Thank you all so much for putting this story to your story alerts and favourites.. Also thank you for taking your time to read and review.. It means a lot when people enjoy your writing..

To TheQueen: i think your wish will be answered in this chapter.. Hope you like..

To OriginalSoundtrack: i guess not.. But i had to listen to my readers thoughts.. Although i love drama this chapter is not having any.. I am not promising for next chapter though..

To pankton: i am sorry for making you cry.. it wasn't my intention.. but a story needs some drama.. as for Paula i am sorry to tell you that she is not going to a psycho hospital.. She will cause more problems in the future.. oops.. i shouldn't have told you that..

To queenred12: yes.. i understand completely but.. Paula did one good.. Ashley is going to confess..

Chapter 25

When Paula Carlin left I sat on the couch for a moment to realize what happened.. What she tried to do? Who does she think I am? She is the worst person I ever met and I met a lot of persons in my life.. I think that money destroy people and I wish I wasn't like that to anyone..

I wanted to call Spencer and tell her what happened but I decided against it. She was at work and I knew that she had a really important case. What I was afraid though was what that woman could do and the most important how Spencer would react..

"Mommy, are you ok?" I forgot to tell Emma to come outside.. I took my hands from my face and looked at those baby blues..

"I am ok baby girl" she cupped my face and started caressing my cheek with her little hands.. She put them behind my head and hugged me.. I loved her so much..

"No, you are not mommy. But it's ok. I am here for you" I took her in my arms and started to cry.. We have been through so many things. Most of them she doesn't even remember because she was a baby.. "It was that lady that made you cry?"

"No, sweetie. I am just tired."

"Mommy, everything is going to be fine. You have me and Spencie. And what that lady said don't worry." I was afraid that she heard what Paula said and I really didn't want for my child to hear those things..

"Baby girl, it's late. Lets finish our cooking. Ok?"

"Ok mommy. I love you. You are the best mommy in the world"

"And I love you my princess." I said and kissed her forehead.. I had to stop thinking of what Paula said. Spencer would come later tonight and if she knew I am sure she would be the one to start this conversation.. I promised to myself though that I would tell her the whole truth. And this time I wouldn't keep anything from her..

After eating our lunch and listening to Emma telling me about her day at her school and of course her party this Saturday I decided to take her out for a walk. I wasn't afraid because Spencer's neighborhood was one of the best. I dressed her really warm and we walked to the park.. This place here was starting to become one of my favorites..

"Mommy?"

"Yes?"

"Spencie is going to be late again?"

"Yes, sweetie. She has to be at work"

"And tomorrow you will be back to work also?"

"Yeap, tomorrow I will be back at the bakery"

"So.. if you are tired and Spencie is tired when you are going to see each other?" I had to smile.. My kid was something else..

"Sweetie, don't worry. Me and Spencer will see each other"

"Do you love her?" her question caught me off guard.. She was four year old and she was asking me if I loved Spencer..

"I like her yes"

"I didn't ask you if you like her mommy. I asked if you loved her"

"Do you love Eddy?"

"No. I like Eddy. I am too young to love someone. But you are old."

"Oh, thanks a lot baby girl. Nice way to tell mommy about her age"

"Mommy, you are beautiful. But you are older than me"

"Ok. I think I got that"

"So, do you love Spencie?"

"I do. I love her very much"

"Good. I love her too"

I was here and I was thinking what could happen later tonight.. Did Spencer know?

"Baby girl it's getting cold. I think we should go back home"

"Ok mommy"

The apartment wasn't far away. It was a ten minute walk. When we were right outside I saw Spencer's car. She was coming back home and it was earlier than she told me she would..

"Mommy, Spencie is here" Emma said and left my hand, running to Spencer.. Spencer bend down and hugged her while she was looking at me.. I knew that look..

"Spencie, you are home"

"Yes, I am sweetie"

"Why?"

"I needed to see you and mommy"

"Are we in trouble Spencie?" Spencer looked at me one more time..

"Let's get inside. Ok?"

I followed them inside and I was hoping that Spencer was here not to have THE talk.. I was hoping she was here for me and Emma as she said minutes ago..

Once inside she didn't mention anything infront of Emma. Instead she was asking about her day. I sat there looking at them and I was thinking how good we were.. In my mind we were a family and I could see how much Emma wanted that.. Sometimes I would catch her wanting to call Spencer mama but every time she was stopping at ma-.. Spencer meant so much to both of us and I really didn't want my past to ruin my present..

"Are you sleepy sweetie?"

"I am Spencie but I want to stay here with you and mommy"

"Well, good girls are supposed to be to bed at 8pm and it's already 8.45pm. So up up to your room young lady. Mommy and I will come to kiss you goodnight"

We put Emma to bed, we both kissed her goodnight, we closed the door and I could feel my heart beating.. What would happen?

