{Hey guys here is another chapter. Pre-warning that I cry like a baby every time this scene is played, no idea why but it may be a little short. I hope you like it and I don't own anything to do with the Sons of Anarchy, but I do own my own characters and anything else that you do not recognize.}

Fuck…fuck…fuck, fuck, fuck! I fucked up, yeah there was no babying it. Hal had removed the gun from me and took me to the station for the night to clear my head. I had yet to say much and I barely slept through the night, the constant worry about Stella coming back to my mind. Now I had my hands were behind my back and the cuffs jingled against the seat. I bite my lip as I stared out the window, not paying to much attention to what Hal was saying. As I recognized the street that the garage was on, a new kind of panic set in. My dad was going to kill me. "Why are you bringing me here?" I asked as my voice cracked from the first time I had spoken in hours

Hal's eyes connected with mine through his review mirror, "I'm doing you a favor not reporting this because I know your struggle to get your daughter back. But, someone needs to know what you did because it was serious, and I will not turn a blind eye next time."

It was unfair that Zobelle could get away with what he did. It wasn't fair that I had to carry this around with me and only me. It wasn't fair that I couldn't share what I was going on with Happy, no instead he was pissed off at me for a complete misunderstanding. And now I was going to have to deal with my father who no doubt would have my head for this. "Its not fair." I mumbled

I didn't think that I mumbled loud enough for him to hear but apparently, I was wrong. "What did Zobelle do to have you show up with a gun?"

I wanted to tell him so bad, I wanted to tell anyone but, I couldn't. "He deserved what was coming to him." Was all I said

He knew it was a loosing battle to keep asking question, so he kept his mouth pursed in a hard line as we pulled into the lot. I watched as a Clay, Jax and Gemma began to walk towards us with a confused look on there faces. Hal parked the car before he hoped out and opened my door, guiding me out of the car. When my eyes connected with Clay I saw confusion and anger all in one go. Hal turned me around, so he could begin removing my cuffs. "What the hell is going on?" Jax said angrily

Hal cleared his throat before he answered, "Well don't ask me why but, I found Savannah at Zobelle's cigar shop…with a gun in her possession."

I knew by the looks on the boys faces that they were confused and least of all impressed. But, I wasn't looking at them, I was looking at Gemma. She seemed worried and somewhat guilty. I had no idea how I was going to talk my way out of this. "Are there any charges?" Clay asked

"No, not this time. But, if it happens again I won't be able to protect her." Hal answered

Now that my cuffs were off I began to rub at my arm nervously. Gemma took notice of this and reached her arm towards me, "Come on baby, let the men talk." She spoke to me as if trying to calm a deer down

I didn't look back at the men as we walked away but I knew by the hushed whispers and the feeling of their eyes on me that they were still talking about me and it wasn't good. But once we reached the office, Gemma closed both doors, so we would have privacy and I collapsed into the chair in front of her desk. She finished closing the blinds before she sat across from me and placed her hands in her lap. "I thought I told you not to go starting shit." She told me

"He doesn't deserve to get away with it Gemma. How can sit around knowing that there sitting there with a smug grin on their faces because there getting away with it." I said with a pout

"Because the club don't need it, if your going to be apart of this world you need to learn when to stand back and when to stand up."

"It ain't right Gemma." I said to her as I tried to hold back my tears for the millionth time since last night

"I heard about Happy. He has been mopping around the clubhouse since yesterday."

I looked around the room uncomfortably, "I couldn't tell him where I was or why. I had Tig helping me out and he jumped to conclusions and now I don't know how to fix it. I can't fix it without telling him what was going on. Now I don't know how I am going to explain this to anyone. I just want to tell the truth, I don't want to lie." I told her as my voice broke at the end

Gemma reached over the desk and held my hand in hers, "I know this is hard on you like it is on me. Neither of us should have ever had to go through that but we can't tell them, not yet."

"But why?"

"Jax has decided he wants to go nomad and that's not good."

