I do not own Inuyasha

Weeks have gone by and no matter how much I ask Sesshomaru he will not go to Inuyasha. I feel horrible now. Think about it I have been pushing him away and it is not fair to him. Pulling the cover over me I ball up on the bed and hold myself. I think that when I see him again and he comes home I need to talk with him. But I really don't want him to see who I really am, I locked that person away so long ago, made sure I would never get hurt and never let anyone in. I learned a lot from the stays at the hospital and one of them was to let people in more and be more free with my feelings. But I don't know if I can do it. I am being silly I know, but I just cant bring myself to talk to him or be myself when he is around. Pulling my pillow down a little and then pulling my hand back under the covers quickly as to not let the air out I sigh. I really do love him, and I know he probably hates me now, but I wish he would understand why I am the way I am. Sure he may have a shitty life, but so have I. I don't even know most of his life because he has never told me. But to be fair I never gave him a good reason to really talk with me about it all. He told me briefly about everything, a quick run threw, but that was all. I want details! But how can I ask for them when I am not willing to tell him the details about me. Frowning I think of all the times I blew him off, ignored him, or yelled at him for something small. It is amazing at how much he will put up with, and I see why he left. I bet he needed some time to clear his head, and cool down.

~Inu Pov~

Life sucks. Its cold, dark, and I think I got a cold. Great, how can things get worse. Wait! I don't want to know, normally asking this question gets the situation much worse then what it is. Rubbing my nose I look down at the deer under me. I have been sleeping in the trees, much to my dismay, I have gotten used to beds and this hurts. I wish life was simple. I wish things would go back to the way they were. I wish that I never met Kagome, or remembered my past. Then I could be sitting alone right now. Like they say ignorance is bliss, and I am beginning to understand why. Not only have I been feeling horrible from the weather, but from my heart. I hate to admit it but for the first time I can truly say I feel pain like no other. Even to the past people I have liked, I have never admitted I loved them, and such a short time. I have no idea what I was thinking when I told her that, and to actually say it, put myself out there, then be shot down, denied, rejected, it hurts far worse then if I didn't say anything at all. Picking a leaf from the tree I tear it along the lines within it. I guess it could be worse. I mean if I really was back to the days like before I would still be sitting there wondering who I was and all. At lest now I know and I feel alive. But feeling alive isn't doing anything for me right now. Comfortably numb would do a lot for me. Or maybe even a fall on the head and a black out. Shaking my head at such thoughts I sit forward on the brand. I hope they are doing okay, I didn't even tell Sesshomaru this time that I was leaving. But I was mad at him. A strong urge to bang my head on the tree trunk over comes me. I wish someone would just tell me something. Sneezing I rub my nose again. Maybe it is time to go home and find out what is really going on. And better yet, get a bowl of ramen and a blanket and a nice pair of pajamas. A soft bed, some monster, a pillow. A small line of drool leaks out of my mouth as I think of the giant bowl of ramen. Yup that does it I will go back, for the ramen, and the comforts of the soft clean clothing. Jumping from the tree I land on the ground and slip and fall on my behind from the morning dew that blankets the grass. Cursing under my breath I watch the deer run off. Standing slowly I rub my hind side. Great now I am wet. Scrunching my face I leap into the trees and take off for home.

~Kagomes Pov~

I hate him, he never even gave me a chance. I think when he gets back I am going to slap him. I cant take it, I feel like my feelings are getting tossed around like he doesn't care. I pull the blanket up over my head. So what if I ignored him for a bit, he should understand, the asshole read my diaries. Even though they were old it still kind of hurt that he would invade my privacy like that. And from reading that stuff he should know that I have been threw hell and back. He should know that I need time and space sometimes. I take a deep breath to steady my nerves. He doesn't even like my meals I cook, only ramen. Of all things to fall in love with food wise, he picks a 99 cents dinner. Not the home made ones I spend hours making to try to get him to eat right. I don't buy the crap he tells me about not having to eat, or it makes me sick, or I haven't eaten for years, or my favorite one, I am not in the mood to eat. Doesn't he know it hurts, I took all that time cooking which I don't really like to do, for him to give it to the dog! A scowl is planted on my face as I think of all the excuses and lies he feeds me. Do I really look that dumb? I don't get it! And his brother oooooo don't get me started. All he ever does is sit and drink tea, with a book or word puzzle, or watch TV. I mean he doesn't get in the way or bother anyone but could you ask for a lamer roomie. I thought moving in here would make my life better. I mean I had been watching Inuyasha for years and planning on talking to him. I met him and he was amazing! But then his brother came along. And he has changed. I am sooooo going to hurt him for this all. Making me wait, making me worry, I am to young to be worrying about this stuff I will get grey hairs.