"Spence, why are you early home? I thought you would come later"

"Ash.. I need you to tell me something"

"Ok"

"Come sit right next to me please" I did what she asked. I don't know if it would be for the best to sit right next to her but I did either way..

"Spence.."

"Ash, my mom came today"

"I know" she looked at me surprised..

"What do you mean?"

"She was here earlier today. She came when I was cooking our lunch"

"What? How? Have she done anything to you?"

"Let's just say that it was very interesting meeting her"

"Ash.."

"Tell me what she said to you and I promise to give you all the answers you want"

"I don't want to believe her Ash.. I really don't.. She is a sad woman" my heart was beating so fast.. I never expected this day to come.. I really didn't want for her to learn about my past like that.. But I guess that was the last thing.. After that she didn't have anything else to find about me.. I would be clear..

"Ask me.. I just.. I don't know if you are going to like what you are going to listen though.. Know that I am a new person. I changed and I.. I.. love you" not the right moment to tell her that I loved her but whatever her decision was I wanted for her to know that I did love her..

"She told me that you were using drugs. Is that true?" she said whispering, without looking at me..

"Yes. Will you let me explain please?"

"Ash.. why you never told me?"

"Please let me explain everything to you. After that you can decide whatever you want but just listen to me first. Ok?"

"Ok"

"My parents died when I was 18.. I had to take care of my sister and be a role model to her. I didn't do anything till she graduated from high school. Then I started going out every night, partying as much as I could and fucking whoever I wanted. I was doing all these things that a girl of my age would do.. One day while having sex with a girl we used cocaine. I wasn't sniffing every day. I wasn't that addict. Whenever I was out though I would sniff before I leave and while being out.. Why I did that? Because that way I wasn't thinking about my parents and I wanted to enjoy my life.. Two years I was nothing but a mom to Kyla. I wanted to be free again" I stood up from where I was sitting and started walking around.. I could feel Spencer's eyes on me..

"She met someone at college who took advantage of her and made her to spend all the money that she inherited. For a year we didn't talk because I knew that he wasn't good for her and she thought I was jealous of her.. She came back though one day, regretting about everything with a little baby growing inside her.. She was pregnant to Emma"

"For one more time I had to take care of her.. I stopped going out as I used to, and I didn't use drugs again. I wasn't an addict so it wasn't that difficult for me to quit. So.. Yes.. I used drugs when I was 19. I was a party girl and I was having fun. But this was my young self. Having to take care of my sister being in a coma, having a baby crying day and night and seeing my money vanish day by day can really change you. And it made me a better person.. So.. this is my story.. Everything you need to know about me. There is nothing else.. So I will understand if you don't want me because of my past.. Just know that this is not me anymore.."

I said and felt relief for telling her everything.. I should have done that before.. She wouldn't learn about my past from her mother. She didn't talk and I didn't look back. I was afraid of her reaction. What if she didn't want me.. I know I've been stupid but this was in the past.. And I wasn't 19 anymore..

"Ash.." I heard her voice for the first time after my confession.. I was scared to look at her and I didn't. I stayed where I was.. I felt her presence though.. She was behind me.. "Look at me" I turned my face to do as she asked.. What she would do? "I can't understand you sometimes. I really can't.. You had your chance to tell me.. And learning from my mom that you used drugs wasn't nice. You should be the one to tell me and not her.."

"But..?"

"There is no but.. I understand that you want to keep things for you but it's me and now we are together. I don't want to know things like that from others. I want you to be able to tell me by yourself. I am going to ask you once.. Is there anything else I should know?"

"No. This was the last thing of my past.. There is nothing left.."

"Good"

"So.. Don't you have anything else to say?"

"I am not saying that I like that you used drugs.. I don't.. I am against drugs.. Have you ever used again after that?"

"No. Of course not. I haven't used till I was 20.."

"Ok"

"Ok?"

"Ash, you are 25 years old. I see how you are with Emma. I see how she looks at you.. I am sure that you were a great sister and you are a great mom to your daughter.. I wish you understood then that drugs wasn't a solution but this person I have in front of me right now it's not that person anymore"

I couldn't believe what I was hearing.. Spencer was accepting me for one more time.. When I said she was angel I meant it..

"So we are ok?"

"We are ok. Yes"

"Sorry for having to be early at home."

"Don't be. I am going to quit"

"What?"

"I will quit tomorrow. I couldn't defend people who were killing children. I just couldn't. In their faces I could see Emma and I just couldn't. I am going to give them my resignation later tomorrow"

"Are you sure?"

"I am 100 per cent sure.. So sure as I love you too sure" did she just say what I think she said?

"What?"

"I said, I love you too.."

TBC

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