Some Hearts
Mandy's p o v
" Sweetie what's with the hate on Nick?[Tish]
he's a heartbreaking two timing lying
flipping jerk! [me]
yes and you've known that for how long? [Tish]
it's just that god..[me]
what's wrong darling? [Tish]
She took my hands which were shaking as I paced the waiting room finally she came over and handed me a cup of coffee and guided me over to a chair
Sit baby talk to me this isn't like you
what the heck is going on darlin' [Tish]
this is sucks..[me]
I fumbled with the ring in my pocket I couldn't tell her or could I? Traditional I should of asked for her parents blessings anyway, but this wasn't a typical case first off we were both girls and even though I knew her parents were okay with us and thought of me as part of the family there was a major difference between being friends to friends in love and a friend that proposes then there was the fact that she is 16! Still maybe she would be..no I couldn't take that chance ..without realization it she had slipped her hand over my hand that was fidgeting with the ring..
honey what is it?
Talk to me please [Tish]
I tried I mean I didn't ..
[sighing]
what is it? Seriously you can tell me
anything are you okay?
Please tell me your not sick to
I already have one baby in there fighting
..No I'm not sick..
Not yet I thought but I was starting to feel it..I could feel my face heating up and and had to get out of there jumping up so quick I forgot my coffee in till I heard a splash and felt a burning on my legs..letting out a yelp the cup fell from my hands as hot tears burned at my eyes.
Oh my gosh baby
let me get a towel get those pants off your leg
is going to burn..[Tish]
crap..why me..[me]
In a hurry I threw the cup down and grabbed my pants tearing them off as I did Tish came up with a towel for me to take the sting off, helping me over to the chair I sank down closing my eyes as the tears burned behind my eyes.
You know you don't have to be strong
all the time [Tish]
She smeared some burn gel on my leg and held it up fanning it
it's okay to unload that's why we have each
other baby [Tish]
legs dry
thanks..[me]
Standing up I yanked on the pants hearing a rattle as something hit the floor..
what's this baby?
I gasped as she held up my ring box..
She looked startled as she picked it up staring at me
uh care to explain? [Tish]
Not knowing how to answer all I could do was stare at it in her hands her eyes full of questions as she looked deep into my eyes..I tried to swallow but my throat was tight and dry. How was I suppose to tell her I was about to ask her 16 year old child to marry me? It seemed crazy and childish and I started to wonder what I was thinking asking her in the first place. She was still a kid she shouldn't be tied down what kind of person would her mom think I was? I didn't want Tish to think I was taking advantage of her kid...
Mandy? [Tish]
I'm sorry Tish I …[me]
baby what is it? [Tish]
did u buy this? [Tish]
I couldn't lie to her she cupped my chin in her hands and pulled my face up to meet her eyes.
It's okay you can tell me [Tish]
I did..I wanted to..
I mean..[me]
Her arms embraced me and held me as I started to cry
Yes I brought it I was asking her
To marry me when she collapsed
I don't want her to be under any obligations
she can say no I mean..I just..[me]
she'll say yes I know her Mandy
she loves u with her whole heart
and part of her dreams for the future
is spending her life with you so relax all I want
is for miles to be happy
and u make her happy
so I will not stand in your way if she's ready
if she says yes you may ask her with my blessing
but she is not ready to get married now
she's 16 ..[Tish]
I know I would never ask her
to marry me right now! [me]
I know she needs time to be a kid
to finish school and film
HM 4 and do so many things
including collage if she wants
but I will wait for her in-till she's ready[me]
thank you that's all I could ask of you
I couldn't be any happier or prouder to say
welcome to the family [Tish]
She came over and hugged me tight as soon as her arms wrapped around me the tears flowed and I let myself sink into her embrace. All the emotions I had been experiencing poured out as she rubbed my back and rocked me as much as you can standing up.
Mandy oh my god is it!
Is Miley ..did she..[Demi]
hey no oh wow sorry [me]
no she's good I mean no change
oh thank god! I mean oh my god Tish not that I'm
glad that there's no change cause I'm not I want ..[Demi]
what she's trying to say is she's glad miles hasn't gotten
worse and that she's holding on strong
like we knew she would..[Selena]
yes uh yes that's what I meant [Demi]
so are you okay? [Demi]
yea I just got a little upset sorry it's hard to see her
so still..[me]
hey she'll be alright Mandy
she's strong and she's young [Demi]
yea and she has all of us by her side who can
stay asleep when were all here? [Selena]
thanks girls [Tish]
I'm glad my daughter has so many
friends she can count on it helps [Tish]
group hug..
