Chapter 25: Kagome's inspiring tale…
Authors note: Sorry it took me so long, perhaps it was the low amount of comments ( but that is alright I am back and so is another chapter. Well at least I am now working on it, but once it is up it will be. Right… erm confused yet? I think I confused myself. ) Oh well here it goes…
Rin sat looking up at the stars, they had been traveling for nearly three days and still no sign of Sesshomaru. This was distressing Rin greatly. She needed to know he was fine, she needed a sign… and she was just about to get it.
"HEY! RIN!" A girls voice screamed excitedly making Rin jump and the others stir uncomfortably.
"Who in the name…" Gracie muttered as both Halder and Soton jumped up extensively ready to fight.
"No harm," a little fox demon squeaked hiding behind one of his dark haired female companions.
"It's alright Soton Halder," Rin said standing up running out to meet Inuyasha and Kagome.
"Rin you've grown so much!" Kagome said as she hugged the once small girl.
"Thank you! You still look the same Kagome," Rin smiled, "still as pretty as ever!"
"Thank you," Kagome blushed knowing Rin had always had a little admiration for her, since she was so different. Inuyasha hid back a smile, damn right his woman was still pretty, forget pretty she was beautiful. Kagome glanced back at Inuyasha and rolled her eyes at his little smirk, "where are you heading?"
"We are looking for Lord Sesshomaru," Rin said biting her nails, "he took off and now we can't find him."
"KEH Really? We just saw him maybe a day ago," Inuyasha said looking at the group wondering why she was traveling with humans and hanyou's.
"You did!" Rin yelled more then asked making Inuyasha jump at how loud her voice could go. She really had grown, and the more he looked at her… she kind of reminded him of Kagome. Rin too was beautiful, he could see why every time Sesshomaru talked about her a spark would light in his eye the way Inuyasha did when he talked of Kagome.
"We did," Sango said as she let go of Miroku's hand, "he told us to go protect you. Yet he never told us you would be traveling or why."
"That is because he doesn't know," Rin said blushing making Inuyasha laugh thinking how alike Rin and Kagome really were.
"There is nothing funny about that Inuyasha!" Kagome yelled pointing a finger at him her other hand resting on her hip.
"Sure there is it sounds a little familiar KAGOME," Inuyasha said smirking at her. She hated when he did that, but found it so hot at the same time. She just turned trying to push thoughts away but grinning inwardly.
"Anyways INUYASHA where do you think your going Rin?" Kagome asked the scared girl.
"Was he alright? How did he look? Was he hurt?" Rin asked barely taking a second to breathe or annunciate the words.
"Slow down Rin," Miroku chuckled before nodding as he thought back on it, "well to start off he was very worried about you. That's all he talked about, he didn't tell us anything other then that."
"You could tell he was in LOVE," Shippo chanted making Rin's eyes widen before giving them a look.
"Is that…" Sango whispered glancing over at Halder. Rin gave a small nod that made them go "OH".
"Anyways," Kagome said giving them a look, "he was very worried about you. You could tell he cares very much for your safety, he said not to let you leave the castle…"
"You mean not to leave her room was what he said," Shippo laughed making Kagome glare at him, "well he did!"
"Shippo shush!" Kagome snapped pulling him off of her back. Shippo was a little taller since Rin had last seen him, but he still looked the same. Almost all of them did, it had only been about ten years.
"Yes Kagome," the little fox demon whimpered trying to escape her wrath. Kagome was a month or two months pregnant so had a shorter temper well had more of a temper.
"Anyways Rin why are you not back at the safety of the castle," Kagome said looking at Rin seriously, "Sesshomaru would be most displeased."
"I do not care if it would displease my lord or so, I need to see, I mean need to KNOW he is alright. He has no heir who would take over his place?" Rin tried to think of a quick excuse.
"Keh duh ME," Inuyasha said crossing his arms like usual. Rin just gave a weak smile before looking back to her companions.
