Hawke looked at Aveline and Anders when checked on her. She saw his hands glow bright with healing magic and she jumped off the table she was laying on, away from Anders and behind Fenris.
"Noli me tangereturpismanutua!" Hawke snarled. She reached for her daggers but she couldn't feel them on her back. "Ubisuntarmameaabominatio?"
"What in the Maker's name is she saying?" Anders asked, looking at Fenris. There was the look of amusement and loss on his face.
"Give Hawke her daggers," Fenris elaborated. Anders kept his eyes on the woman the entire time. He grabbed her daggers from the back room and gave them to her. She snatched them from him and pointed one at his neck.
"Take it easy now Hawke."
"Nonlædere." Hawke nodded and lowered her dagger. She grabbed ahold of the elf's arm and squeezed. "Vales, diligitis?" She nodded and looked down. Something felt off but she ignored the feeling.
"Will someone please tell me what's going on?" Aveline asked, tired of being out of the loop.
"For a strange reason, she lost her memories again but only kept ones of Fenris." Aveline shook her head and walked off. She remembered the headache she had the first time Hawke lost her memories and it was returning.
Chapter 25: Only the Start
After the whole fiasco at Anders' clinic, they had tried to help Hawke jar her memory. Not only could Hawke not understand what everyone except Fenris was saying, but she was like a tiger protecting her territory when Anders or Merril were near her. She could sense the power of blood magic pour off the elven mage. It brought back unwanted memories of her time as Denarius' slave.
That was the only patch of her life Hawke could remember, besides her love for Fenris and her ability to fight, when she came from the other side of the Veil. She couldn't remember anything after that.
Then there was Fenris who was stuck in the middle. He was like a peacekeeper since she would only listen to him (and because he was the only one who could speak to her in Arcanum).
Aveline, besides Fenris, was probably the most frustrated out of everyone. The static between Knight-Commander Meredith and First Enchanter Orsino was becoming more like lightning bolts. There were so many acts of rebellion from mages in the past few months since Hawke lost her memory again, it easily outnumbered the ones from before the Arishok incited war with Kirkwall.
He walked away with it too, literally.
Aveline also had to make the decisions regarding mages, whether the ones they encountered should live, die, go free or go to the Gallows. She sympathized with a few of them, were ruthless towards others.
That was until Bethany came back into the picture for a moment.
She had been taken from her quarters and put under the spell of blood magic. When they got to the Wounded Coast, the Templar Thrask was found dead. Grace deranged and wanting revenge against Hawke.
Hawke didn't understand the woman's resentment towards her; she couldn't understand her at all. Even so, she could feel the hatred and power of blood magic radiate off her and she knew the mage needed to die.
Grace summoned demons and the undead, hoping for them to take Hawke down quick. Hawke didn't care about the demons, her companions taking care of them. She focused on the crazed blood mage only, preventing her from summoning more demons from the Fade and manipulating more bodies of the dead.
Hawke smoothly evaded the attacks Grace tried to make with her staff, whether it was casting a spell of just striking out, Hawke still didn't draw her daggers. She wanted to feel the blood mage's bones crack with each punch and kick, slowly drain her life force until she was as lifeless as a husk before ripping out her heart and making her watch as she squeezed into a heap of blood.
That's exactly what she did.
Her ruthlessness towards Grace made Anders and Merril want to puke, made Bethany want to have never woken up to see her sister brutalize another mage, no matter how insane, like that. Fear and disgust was replaced with blind hatred. Bethany walked up to her sister and, despite her gentle nature and lover for the older Hawke, slapped her hard across the face.
Hawke's head snapped to the side at the impact of Bethany's hand. Everyone was silent, awkwardness and suspense hanging in the open air. The young mage still didn't know of Hawke's recent memory loss.
"Tangam te magum me?" Hawke asked with disdain. Bethany knew the feeling of hatred, especially when Fenris had started glaring at her back. She didn't understand why her sister would fell such hate again.
"Sister, what's wrong with you? Why do you look at me with hateful eyes?"
"She lost her memories again Sunshine," Varric said sadly. "She doesn't remember anything from before her time as a slave or after."
"She…her body went into shock when the Keep fell on top of her head," Aveline said.
"More like through her head."
"Anyways, her mind was transferred into the Fade and when she came back, she lost a majority of her memories. The only person she remembers from after her capture is Fenris."
Bethany looked sadly at her sister with tears prickling at her eyes.
"Cur clamans?" Hawke asked confused.
"Soror retro cupit," Fenris replied which confused Hawke. Something in the back of her brain buzzed when he mentioned a mage being her sister. "Magos commemoravero autem Bethania de viribus suis utentes, ad auxilium populus. Quæ suus Grey Custode."
She thought about it for a second and so many questions filled her head. 'I have a sister? What's her name? How old is she? Do I have any other siblings?' The questions made her head ache with the memories that tried to force themselves to the surface. It hurt her so much inside.
She just couldn't take both the physical and emotional pain.
Hawke strapped her daggers onto her back and ran off, hands pressed to her temples.
Translations:
Tangamtemagumme?: You dare touch me mage?
Curclamans?: Why is she crying?
Sororretrocupit: She wants her sister back
Magos commemoraveroautem Bethaniadeviribus suisutentes,ad auxilium populus. QuæsuusGreyCustode: Bethany is one of the mages who use their powers to help people. She's a Grey Warden.