She opened her arms so we went straight into them I had to keep their words in my mind as I thought about miles.
Nick p o v
Miles baby you have to wake up
we need you
there's so many of us praying for you
There was still no response from her she just laid there and it drove me nuts hearing her heartbeat in that tiny box made me wanna scream but that would get me kicked out so instead after a quick look around to make sure no one was around. I crawled into bed with her if she wouldn't even let me hold her hand when she was awake I was going to take her in any way possible. Wrapping my arms around her I could feel her heart beating strong against me her body radiated heat as I leaned closer I could smell her fruity shampoo and conditioner and her perfume she was heaven in one body touching her hair. I couldn't help but think of the days when she was my girlfriend and we would lay together and I would run my hands through her hair. As I brushed over face I was drawn to her and without thinking I leaned in and kissed her, the feel of her lips touching mine electrified my whole body and I wrapped my arms around her tighter laying my head on her chest, Exhausting started to set in I haven't slept in days since she got sick. Feeling her heart beat in a steady rhythm lured me into a sleep.
Kevin's p o v
Aw look at wittle Nicky [Joe]
picture opp! [Me]
ah blackmail so sweet [Joe]
we should put some whip cream on his face [me]
oh yea and some gummy bears! [Joe]
oh I know we should put something yummy in front of
his nose [me]
and what would that accomplish? [Joe]
he would start to drool[me]
oh yea and that would be awesome! [Joe]
We high fived..As Joe was laughing at the photo's we took and busy plotting blackmail options I watched Nick curled up with Miles and felt a shiver of fear run through my spine she looked so small and helpless so sick..the monitor scared me her heart was so big so full of life and laughter and love it shouldn't be contained in one tiny box..all I could hear was her flat lining and the look on his face was what tore me apart he looked so scared but as he drifted off there was a peacefulness to him as he wrapped his arms around her and just held her he looked like he was at home,what would he do if she didn't make it? He had been through so much already with his illness and our rough rise to fame he deserved a break. What would he do if she woke up and rejected him? That picture of her and Mandy still burned in my mind...at first it had grossed me out I mean they were both girls but then I found myself staring at the photo when no one was around [no not in a perverted way] and all I saw were their eyes and how they looked at each other so passionately and it hit me who cares what their sex is? Their 2 people in love and that's what should count and it hit me as well that as much as she cared about Nick she would never love Nick that way as she looked at Mandy in that photo.
So yea that would be so ..
no don't even think about it Joe..[me]
you don't even know what I was..[Joe]
just don't...[me]
ah fine I better go cancel that
50 copies I sent to the star..
I hit my head as he ran off.
Mandy's p o v
Standing outside her room I saw Nick curled up besides her and had to clench my fists I wanted nothing more then to rip him off the bed and shove his head down the damn toilet. Instead I calmly walked over and took her hand in mine. Raising it to my lips I kissed it gently they were warm and moved ever so softly..closing my eyes I ..wait they moved! I shot up and stared at her hands which were moving ever so slightly..
Miles baby please come back to me
I know your trying please don't give up
I need you and you have so much left to do
before I found you I was so lost
I gave myself to all the wrong guys
I never believed I was worth anything
I was lost and broken and pretty much didn't
care what happened to me
then you came along and changed my world
you were so young so innocent and so full
of life and love you didn't judge me you just loved me
and you never stop encouraging me
That's how she is you know
she just loves without strings..[Nick]
ah! [me]
sorry wasn't trying to scare you
it's okay I knew you were there just didn't
expect you to wake up so suddenly [me]
yea I know I do that to my brothers all the time
freaks them out..[Nick]
yea well it freaked me out to an almost heart attack
sorry but the expression on your face was great! [Nick]
wish she would wake up that sudden huh? [Nick]
yea how did you..[me]
I stroked her hair and face suddenly feeling his hand on top of mine
Cause I love her just as much as you do [Nick]
My head felt like it was going to explode he grabbed my hand and pulled me up making room between him and miles. It was tight as heck but it felt amazing to have her in my arms again I took in her amazing smell and sighed his soft laughter resonated in my right ear
I did the same thing to don't feel bad [Nick]
I don't just scared..[me]
His hand slipped over mine as he squeezed it..
