Drabble Notes – Johan & Shou, with references to Juudai/Shou and Juudai/Johan, set during the end of season three, if it had taken Juudai longer to return than it did. By this time I was starting to lose some of the bitterness I'd held to a lot of the concepts in season three.

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It wasn't as if it had been an obsession it was more like… Okay, it had been an obsession.

Shou would openly admit it; he had been obsessed with Juudai.

Ever since his first year he'd followed Juudai like a lost puppy, admiring everything he did and striving to be like him in the same way he'd strived to be like the big brother that Juudai had replaced. They went through some rough times but their friendship stood strong. It had always been Juudai and Shou against all odds, he thought.

But in the third year that changed. Things started to crack from there on out. He knew Juudai preferred to be with Johan than him, and he'd tried not to let that bother him. Even though it did. Juudai and Johan were a great team. Everyone saw that. Everyone saw how close they were, how similar they were, how they were both happy as long as they had each other.

Then for the first time Shou found himself manipulated by the bad guy. He was the one possessed, standing in the way of Juudai. In the past it was always the others who got possessed but Shou stood by Juudai's side. But that time Shou wasn't by Juudai's side. It was Johan by Juudai's side. And by the time they'd rescued Shou it was all over. Or so they'd thought.

Johan had sacrificed himself to save Juudai. If it had been Shou he would have done the same, but it wasn't him it was Johan. And because of that Juudai became obsessed with Johan. He didn't care about the others as long as he got Johan back. He led them into the Dark World, he abandoned them there, and many of his friends had lost their lives, all so he could save Johan.

And he did save Johan. And he died in the process… So now Johan was here and Juudai wasn't.

The absolute worst of it? Johan wasn't a bad guy. He was a very nice person. He was a lot like Juudai. Shou understand why Juudai had liked him so much because, to Shou, Juudai was perfect. And anyone so close to being like him was worthy of Juudai's attention.

It still made him cry though. When he saw Johan it was hard for him to stop himself. And Johan, being a nice person, would always comfort him.