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Koshka sobbed

"Every time I appear…no matter what…I have to erase it…just me…it…it will be like he never met me" The Chairman hugged her

"It's okay…you don't have to go through with this" Koshka snarled

"What are you talking about?! Of course I have to! I can't let him die! I've seen it before…its slow…and painful, they slowly die from the inside…they become a shell…and then…and then their bodies fall" she took a deep breath

"I can't be selfish anymore…you have to make something up, something likely, otherwise he'll be suspicious…it's okay to talk about me though…he won't remember…" she took a tear from her cheek, and let it drop from her finger onto Zero's lips, and put her hands on the sides of his head, she knelt over him and pressed her forehead onto his

"Yesli vy budete pomnit' nichego…pozhaluysta, pomnite eto posledniy potseluy" she gently kissed him, while either modifying or erasing his memories, when she finished she carefully wiped the blood off his face, and dematerialized the blood on the floor, she turned to Yuki and the Chairman, her voice strangely calm and smooth from somebody who had tears running her cheek, coming down from a single bloodshot eye

"I will only stay as long as it takes for him to wake up, no longer" Yuki held her hands

"Where will you go?" Koshka shrugged

"I don't know…mozhet byt'…maybe I should go home…to Mother Russia" Yuki hugged her

"Don't! I don't want you to leave! Russia is so far!" Koshka chuckled sadly

"Yuki, it isn't far at all…besides…I'll write" The Chairman hugged her

"You have to promise you'll visit us" Koshka nodded and Zero stirred, opening his eyes

"Huh? What's going on?" Koshka quickly hid her cat features before he saw them and Yuki trotted over

"You're okay!" The Chairman helped him up

"You had collapsed from high fever…we're so glad you're okay" Koshka closed her eye

"Zabotit'sya o svoyem serdtse, poka my ne vstretimsya snova" she whispered, sneaking out without anybody seeing, she ran to the moon dorms, shaking her head to clear her eye of the tears, she gathered her few possessions and moved to leave, she found Kaname standing in the doorway

"Koshka? What's wrong? Why are you crying?" Koshka smiled sadly

"Because I'm leaving…goodbye Kaname" she kissed him briefly on the lips and swept past him, out of the moon dorms, and back into the snow, it seems nobody noticed, or those who did didn't care, when they saw a white tiger running north-east to Russia.

A few months later

Koshka sat at a desk in her home, she would never brag the fact that she lived in a mansion, but a cat like her liked the wide open spaces, she sat by an open window, writing a letter, her eye darted to the black eagle perched on the windowsill, she gently stroked its feathers and it closed its eyes, she finished her letter and slipped it into a tube to protect it from the elements, she spent a moment admiring the tube, it was made from diamond, cut thinly to avoid being very heavy, and it had silver on it, creating the lines of a picture, a tiger, looking as if it were protecting the letter inside the tube with its very body, she corked the tube and handed it to the eagle, which looked at her, awaiting instruction, Koshka returned its gaze seriously

"Svoboda, Ya khochu, chtoby vy eto v Yaponii, Krest akademii, mesto zhitel'stva predsedatelya, pereydite"
Svoboda, I want you to take this to Japan, Cross academy, to the Chairman's residence, go

the majestic creature flew off into the night and disappeared.

The Chairman of Cross academy stood by a stove cooking ginger stir fry, Yuki loved it and he wanted to treat her, something flew in through the window, The Chairman cried out in fear and Zero and Yuki ran in

"What is it?!" Yuki cried, Zero growled in annoyance

"It's just a bird" The Chairman pouted

"Well…it is an eagle…and it surprised me" the eagle settled on a bench, Zero watched it

"We never get black eagles here" he commented "and what's it holding?" The Chairman approached the bird timidly, it stayed still, when he was close, it slowly opened its wings and stuck its leg out to present a diamond tube, The Chairman took it carefully, his eyes lit up

"Yuki! Look at the design on the tube!" Yuki studied it

"Whoa, is Koshka rich or something?" Zero left the room boredly and The Chairman shrugged

"It wouldn't surprise me, she has had billions of years to work up some money, I must get her to donate some to the school" he opened the lid of the tube and slid out a letter, he smiled

"Koshka's doing it the old fashioned way, with a quill and a bird" he unrolled the letter and they read it silently

Dear Yuki and Kaien,

It's been a few months now, how has Zero been? Remember, if he starts to act strange notify me immediately, also, the eagle's name is Svoboda, and I would appreciate it if you could give him some meat and water, he never stops when delivering a letter, and one day I swear it will kill him. On the matter of my visit, I will be coming in a few days, but I won't stay for long, maybe a week or two, please, if it isn't trouble, keep Svoboda until I come. You must come and stay up here with me for the holidays coming up, I think you would like it up here, it isn't anywhere near as hot as where we holidayed last time, so don't forget snow jackets! Please make sure everyone's okay.