~Inuyashas Pov~

Leaping from tree branch to tree branch I cant help but smile. I cant wait to get home. I want to talk with Kagome and say sorry for leaving with no warning. I kind of hope he is worried about me, but knowing her and everything going on she hasn't really noticed. I cant wait to annoy Sesshomaru again either, my favorite pass time. I wonder what they have been doing since I was camping with mother nature. Getting lost in my thoughts I land on a branch and just stand there for a second before pushing my thoughts of how happy I will be seeing the two of them again aside. Pushing of the branch again I resume my journey home. I wonder what I should tell her. 'Hey Kagome! Long time no see, I missed you' no that's not good, ' Hey Kagome, how are you haven't been here for a bit so I don't know' gah that's not good either. Thinking for a second I smile as I think of a funny one, 'Hey Kagome I haven't been home in a while now make me some ramen' I know for sure I will get hit for that one. Why is it that it is so hard to try and think of the right things to her, its like I am being judged all the time. I wish I could just talk with out feeling like im being looked down on. I mean with Sesshomaru that's a given, but he does it in a way I don't mind, but with Kagome it is like I am being picked apart, and she doesn't really say much. That worries me at times. Gah! I don't care about that stuff I just want to see her again! Just seeing her face makes me happy. Knowing she is okay makes me at ease. I guess I can except if she wants Sesshomaru I will just be on the sidelines making sure nothing hurts her. I can feel a tug in my chest as I think of her being with him instead of me but I know that if it makes her happy and that is what she wants I will have to deal with it. The smile creeps back over my face as I think of all the things I can say to her. Maybe hug her, tell her I missed her. As my mind wanders I can feel my self getting nervous and excited I cant wait till I see her!

~Kagomes Pov~

Maybe it would be best if I just don't say anything to him if I see him again I mean he did hurt my feelings. I have never been left like that out of the blue, at lest last time he left he told Sesshomaru everything. But this time he just up and leaves. How is that anyway to treat someone. A cold shoulder and a smack to the face. That is what I am going to do. If he walks threw this door or I see him out and he walks up to me, I will slap him and walk away! If he doesn't like it, then maybe he shouldn't have left like that. I bite my lower lip, I know I sound like a complete bitch, but really I want him to hurt like I am hurting, he always seems so carefree and unfazed by things, and I don't like that. I wish he cared more about me. I wish he thought about me a lot and wished that I was okay. Instead all he thinks about is himself. Even when I first met him, he stayed as a dog all the time, he didn't want to talk to me. I know it was strange for a stranger to walk into his home sleep on his bed then ask to stay with out even knowing him. But he say yes. That should be enough to think about someone. If he didn't like me or the idea he should have said so. I even left before, I thought he came and got me because he cared, I guess it was only because he wanted me back because he didn't want to be left alone with Sesshomaru.

~Inuyasha pov~

Standing in front of the door outside my smile grows big as I think of how happy I am to see them. I never thought I would feel so alone. But I don't care about being hurt. Truthfully all I want is to see Kagome and see that she is happy. I guess to me that is enough. I pull the door open slowly and step inside. Taking a deep breath I start to climb the stairs.

Okay guys, I think that is a good place to stop :D right? I have been up for 2 days now and actually am feeling sleepy so I am cutting it off here and going to go sleep. Sorry but I will get more up tomorrow I hope, or later today, depending on how long i sleep and when I feel like sitting in front of a computer screen. Big thanks to

Twistedheart27 – I will be updating more often glad you like it, and yes Kagome is being selfish. Don't you love drama :D

CityOfFallenAshes - :D Glad you found it funny, I was hoping someone would find the humor in it I did when I was writing. And creepy pms are creepy, and disturbing D:

Guest – that is a wonderful name, love it. Best name ever, you should get a fanfiction account so I could say thank you by name for reviewing, but at lest you know who I am talking to when I say guest. And I shall be updating soon! And the roller coaster will be starting shortly don't you worry!