Not very happy with this chapter but needed it for a lead into the next ones.

A little over three weeks passed since Lilly and Miley…well more Lilly…decided to remain friends and things were going very well for the two of them on the friendship level. The hung out with one another, with Mikayla and Ashley, and it was almost like old times. Almost…they still had issues they needed working out and still got into small arguments that never really lasted long before one of them would apologize but the closeness they once shared was just not there. Not that they did not feel close and best friends again but they would notice the little things that used to make their friendship special were missing. They small hugs, the hand holding, the small touches they used to share were no longer present. The few times the girls did hug or hold hands they would pull back immediately like they had been burned. They also discovered talks they used to have about who they found attractive and hot were no longer there either. Both girls stayed away from talks of dating or who they would like to date with one another and at times felt like they were walking on eggshells in each others presence but even with the small things like that Lilly and Miley connected once again as friends and it made them both while not fulfilled or satisfied it made them happy to have one another again.

Lilly was improving everyday and she was almost her old self again. She was strong, confident, self assured, and the thoughts of killing herself no longer haunted her. She had help from a therapist she saw once a week and also help from her three best friends. Things at school were actually settling down for her as the rumors stopped since kids get bored and moved on to other people to talk about. Lilly was even approached by some of her old skater or surfing buddies at attempts to be her friend again. Attempts Lilly declined and not very politely. She remembered where they stood when she was going through a terrible time in her life. Lilly knew who her true friends were…Miley, Mikayla, and Ashley…they stuck at her side at her worst moment and she would be by their sides at theirs.

Lilly started surfing a lot after school and of course on weekends. She found it peaceful. At times Miley would be with her or Ashley or Mikayla or all three together but she enjoyed it when she was alone the most. She would go right after school on some days she did not have other plans because the time was changing soon and after a few more weeks she would not be able to go after school. It was one of these days when she was alone surfing on a Tuesday she met Steven.

Lilly was walking out of the ocean with her board in her hand and shaking water from her ear when she heard someone talking to her.

"Hey…I don't know if you heard me…but you are very good." A male voice said behind her.

"Yeah I heard ya…and thanks." Lilly said over her shoulder not turning around. She got to her towel and stuck her board in the sand and was about to pull off her wet suite, she much preferred just board shorts and her bikini top but the water has started to get colder, and she saw the boy standing in front of her. Lilly did not give him much of a glance as she reached in her color to get a drink and saw she was out.

"Shit!" She said in frustration

"What?" The boy asked.

"Nothing…so umm…why are you following me?" Lilly asked as she looked at the boy and thought cute…very cute…great green eyes.

"Well Like I said my name is Steven and I have seen you surfing sometimes and thought you were good."

"Do you surf?" Lilly said and did not know why but she could not look away from the boys green eyes.

"Yeah…I do and I am pretty good myself. Maybe we can surf sometime."

"Yeah…maybe. My name is Lilly by the way." She said and offered her hand. He took it and she liked his grip. There were no sparks or fireworks in her head or no butterflies in her stomach…she just liked it and thought it felt nice.

"Yeah I know who you are." The boy said with a smile and Lilly jerked back her hand hard and gave the boy a hard look.

"You do huh? And just what have you heard about me?" Lilly snapped and the boy blinked. She did not recognize him from school but it was a large school and he may be new. So the new boy thought he could hook up with the girl all the other kids called the school whore huh? Well he is going to get a foot to his balls if he even tries. Lilly thought as she waited for the boy's pathetic pick up line.

"I…wow…sorry I only meant I knew your name. I told you I have seen you before surfing and I asked one of your friends…the pretty girl… who you were this past weekend. That all."

Lilly relaxed and started pulling off her wet suit and suddenly wished she had worn her one piece. She suddenly became very aware of her surgery scar on her stomach that was still new enough to be very evident. She did not know why but she did not want this boy to see her look so…ugly. She looked at him and waited for him to stare at her scar and then her chest. He did neither but kept his eyes focused on hers. Lilly gave him huge brownie points for that.