Lots of love

Koshka

The Chairman put the letter down and fished a bit of meat from the fridge, placing it in front of Svoboda with a saucer of water, he ate and drank with relish, until there was nothing left, he then found a perch on the back of the couch and sat there reading over Zero's shoulder.

Koshka walked through the gate of Cross academy, the sun had set and the night was young, she was suddenly hit by a flying Yuki, she hugged her back and kissed her on the cheek, doing the same with the headmaster, Zero watched from a distance
Why do I feel like I know her?
he wondered, he cast the thought away as he was called over, The Chairman made a few gestures

"Zero, this is Koshka, an old friend, she's staying with us for a while, Koshka, this is Zero" Koshka bowed

"Nice to meet you Zero" he nodded in greeting, it was so strange, he knew this person, but distantly, like from a dream, he took mental notes
Strong Russian accent, looks about 18, scars, lots of them too, black hair, gold eyes
He corrected himself when her hair moved from one side of her face
eye…one eye…damn! I know you from somewhere!
They all left for the residence, once Koshka stepped in a very happy eagle flew into her arms, Yuki grinned

"Koshka, are you rich or something? Your mail tube is made of diamond, what did you do?" she shrugged

"Diamond is the strongest natural element in the world, it protects my letters from almost anything, I also worked for the army for several years" Zero the room and Yuki smiled

"Which army did you work for?" Koshka laughed, it was sort of sad, a laugh with only half her heart in favour

"Which army didn't I work for? The Russians knew me as pistolet pal'tsev, which is Russian for gunfingers, the Australians call me Kitty bang bang, which is English for Kitty bang bang (remember they're supposed to be speaking Japanese), the Japanese like to call me Lionheart and every army in the world has a different name for me" Yuki tilted her head

"Wait, what does our army call you?"

"Lionheart" she pouted in thought, then ran to Zero's bedroom, dragging a very irritated boy out, he shook her grip off

"What do you want Yuki?" she put her hands on her hips and mimicked him mockingly

"What do you want Yuki? I want to know about Lionheart!" he stiffened, silent, Koshka smiled that sad smile

"What do you know about Lionheart?" he looked away

"Nothing much" he mumbled "she did a presentation at grade school" Koshka chuckled a little, sending a strange chill up his spine

"Did she, sluchayno, look like this?" she pulled her long hair back into a ponytail, he blinked and she chuckled again

"Just pretend I have two eyes" he swallowed

"Yes, you look identical" she smiled sadly

"We should, we're one and the same" his mouth fell open in astonishment, he closed it quickly, turned on his heel, and walked away, Yuki followed him and Koshka's face dropped as she watched them go, The Chairman put a hand on her shoulder

"Koshka…I know it's hard…" she sighed and lifted his hand off

"You don't know how hard it is"

"But I do…I had to watch her child grow up, a child who remembered nothing about who she used to be, a child who knows nothing about her mother, nothing about how alike they are" Koshka looked at him with a sad eye

"Would you rather her be alive and ignore you? Pretend she never met you? I know how close you were to Juuri and Haruka…but you don't know what it's like to have a loved one completely forget you…and at your own hands no less" she left to walk in the forest, Svoboda with her, she smiled sadly at the bird and sliced a bit of meat off her arm, quickly disguising the smell, she gave it to the eagle, who took it in his talons, on the foot opposite the one carrying the diamond tube

"Idti domoy, i ubeditesʹ, chto vy yedite, chto"
Go home, and make sure you eat that
the bird gave a jerky nod and followed her instructions, flying away; Koshka began to walk through the heavy trees, her arm itched as new meat and skin replaced her injury, after a while she turned around and returned to The Chairman.

A/N: Koshka seems to talk Russian less often...hmmm...Aquila Holmes is on the case!

Koshka: I only really mix Russian with Japanese to piss a certain vampire off...I guess not anymore

Me: *tears* *mood swing*I hint in this chapter that Kaien had the hots for Juuri, Yuki's mama, this is also hinted in the anime and manga, just less heavily, and since I love this phrase, Koshka's parting words to Zero are Заботиться о своем сердце, пока мы не встретимся, or the English translation: Take care of my heart until we meet again :') I just love that phrase!

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Sneak peek for the next chapter: Problems buried, not dead

"I see you over there" the figure turned its head and he walked over "Oh…it's you" he felt so very naked, without a shirt on in front of Koshka

"What are you doing out here?" she shrugged

"Reflecting, what about you?" he growled

"My job"

"Is it a habit of yours to work half naked?" she asked smoothly, Zero blanched and growled again, Koshka arched an eyebrow

"You really don't seem to like me anymore" he scoffed

"Let me believe I am still even a tiny bit human, let me believe I can change my mind"