In the middle of the night before I got up, I finally decided to text back Sara. It wasn't fair to keep her hanging. She took me in when I had nowhere else to go, and I owed her an explanation.

I lost the baby, I texted to her and hit send.

Oh no! I'm so sorry! How are you doing? What happened? She texted back almost immediately.

I'm pretty much a trainwreck. It's been rough. It was an ectopic pregnancy, so the baby was never going to be carried to term. I woke up in the middle of the night after the fall ball bleeding really heavily. I had warning signs that entire night- lots of cramping, pain, and nausea. I should have gone sooner to get help. I know it wasn't my fault, but I still feel like it is. I'm sorry for snapping at you on campus yesterday- you didn't deserve it.

It's okay! She responded. I'm really sorry to hear about your loss though. I'm here for you if you need me, okay? My mom is an OBGYN in the US, and she has a support group for mothers who have miscarried. If it wasn't on another continent, I would tell you to go! Lol

Thanks,I responded. I guess I should consider myself lucky- I didn't have to go through surgery so my chances of conceiving in the future (like far far far away future) are still pretty high. If they had to remove one of my fallopian tubes, the doctor said it would have been a lot harder. I'm going to go to sleep now. I'll talk to you later, and I'll see you around. Maybe a coffee date with you, me, and Clara when things aren't so crazy? :-)

YES! Sara responded. We miss you at the apartment. There isn't anyone here cooking good food! :p If you ever want to come back, you know you are more than welcome. :-)

Haha thanks! Eddie and I are actually engaged again, so hopefully I won't have to take you up on that again haha. And my mom and brother are here visiting for the week :-) I responded.

WHAT!? OMG! I'm so happy for the both of you! Now, we have to hang out because I have to give you a big hug!

Thanks :-)I said.

I set my alarm on my phone and went to sleep finally. My alarm went off way to early the next morning. Eddie slept in his own room since my mother and brother were staying in the palace as well. I stayed up late studying for my Danish quiz, then texted Sara and then slept a few hours. The lack of sleep wasn't helping my depression. I got up, went to class, skipped my clinical, and went home. I wasn't allowed to stand on my feet yet for long periods of time. The doctor who was supposed to be mentoring me was excusing me. He even came in to check in on me while I was in the hospital, so he understood.

"So," my mom said when I got back home. I could tell she was excited about something. "I know something that will cheer you up! Let's go get some lunch and do some shopping! You haven't shown me around Denmark yet!"

I debated it slightly before responding. It would be nice to get out of the house. But at the same time, I knew that the paparazzi would soon find us and slam us. They were required to leave me alone at school, but nothing would stop them from harassing me and my mom as we ate lunch.

"That would be fun but I have to warn you- the paparazzi will find us and harass us," I replied.

"About what?" My mom asked. "It can't be that bad!"

"They've been harassing me over everything that happened. I couldn't even leave the hospital..." I explained.

"Well, you shouldn't let them stop you from having a good time with your mom. Pose for the picture they want and then move on with your day," she said.

I sighed. It wasn't like that. I wish it was like that. I could only wish it was like that. Posing for a picture and having them leave me alone would be so easy...

"Okay, let's go out to eat, and I'll show you around town," I said.

"That's my girl!" My mom said getting up. "Johnny! Are you coming with us?" She asked.

"Heck yeah!" He said getting up.

I put my stuff away in my room, got my purse, and met my mom in the hallway. Johnny was going to meet us downstairs. He said he needed more time to get ready before he met some Danish "babes" on the street. We were about halfway down the hallway and heading to the stairway when we ran into Eddie.

"Where is the most beautiful girl in Denmark and her family going?" Eddie asked me. He came over and gave me a quick kiss on the lips. "I was one my lunch break, and I was coming to see you," he said.

"We are going out to lunch. Do you have time to join us?" I asked.

He looked at his watch and his eyes bugged out.

"Probably not. I have to be back in about 25 minutes. But I was definitely planning on taking you all out to dinner this evening. How did your Danish quiz go?" He asked me.

"It went well. I think I may have slipped up on a few words."

"You'll learn sooner than you think," he said. "She's so smart," he said turning to my mom.

"I know she is," my mom said proudly.

"I love you," he said taking my hand and squeezing it. "And I'll see you soon. I'm going to go run to my office to get some work done. Text me when you all get back so if I finish early, I can join you," he said giving me a kiss on the cheek and walking down the hall.

"Bye, love you," I said.

"The moment that you brought him home for Thanksgiving as just "friends," I knew that you two were meant to be together," my mother told me, putting the word friends in quotation marks.

"Really?" I asked.

"Really. I saw the way you both looked at each other.

"Well, we really were just friends back then," I said.

"Yeah right," she said.

"Really! We were!" I said laughing.

"That will be a year ago this November. I still can't believe it!" My mother said.

Wow, I thought to myself. Did I really only start dating Eddie a year ago this November? I had agreed to marry a man that I knew less than a year? Did we truly know each other? I knew that I was very emotional after everything that happened, but this realization scared me slightly. Were we moving too fast?

"Do you think we are moving too fast with all of this?" I asked her quietly.

"What makes you say that?" she asked me.

"We haven't even been dating for a year, and we are already planning to spend the rest of our lives together? I mean, is this true love or is this just lust? Do we really know each other? Or are in love with the idea of each other? I don't know...sometimes I just feel like this is all happening so fast," I confided in her.

"Did you talk to Eddie about this?" She asked me.

"No...If I do, he'll probably think I'm breaking up with him, or I don't want to get married," I said. "And that isn't true, I do want to get married to him. I just...I don't know..." I said.

"What is it, Paige?" she asked me, concerned.

"I know I'm super emotional right now about everything that happened, but I don't know...I guess I'm just overwhelmed. His lifestyle is completely new to me, this is a new country, new language, and new culture. I'm starting a new school, starting medical school, I'm always in the spotlight, and I guess I wonder if I'm we are just rushing into something."

"You've known him longer than a year though," my mother said. "You just didn't start dating right away."

"That's true," I said.

"And you're in a new country. You're probably going through a little bit of a culture shock right now, but you'll adjust. You just have to give it time. You've been through a lot these past months together and if you can get through all of this and work it all out, you'll be able to work out problems in marriage too. You two love each other very much- that I can see, and I'm sure Denmark sees it too. And it your love for each other that will always overcome obstacles and challenges. Do you want to spend the rest of your life with Eddie?"

"Of course! I can't imagine it without him," I said.

"You just answered your own question," she said.

"Thank, mom," I said smiling.

"Remember how heart-broken you both were without each other?" my mom said.

"Yes, I remember."

"You two are meant to be together. I know you're depressed, and you've been through a lot lately but once you have some time to heal, you'll see yourself adjusting more and more and before you know it, you'll be able to call this place home," my mom said giving my hand a squeeze.

We met Jonny downstairs by the door, and then we ventured out the palace gates. I showed my mother and brother some of the most historic buildings, the history behind them as well as some of the other hot tourist destinations, good places to shop and good restaurants. We detoured, and I showed them the University of Copenhagen, the school of medicine, the library, and even showed them inside a few buildings. The more I showed my mother and brother around town, the more I realized how this place was already becoming my home. Denmark was my new home, I would be their new queen, and I was ready to face life's challenges with Eddie right along my side.