"Which one?" Lilly said and the boy looked confused and Lilly chuckled. "Which one of my friends? You said the pretty one and well…I have three friends and all three are just gorgeous."

The boy laughed and Lilly thought it was a nice laugh…a kind laugh. "Well she was Asian if that helps. I didn't get her name."

Lilly smiled at him, "That would be Ashley…I kind of thought it would be her."

"Why?"

Lilly giggled this time, "Because if it was one of the other two one would have told you to go drown in the ocean and the other would have recited some poem about a flower and made you guess she was referring to the lily."

Steven chuckled, "You have some strange friends, Lilly."

Lilly's giggle turned into a laugh, "You have no idea…but I would not trade even one of them for anything in the world."

"So I was going to Ricco's to get a soda or something. Would you like to join me?"

Lilly shook her head, "No…I really have to get home but thanks…but the next time you come to the beach bring your board so I can see how good you really are."

Steven grinned, "I will do that, Lilly." He turned and walked away and Lilly's eyes followed him. She did not know why but she could not keep her eyes off him and then blushed when she thought he had a cute butt…a very cute butt. Lilly looked at her empty cooler and decided she was thirsty.

"Hey! Steven!" Lilly called after the boy and he turned. "Give me a hand carrying my stuff to the car and well…ummm…I could use something to drink."

Steven grinned and walked quickly back to Lilly. Over the next week Steven and Lilly hung out a lot surfing and on Saturday Miley wanted to come with her to the beach but Lilly made an excuse that she was not feeling well and her and Steven drove to another beach to surf. She felt guilty about not telling Miley but they were just getting things right between them and she knew there would be jealousy from Miley because she would have felt the same way if Miley started seeing someone. That was just one of the things they did not talk about. True her and Steven were just hanging out but Lilly knew if the boy asked her out on a date she would accept. That Saturday he did and she accepted and called Miley to let her know. She felt she owed her friend that much. Lilly was surprised Miley seemed ok with it as far as she did not yell or scream or tell Lilly they could never be friends again. She just said ok…have fun…see you in school Monday. Even through Lilly was glad Miley and her did not argue over it…it did hurt her that Miley was so cavalier about it.

The following Thursday evening Miley and Ashley were at Mikayla's helping their friend cook dinner. It had recently became a Thursday night thing with the four friends. Mikayla was going to grill some steaks for them and as she was seasoning them she turned to Miley.

"And you are sure Lilly is not coming?" Mikayla asked.

"No she has a date to…sorry." Ashley said as she was making the salad. Something the other three friends only allowed Ashley to do since they discovered she had no skill at cooking anything.

Miley smiled at Ashley, "It's ok, Ash, I know she told me…it's fine."

Ashley nodded but the conversation was moved to other things until they were eating. Mikayla took a sip of her drink and looked at Ashley.

"So…tell me about this boy our precious flower is seeing now?" She asked.

Ashley glanced at Miley who appeared to be focusing on cutting her steak with a lot of concentration. "Well…he is a real nice guy. I met him only twice. He goes to that private school…St. Andrews Academy…and well he is cute as can be…hell he is hot."

Miley started cutting her steak hard and was ripping it apart more than cutting, "Ok big deal! She has a date…hurray…God it is not like she is the only one dating you know." Miley said louder than she wanted and her face turned red.

Ashley smiled, "Well out of us four she is the only one dating."

"Can we just change the subject…I don't know why Lilly's romantic life is such a big deal anyway!" Miley yelled as her steak fell off her plate she was trying to cut it so hard.

Ashley and Mikayla looked at one another and just rolled their eyes and shrugged. "Ok, Miley, we will change the subject, dear. What would you like to talk about?" Mikayla asked softly.

Miley put her steak back on her plate and took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "Well…how come you missed school this morning? You were all secretive at lunch and all."