"Um… please set up camp with us we can talk more in the morning," Rin said afraid of the things that could have possibly been said.
"Right," Kagome said before unpacking her traveling gear and laying out her bed. Inuyasha found a spot close to her so he could keep an eye on her.
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Kagome had laid there for several hours unable to sleep, and when she glanced over she saw neither could Rin. Kaome sighed before noticing the young girl sitting up and hugging her knees. Is she crying? Kagome thought as Rin placed her head on her knees so that any tears that were shed would soak into her kimono.
"Rin are you alright?" Kagome asked sitting up making Rin jump. Rin just looked to her with watery, but not teary eyes.
"You startled me Kagome, I did not know you were awake," Rin said biting her lip feeling her lip quiver.
"Nor did I know you were awake either Rin. What troubles you? I can tell when someone is suffering from a broken heart," Kagome said making Rin nod before swallow nervously.
"I cannot talk of it out loud at least not here," Rin said looking to Kagome who nodded in understanding.
"Then let us take a walk. It is cold you should bring your blanket," Kagome said already practicing her motherly instincts and duties.
"Yes Kagome," Rin said before grabbing her blanket and placing it around her shoulders like Kagome did, "Kagome is it true?"
"Is what true?" Kagome asked after ten minutes of walking away from camp. Rin thought about it a moment before deciding to just come out and ask.
"Are you really pregnant?" Rin asked making Kagome blush before nodding, "well how do you feel about carrying a demons baby inside of you?"
"Well I have never carried a humans child inside of me so I wouldn't know the difference," Kagome joked smiling her charming smile.
"I mean Inuyasha is a hanyou Kagome even they rarely want to take on a human woman to give him children and be his mate. How did you get Inuyasha to want such things?" Rin said sadly as images of Sesshomaru crossed through her mind.
"Rin it has nothing to do with the fact of getting him to do it, they have to want to. Things just… happen," Kagome said biting her lip, "it wasn't easy for him. I nearly left and went home but…"
"Tell me the story," Rin said sitting down on a log under the clear starry sky.
"Well its not simple, it really involved all of us. We all took off of each others relationships, Miroku and Sango, and Inuyasha and I. If it hadn't been for those two getting together they way they did I wouldn't have realized what I realized, and never gave him the ultimatum," Kagome said sitting down beside Rin. It took her a moment to find the place in her tale where she wanted to begin. Finally finding it she began…
--Flash Back--
"Sango are you alright?" Kagome asked a crying Sango. All she could do was look at Kagome and shake her head no, "what's wrong?"
"After… all… this," and she broke out into fresh tears, "I can't take it anymore! I can't! You must go on without me!"
"Sango please!" A frightened Kagome stated hugging Sango who pulled away, "where are you going!"
"Take Kirara and go when your journey is done send her back to me," Sango said running off still in her exterminators out fit.
"SANGO!" Kagome yelled as Kirara sat by her feet looking confused giving a soft meow, "where will she go?"
"Meow…" Kirara responded sniffling at her companion running away before transforming into her full demon self letting Kagome on.
"Take me back to the village Kirara," Kagome said as the demon took off into the air.
Once they reached the village Kirara found a safe place to land letting Kagome off. Naraku had been severely injured and went off into deep hiding, not to be seen for a year. Kagome was now nineteen and going on twenty, they had all be through a lot and found many shards. But there was still a lot remaining.
"Miroku!" Kagome yelled storming into the room making the man jump. He let out a sigh of relief realizing it wasn't Sango coming back to punish him.
"Oh, Kagome, it's just you," he said sitting back into the chair as a girl batted her eye lashes at him making him feel guilty for what he had been caught doing, well almost doing…
"Don't Oh Kagome me you jerk what did you say!" Kagome yelled pointing a finger on you.
"Keh! It's more like what he did!" Inuyasha said sitting in the corner with his arms crossed.
