Spencer opened the door to see Ryan. He smiled and she raised her eyebrows.

"You. Me. Talking."

"After dinner." He said, opening the door. She looked at him.

"You didn't say a word to me after my little surprised and now you're going to make me wait until after dinner."

"I made it myself." He said and she smiled a little.

"I thought you didn't know how to cook."

"Yeah, well..." He flushed. "Will you just sit down and enjoy the dinner I made."

She looked at him, amused and curious. What was he up to? Was he going to make her dinner and then tell her that he was still in love with JJ and nothing would ever change that? She sighed.

"I don't think I'm that hungry."

He frowned. "It's not bad. It's just pasta."

She shook away her thoughts to look at him. He looked a little hurt and disappointed. She shook her head. "I'll eat, Spencer. I'm sorry." She walked over to him, wrapping her arms around his neck.

"I just want to have this talk. I don't want to have a great dinner with you only to be disappointed."

He placed his hands on her hips, seemingly to mull it over. Talk first or eat first. He licked his lips.

"And there's garlic bread and if it'sa good talk, you might not want to kiss me after dinner."

She raised an eyebrow. "Does that mean it's good talk?"

"If we talk first and it goes badly, you won't stay for dinner, though."

"We'll be friends. You're still my boss." She teased.

"I can't fire you for not eating dinner with me."

"Not unless you wanna be sued." She said with a laugh and he gave a small chuckle.

"I guess we can talk first, if you'd prefer."

She grabbed his hand and pulled him to the couch. "I just want to know what you were going to ask me."

"In the supply closet?"

"No, In Alaska, smart ass."

She watched as he leaned back and sighed.

"I was going to ask if you were ready to talk about us again. I don't want either of us to lead on by the other and...Elle...said something to you?"

Ryan shrugged, leaning against him a little. "She just mentioned that I'm going to get hurt because 'Mr. Incredible' still has feelings for his ex."

"I find it very strange that the team is calling me Mr. Incredible." He muttered and she laughed, turning to look at him.

"I think it's cute."

"Any way, Elle says I'm going to hurt you, do you... think that?"

"I think that I'm old enough to know that you... are dealing with a lot and that now is not the best thing to start a relationship. That I shouldn't expect you to just get over her so quickly."

"I..." She looked at him as he paused. His cheeks were red.

"She was...The first woman to... I had never... I was only a kid when I went to college. I never fit it anywhere and girls... they were always too old or not interested so..."

"She was your first love."

"She was my first everything."

Her eyes widened. "First kiss and everything?"

He nodded, his face almost purple with embarrassment. "Well.. she wasn't my first kiss. Lila Archer was, but.. She was everything else."

"Oh."

Ryan shifted against him. He wasn't just getting over some girl. He was getting over THE girl. The first'relationship' girl (if you could count what they had as a relationship). The woman who took his virginity. The first woman who...had to know all this and used him anyways. God, She really didn't like JJ. Although, Spencer was dumb enough to let her use him. He was supposed to be a genius. Shouldn't he have realized that and saved himself? She sighed.

"So...We...You probably need more time."

Spencer's arms wrapped around her and she leaned more into his embrace.

"I'm just.. I just thought you should know that. Isn't the saying that one never gets over their first?"

"I don't know. I think Oscar Wilde said something about how Women are more concerned on a man's last romance."

Spencer seemed to think about it before kissing her shoulder.

"That does seem more important, if you think about it."

Ryan chuckled. "You think?"

He sighed, resting his head on her shoulder. "I like you. I like the time we spend together and logically, in my head, being in a relationship with you seems very simple. We just continue to do what we're doing...and yet, seems very incorrect, because... well, one. You're my subordinate. and two, I have a son with a woman I'm still not completely sure how I feel about."

Ryan turned in his arms, looking up at him. He gave her a slight sad smile.

"Spencer, you can't really think about these things logically. Relationships are... they're messy and they don't make sense all the time. You...just got to go with what you feel."