"But, that's what Happy was?" I asked not completely understanding what was so bad about that

"For Happy that's different, he is built for that life. But, Jax isn't. Nomad is no family and no home…no one to protect him. And its all because of the shit between him and Clay."

I felt a pain in my heart at this news, though I hadn't known Jax for my whole life, he was one of the reasons I made it through my first attempted at going sober. He was a rock when no one else was. Without him or Gemma I don't know what I would do. "Fuck."

Gemma let go of my hand and stood and began to pace around the room, "Okay this is what were going to do. You have to go pick up Stella, right?"

I looked at my watch, "Yeah I should actually be leaving soon."

"Okay, I want you to take my car and try to avoid the boys for right now. It will give us time to think but, if you run into one of them tell them that you were upset about everything they have done lately. And with Stella coming home you wanted to send a message to leave your family alone no matter how wrong you were. That should hold off the questions for now."

"Okay."

Gemma peaked out the blinds and when she didn't see Clay or Jax she grabbed her keys and passed them to me. "Go get your baby and bring her home. It's a long drive so I will see you at home."

I grabbed the keys from her and she pulled me into my arms. She kissed the side of my head before sending me on my way. I opened the door as quietly as I could and peeked outside. When the coast was clear I walked quickly across the lot to Gemma car. I had just closed the door and slipped the key into the engine when a gentle knock on the window caused me to curse. I looked beside me to see Jax staring at me, I swore mentally before rolling the window down. "You didn't think you would get away that, easily do you? Clay is waiting to talk to you inside."

I looked in the rear-view mirror to the building my father was no doubt fuming in and I bit my lip. "Jax I got to go get Stella or I will be late."

He leaned his arms on the window but didn't budge, "Well then you want to tell me why your medalling where you shouldn't be?"

My eyes met his and I retorted, "What about you Jax? Your just gonna leave us all behind."

"Ma told you, I was going to tell you."

"When Jax? When you were on your bike leaving? I thought you said I was your little sister now? That you would take care of me? Right now, Jaxson I feel more betrayed then ever. I just started to really be apart of this family and you are just going to leave."

"You don't understand-"

"I don't need to understand anything but, that your leaving and you won't listen to me. When I met you, I thought I had found someone who could genuinely care for me. I hadn't felt that since my mothers passing, so in a sense you are no better than everyone else, just taking a piece of my heart with you. If only you knew the truth."

As soon as the words left my mouth I regretted them. "What do you mean the truth?"

"Nothing Jax I got to go" I said as I rolled up the window effectively ending our conversation.

As I pulled away Jax stepped away from the vehicle, but I could tell by the look on his face that my words had hurt him. Today was just not my day.

~~SOA~~

The drive was ridiculously long, and I knew it was because the million and one thoughts running though my head. I just wanted to get my baby and get home to bed. Once I had pulled in front of my aunt's house I took another look at my phone, hoping he would have texted me but I should have known better. He was mad, and he thought I was cheating on him and with Tig of all people! I hadn't even seen him since the episode between him and Tig and it hurt. I knew he didn't go far but, he definitely went out of his way to avoid me. I stepped out of my vehicle and began to go to the house where the door swung open and my daughter ran out straight towards me, with her arms wide open. "Mama!" I crouched down and pulled her tight into my body. I reveled over the feeling of having her in my arms

I became quickly emotional as I realized that today would be the day I go home with my baby girl. Tears came to my eyes as I squeezed her tighter. I may not get a chance to have a family with Happy but, as long as I had my little girl and that's all that matter. Stella began to wiggle out of my arms and she pulled away enough that she could grab my face. As she took in my tears her face became confused as she pushed away my tears, "Why you crying?" she asked me

I sniffled and leaned forward to kiss her cheek, "I'm just very happy. Come on go get your stuff and say bye to your Aunt Val."

"Okay." She cheered up and ran back into her house.

When I stood up I saw Val standing in the doorway with her arms crossed but she didn't look mad. I brushed my knees off and walked towards her. "Hey Val."

"Savannah. You ready to take her home?"