"More like got caught ALMOST doing," Shippo laughed jumping onto Inuyasha's shoulder before Inuyasha knocked him away.
"Wait… what?" Kagome said fearing the worst as Miroku put his head down in shame, "you didn't…"
"I didn't!" Miroku yelled angrily.
"Almost did," Inuyasha laughed, "because you got caught."
"Not funny!" Kagome yelled glaring at Miroku, "SIT."
"Wait…!" Inuyasha yelled flinging to the ground making him yell at her once he was able to get up, "What did I do!"
"It's what you better not do!" Kagome yelled getting frustrated with men. Inuyasha looked at her confused. What was she talking about? "It' doesn't matter. Miroku… tell me exactly what happened."
"WHY! Why do YOU or ANY of you need to know my business! It doesn't matter!" Miroku yelled getting frustrated with everyone in his business all the time, "I wasn't going to do it! I had second thoughts!"
"She still caught you kissing that girl in the room though," Shippo said making Miroku slump his shoulders over as he thought of that very moment. He had been kissing that beautiful, young, BEAUTIFUL girl… when he started having second thoughts. When he told her no she wouldn't except it and ripped open his shirt kissing him as Sango walked in. He tried to go after her, but by the time he pried the girl off of him he was too late she was gone.
"It doesn't matter I will talk to Sango, why does it matter we aren't even in a full relationship yet!" Miroku said more to himself then the others, "why should I care!?"
"You are so disgusting Miroku! To call yourself a monk!" Kagome yelled furiously. Miroku just looked at her.
"I love woman! I'm sorry!" he said frustrated, "she has been around me for awhile to know I have an appreciation for woman. I can't help it! It's just me! She will forgive me, if she loves me she will understand this."
"If you love someone you want to be with them and them only!" Kagome yelled furious with Miroku.
"Right," Inuyasha laughed making Kagome's eye twitch for a moment.
"INUYASHA!!" Kagome yelled making the house rumble and everyone cower down. Shippo knew what was coming next and ran as far from Inuyasha as possible before Kagome's voice rang through every house and hut around there, "SITTTTTTT!!"
"KA! GO! ME!!" he yelled as he was flung into the ground repeatedly before she slowly stormed from the door.
"Miroku," Kagome said breathing heavily as she stood at the door, "she's gone."
"What?" he asked looking to Kagome who slowly turned her head to look at him.
"She gave us Kirara and said she was leaving. She is gone she is never coming back, she said she cannot journey with us. YOU broke her heart, whether you are together or not. It's a matter of respect for ones feelings. How could you?" Kagome said starting to walk out before turning slowly once more, "how would you react or feel if you saw Sango alone with a man kissing her shirt just partially off in a room?"
'I'd kill him,' Miroku thought softly before looking to the ground as Kagome walked out, 'And I would no longer be able to stand… I am such a fool.'
Miroku walked down the grassy area of the village thinking of the moments Sango and him shared. For the first time he began to realize how much of a pathetic pervert he was. As he got older the more perverted he had become, if only he had thought that perhaps… it wasn't about catching as many beautiful woman to bare him children as it was to find him that one woman to bare him children then he would never have held off on being with Sango so long. Perhaps he had assumed she would wait for him to be ready, and in doing so he took advantage of how long.