"I had errands to do…I told you."

"Well if you keep skipping classes you are going to end up in summer school. You missed two whole days last week and one the week before. And you still won't tell us why?" Miley said and took a bite of her steak and started chewing hard.

Mikayla smiled, "Well it is nice to know you are looking at for my education, Miley Stewart, and I will start clearing all of my future social events with you."

Miley just rolled her eyes and started focusing on her food when her head snapped up as she heard Mikayla's fork and knife make a loud clanging on her plate.

"Shit!" Mikayla said as she rubbed her hands.

"You ok?" Miley and Ashley asked at the same time.

Mikayla nodded and stood up, "I'll be right back." She said as she started walking out of the room.

"Mikayla…you sure you are ok? You have been acting strange all day." Miley asked.

Mikayla turned around, "Yes I am fucking ok…God…can't a girl have a little PMS in peace!" She yelled at Miley and walked up to her room. Once in her room she looked at herself in the mirror and took deep breath and let it out slowly. She opened up her medicine cabinet and took out a prescription bottle and took two white pills from the bottle and swallowed them with water.

After Mikayla left Ashley looked at Miley, "Wow…some fun we are having tonight huh?"

Miley nodded, "Yeah not one of our happiest dinners is it?"

Mikayla soon came back downstairs her usual self but did not finish eating. After dinner the three girls watched a movie but mostly talked, with the subject of Lilly being highly avoided, and around eleven Miley left while Ashley asked Mikayla if she could sleep over and of course she agreed. Miley drove home and as soon as she got into her room she threw her purse against the wall at the thought of Lilly having a date and the contents of her purse soiled onto the floor. She cursed several times and as she was putting her things back in her purse she picked up a black business card with only a phone number in white on it. She put the card on her night stand and changed for bed. As she was about to turn out her light she saw the card again and picked it up and tapped it on her mouth for several moments.

"Fuck it…if she can date then so can I!" Miley said aloud and picked up her cell phone and dialed the number on the card. It was answered after several rings.

"Hello." A voice sounded on the other end and Miley was glad it was not sleepy sounding.

"May I speak to Cassandra please?"

"Speaking…who is this?" Cassandra said annoyed.

"Sorry, m'am, this is Miley and I am sorry to be calling so late, m'am…but I…I was thinking about what the Mistress said…about if I felt maybe I was worthy to serve you to give the Mistress a call."

"And do you feel worthy to serve me?"

"No, m'am, but I will serve you the best of my ability and would look forward to pleasing you and learning from you to be more worthy, Mistress."

"Ok…take this address down." Miley wrote the address on a piece of paper. "That is my home address. I get off at work tomorrow at five and get home around five thirty. I expect you at my house at five forty five and no later. Understood."

"Yes, Mistress, I understand."

"And, Miley, wear something cute…not whorish but cute…I like skirts."

The other line went dead. Miley put her phone on her charger and smiled as she went to sleep. She had wonderful thoughts of pleasing again and even the pain again. As she slept she dreamed of being punished and how good it felt and how she looked up into the eyes of the Mistress who was giving her such wonderful pain and saw the beautiful face of her mistress…Lilly.

The next day at school Lilly was eating lunch with Mikayla and Ashley. "So how was your date last night, Lilly?" Mikayla asked.

"Ummm…fine. We just went to eat and the movies. It was nice." Lilly stammered and looked at Mikayla, "Where's Miley? I did not see her in second period but I saw her in school this morning."

Mikayla shrugged, "I have no idea where she is. She did not say much to me this morning before class. I do believe our precious pet is upset about something. Now did the boy treat you with respect and was kind to you?"

Lilly rolled her eyes, "Yes, mother, he was a perfect gentleman. Now why is Miley upset?"

"I have no idea why…like I said she would not talk to me. So when are you and this boy going out again?" Mikayla pressed the issue about Lilly's date.

