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Author's Note- Ultra angsty chapter. A better length today, which is good. Enjoy.

Two years, one month ago

November 27th, 2009

Dear Riku,

You told me you hated me, once.

Do you remember?

It was just after we found Destiny Islands again, and you told me you hated me. You were so angry back then, angry at everyone and everything. We had been sparring, do you remember? Sparring because it made me feel strange to not be fighting after almost a year of fighting Heartless almost everyday.

I was using the Keyblade, and I had managed to land a hit on you. It just made you even more angry than you already were. You told me you hated me then.

Right after you said it, the horrified expression on your face would have been almost comical if you hadn't said it like you really meant it. I think you did mean it. Right there, you meant it. You were looking at the Keyblade as you said it, and it was then I realized part of the reason why you had been so angry when we'd spar. It was right then I realized that you resented me. You resented me for being the one the Keyblade chose, and you resented the fact that it meant your Heart wasn't as pure as mine.

Even more than me though, I think you hated yourself too. Hated yourself for not being the one with the pure Heart the Keyblade chose, hated yourself for not being strong enough to resist the Darkness. Hated yourself for not having enough self control to keep from blurting out that you hated me.

I didn't tell you, but I never wanted this. Sometimes, when I was around you and Kairi, I'd get the feeling that you thought that maybe I wanted to be chosen by the Keyblade, that I wanted to be dragged away from my home to play the Hero.

I never wanted this.

The Keyblade should never have chosen me, I was never as strong as you, and there were so many times while I was away that I wanted to just give up, just let myself be swallowed up by the Darkness. I was selfish, the only reason I kept going was because I wanted to find you again so that we could be together.

I did find you again.

And you hated that the Keyblade chose me.

I don't hold it against you, though, I don't hold it against you that you were angry and said something you shouldn't have, something you shouldn't have even though I think that you really meant it.

I miss you.

Your friend,

Sora

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