Wooo! Trying to get back in the swing of things….I would have had this written earlier but my compter had to go into the doctor…..
"What did you just say?" Sam asked in disbelief. "Marry me, Sam," Jules said softly, looking him in the eye. Sam inhaled sharply shock, happiness, and confusion flitting across his face. His eyes showed confusion as he stared at Jules. "You didn't want to get married before, why the sudden change of heart?" Sam asked suspiciously, "You made your views on marriage very clear., you want to be engaged for at least a year before getting married. You told me that was to make sure it was what you really wanted."
Shooting Sam a small smile, Jules replied, "I know that, but circumstances change, Sam. Things happen……" As Jules uttered those words, realization dawned upon Sam. "No," Sam said shaking his head vehemently, "We are not getting married because of the condition you have."
"Sam," Jules began before Sam cut her off. "NO Jules. I am not going to marry you jst because we potentially have a ticking clock running. I will not marry you right now, because you are not going to die. You and the baby will be just fine."
"I want that more than anything too, but the thing is Sam, we can't know that for sure. Neither one of us know what is going to happen in the future, Sam. I will fight to stay with you as hard as I can, but sometimes these things are just out of our control."
" I know that Jules," Sam said staring straight into her eyes," but getting married now just because there is a chance you could-that you will-"
"Die?" said Jules quietly, softly running a hand over her belly. Sam winced when he heard Jules' use that word…….the word he still couldn't bring himself to say. The thought of Jules dying terrified him, and the worst part was that they both knew it was a definite possibility.
"Sam, I know you think I just want to get married because of the placenta previa, but that's only a small part of it. The biggest factor, the most important one, is that I love you. I love you. That is the only thing I care about. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, however long that might be. I just can't believe it has taken me this long to realize, and I'm only coming to this realization because of the fact that I could die bringing this little girl into the world."
Sam struggled to control his emotions, as he pulled himself up so he was able to look Jules straight in the eyes. "So your saying you want to marry me just because of how much you love me? The fact that there is a seventy-five percent chance you could die?" Sam demanded.
Without flinching, Jules stared him down. "I admit that might have a small part of it, but its not the deciding factor, Sam. You have been so amazing these past seven months. I don't know what I would have done without you. And it has just made me realize how much I love you and how much I can't live without you. "
Jules continued on, tears falling from her eyes. "You pulled me back together when I had fallen apart. After my rape, you made me realize how much I have to life for…the biggest reason of which is you, Sam. I love you more than anything in this world Sam. I want to marry you, and I want to raise our daughter together. I have fully accepted the possible outcome of this delivery, but it does not affect my decision. I want to marry you because I love you and want to be a family with you, not because I could die. I want to spend whatever time I have left, loving you and loving our baby girl."
Silent tears streaming down his face, Sam entwined his fingers with Jules. Looking deep into her eyes, almost as if he were trying to see into her soul, Sam whispered, "Okay."
Brushing the tears from her eyes, Jules smiled softly, "Okay?" Giving her a small smile Sam replied, "Okay. But I'm not doing this because I might only have two more months with you. I am doing this because I love you more than anything in the world, and I can't wait to make you mine forever. I love you and this little girl more than I ever thought possible, and that is why we are getting married."
Jules pulled Sam closer to her, and placed his hands on her belly. Feeling their daughter moving around, Jules turned her head so that her lips met Sam's in a soft, gentle kiss.