"Ready as I'll ever be." I told her

Val was looking into the house and I could tell something was chewing her up. So, before she could say anything I spoke up, "She will be good for me. I have run from my responsibilities to long and I can't keep calling myself her mother if I don't actually take care of her like my mother raised me to do."

As I spoke Val looked at me with complete shock at my words. Val didn't have time to say anything before Stella was pulling me by the hand as she dragged her suitcase behind her. I laughed as I put her in her car seat and placed her suitcase into my car. Val helped me move the rest of her boxes into my vehicle before she said he goodbyes to Stella. Once the car door and trunk were shut, Val turned to face me once more. She pulled me into a hug but, a few seconds pass and she spoke into my ear, "Take care of her Savannah. You will be a great mother, you have made many strides to become a better person. But, remember if you ever need an escape with her from your life, there will always be a home here for you," She pulled away and put her hands on either side of my face and she smiled at me with tears brimming her eyes, "Your mother would be so proud of you."

I held back my tears at her comforting words before I pulled her in for one more and hug and moved to my driver side. Once I started my car I looked back as Stella, "Wave bye to Aunt Val."

"Bye-bye!" She screamed as she waved frantically at her Aunt

"Time to go home baby girl." I said as I pulled away from the curb

~~SOA~~

By the time I had gotten home, it was rather late. But, nobody was home, so I sat Stella at the table with a cookie and some milk for a mid night snack. But as she was finishing up I could see she was struggling to keep her head up. I was just standing up as I walked to pick her up in my arms. It wasn't until she was in my arms with her head on my shoulder that the front door opened. I was expecting just to see Gemma and Clay so when I turned to face her I had to blink in mild shock. Jax, Tara and Happy stood behind them and Happy would not look at me. "Hey, you brought her home." Clay said as he walked forward to rub the side of her head before giving her a kiss on her forehead

Gemma smiled as she walked by and did the same but told me after, "Go put her to bed and come out here, we got something to talk about."

I watched her curiously for a moment, did she mean what I think she meant. "Mama?" Stella's sleepy voice called out to me

I tried to turn to face her before I spoke, "Yeah baby?"

"Can Happy tuck me in to?" she asked

I didn't even know that she woke up to see him here but, what was I gonna say? I looked over to Happy who seemed to be thinking the same thing as me but, he didn't say no. So, I nodded my head and began to walk by the group to bring her to bed. Tara nodded her head at me and Jax kissed Stella head as I walked by. Once I got to the bedroom, I began to try and move the blankets out of my way. I was struggling as I was holding her weight but, Happy came to my rescue and pulled them away for me. I slipped my daughter into bed and pulled the covers over her, tucking her in as tight as I could before I sat on the edge of her bed. "Goodnight sweetheart, I will come to bed soon."

"Okay." She said as she continued to struggle to stay away. She held her tiny hand out behind me

I looked behind me to see Happy frozen in place not knowing what to do. It was almost comical. "Happy?" My daughter small voice asked

He reached forward to grab her hand in his huge one and he grunted at her. "Will you come back to?"

My eyes grew, and I shook my head, "Not tonight baby maybe another night."

I felt Happy grow stiff beside me and I knew then that this was hard not just for me but for him to. "Goodnight Stella." Happy said to her and squeezed her hand

Stella seemed to be to tired to fight it anymore before her eyes fluttered closed. I leaned forward and kissed her forehead before I got up and Happy followed me out. We didn't say anything and every second that passed that felt like years hurt so damn much. I fell to hard for this fool. By the time we got out to the dinning room everyone was sitting at the table. I went and sat beside Gemma and Happy sat beside Tara across from me. "What is this?" Clay asked

"The night of Bobby's party, I didn't get into an accident driving home. I was attacked and so was Savannah." Gemma began to talk about the night we were attacked, pausing every few minutes as she struggled to relive that night

Everyone's eyes turned to me and I looked down at the table, "They broke into the house and took me when I got home. I almost escaped but, I didn't make it far."