'Idiot, fool… I knew some where deep inside she was the one I could spend my life with. But instead I wanted to chase my dreams and lust for other woman, and all I did was get no where… never ended up with any of them instead I waited so long I lost the one who has put up with me. How could she? Would I have put up with it? No… I guess not, she is too good and pure that I never thought of what it would be like to deal with that. Only of my own selfish needs and fears. She has never tried to intentionally hurt me, it is not her fault men are drawn to her beauty as well her personality. I of course was jealous… and in so took that too deeply and let it fuel my fears. I'm sorry Sango, I'm so sorry…' Miroku thought as he paced left and right. Kirara slowly walked out making Miroku look to him. For a moment they locked eyes and he had one more chance, 'Either I can live a single life and let Sango go off alone hopefully finding a place to take comfort and refugee from the damage I have done. I could go on pursuing freely woman of beauty and such… and live without her wondering day to day whether I have made a terrible mistake. OR… I could go after Sango and try to win whatever remains of her heart back. I could give up my life of woman chasing and seek solitude in love with the woman who has stood by me through these past few years. I could make a life for her and I, seek company from her the most amazing girl in the world. So strong, brave, caring, giving, devoted, faithful, loyal, loving…"
'Meow,' Kirara said before Miroku nodded and she transformed taking flight with him on her back. Together they scoured the forests until FINALLY hours later Kirara was able to sniff out Sango's scent through all of her tears. With a dive of excitement the demon dove down through the trees until she hurt the earth shaking it slightly.
"SANGO!" Miroku yelled making Sango stop and back up slowly before turning to run. He ran after her speeding up not wanting to lose her before jumping on her to stop her.
"Get off of me!" she yelled hitting him through the darkness as she tried pushing him off. Finally she stopped and just held her hands on her eyes to hide the tears as Miroku looked down at her.
"Sango stop fighting me," Miroku said trying to not squish her as much but not moving from his position.
"Get away from me! Please, please go… just let me go. I cant," Sango hid her face as Miroku felt a flood of emotions he didn't want to make her cry the only other time that he had made her cry like that was half of year earlier when he had been drinking and temporarily possessed and tried to strangle her. But quickly he was able to snap from it and apologized and pleaded with her. He told himself he didn't ever want to see her cry like that again.
"I can't, I can't let you go Sango," Miroku said touching her face making her turn, "I… love you."
"Don't say that! How dare you mock that word with you tongue! The one that was down another girls throat!" She yelled before slapping him making him sit up so she could scoot away and sit up. He sat there holding his cheek, never had he been slapped that hard or furious by her. So hard she held her wrist in pain.
"I'm so sorry," he said watching her and the pain expressed on her face, "I'm so very sorry. I wasn't…"
"Save your sorry and lies for your whore!" Sango yelled using a word she wouldn't use often if ever, "I'm done believe in you Miroku!"
"Don't say that please believe me!" Miroku yelled grabbing her hand, "I love you, I love you I really do. I'm sorry that's just the way I was made I had told you this before, but I am ready to change give me a chance to change please."
"Stop please… stop filling my head with," before she could finish he interrupted her.
"I am not lying to you Sango. I love you," he said as heartfelt as he possibly could, "and I swear I am ready to try I am your just don't go. Please don't leave me… you're my only reason any more. The only thing keeping me a float, I had always known this but took advantage of your love assuming you would wait I am sorry. No more will this happen, never again. I will never love nor touch anyone but you I promise and I swear."
"Miroku," she cried shaking her head no, "I waited so long I don't know why I did other then blinded by my love or infatuation…"
"Don't say that please don't," he said kissing her hand, "my heart has been yours for awhile now. Embrace it please, make it your own… do not let it foolishly wonder off again. For it will never desire to ever again. Just one chance one more chance! Tell me what ever you want and I will work on it please."
"Are you serious?" Sango asked wiping her teary eyes, "do you swear?"
"I am serious and I swear and I swear I am serious and I am serious about my swear," he said pulling her into his arms desperately.
"Promise and swear you will never talk to another woman about bearing your child or sleeping with you, you will never cheat on me. That you won't talk about attractive woman, that you will not make googly eyes… that you will not hesitate again?" Sango asked pulling away and looking him in the eyes, "that we can finally be together no more waiting no more due dates… just it's it. That's it it's us… holding hands getting married raising babies?"
"I promise I swear and everything in-between. I will no longer act or behave or be a pervert. I will be yours if you will be mine," Miroku said kissing her lips gently before pulling her into an embrace.
