A/N: Lemon Alert! Also sensitive subject alert. So heavy and hot chapter. Continue if you dare.

Chapter 25: Every Little Thing

Bella POV:

"You've been insubordinate again subject 173952. You know what that means don't you?" Don't respond.

"She is being a little more difficult today isn't she Felix. I'll fix that up for you right away." Footsteps were approaching. Not him. Anyone but him. "You could have avoided this 173952 if you just followed orders. When are you going to learn that we own you? Your every thought or feeling belongs to the Volturi. You are nothing. So you should be thinking about nothing. Submit!" Don't respond. Don't give him the satisfaction.

"Well, have fun with her Caius. And don't give her back again until she's sorted out."

"Oh don't worry about that Felix."

"Bella! Wake up! Please! Bella wake up!"

"No!" I threw the body off of me forcefully, trying to find a weapon.

"Bella stop it's me! It's Alice! Look at me." The voice calling my name was sweet sounding, but she was obviously panicked. The name Alice did ring a small bell in me, so I turned to look at the person I'd shoved on the floor. Alice. My imprint. I attacked my imprint. She had her hands help up in the air to signal she meant no harm. Her eyes were full of fear and concern. I felt absolutely terrible.

"Fuck Alice I'm so sorry. I thought you were attacking me, I completely lost my head. Are you hurt? Are you ok?" I jumped off the bed to assess her and check for any injuries. She wasn't responding to me in any way and it was starting to worry me. "Alice? Are you hurt?" I put my hands on either side of her face so she would focus on me. Her eyes were filled with tears and before I knew it she was sobbing into my chest.

"God Bella I was so scared! You were thrashing around and yelling! I didn't know what to do!" She had gone into hysterics and I was terrified that I had caused her harm in some way.

"Did I hurt you?"

"No you didn't hurt me! Stop asking me that! It's you I'm worried about here!" She started hitting me angrily while still sobbing. Obviously I had touched a nerve.

"Ok ok! Stop ok! Alice I'm fine! You're fine. It's all fine. Please calm down."

"CALM DOWN? You want me to calm down?!" Oh no. I'm really dead now. "How in the hell am I supposed to calm down?! One second you're sleeping peacefully and the next you-" I went for broke and covered her yelling mouth with my lips. Maybe a distraction would calm her down. She was taken aback at first and almost pushed me off, but I pulled her close to me in a preemptive strike. Eventually, she succumbed and let me have my way with her lips. When I shifted away her eyes were in a dreamlike state. Mission accomplished Swan.

"Better?" I asked her hesitantly. She rolled her eyes and took my hand, leading me back to bed.

"For now. Thank you. But we'll talk about this in the morning. Now go back to sleep." So the fight wasn't over, but I could deal with it in the morning. Instead of rolling over to my side to sleep again, I pulled Alice in close to my chest and held her there until I drifted off.

After our dreaded talk in the morning, things got a lot better. I mean I still wasn't being completely honest and open with Alice, but she was accepting of it. For now. Alice and I have been hanging out, you could say, for almost four weeks now. I wouldn't call it dating because we don't do that. We're just friends that hang out a lot, and sometimes end up making out.

With every day my control was getting better and better. There were several times we had come very close to sex but I never pulled the trigger. I knew I had the control now, but was still nervous. It would be our first time and I really didn't want to fuck it up. I could tell Alice was getting frustrated but she never said a thing. That is until yesterday when I stopped us once again.

"Ok, Bella what is holding you back now? We both know you have the control. And Liam told me everything I needed to know about what not to do." I had cringed. Yes, I was grateful that he told her but it still made me very embarrassed. The thing is, intimacy is really hard for me. When I was hooking up, that's all it was, just sex and nothing of it. But with an imprint it would be different, and there were certain things I couldn't explain to her.

When she asked, I told Alice that I lost my virginity to Jacob. She already disliked him and she knew of our past, so it made sense. But the truth is, that's not the truth at all. I lost my virginity to the Volturi, well Caius to be exact. He was a cruel and sick man who took pleasure in my pain. It was his special torture he did to me. To punish me, he would say. But really it was whenever he was bored or in a particularly foul mood. I would never tell Alice. She already hates herself enough as it is, and I couldn't bear to see her in that amount of agony. Also I really don't want anyone to know about it. Well of course Liam and the Volturi know, but I don't want it out there. It makes me feel weak and useless, and I hate feeling that way. But things like that leave some pretty deep emotional scars. The Volturi kind of fucked up everything for me, including meaningful emotional sex. So Liam had told her it would take some time for me to be completely intimate with her. Like on my side of things. Liam reassured me that eventually when I have been with her for a while and trust her wholly, then things will be normal. Of course I don't know how he knows this, he just believes.

I blew off her question yesterday and went for a walk to clear my head. What was I holding back for? It's not like Alice would ever do anything to make me uncomfortable. She was perfect, and I was being stupid per usual. So that brings us to now, in my house, where I have Alice pinned against the wall while I kiss her without mercy. Idiot it's called the bedroom. Please do this properly the first time. Right. So I pulled away from her lips and carried her up to the bedroom, placing her on my bed. I went to resume my work when she stopped me.

