The last few chapters were done from my tablet laptop thing so I apologize for screwed up sentences, words, and grammar in those chapters. I went back and ran a check over the documents though not thorough I did check them out.

Also, I snagged a line from Breaking Dawn then slightly modified it so that it would make sense for Bella since she's been sheltered from the world for eight years.

I won't forgive you for making me live through that again. So you're back? Don't you guilt me, Dol. They needed to know what lead to Kachiri's demise. You could've spared the details. See you guys at the end!

I didn't know how long I burned for, all I could think was how much it burned, pure, raw, agony. It didn't matter how much screaming I did because the pain just wouldn't leave. It was like I was being sawed in half, hit by a car, trampled by bulls, and submerged in acid. All I could do was thrash and scream as the agony tore through me, I was dead. I had died and gone to Hell. There was no way this was real life, I was being punished for whatever I had done wrong. If the agony hadn't torn me out of the thoughts I might've asked myself what the Hell I had done to deserve this but as it were I couldn't do anything but scream and thrash.

Then the burning began to dull, slowly, ever so slowly, I finally hit a point where I could focus, slightly, enough to try and remember…Kachiri…she had poisoned me, that had to be what had happened. This was just part of her torture. The pain was still flaring through me but it was almost as if my mind had expanded. It was as if I was trapped in my body but I didn't need to be aware of it. I could shut that part of my mind away.

Count to three. The thought was my own; it was strange because I was so used to struggling to figure out how to compose myself. Okay. One. Two. Three. My head was clearing now, the pain was terrible but again I blocked myself away from the pain, didn't allow myself to feel the agonizing pain that my body was still enduring.

Dol. I tore at my mind, looking for the memories but it was so difficult. The memories were there but they were so foggy…Blue haired hallucination, there she was. My soul sister. My mind mumbled silently. Absently. Whatever was happening to me I better not start hearing voices again because I don't think I'd be lucky enough to get another Dol.

Listen. Again the thought was my own, my subconscious focusing me because I had so much room to think. I could focus on the memory of Dol while also doing as I told myself. Even though my body was still screaming and thrashing I listened. I focused on the sounds around me.

I could hear quiet snoring somewhere to my right…my own heartbeat…I could hear my own heartbeat…that had to be what that unnatural drumming was. It was beating so fast.

Quiet whispering came from somewhere behind me, I managed to make it out past the sound of my own screaming though.

"She's waking up." That voice had to be Alice's. The relief I felt at that was amazing, Alice was okay.

"Go get Dol." Emmett spoke louder than Alice had.

"I don't want to leave her." Rosalie's voice was a growl. "Make Mike do it."

"Where is she at?" Emmett's voice was full of annoyance.

"The dungeon." Alice said after a second.

"If she doesn't stop going down there it's going to raise suspicion." Emmett mumbled before I heard the sound of a door creaking open then slamming.

To my right I heard a startled gasp and a groan of complaint as someone woke up. If I listened closely…I snapped back into my brain, realization hitting me like a ton of bricks.

No no no no no no. The burning…oh God…they… I sound mixed between anger, shock, and fear escaped my body between the screaming, it was an obvious sound and vaguely in another pocket of my brain I heard the sound of feet approaching.

Then the pain started to subside, the burning lessening in most of my body until, finally, after what seemed like an eternity, my heart beat its last beat.

I strangled cry of distress escaped my mouth, I didn't want to open my eyes though, I didn't want to face the reality of what happened. I wanted to hide forever in this pocket of my brain, pretending that this horrible thing hadn't happened.

Then I felt Dol join me, my new mind allowed me to visualize her standing there with me as if we were in the same room together. I could feel her searching my mind and imaginary Dol searched my face.

Oh, God. Bella. Her mental voice was in shock.

Dol. My mind whispered the words.

Please for the love of God tell me you ignored me to save your own ass.

I hadn't expected her to say that. That was the last thing on my mind.

Please tell me you told me no because you would rather suffer and live than die.

I won't answer that question, Dol.