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"Kagome?" Inuyasha asked walking out side where she sat crying, "Sango will come back. Don't cry…"
"I know she will come back," Kagome said sniffling, "Kirara came back with Sango and Miroku, they made up they are finally a couple."
"Then why are you crying?" Inuyasha asked as he watched hug her knees tightly.
"I realized something," Kagome said standing up and walking to him, "I've done a lot of thinking."
"That's never good," Inuyasha joked a very inappropriate joke at that moment that her brother had taught him.
"Inuyasha," she said turning from him and crying some more making his eyes widen.
"Wait, Kagome, don't cry! It was just a joke," he said before she started to walk away towards where the bone eaters well was, "Kagome where are you going!"
"Home," Kagome said as they were finally approaching it, "Inuyasha…"
"What do you mean? You can't go now… we are so close to find the location of another shard. You can wait to go home later Kagome," Inuyasha said grabbing her arm before she turned so fast to yell at him.
"I'M GOING HOME INUYASHA!" Kagome then broke down into tears as Inuyasha sat on the ground his arms behind him holding him up. Kagome turned away from him placing both hands on her face and crying. For a moment Inuyasha was afraid to breathe let alone move. Slowly he stood up and poked her before backing up. But nothing had happened, why? Why was she still crying?
"Kagome stop crying will you? What's gotten into you?" he asked grabbing her arm more gently and spinning her around.
"I don't belong here," Kagome cried making him look at her confused, "I'm going home… here are the shikon shards."
"But, Kagome…" he said as she placed them in his hand, "if you give me these and return home…"
"I'm not coming back," Kagome said turning so he couldn't see the look of defeat on her face, "I'm too tired…"
"Then go back to Kaede's hut and rest," Inuyasha said placing a hand on her shoulder, "I'll watch over you don't worry."
"I hate moments like these," Kagome said catching him off guard once again. He just looked at her in confusion before she turned to face him again.
"Moments where I can't talk to you cause I am afraid to ruin them Inuyasha! I can't get over you as long as I am by you," Kagome said trying to be serious no more crying.
"What are you talking about Kagome?" he asked grabbing her wrist so she couldn't run off like normal.
"You will always love Kikyo! I told you I didn't care I just wanted to be with you but I lied! It's been awhile and still you have no place for me in your heart, and I have no place here in this world Inuyasha," she said looking at him sympathetically, "and I need to make no place for you in my heart. I can't do that here, and as long as I have the shard I can lose myself again and return and hurt all over again. I can't go what Miroku and Sango went through Inuyasha! I'm leaving and you can't stop me!"
"Stop fighting me Kagome!" he yelled hanging onto her wrist as she tried pulling it away, "Kagome!"
"Let me go! Please," Kagome said crying again, "I'm dying here. I can't live here Inuyasha… my heart isn't strong enough. Please let me go, and go find happiness where you most want to be. Let me go…"
"Why are you asking this of me. You know how things are how they always have been," he said softly unable to take in all she was saying.
"If I stayed Inuyasha I would wonder why what stopped me? My own selfish wants and desires? Or your momentary need for me?" Kagome said before he interrupted.
"My need for you is not momentary! Kagome I!" before Inuyasha could finish se interrupted him.
"Yes it is! Until Kikyo comes back and then I have to feel this pain in my chest and stomach. I can't take it! Have her replace my spot," Kagome said looking down hating what she was saying, "and… and, I'm sure you will be happier."
"Don't say this… besides who cares what I am happy with. What about Miroku and Sango?" Inuyasha said making her look to him and shake her head no.
"They have each other now," Kagome smiled weakly, "tell them I am happy for them."
"What about Shippo?" He said getting frustrated with this whole stupid conversation.
"Shippo has Sango and Miroku, you and Kirara," Kagome said turning so she couldn't see the look on his face.
"But he loves YOU," Inuyasha said frustrated that she wasn't listening to him, "what about me!?"
