GOSH FINALS ARE SO HARD! I had my first every finals today and yesterday and I didn't like them. I feel old having finals. But I can now say I survived my first year of middle school. I'm happy cuz summer is here now and I'll be able to update a lot. So hopefully I'll finish the 100 themes by the end of the summer. ^_^

This chapter is just a little more angsty than last chapter because James is gonna talk to the Doc then Carlos and cuz I wanna fit both of them in without making this chapter so incredibly long they won't talk to the guy for too long. Next chapter I'll put in more Logan.

James walked into the room and shut the door behind him. "Hello James. I'm Dr. Smith. Please have a seat." He motioned for him to sit on the couch. James sat on the couch.

"So tell me about yourself James."

"My name is James. I'm in a band." He said.

"I heard. And how has that band been doing?"

"It's been better."

Dr. Smith wrote stuff down. "How has Gustavo been treating you and your friends?"

James shrugged "It's been pretty bad."

"How so?"

"He yells at us a lot. I don't even get why he yells at me and Carlos. Kendall is the one who never pays attention, he always falls on top of us when we're trying to dance, and he always screws up when we're singing. It's ridiculous." James said.

"Interesting. Do you think you could help Kendall a bit?"

"Well no I can't because if there's any time at all to have "one-on-one time" he locks himself up in our freakin' room. Then at night he goes out to the bar and gets his sorry ass drunk." James said starting to get worked up.

"Uh-huh."

"And I don't even think he tries anymore. He used to care but now he doesn't, he'd rather get drunk rather than focusing on our band! He doesn't get that I want to make Big Time Rush work."

"So d-"Dr. Smith started to say but James cut him off. He was off in his own little world and to busy focusing on what he was saying.

"This whole thing is his fault. I bet he's trying to get us fired so that him losing Logan won't seem so bad." He paused for a few seconds "God I miss Logan so much. I just want him to come back to L.A because it's hard without him. Our grades in school have been going down because he's not around to help us out and Carlos gets frustrated. I've tried to help but school doesn't make sense at all. It feels like Logan's dead. We haven't seen him in forever, it feels like, and we remember him but he can't remember us and I'm scared that he'll never remember us. Our lives are falling apart without him here. You can't have three members of Big Time Rush. It's just not possible."

Dr. Smith was trying to write everything James was saying on his paper as quickly as he could and soon took notice that tears were starting to run down James's cheeks. He reached to his right and grabbed a tissue. He handed it to James and he wiped his eyes. "We're going to end up going crazy if we have to live much longer without him. Kendall doesn't even attempt to try something to get him back. So I've been trying to think but I can't get around Mrs. Knight. We're never going to get him back." James said.

He sobbed for a few minutes then stopped. Dr. Smith put aside his pen and papers and said "Would it be okay if I talked to Carlos for a bit?" he asked.

"Oh right." James said and stood up. He walked to the door and the old doctor followed him. When they were in the waiting room James took a seat on the couch and Dr. Smith looked to the table of Legos and Carlos was still sitting there still building with the Legos. "Carlos." James said. Carlos looked over his shoulder and saw James pointing to the doctor in the door way. Carlos stood up and waved and walked in with Dr. Smith.

He took a seat on the couch and looked at him awkwardly not knowing what to do. "So Carlos you like the Legos?" Dr. Smith said. Carlos nodded his head.

"Do you like to work with your hands?"

Carlos shrugged "Guess so." He said quietly.

"Interesting." Dr. Smith said and wrote it down "do you like to draw?"

Carlos nodded.

"Okay." Dr. Smith stood up and walked to a desk on the opposite side of the room. He opened a drawer and took out a box of markers and some paper. "Do you want to draw me something?" He said handing Carlos the supplies.

Carlos grabbed it and looked in the box. "What do you want me to draw?" Carlos asked.

"Hmmm…" Dr. Smith pretended to think "Why don't you draw me a picture of your friend Logan."

Carlos shrugged and pulled out a brown marker from the box. Before he started he thought to himself and tried to recall some of Logan's features, which were slowly fading away in his mind.

Ten minutes later Carlos finished and handed the doctor the paper. He looked at it but didn't think much of it. All it was, was four stick figures that somewhat resembled them.

"Interesting." He said and set it aside "So I've heard you've had some nightmares lately. Mind telling me about those?"

"No." Carlos said refusing to tell someone he never met about his personal life.

"But I'm here to help you." Dr. Smith said. Carlos remained silent. "Did they have something to do with Logan?" the doctor asked trying to get something from him. Carlos said nothing.

They spent a minute or two staring at each other then they heard banging and yelling coming from the waiting room. Dr. Smith stood up and opened the door and saw James and Kendall throwing punches at each other. The desk lady was on the phone calling the cops. Carlos squeezed his way between Dr. Smith and the door frame and tried to get James and Kendall apart. They were both yelling things at each other and insulting each other. Not long later the cops came and escorted the three boys out of the office.

On their way home none of them said anything. Neither James nor Kendall wanted to say how the fight started. James didn't want to admit he decided to tell Kendall how stupid he'd been acting lately and Kendall didn't want to admit that he over reacted. They didn't know if their friendship or BTR could last much longer.

A/N: I didn't really like this chapter that much. It was hard to write because I keep getting distracted and I'm running low on ideas for this story. But it doesn't matter cuz there are only 2 chapters left (I think). I'll get started on my 100 themes challenge tomorrow cuz tomorrow is my first official day of summer and I'm gonna see if I can get all the themes done by my last official day of summer. And I'll get started on my next short story where Carlos is sick right after I finish this story =) I'm a happy VIK.