I started playing the piano, eyes closed, in the moment. I had memorized this song immediately after Chad and I had written it. Speaking of Chad, he sat next to me on the piano bench.
"How long will this take
How much can I go through
My heart, my soul aches
I don't know what to do
I bend but don't break
And somehow get through
Cause I have you
And if had to crawl
Will you crawl too
I stumble and I fall
Carry me through
The wonder of it all
Is you see me through
Oh Lord, where are you
Do not forget me here
I cry in silence
Can you not see my tears
When all have left me
And hope has disappeared
You find me here
And when I have to crawl
Will you crawl too
I stumble and I fall
Carry me through
The wonder of it all
Is you see me through
When everything I was is lost
I have forgot but you have not
When I am lost you have not lost me
When everything I was is lost
I have forgot but you have not
When I am lost you have not lost me
You have not lost me
And if I had to crawl
Will you crawl too
I stumble and I fall
Carry me through
The wonder of it all
Is you see me through." [Crawl (Carry Me Through) by Superchick]
I opened my eyes to see everyone staring at us. "What?"
"you guys wrote that?" Nico asked, shocked.
I nodded.
"yeah," Chad answered.
Zora looked at her watch. "Sonny, we have rehearsal. We should all go."
We all waved goodbye to the Mackenzie Falls cast. As soon as we walked past Tawni's and my dressing room, they shoved me in, closing the door after themselves.
"What's going on?" I questioned warily.
Nico and Grady sat down on Tawni's orange couch and Zora climbed into the vent. Tawni crossed her arms and stared me down gently. "What are you and Chad, Sonny?"
"What do you mean?" I sat down on my vanity chair.
"She means are you guys friends, costars, a couple- what is your relationship status?" Nico elaborated.
"Uh…We're just friends, you guys. Why the sudden interest in my life?" I scratched the back of my head.
"Doesn't really seem like it, Sonny." Zora called from the vent. She opened it to look at me.
"Okay, HOW does it not seem like we're friends?"
"Sonny, you guys write songs together." Tawni informed me. No duh, Captain Obvious.
"He kissed you." Nico mentioned.
"He's started to care since you came." Grady added.
"And the way he looks at you, it's like- whoa." Zora added the last bit.
I instantly started laughing. "You guys are punking me, aren't you?"
"Sonny, this is serious." Grady said.
If Grady was serious about this, then it was. "Um, okay. Just tell me exactly where your all going with this…"
"By the way he acts and by the way you act, it seems like there's one-sided love. And Chad's the one side." Tawni explained.
"Chad always shows his soft side to and for you but you just act normally like you do with the rest of us." Grady sat up.
"He cares, he helps out, he doesn't insult as much, and he's caring a normal amount about his hair." Zora observed.
"You, however, haven't changed at all. You act the same, through and through. You haven't changed at all. It seems you aren't really affected by him, unlike him to you." Nico fell off the couch and sat on the floor, too lazy to get up.
What do they mean I'm not affected by Chad? I've become more sarcastic and I've become stronger- mind wise and muscle wise. He's changed me a lot.
"What we're trying to say- or rather demand- is that you don't hurt Chad. Stop confusing him. You're giving him signs saying 'come at me' and then you're signaling him to stay away." Tawni told me, sitting at her vanity.
"What is with al you guys?!" I suddenly stood. "You all HATED Chad before I came! Why are you suddenly ragging on me?!"
"Sonny, look, Mackenzie Falls is giving Chad this talk too so don't think we're just yelling at you." Tawni brushed her hair.
"Why would they be yelling at him if he's the 'one side'?" I crossed my arms.
"They're giving him a different talk." Zora informed.
"We've all got a question for you. All of us including Mackenzie Falls and Drenched." Nico and Grady faced me completely.
"Do you really love Chad Dylan Cooper?" Zora was standing next to Tawni in the same stance- arms crossed, eyebrow raised. Nico and Grady were next to the them the same way too.
Do I love Chad Dylan Cooper? How do I answer that?