Did you feel her squeeze your hand? [Nick]
Yes I need to go find a doc..[me]
I already did [Nick]
When? [me]
Earlier when she did the same thing to me [Nick]
he said it's normal she's showing signs that she's waking
up but we have to be patient
I hate being patient! [me]
yea me to..but sometimes the rewards worth the agony [Nick]
I just want her to know how loved she is [me]
she does but it never hurts to remind her [Nick]
Before I knew it he started to sing
Some Hearts
I've never been the kind that you'd call lucky
Always stumbling' around in circles
But I must have stumbled into something
Look at me
I wake up
feeling like my life's worth living
I started to sing with him
Can't recall when I last felt that way Some hearts Now who'd have thought someone like you could love me Some hearts Even hearts like mine Even hearts like mine Some hearts, Some hearts
Guess it must be all this love you're giving
Never knew never knew it could be like this
But I guess
They just get all the right breaks
Some hearts have the stars on their side
Some hearts,
They just have it so easy
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Some hearts just get lucky, lucky sometimes
You're the last thing my heart expected
Who'd have thought I'd ever find somebody
Someone who someone who makes me feel like this
Well I guess
They just get all the right breaks
Some hearts have the stars on their side, yes
Some hearts,
They just have it so easy
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Ohhhhhh
Get lucky, lucky sometimes
Ohhhhhhhh
They just get all the right breaks
Some hearts have the stars on their side
Some hearts,
They just have it so easy
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
They just get all the right breaks
Some hearts have the stars on their side, yes
Some hearts,
They just have it so easy
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Laying there with her in my arms and Nick's hand touching my shoulder as his arm was around hers as well. I felt the hope and I felt very lucky ...closing my eyes I felt my face fall against her check and it the warmth spread through me..her eyelashes felt stiff against my skin , wrapping my arms around her tighter I started to fall asleep as her eyelashes scrapped my check
ouch..[me]
what's wrong? [Nick]
her eyelashes hurt me [me]
what? [nick laughing]
yea it feels like they were fluttering against..
oh my …
I shot up and looked at her as she stared back at me..Nick rose and stared at the two of us..her eyes couldn't move but she was laying there staring at me with those clear perfect crystal eyes...I ran my hand over her face as Nick ran to get a doctor. Sitting up I stroked her face her eyes were full of questions and fears within seconds she started to panic and try to rip out the tubes and wires thrashing around...quickly I held her down and tried to sooth her , the look in her eyes scared me and made me so angry she shouldn't be feeling that way. I never wanted her to hurt or be afraid,
miles calm down it'll be okay
I promise I'll explain everything
but please don't freak..
baby listen to me please
I took her hands and held them as I talked to her running my fingers over hers it seemed to work a bit but her breathing was still too fast and she was still panicking..
Miley Ray calm down this instant! [Tish]
Within a minute of her waking up her mom was in here grabbing her hands and pushing her down demanding she calm down which surprisingly worked out well.
The doctors came trooping in and the exams started no matter how hard they tried Nick and I wouldn't leave her sides, Tish stood behind me with her arms wrapped around my waist her hand slipping over mine which was holding Miley's left hand. Brandi stood in the doorway holding Noah's hand to give the doctors room.
Once the exams were done the head doctor in charge of her case closed her chart and cleared his throat I could never remember his name but he spoke..
We have to run some more tests to be absolutely sure
but it seems like your daughter will make a full recovery
we got the antidotes in her just in time
her vitals are looking good heart beat steady
her sugars back in the normal range
and the septic is under control
I am going to run some tests to make sure there was
no damage to her organs from the shock
but without any complications I expect her
out of here in a few days
yes! [Nick and I cheered high fiving]
thanks Doctor Zander [Tish]
not a problem so glad
everything worked out for you [Dr]
she does however need her rest so I am going to
ask for her to have limited visitors
at least for the first few days [Dr]
understandable I'll make sure she rests trust me [Tish]
when can you remove the tube?