"What about you!" Kagome turned speedily making him back up before she calmed herself down, "I love you Inuyasha… but I am done thinking of only you."
"Kagome… think hard about it. And when you really do you wont go," he said crossing his arms and turning around. Kagome took a deep breath knowing he was right, which is why she wasn't going to think about it. Instead she walked up behind him moving her hand through his hair making him jump as she unfastened the bead rosary from his neck and letting it fall. Inuyasha quickly caught it before turning to see Kagome slowly walking away. Was she really going? She slowly made her way to the bone eaters well trying to push the loud sound of her beating heart from her head, "Kagome!!"
"Goodbye Inuyasha," she whispered softly placing her hands on the edge and slowly placing her knee up.
"KAGOME!!" he yelled running so fast knocking her from it that she barely saw it coming. She hit the ground roughly as he landed on top of her.
"Inuyasha let me go!" Kagome screamed as he grabbed her wrists holding her down.
"No! Your not leaving I won't let you," he growled making her tremble.
"Let go," she struggled making him growl again, "I'M GOING!"
"I'll destroy it so you can never leave again. Your not leaving me, ever," he growled before biting her in the neck marking her. She screamed out in pain as she pushed on him not really thinking of what was going. Was he really going to kill her for not wanting to help him find the shards. His eyes went red as the connection was made and she could feel a soft warm feeling flowing through her as they began to glow a golden color taking away the pain making it a more amazing feeling. What's happening, she thought to herself as he slowly began to retract his fangs. The golden aura remained and Inuyasha felt drained slightly falling on top of her. She was so confused as to what was happening. Kagome felt his tongue gently lick the inflamed bite marks as they slowly began to heal, "now your mine Kagome…"
"Why," Kagome asked as he lay on her both trembling from the experience.
"Because I love you," Inuyasha whispered tiredly, "and now I've made you mine, and so there fore… I am yours."
"What?" Kagome asked her eyes widen. Had he just made her his mate? Had she forgotten!
"Did you not want this Kagome? Do you not love me back like you said you did?" Inuyasha asked softly and drained.
"I do love you Inuyasha," she said softly as he slowly gained a little of his energy back.
"Well now we can be together, now we are together," he said feeling her tremble as he kissed her lips making her feel even more nervous. His hand slipped through her hair onto the back of her neck making his kisses more passionate…
-End of Flashback-
"I think I will end my tale there," Kagome blushed making Rin giggle happily at the happy ending, "well at least you finally ended up together. My ending will not end so happily."
"He loves you Rin I could see that. He shows it surprisingly more then Inuyasha even showed for me before that night," Kagome squeezed Rin's hand.
"Really? He's told me he's loved me, and in all honestly," Rin began to blush, "we've shared a bed. But it is I who has said that I cannot be with him. I am engaged to Halder. He is a good man and his people need me, and not a war between Sesshomaru and Halder."
"Yes but I am sure Halder would understand that you and Sesshomaru have had something before he even knew you existed," Kagome said looking at Rin seriously, "do not give up hope… the golden haired one catches your prince's eye more then any of you think."
"Really?" Rin asked happily, "… but he is a prideful honorable man. He will stick to his word, even if another catches his eye…"
"Perhaps you and your friend can work up a scheme. Perhaps you can come up with a plan," Kagome smiled happily, "I will help you…"
"Thank you Kagome," Rin smiled wider then she had in awhile, "I am so glad you have come. I would have been lost without you."
"I'm sure that is not entirely true. However we should head back to bed," Kagome said smiling as the girls got up not realizing they were being watched. Giving away some valuable information.
Authors note: Alright all I hope you enjoyed that! Thank you to the two who commented on my last comments! If I hadn't got them, I don't know if I would have erm… written this. Plus I watched some episodes that made me want throw these guys in. Thanks for reading! So what do you think? Was it long enough?