Esme had given me. "I brought you some by the way." Amber giggles and takes it.
She opens it and grins. "Let's go to the kitchen so I can warm this up and get some chocolate milk," says Amber with a grin. We go to the kitchen and I sit at the table while Amber puts the cinnamon roll in the microwave. "So tell me the rest." I mentally groan and sigh heavily.
"He acted like last night never happened and said he was going hunting. I told him I was coming here and he realized I was upset about something but I told him it was nothing and left. At the time I was worried about apologizing, but now I think I was worried about last night too." Amber sits down and begins to eat. Spirit walks in and sits next to Amber, obviously begging. I clear my throat and Spirit ignores me.
"So what are you going to do?" asks Amber.
"What would you do in a situation like mine?" I ask.
"He rejected you twice right?" asks Amber.
"He says he doesn't want to hurt me," I sigh. Amber seemed to be thinking while she ate. I was also thinking. I knew Edward loved me, but last night's rejection hurt. Maybe it was my period making me extra emotional. It was times like this I wished my mom were alive. She'd definitely be able to tell me what to do.
"I think you need to talk to Edward about it," says Amber soberly. I sigh heavily. I was afraid of that.
"Okay, I'll talk to him, I suppose," I say quietly.
"Just explain to him that his rejection really hurt you and while you understand why he did it, it doesn't change the way it makes you feel," says Amber.
"I'll talk to him, I just have to think of what to say," I say. After spending the day with Amber I decide to take Spirit with me back to Edward's house. I wasn't going to openly admit to it, but I was using her as a distraction. Spirit was looking out the passenger side window eagerly as I drove down the Cullen's long drive.
It seemed to take me less time to get to the house, but I knew it was because I wasn't looking forward to it. I even take the time to park my truck in the garage next to Edward's Volvo. I sigh as I notice the difference between our vehicles. Mine looked very shabby compared to his shiny Volvo. Stupid Volvo.
After getting Spirit out of my truck I walk to the house very slowly. Spirit wasn't having that though. She was already at the porch jumping at the door and barking. I wanted to yell at her, but that would give away my position. Who was I kidding, he probably already knew.
I reach the porch and go inside. Spirit had darted in before me and was in Edward's lap licking his face and wagging his tail. Edward was petting her and trying to get her to stop licking her. "Spirit, get down!" I shout angrily. Spirit was immediately on the floor, but her tail was still wagging.
"So I take it this is what Alice got her," says Edward looking at Spirit.
"Yeah, she actually seems to like it," I say. Edward chuckles then looks at me and his expression was unreadable. I sigh heavily and start walking up the steps. I couldn't hear Edward behind me, but I was aware of his presence.
I reach the third floor and go inside and sit on the bed. Edward walks in behind me and shuts the door. "We need to talk," I say looking away. Great Bella, state the obvious.
"Yes, we do," says Edward, but he doesn't make any move to come closer to me.
"I know this morning I said nothing was wrong, but that was because I was worrying about Amber, but once I got that cleared up, I began to worry about us. Even Quil and Embry noticed there was a problem," I say.
"Well you do tend to wear your heart on your sleeve," says Edward. I smile but then look away.
"Last night you rejected me twice…that really hurt, Edward," I whisper.
"I told you why I had to do it," says Edward.
"That doesn't make it hurt any less, Edward. I love you, but there are times when I wish I could show you that," I say.
"I just don't want to hurt you," whispers Edward brokenly.
"I understand that, but rejection hurts too," I say walking over to him and wrapping my arms around him.
"I'm sorry, Love. I wasn't trying to hurt you," says Edward.
"I'm sorry too. I shouldn't be so sensitive about this. I think it's from being on my period," I say blushing slightly. Edward chuckles and kisses my head. I knew there wasn't much else I could do so I was going to try not to let this bother me anymore.
End Chapter
A/N: So things are a little bumpy, but they're getting better. Thanks for the reviews! Please read my other story, Blood Singer. It's about Bella being a vampire and she meets a guy whose blood sings to her. Sayonara!