A/N - Thanks for all the reviews. I know some people got confused between the relationship between Zeke and Tris, but I will try to explain it in this chapter. Once again, I don't owe anything. Here is chapter 21.
Tris POV
When I wake up Four is still holding me. His arms around me and I feel safe. I remember in Abnegation as often it was possible, I would come to his house, in the morning and lay next to him, and it would feel like I had spent the night over, next to him, all night. Now I actually did.
"How did you sleep?" He asks from behind me. I jump a little, because I didn't know he was awake.
"I slept good!" I say smiling, enjoying his warmth around my body "What about you?"
"I slept good too!" He says "I am sorry to say this, but we kind of have to get up. We have last day in the fear landscape today; so we have to get going" He say trying to move out of bed, but I hold his arms, so he can't move. I remember doing that in Abnegation, him wanting to wake up, but I would hold him down.
He laughs against my ear and says "We have to get up!"
I don't do anything, I just hold him next to me. I don't want him to move, I have missed this so much.
"What happened last night?" He asks, I just shake my head. I really don't want to talk about this now, even though I know I have to. "Do you want to talk about it?" I just shake my head again. I remember telling Zeke about everything last night. I shouldn't have done it; it shouldn't have been that easy to talk or tell him about it, but there is something about him that reminds me of Caleb. I know it shouldn't have been easy, but it wasn't that hard to tell him, it was like talking to Caleb again. I know he isn't Caleb, but he feels like it. I know Caleb and I aren't going to have that much contact, if I become Dauntless and him Erudite, there isn't going to be much free time, so it will be difficult to keep our contact; then it's good to have someone like Caleb around. I know I have to tell Tobias about it as soon as possible, but it can wait, can't it? I miss having Four or Tobias around and I really don't want to mess it up. I want more from him. I want to be with Tobias and if I want that, I have to tell him, because I know him, and he is not going to let this go. I guess now is better than anytime.
"My mom -" I say feeling the tears come down my cheek, I guess he either can feel it or kind of know it, because he holds me tighter. "She is alive" I say. He doesn't say anything or move. He just holds me, close and hard. "That is what we talked about yesterday." I say, I guess I should let the information sink in, before I continue.
"How do you know?" He asks. Well I guess I know how to answer this question, but I thought that he would ask more about Zeke, but I guess not.
"After the first time in the fear landscape! Edward told me to meet him in the train around midnight, and my mother came with him." I say, and now the tears are coming down my cheek.
"That is what happened when Caleb came, your mother showed up and that's why he came, right?" He asks and I only nod.
"Does he know?" He asks and I nod again.
"Does Zeke know about your father and everything?" He asks. Now he is asking about the Zeke part, I guess this is going to be fun. I know him this well and I know he won't like that I told Zeke before him, but I did and he can't do anything about it. Okay, Tris, that was a bit to harsh! Yeah, yeah, I know, sorry!
"Yeah" I say, I don't know how to keep it going.
"So you told Zeke?" He asks. I turn around so I can look at him. His eyes are filled with confusion, sadness, and probably some betrayal.
"Why Zeke?" He asks moving away. I sit up on the bed and he leans up against the bed.
"Because he caught me talking to her, or he followed me, and Edward told him half the part"
"Wait, so Edward knows about everything?"
"Yeah, of course, he is the one who told me everything about my mother!" I say looking at him.
"So does Zeke know about Marcus?" He asks. I can feel my heartbeat raising when I hear his name.
"Yeah, I told him the whole thing!" I say.
"Does he know about you and me?" He asks.
"I told him that we were friends and that Caleb was your brother and my best friend!" I say.
"So he doesn't know that we dated?" He asks.
"No! I thought if you wanted to tell him that, you can!" I say looking at him.
"Oh! So who knows about everything?"
"Everything...hmm... Edward, Zeke, Evelyn, and Caleb" I say "And now you!"
"So why are you telling me now?" He asks.
"Why not?" I ask and notice that he isn't wearing a shirt, which makes me stair.
"Why me and not some other Dauntless guy!" He asks.
"Because I still like you!" I shout-whisper before I realizing what I just said. I don't look at him, I stand up and go over to the living room. He comes up behind me and puts his arms around me waist. I don't want to look at him. I can't believe I just said that. I haven't realized that I actually still like him, before I actually said it out loud.
"What did you say?" He asks with his sweet Tobias voice, against my ear and it makes me giggle.