"What if I don't know how I feel?"

Ryan ran her hands over his chest. "You got to know how you feel. Stop over thinking and just..." She sighed. "Just listen to your heart."

"But the heart doesn't -"

She groaned and he shut up, luckily. She might have had to smack him again if he continued.

She leaned up and kissed him, his hands moving to her back. Her tongue ran against his bottom lip, before pulling back. "Did you think about JJ?"

"Wh...Huh?"

Ryan smiled a little, her fingers running down his cheek, against his lips.

"Do you think about her when you're with me?" She asked, softly.

He gave her a look. "Sometimes." He said, honestly.

She licked her lips, a twinge of pain running through her. "What do you think about?"

"You two are so different...and yet somewhat a like. Both strong, confident, beautiful women. How either of you ever-"

She kissed him. "Not about you, right now, Mister. How are we different?"

He smiled a little. "You're more...bold. Seemingly more passionate, although, JJ can be very passionate too. I think she's a little more guarded."

"Is bold a good thing?" She asked, her hands running down his chest.

"I think it's a good thing." He said with a shrug.

"What else?"

"Uhm...You ... are distracting me."

Ryan smiled. "I'm not doing anything."

"Your hands are on my stomach."

They were, running against his skin, under his shirt. He was warm against the touch and she knew she shouldn't be touching while they were in a serious conversation but...she couldn't help it. She moved her hands and rested them against his shoulders. "Better?"

"Yes'm."

"Continue."

He licked his lips. "I think you...see me differently than she does."

She raised an eyebrow at that. "Oh?"

"JJ and I have known each other for about 6 years now. I think she still sees me as the young kid I was when she started the BAU. I think they all do. They need to protect me. I don't think you have that same need. I mean, sure, we all have a need to protect each others from the dangers of work, the Unsubs... but I think your advice comes more from an equal than a mentor or parental figure."

Ryan gave him a look. "She thinks of you as a son?"

Spencer gave her a disgusted look. "What? No! That'd... That'd be..creepy. We had sex. We have a child together! I meant that she feels like she's got to look out for me. That's why we never had a chance. She didn't trust me to make my own choices about us because I could get hurt."

"Didn't you end up getting hurt anyways?"

"Exactly!" He basically squeaked.

Ryan gave him an amused look. "So how does this relate back to us?"

"I understand that if we get together, I could end up getting hurt."

"Well, so do I. That's a part of being in a relationship."

He nodded. "And are you willing to risk that?"

"I wouldn't be here if I wasn't."

"Well, so am I."

"What about JJ?"

"I...I can't say that I don't still care for her. I don't know if I ever will stop. She's... I mean, We have a son, but...She's trying to repair her relationship and we... we're friends. I think I'm going to be okay with just that. I mean, I have to."

"So there's no chance that you're going to do anything with her again?"

"I honestly think Will would kill me if I tried."

"And so will I if we're together."

He smiled. "...It can't affect work. On cases.. We can't bring our stuff to the cases."

"Someone could get hurt."

He nodded. "And I will have to reprimand you if you risk a case because of us."

Ryan grinned. "You'll reprimand me, huh?" She said, her hands moving up under his shirt again.

"I'm serious. We can't." He paused a little as her mouth moved to his neck, sucking near the pulse point. He swallowed with some difficulty.

"That's not fair." He muttered and she giggled.

"You still haven't asked me."

"Asked.. I thought we...have both agreed."

"We have, so you'll get a yes."

"Isn't that a little -"

"Yes." She muttered, looking up at him with a pout. "Just ask me."

He kissed her lips. "Will you be my -"

"Yes, I will."

He laughed. "You didn't even give me a chance."

"You took too long." She muttered, "Now get up and feed your hungry girlfriend."

He looked up at her, her hands on her hips. "No celebrating a new relationship?"

She smirked. "Oh we'll celebrate. After." She teased.