I want to wait a day or two just to give her more time
to get stronger hopefully by tomorrow
or the day after..[Dr]
okay [Tish]
She made good on her promise to once the doctor left she asked all of us to say good night to miley , I wanted to argue and demand to be allowed to stay but I wanted miles to be healthy and she needed her rest for that so I kept quite and did as she asked leaning down to kiss her forehead and tell her that I loved her. She ran her fingers over my hand. I knew she was saying I love you to back to me, that thought lifted me a thousand feet, Nick kissed her check she didn't seem to know how to react but she didn't push him away. As we exited I felt him slip his arm through mine strangely. I was calm now and had no problem laying my head on his shoulder,
hey I know a way to help miley
kind of [Nick]
what is it? [me]
I'll show you..[Nick]
We walked into the treatment room and he pointed to Ella I knew what he meant so we walked over to her and sat with her seeing her little face light up made me happy cause I knew miles would do this if she could.
Tish's p o v
There's really no words that can express the pain and sheer terror of seeing your child hooked to machines and fighting for every breath , it makes you wanna scream in till your completely voiceless , bleed in till your dead anything just so you can escape that gutless feeling of watching your child lay motionless in a bed surrounded by tubes and wires and medicine. Sitting there day after day night into night as you pray for a miracle bargain with god to just please heal your child..only to see no change well quite simply it's hell on earth, every minute that went by I felt a piece of me being chipped away she just laid there so still so helpless and small all I wanted was to hold her curl her up in my arms like when she was small and kiss away the bad and the hurt but I couldn't no matter how much I wanted to.
Billy Ray was wearing out the floor pacing so much,we couldn't talk to each other without fighting he wanted to reach in the bed and shake her awake it killed him to know his baby girl might not wake up..I wouldn't hear of it she was going to make it that I was sure of!
The moment when she woke up was the best moment in my life along with the birth of my kids , I still can't stop staring into her gorgeous eyes, as I lay by her side holding her not even hiding the tears of happiness that streamed down my face as I kissed her checks. She still couldn't speak with her voice but her eyes kept talking to me asking a hundred questions like when was this tube coming out? How long was she out? Were her kids alright? Were they scared? Were they doing their treatment? When was she going to be released? What had happened? Was she really alright? Was Noah scared? How were her siblings? Was I scared? It was so typical of her always thinking about others before herself, I kissed her forehead so relived that her fever had broken, she had curled as much as she can attached to all the instruments and snuggled by me her tiny face looked up at me for reassurance to calm her fears. I wished with everything in me that I could kiss away her fears and drive away those bad dreams like when she was a kid but I couldn't brushing away her hair from her face I remembered when she was born so tiny and wiggly with just the wisps of curly hair. She had grown and changed so much in the last 16 years but there was no mistaken that beautiful little chubby faced girl in the bed next to me who's head was resting on my shoulder, my hands stroked her arms and provided what little comfort I could give to her. She hated the tube in her throat but I managed to soothe her and rub the spot which was most red by moisten it with a gel she sighed and drifted off to sleep. I kissed her again and again if she could talk I knew she would be whining for me to stop smothering her but this was one time where she had no choice but to take it.
One of the Rn's came in and checked her vitals assuring me she was doing well she encouraged me to go grab coffee or food but there was no way I was leaving her, as she slept I finally let a few tears fall for days I had been dreading thinking about that phone call but now in the quite of the room made it impossible to fight off those memories..
Billy Ray and I had just gotten in from a church service we had felt rejuvenated after a long stressful week, Brasion and Billy were preparing to take in a game that night and I had been making plans to get together with my sister and best friend Edi and her daughter Emily Grace who's Noah's age , we had cleaned up dinner and Bras had run upstairs to get his mitt, when Edi had called we started chatting and lost track of time I almost didn't see Billy come up and kiss me good-bye and tell me he would call me as they ran off to the game , it was so good to hear Edi's voice as we shared stories of what the kids had been up to this summer it had been so long since we had really talked with miles schedule and her being ill and the kids being so busy but we lost no time at all and soon it was late we parted with plans to meet up, quickly I jumped in the shower hearing the phone ring but couldn't answer it.