Lilly glanced at Ashley and saw she was playing with her food and not saying much and then she looked back up at Mikayla, "Yes this Saturday night we are going out. Maybe I should send Miley a text or call her to make sure she is ok."

"No, I am sure she will be fine. Now, Lilly, tell me did the boy kiss you goodnight?"

Lilly blushed, "Yes he did…happy. Are you sure she did not say anything. I mean I kind of knew she would be a little upset about me going out with Steven but to ignore you and Ashley is kind of strange."

Mikayla sighed, "Yes it is not like her. So when do we get to meet this mortal who is trying to tame a goddess?" Mikayla pulled her calendar out of her purse. "Let me see…this Saturday I have plans and you have you date I could not ask you to change plans this quickly…ummm…"

"What are you doing this weekend, Mikayla?" Ashley suddenly looked up from her plate.

"Oh just have to attend a social function over night."

"Well I guess I am all alone Saturday night since Miley mentioned this morning she was going out…ummm…since you won't be there can I stay out your house anyway?" Ashley asked as she looked at Mikayla.

Mikayla nodded, "Of course you can. You know the alarm coded and I will give you my key after school."

Lilly looked at Ashley, "Well…what's the point…you are going to be alone anyway so why her house? And when did Miley talk to you about her plans? Where is she going?"

Ashley went back to playing with her food, "Well she does have that huge entertainment system so if I am going to be alone why not be alone in style." She gave a small smile. "And I briefly talked to her this morning when we walked into school and I asked her if she wanted to catch a movie or something and she said she had plans for tonight and most likely Saturday."

"So…next Saturday night would be good for us all. Ashley is that good for you to come and have dinner and meet Lilly's new male friend?" Ashley nodded without looking up, "Good…next Saturday night then. Is that good for you, Lilly?"

"Yeah…I mean…if I don't have a choice then it is…I know you are going to make me do this one day so why not get it out of the way." Lilly shrugged, "Umm…I really think we should call or find Miley. I kind of worried about her if she is in a bad mood and all. Maybe something is wrong."

"Oh for God's sake, Lilly! Are you that fucking stupid and blind! She is not here because she is avoiding you! All you have done is ask about her since you sat down and…and…God both of you are so fucking….just….Arghhh! Both of you make me so fucking sick sometimes with how bull headed you both are! When are you and her going to start to act like you both have some fucking sense and just…just…ARGHHHH!" Ashley stood and screamed at Lilly not caring the other students in the cafeteria were now watching. When she was done…or got to frustrated to continue she grabbed her tray and walked quickly out of the cafeteria.

Mikayla was chuckling, "Well our dear eastern beauty is a little upset it seems."

Lilly, who was staring open mouthed, watched Ashley walk away, "Ya think? What got into her?"

"She is afraid, Lilly; she is scared that is why she is upset."

"Afraid? Afraid of what?" Lilly asked confused.

Mikayla smiled a pleasant smile Lilly had some to think it was one of the most beautiful smiles she had ever seen. The only one she thought was lovelier was Miley's. "She is afraid she is going to lose one of you and that scares her. She is afraid she is going to have to choose between you and Miley. Oh she would choose you I do not doubt but losing Miley would hurt her."

"What the hell does that mean? Choose one of us. She knows better than that. We would never dessert her."

"No…but the crash you and Miley are headed for is going to affect us all and not just you and Miley. Ashley is going to be hurt the worse by it…besides you and Miley. Me…well I love you, Lilly, I truly do and I would be greatly saddened by losing you and would even shed some tears, but I would have to choose my precious pet."

Lilly glared at Mikayla hurt by the other girl's words, "What crash? Miley and I are fine…we are friends."

Mikayla looked at Lilly, "Lilly, don't play dumb. Ashley sees it…hell we all do even if I did not know I would see it. You are both in love with one another and one day that love and jealousy is going to explode."

Lilly put her head down, "No…no it won't. I…we won't let it. Her and I are doing fine."

"If you say so, my precious flower." Mikayla gave Lilly a sad smile.