"Bella what are you doing? Please don't do this because you think you need to. Or just because I want to. Because I will walk out right now if that's the case. I am perfectly fine waiting."

"No. Alice I swear. I'm doing this because it's right. And I want to. Boy do I want to." We both laughed lightly at my joke. But her eyes refocused on my again, grazing her hand across my cheek.

"Are you sure?" She had the most loving look on her face.

"Yes. I'm a hundred percent sure."

I trailed kisses down her jawline and started nibbling on her neck. She must have been holding onto a lot of her arousal because my senses were suddenly flooded with it. I had to pause only for a moment to regain composure. My fingers slid underneath the hem of her shirt, asking for permission to remove it.

"Tear it! I don't care." Ok I know these last few weeks have been sexually frustrating for the both of us, but I never knew it was affecting her this badly. I gently removed her shirt even with her comment, Alice loved clothes and I never wanted to upset her. My lips went back to the spot on her neck that made her moan oh so loudly and I started moving them southward. Afraid she might get mad if I asked for permission again, I removed her bra quickly and started giving individual attention to her breasts. Her skin tasted so incredible that I was slightly worried I would go into a frenzy for it. She started to vibrate with a low growl of impatience. Alice wanted it fast, but I wanted and needed it slow.

"Alice, baby, patience please?" I went back to her face to convey the importance of my request. She looked like a drugged cat. Crap. All this worry about my control and she's the one that's losing it. But she stopped growling and kissed me her apology.

"Sorry." She took another breath to steady herself. "May I?" She asked pointing to my shirt. I just nodded at her and got up slightly so she could remove it alongside my bra.

"Alice stop staring." She had not moved once my torso was bare and it was making me self-conscious. Which is saying something because I never am.

"Hmmmm what? Oh sorry. It's just, you're so beautiful." I blushed deeply while she continued to gaze. Only my imprint would make me capable of being self-conscious and embarrassed.

"Nothing compared to you." I whispered going back to her breasts once again. But she pulled my head up and started kissing me with fire she never had before. She flipped us in an instant, so now she was the one on top. I wasn't sure about this position. I preferred being the one in control in this situation. Now she was the one sucking on my breasts and it was undoing me. While I did want her to enjoy herself, I couldn't very well come now. So I flipped us and she growled in protest at me. I shut her up with a sneak attack to her pants. Damn pixie got me so riled up that I needed to get her to release before I did. Forgetting about slow, I yanked off her pants and skimpy underwear in one fluid motion.

"Please?" She was in between the drugged cat state and horny as hell state. And I can't turn down that face. I threw my head down between her legs and she gasped in surprise. She did ask me to, didn't she? Well there's no way in hell I'm stopping now. Alice was a drug, once I got one taste I was addicted. I slowly slid one finger inside her while my tongue continued its relentless teasing. This was heaven. The sounds Alice were making were driving me certifiably insane. I decided to add another finger and her nails dug painfully into my scalp.

"Yes! Bella yes!" I really didn't want to stop for a second, but her nails had drawn a little blood.

"Alice, easy on the head please?" She obeyed immediately and apologized as I went back to my work.

"Pants!" She gasped out between her panting. Now that's an odd thing to say while someone is fucking you.

"What?"

"Your pants Bella!"

"Oh right." I removed my jeans quickly and threw them aside as well. She definitely owned me, and I was ok with that. When I moved back to my position between her legs, she pushed her shin right against my center, eliciting an extremely loud moan from me. Crap Bella please finish her before she finishes you. I continued my sucking and thrusting much harder and I could feel her start to shake.

"Oh god! Bella I'm so close."

"I know!" I ground out with my teeth now clenched. The imprint made me experience her emotions when they were particularly strong. And right now they definitely were. I was trying to hold it together with her arousal flowing through me and her pressing firmly against me, it was becoming extremely difficult. With one last pump of my fingers she went over the edge, and I went with her. It was a mind blowing orgasm to say the least.

Eventually I crawled my way up to her out of breath and sweaty. That had taken a lot out of me. I could probably sleep for a few days. Alice was giggling next to me. I raised my eyebrow. "What?"

"You just look really cute right now." I propped myself up on an elbow to look at her properly. Her hair was in complete disarray, as I'm sure was mine, and she looked utterly content. I was too tired to comment back however and just gave her a 'hmf'. She giggled again.

"I think my wolf needs some well-deserved sleep." She pulled a sheet over us and snuggled into my chest, cooling me down nicely. I faded into a most comfortable sleep almost instantly.

A/N: So on the one hand you got that deep shit, but on the other hand you got sex. So... You know. Anyways, that will probably be my most in depth lemon, unless you all really want in depthness, but there will still be sex after this. They are dating. Oh but they aren't. Hmmm. They should probably have that conversation. Shit, they need to have a lot of conversations. I thought about splitting this chapter up but I just couldn't do it. I have been trying to lengthen my chapters anyways. So goodnight everyone. Sleep well and have a good day :)