I could feel her internally wince when I said that, it didn't matter, she knew the answer. She didn't need to ask, she just wanted to hear me say it and I wasn't going to give her the satisfaction. Instead I opened my eyes, pushing her to the back of my mind.

I wanted to observe the new world around me but there was something else that drew my focus. There were two people to my left; I barely noticed that though because my nose had me drawn to the right. I was on my feet in a second and had lunged for the source of the delicious smell, I didn't get a chance to finish my lunge before something hit me from the side sending me across the room and crashing through a chair.

I barely had the chance to figure out what was happening before someone was on top of me, pinning me down. I instinctively hissed and went to bite before I saw the blue hair; I froze in place and fell back in my mind, finding the part of it that was looking to feed, the thirsty part, when I found it I buried it behind my main consciousness, for now this would have to work.

When I focused on reality Dol was watching me warily, I didn't dare breathe though.

"Are you good?" She asked quietly.

I swallowed and nodded, shaking like a leaf. My throat felt like it was on fire but I forced that behind the wall as well.

"Okay." Slowly Dol rose up and I stood, I glanced behind her and realized why she had attacked me, Mike was standing behind her, watching me with extreme caution.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled quietly.

"I wouldn't be in here if I hadn't known the risk. Besides, I'm so full of SH I doubt you feeding on me would've gone far." Even though he spoke calmly he stood warily, it was obvious he still didn't trust me.

"Bella?"

I looked at Rosalie, she had mentioned she could pass as a vampire but I hadn't realized what she meant, there were only two heartbeats in this room, and she actually had no heartbeat. It was a little surprising but honestly so much had happened it hid in the back of her mind.

Rosalie pushed forward past the bed and Dol, wrapping her arms around me in a hug then she pulled back and punched me square in the jaw. It didn't hurt and even the pain it might've caused had I still been human wouldn't have compared to what had been done to me in that room.

"God dammit, Bella." She growled. "You absolute idiot." When I stared at her she pushed me, causing me to stumble back briefly. "Dol told us. Why? Why the Hell would you put yourself through that?"

Everyone in the room was looking at me; I could feel the burn in my throat pushing at my mind, trying to return to front and center. I closed my eyes and debated on how to answer the question.

After a short silence I let out a low breath. Had I started breathing again? I had heard newborns had no control, was this trick with blocking parts of my mind an ability?

"She told me that she needed me to lose faith in her. She would cease to exist if I lost faith in her. The issue was she was asking me to do something I could never do. In the midst of all my pain all I could think about Dol was going to save me. Even when I felt doubt my mind reminded me that she has never let me down and she would keep fighting. It didn't matter what I wanted to believe because the horrible truth was even if I'd wanted to stop believing in her I was mentally incapable."

I closed my eyes. "I would rather go through whatever horrible plans Kachiri-" Her name hit me and panic flared up inside me, I looked around the room, a terrible feeling twisting in my gut and if I'd been able to I would've been sick. Where was she?

"She's dead." Rose grabbed my shoulders and forced herself into my vision. "Bella, calm down."

I dropped to my knees when memories of the knife tearing through my flesh rang through my head. I had to look at my arm and when I did I cringed, my skin where Dol had put Carlisle's blood, and venom, in my wounds was scarred, slightly darker against the paleness of my skin. I choked back my anger and pain, not here, not now.

"Bella?" I blinked and looked up; Dol's constantly changing eyes were now inches from mine. She was searching my expression and I could sense the apology that was about to leave her lips. I knew her all too well.

"It's not your fault." I mumbled before she could say anything.

"I know this isn't exactly the right time." My head jerked up and I glared at Edward who was standing in the doorframe.

"Where's Leah?" My mind opened up and a memory of tearing vampire flesh tore through me, barely audible over the sounds of my screams.

"You need to feed." Dol changed the subject as she stood, trying to distract me. Screw that, the thirst was behind a wall and she wasn't getting off so easy.

"Where the Hell is Leah?"