"Nothing" I say not wanting to look at him. I feel his grip against my waist loosen and I turn around. He watches me carefully, probably trying to find some kind of answer that I didn't mean 'nothing'. I look up at him and he smiles. Stop looking! He doesn't like you, Tris! When are you going to get that in your head! Shut up! I don't want to talk to you!
He looks at him and tightens his grip against my waist, so he is pushing me closer to him. I put my arms around his neck and he leans in to kiss me. I am standing in his living room with closed eyes and I am waiting for him to kiss me, but he doesn't.
"I like you too!" He whispers against my ear and I smile!
"Good! Now kis-" I say, but before I finish, I am cut of because he kisses me. When his lips touches my lips, electricity goes through my body. I wrap my arms around his neck harder, trying to get the space between us gone. Even if there isn't any space between us, it stills feels like there is. It feels like we are meters apart. When we finally break apart, it is because we need air. I don't want his lips to leave mine though, I want his lips on mine again. When we broke apart, he didn't let his arms leave my waist, so the only thing I have to do is stand on my tip toes, and kiss him. I guess he didn't expect that, since he steps back a few steps before realizing what I am doing. He lifts me up and I move my legs up to his waist and tighten my legs harder around him, he then moves me back to his bedroom and lays me onto of the bed, he onto top of me, and I don't want to do it, but I move my head away to the side so he can't kiss me, only my ear. He moves back and looks at me and I turn to look at him. I want him so bad, but not now. It isn't right. I could still become faction less and we just kind of got back together. If he still wants us to get back together though.
"You okay?" He asks looking at him. Now it is my turn to lean against the bed and him sitting on top of the bed next to me.
"Yeah! I just don't know what "this" is!" I say looking at him, annoyingly he still doesn't have a shirt on, so I can't stop staring.
"Should I put on a shirt so we can talk or what?" He asks me with a smile on his face, which wakes me up from my stair.
"Sorry!" I say blushing.
"Don't apologize!" He says smiling. "What do you want "this" to be?" He asks me. I haven't thought about that. What do I want now. Before I wanted his lips on my lips, I got that, I guess now I want him for myself.
"I want you!" I say and look up at him. I can see he is smiling.
"I want you too!" He say leaning forward and kisses me. "You are mine now! And you can't leave!" He says, which makes me smile and laugh.
"Well I never left!" I say looking at him. "You did!" I say looking at him and he moves back into a sitting position "So, I should be the one saying that you are mine and you can't leave me again! You can't! I can't survive another broken heart from you, you get right!" When I say this, I can see the hurt in his eyes.
"I am fine now! But promise you won't do anything like that ever again!" I say.
"I promise and I am so sorry!" He says.
"I know!" I say and lean into kiss him, but he pulls away. "What?" I ask.
"You sure you are okay?" He asks looking straight in my eyes.
"Yeah!" I say smiling "I just want you to kiss me!" I say and my wish comes true. He kisses me.
We make out, until he says we have to get ready for the fear landscape.
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My six fears are still the same. They don't change. I told Four everything about my mom, and Edward. He already knows about Marcus, so I don't have to explain anything there. We are eating dinner now. Christina, Lynn, Marlene, Shauna, Zeke, Uriah, Will, Al, Lauren, and me. Four isn't here, he said something about some work he had to do, but he didn't want to tell me what. I just hope he comes soon.
"So you guys ready for the Stage 3 tomorrow?" Lauren asks us. We all nod. We don't really know what to say. I talked to Christina, Will and Al and we are pretty nervous. Will is most nervous, since he missed some few fear landscape sessions, because of the fighting with Edward and Peter, but he looks fine, except his arm, he says it's not broken, but nearly; so he wears this cast thing. Doesn't look good, I can't help, but feel sorry for him and feel like this is my fault, which it is, but he keeps telling me that it isn't. Then I see Four come in the doors. He looks tired. He goes straight over to the food line and grabs some food and comes to sit next to me.
"Hey! You okay?" Lauren ask when he sits down next to her and me. I can't help but feel the pang of jealousy in my chest when she talks to him. I don't know about him and the others, but I don't really like her, maybe because she has slapped me sometimes, which yes I did forgive her about, but still, I don't know, I think it has something to do with the fact that, he is mine and not hers and she still acts as if he is hers.
"I am only tried!" He says smiling at her. "How did your day go?" He asks her. Now I wonder why he is speaking back to her. Did he like forget everything that happened this morning?
"It was tiring! I guess it has something to do with tomorrow is the last stage and we have rankings tomorrow." She says looking at him.