Edi and Emily arrived 30 minutes later and I was so happy to get out with them it crossed my mind how great it felt to be free of the kids and be able to something I enjoyed , as we were running out the damn phone rung in a rush to get my shoes and lock up I was set to ignore it but Edi got it and the expression on her face told me something was wrong very wrong. Swallowing against the fear I went over as she turned to me her eyes filled with tears..very softly she said the words that will leave my heart in pieces even now..
Baby I'm sorry
It's miles she's sick very sick....
Mom...
Quickly I snapped out of my flashbacks at the sound of her sweet very hoarse voice trying to talk. I shushed her pointing to the tube. Looking at me I could tell she wanted to tell me something leaning into her she whispered very quietly
mommy hungry..
Just like that this amazing kid who hours earlier had been in a coma now had her appetite back and was raging. I smiled and promised her we'd get her food as soon as she was allowed promising her anything she wanted.
Two days later with Mandy Brandi and I by her side the tube was pulled and so were almost all the wires expect her monitor for precautions she didn't scream or even shed a tear even though I knew she had to be in a tremendous amount of pain. She kept her breathing under control and remained calm. Holding her little hand running my fingers over hers she relaxed as Mandy sat by her talking to her she shared a laugh with her making her giggle I wasn't sure what was so funny but she seemed to think it was hysterical even more so to leave me in the dark, I took it in stride I had my baby my angel girl back that was all I cared about.
Miss Miley's first requests McDonald and Ella she wanted to know how the little girl was doing.
She amazes me how I was graced with such a sweet perfect child well okay she's not perfect but for a mom every one of our kids are perfect in our eyes.
She started physical therapy that afternoon and because of her job she had no problem getting back into shape. She was so ready to get back to her job as a counselor.. lets just say I was not so ready.. Billy of course was willing to let his daughter do whatever as long as he was the hero. Watching her take her steps as she pushed herself harder even as the therapist told her to hold back well he obviously knew nothing of that little girl he was standing behind cause she never stops when she has her mind set to something forget about it..there's no changing it. I walked closely behind whenever she was rushing too much my voice would call out followed by a moan of ~mom~ which I'm sure was accompanied by a eye roll,later confirmed by Miss Manderz.
She wouldn't admit to me but she was more tired then she cared to say after therapy she knew I would say no visitors and she wanted to see the girls and her friends, I didn't want to argue so I just kept a close eye on her, the girls lifted her spirits and she made no bones about it she would be back very soon!
Her wishes came true when her doctor gave her the go ahead two days later I was still not ready even though she seemed to be stronger now then she had been when she left to come here, still I was fussing and checking her out so much she finally screamed and told me to back off before she went insane which only made me hold her and kiss her more in till we were both laughing and crying. It broke the tension though and made me relax. While Mandy helped her pack I went to see Mac.
Miley'sp o v
God between mom's fussing and Mandy's nervous I was about ready to lose it I could see she was itching to tell me something, she kept twirling her fingers and the ring I gave her. After my mom left to go rem Mac out who I felt so bad for she had no idea Jo was a freaking physco ! I grabbed Mandy's hands and made her talk she stuttered and looked away making me grab her chin and lift it to my face I checked around and kissed her she sunk into my arms holding me as tears escaped her eyes..
what is it baby?
You can tell me anything you know that
what is it you were trying to say before I passed out?[me]
Not sure how to say it..[Mandy]
just say it part those gorgeous sweet sensual lips and say it
damn it..just speak
[we giggled and kissed again]
I love you and I want you to...[Mandy]
hey ladies...[Nick]
Nick hey...[me]
sorry to interrupt but Mandy Katie needs help
she asked me to come get you..
damn...[Mandy]
it's okay babe go I'll be over soon
Nick can help me since he's here..
kay don't take too long [Mandy]
won't..
Her lips brushed my check as she went out he grinned , I wasn't sure what to say being sick had mellowed me but I hadn't forgotten what he did to me. Tossing my bags at him he let out a soft doff as it hit him in the stomach. As we walked outside I took in the fresh air and found it heavenly he watched me as I span and giggled so glad to be out once again. We walked in silence for awhile before he took my hand
Could I take you for a boat ride?
I need to say a few things and
I know you missed being out doors
okay sure but we can't be long..
no problem..
I'm glad you got better so fast miles..
I mean it..[Nick]
thanks I'm glad I did to..[Me]