The discomfort in the room was obvious. Emmett and Alice shared a look at the same time Rose and Dol did. "She's being punished for the murder of Kachiri."

Fear, anger, and pain soared through me.

"Where?"

"Bella, you can't. Don't argue about this one. You can't interfere. I don't care if you refuse to accept it. She is being considered the victim because she was torturing a human. Her reason for detaining you in the first place was because you were so open minded. I don't care if those were her true intentions or not. Leah killed her before there could be an investigation." Alice's voice was harsh. "You aren't allowed to wander the halls right now because you haven't fed. This brings me to a question. How the Hell are you staying focused with Mike in the room? You should be frenzied."

"She's a mental shield." Edward spoke quietly from the door, his eyes on me in that way that had always made me uncomfortable. "It's why I haven't been able to read her mind since she got here and if I had to guess she can probably block things in her own mind in some way. She doesn't want to be thirsty shove it back."

"You seem to know what you're talking about." I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Carlisle had theorized on it." He shrugged, looking as though this happened every day.

Dol winced, I barely caught the movement out of the corner of my eye but it was there. "I need to get back down there. Bella, I'll be at the corner of your mind if you need me." I didn't get to respond before she dropped down through the floor.

"I know I'm not liked by any of you but is it at all possible for me to have two minutes with her?"

The group shared a look. "Let me hear what he has to say, it's not like he can drain me dry and I'm sure Dol will and Alice will be keeping a close eye on me."

"Try anything and I will have your head." Rosalie growled and headed out the door. I could tell he planned on grabbing her arm but he resisted. The others followed her out warily.

"Can I call you Bella?"

"No." I glared at him. I had become accustomed to being called Bella but since he'd asked I decided it should be a privilege. I didn't respect him, especially after learning what I'd learned about Renesmee and his apparent interest in brunettes.

"I know you don't trust me and you have every right. I'm not here to do what I want to do. I wouldn't make it two feet. I'm here to tell you the truth. What happened to you, it was violating a lot of laws."

"Which part? The part where Kachiri tortured me while using my sister or the part where I got turned into a fucking vampire? The one creature I'd have rather died than become, I had no choice in the matter!"

"Kachiri torturing you, -as far as everyone is concerned,- was for legitimate reasons." I stared at him then I lunged. I grabbed him and pinned him to the ground, going for his neck to bite his head off, literally, someone grabbed my arms and pulled me off him though. I fought against the hold as someone else took hold of me from the front. The one behind me wrapped their arms around my chest holding me in place while the person in front of me took hold of my shoulders.

"Bella." I hissed at her, not looking at Rosalie, staring at Edward with pure hatred. "Bella!"

"Legitimate reasons! Those were fucking legitimate reasons! Tying me down to a table and having my fucking sister torture me was legitimate reasons! Torturing me because Dol didn't want to become a slave to her was a legitimate reason to torture me! Because of what Carlisle did to me I will never be able to forget this! I will have to live with that shit for the rest of my life and Leah is getting punished for it!" I kicked Rose hard enough to send her flying to the wall and ripped out of Emmett's hold. I didn't do what my instincts told me to do and jump down onto Edward and rip his God Damned head off. I grabbed my hair and dropped to my knees, pulling at it and screaming.

I wanted to crawl into the back of my brain and never come out. I didn't want this; I didn't want to be here. I could do that. I could crawl into the back of my brain, I could hide from reality.

In that moment I did just that. I fell into the back of my brain, I went to the back and setup a reality worth living. My mom, my dad, and my sister, a nice house and a happy life. No memories of what was happening here, I would be safe from what had happened. I would be happy.

I opened my eyes and smiled at my mom.

I was peeking at what you wrote after the…incident...I like that memory. You alright, Dol? I am going to leave, Bella needs me right now. I'll see you later then.

So, guys. I know there are a lot of questions still unanswered from the beginning and again, though this seems sudden I have intended for this all to happen. Things are on track even if they aren't exactly as I'd intended. Sorry about the delay on an update, was struggling on how to approach the chapter.