"Yeah! You are probably right!" He says.
"So, Max talked to me and Eric and said that since we have been actually training the initiate and he hasn't done anything than talk, we will then decide the rankings, so we can go to your place after we have eaten and talk about what we think and predict, like we did last year, and then after everyone has finish the final stage, we can go to your place again and look over the rankings again!" She says. I can't help but think that she is flirting with him, which makes it harder for every single muscle in my body, to not punch her.
"I don't think that is a problem!" He says smiling at her.
"So Four?" Marlene asks, he looks at her, which makes his head turn to the other side of Lauren and he looks at me, Christina and then Marlene. I just look down at my food, so my anger and jealousy show.
"What?" He asks Marlene.
"Are we initiate allowed to have a sleepover at someones house here in Dauntless, or do we have to stay in the dorms?" She asks.
"I don't see why you can't have a sleepover" he says." Where are you going to have the sleepover?" He asks.
"Yeah!" Christina, Al, Will, Uriah, Marlene, Shauna, Zeke and me shout. We are smiling and talking all at once.
"You have fun with your ex-girlfriend and we will have real fun." Marlene tells Four.
"Wait, where are you sleepover?" He asks again.
"Somewhere fun!" She says.
"We are going to have a long night!" Uriah says.
"Please not so long! I want enough sleep to pass initiation!" I say smiling.
"I will take care of you!" Al says smiling and I smile back.
"Bye Four and Lauren!" We say and walk over to Zeke's place.
When we come to Zeke place, we took all the madrases all across the floor and everyone changed into their pj. I am wearing some short shorts and a loose t-shirt. I didn't choose the sleeping arrangements, so I am lying next to Christina and Al. Zeke is sleeping in his room with Shauna, the rest of us are sleeping in the living room. It's around midnight and I can't help, but feel really tired. We are all ready to go to bed and we are all lying in our sleeping position. We are playing Dauntless or Candor. This is going to be fun, I think to myself. Zeke and Shauna are playing with us to.
"My house, I will start!" Zeke says. "Tris, Dauntless or Candor?" I know exactly what my answer is going to be.
"Dauntless" I say with a smile on my face. After a while, he starts speaking.
"I dare you to eat this bread" He says and gives me the bread "then go to the apartment next door and tell them to shut up!" He says laughing "And tell them that just should be ranked first and that you hate them!" He says.
"Who lives next door?" I ask.
"You will find out!" Zeke says. I eat the bread, then I stand up and I walk towards the apartment next to Zeke apartment. Everyone is following me. I knock on the door and Four opens the door and then Lauren comes out after him.
"Hey, Tris what are you doing her?" Four asks and looks at everyone else. He then notices that I am only in a short pair of shorts and tries not to stair, which makes me happy, because I can turn on the guy I really like. I turn around to look at Zeke and he nods to me.
"Lauren, you are still here!" I say.
"Is that a question or a statement stiff? But yes I am still here" She says smiling.
"Are you planing to stay long?" I ask.
"Yeah, I might even stay over!" She says smiling even more. Okay, she practically hit my breaking point. I am lucky I got this dare.
"First! You guys are way to loud and need to shut up! Second tomorrow I should defiantly be ranked first, since I just found out that you guys are the people who decides who is ranked first and last, I should be ranked first!" I say smiling at both of them "Third, I really hate you both!" I say this with a laugh! Something feels different, but I don't really care now, this is kind of fun. I know I shouldn't smile or have fun, it is. Before I go, I slap Lauren. "That is for all the times you slapped me." I say and walk to Zeke's apartment.
When we come back to Zeke's apartment, everyone starts laughing. When everyone has stopped laughing, Four and Lauren comes in. We all shut up straight away.
"Sorry!" I say smiling and everyone start laughing. I really don't know what is so funny.
"What did you do to her?" Four asks.
"Calm down Four! We are only having so fun! You should try it sometimes!" I say and which only makes everyone starts laughing harder.
"We gave her Amity bread!" Zeke says laughing.
"Go to bed Tris!" Christina says while laughing. I do what I am told and go to bed. Then everyone comes and I am lying next to Al and Christina. I can see Four looking at him and he doesn't look that happy, but I am too tried to care and for some reason I don't feel like myself. Luckily sleep catches me quickly.
A/N - I know this was very long. I hope this chapter made more sense than the last chapter. I hoped you liked the FourTris part. If you have any ideas for Dauntless or Candor question, please tell me and any ideas for what I can do after initiation. I hoped you liked it and please review :)