Lilly gave Mikayla a sad look of her own, "Mikayla…please…you know…"

Mikayla raised her hand to stop Lilly from talking, "No I am not giving any lectures or advice on this subject anymore, Lilly; I'm done with that. If you and her ever figure this mess out then you can come to me." Mikayla pulled a pen from her purse and wrote in the calendar and then looked up at Lilly, "So is there anything you knew male friend would particularly like for dinner."

Miley had avoided Lilly and the rest of her friends all day. Mikayla tried talking to her throughout the day but Miley just kept making excuses to leave her presence and the only conversation she had with Ashley was when the girl asked her if she wanted to go to the movies this weekend. Lilly she had not talked to at all and did note answer the blonde girl's eight text messages. After their fifth period Chemistry class together and one more attempt to talk with her, Mikayla finally gave up and told Miley she was being a pain and did not talk to her the rest of the day. Miley was knew why she was avoiding her friends…she was feeling hurt and guilty. She was hurt Lilly was dating someone else and that drove her crazy. Yes she knew the day would come and had prepared herself for it but it still hurt her and she did not want to be with her friends when all they were going to do is Ask Lilly how her date went. Miley thought about a lot of things over the weeks Lilly and her decided just to be friends and why they could not be with one another and it came back to that one thing. Miley's lifestyle and who she was.

Miley would lay in bed gripping her Lilly Bear and thinking if she could change for Lilly…to be the girl Lilly wanted her to be. She knew she could try to change but it would never work. She knew she could give it a shot and it may work for a month maybe even two but Miley was her she was and eventually she would have to have her needs fulfilled and Lilly could not do that because to Lilly she was a freak. Miley knew Lilly thought of her like that even if her friend denied it or acted differently…she just knew it and that was why over the past weeks she put her own "dating" life on hold. She was trying to prove to Lilly she could change and be the girl Lilly wanted her to be but it did not work as Miley knew it wouldn't because her heart still yearned to serve Lilly…to drop to her knees and ask Lilly how she could serve her, to do whatever Lilly told her, to be a good slave to Lilly, and her body craved the release of an orgasm brought on by the pain...no not the pain she corrected herself. It was more than that; yes she enjoyed the pain and the pleasure it gave her but it was the whole package she missed. The domination, the pleasing of a mistress, the need to satisfy her mistress and hope she would also receive sexual pleasure. She tried to satisfy herself sexually at times and ever time she did she would think of Lilly being her mistress, the blonde dominating her, punishing her, serving her and she would have her orgasm and then cry afterwards because she could not have Lilly that way. Every time she started her fantasies and thoughts started with other faceless Mistresses dominating her and then sometimes they would flash to her times with Mikayla but they always ended with Lilly as she brought herself to orgasm... Miley knew she was so undeserving of Lilly's love because who she was but she also knew she could never change who she was. Miley did not need to go to the club or have sex with other people…she could live with out that…but she did need to have a mistress to please in a relationship.

When Lilly told her she had accepted a date from the boy Steven Miley was jealous and angry even thought she had no right to be and knew the day would come, but she wanted Lilly to be happy and if he made her happy then she would accept it regardless of how much it hurt her, but that did not mean she had to listen to it and have to join in conversations about Lilly's dating life. That she could avoid so she avoided her friends that day and focused her thoughts of serving Cassandra. She did find herself getting aroused and excited about this evening with the thoughts of serving Cassandra and what her potential new Mistress was going to do to her. She decided to keep it to herself as long as possible from Lilly and Mikayla. She knew Lilly would accept it but not approve and she could not bear to look into the blonde's eyes giving her that look of disgust. With Mikayla it would be harder because they partied in the same crowd but Mikayla had not been to the club in over a month for some reason and Miley knew better than to ask. Mikayla was an expert at keeping her secrets and the secrets of others. She still had Brittany Miley and Lilly knew but what ever her reason she stopped going to the club.