"A girl jumps out in a panic. Says her baby's choking, that girl was very convincing. It was a goddamn doll in the car seat. She hit me over the back of the head with a, you know, a blackjack. Something. I came to handcuff to a chain-link and Savannah was on the floor no more than five feet away me."

I looked up to see Tara nodding in understand but, all three men were shocked, angry and seemed to understand that this wasn't the worst. Gemma had paused and as my eyes reached Happy continually darking ones. I licked my lips before I spoke up, "They dragged me in this dark cement building, they hit me a couple times. They pinned me to the floor and strapped me up before shooting me up with enough crank to immobilized me. I screamed for them to stop, I cried but they wouldn't listen. It wasn't until Gemma had begun to move that they left me on the floor. All I could do was hide in the corner before the high took over and all I could do was sit there and watch." I told them but as I spoke, and fresh tears slipped down my face, my eyes never left Happy.

"Watch what?" Jax's voice broke

Now it was Gemma turn, she grabbed my hand for support and I squeezed hers for my own, "They wore masks, there were three of them. When he spoke I knew his voice, tatt on his throat. Zobelle's right hand. Told me to deliver a message to you, stop selling guns to colour, said if I didn't tell you that he would find us again and do it again but, next time it wouldn't just be me," Gemma paused as she gathered her courage to say what had happened, "They raped me, all three of them…more than once."

One thing I didn't know was the threat that came from them. A chocked cry escaped my lips as memories came back to me that night. The pain almost as fresh as it had been that night. I watched as Happy eyes became blacker than I had every witness and he clenched his fist so tight that his tanned skin was turning white. Clay had yet to say anything from the shock he was experiencing but, Jax became so enraged that he smashed his fist against the table. Jax got up and walked over to his mother before grabbing her hands and pulling her hands up to his face before he kissed her knuckles. Once he shared a moment with his mother, he came over and crouched down to hold me closer to him. "I'm so sorry, I promised to protect you and I didn't. I wont leave." Jax whispered in my ear

I began to cry a little harder as I held onto him for what felt like dear life. Tara was looking at us with not pride but happy that the truth was finally out. Jax stood away from me and as he walked past Clay he clapped his shoulder. I finally looked over at my father and as I did his hand reached out to me and tugged me towards him. I stood and walked around Gemma and Clay held my hands tight in his and when I got closer to him he gently kissed my cheek. "I love you." He whispered

"I love you to." I whispered back

Once I felt his hands loosen on mine. I pulled away, he needed his moment with Gemma and I knew that. If anyone needed the comfort from my father now, it would be Gemma. When I looked back as Happy he had yet to move but, once he knew the moment was over. He abruptly walked over to me and grabbed my hand tight in his own, pulling me so fast out of the house it was hard for me to catch up to him. Once he did stop we were in a corner of the yard by a tree with a wide trunk. He pulled me in front of him and pushed my back against the trunk and blocked me in with his arms. His eyes were closed at first but once he opened his eyes to face me, I saw the tears falling from his cheek. To see a man such as Happy cry was something you would never expect to see. "That's why…that's why you went into hiding. But, why Tig Savannah…I would've been right there."

I reached a hand forward to cup his cheek in mine as I looked at him with sympathy in my eyes. "No baby I couldn't, not because of Gemma but, because it was my burden to bear. Tig was just…someone who was in the wrong place at the wrong time."

He grabbed my hand that was cupping his face before bringing it to his mouth and kissed my fingers. Then he dropped my hand and kissed me softly, I wished it would never end, "Any of your burdens are mine, any of mine are yours Savannah. This will not work if we can't help each other out. I love you and what they did…fuck they won't get away with it. If only you know the thoughts that have gone through my head."

I bite my lip hard before I spoke again, the tears coming faster than anytime before. "I was so scared Hap."

I could see the change in his facial expression before he pulled me hard into his body and allowed us to fall to the ground. In a swift movement he pulled my body onto his lap, so I straddled him, and he began to rock me with him. "I will never let something like that every happen to you again. Your mine." He growled in my ear.

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