A/N: Here I am! I know its been a while again but it hasn't been a year which counts for something. So, after spending weeks agonizing over the longest chapter I've written before, hoping you'll all like it, thinking it sucks yet liking it, too...I finally finished. It's not completely finished...but there's a lot here. I have more history on Luna and more of her opening up. I really hope you all like it. Thank you soooooo much for all the great reviews. I'm so surprised that I keep receiving them long after the chapter's been posted...It makes me feel like I'm doing something right. This is a much more serious chapter at times though so Enjoy! By the way, it's a little confusing at first. Two POVs taking place almost simultaneously. So, basically...you see Emmett prior to where he was in the first part...okay? lol
Disclaimer: I don't own twilight. I own all oc's in this fanfic.
What you got boy, is hard to find
I think about it, all the time
I'm all strung out, my heart is fried,
I just can't get you off my mind.
Your Love Is My Drug ~ Ke$ha
Luna's POV
The distinct feeling of drool on the side of my face made me grunt and wipe it away fast. Sitting up, I looked around groggily and found myself in my wonderful bedroom/haven of wonders. That's right, I had come home with Jake and went upstairs, took one of those painkillers from Carlisle and once I hit my bed, I sort of took on a level of dead sleep and apparently, didn't move one bit. I looked at the pills on my bedside table and grunted. Those things were hardcore. If vampires had come, I would have never known.
I staggered into the hallway and to the bathroom, only to see one hell of a hairstyle. I'd deal with that later and so, I went down the stairs, yawning. Jacob was snoring on the couch, covered in the flowerly blanket I had draped over him when he knocked out before I did.
My cheeks heated when I remembered...Jake said we'd be hanging out today...no, not just hanging out. We were going on a date. I scratched my head uncomfortably...preferring to worry about vampires than boys...oh, excuse me, men. I looked at Jacob and calling someone who defined masculinity, a 'boy', was tragic.
After popping some waffles into the toaster and plastering them with jelly, I hurried upstairs while eating them to shower and get dressed. I threw on some brown capris, a maroon t-shirt, and I covered my hair with a backwards baseball cap. I then headed downstairs back to the sleeping lug on my couch. He hadn't moved an inch and so I nudged him with my foot, assuming he'd shoot up but he didn't react. I leaned down.
"Jakers," I whispered in a sing-songy way. "You have to wake up now. I want to go see Trevor and Alexa..."He grunted.
"Lu, it's the middle of the night," he grumbled turning over. "Wait till tomorrow." I blinked and looked out the window. There was light. Looking at the clock, I saw it was at least eleven-thirty in the AM.
"You're a bit backwards in time, Jakers," I stated and my only answer was a snore. With a scoff, I put on my zorries and stomped out of the house, heading into the forest.
Fine. He'd wake up when he was ready and in the meantime, I could go and see how the others were doing. He'd probably be angry I left but...oh well. I was beginning to believe I was the only bit of excitement in his life...then again...if he was once human...his life had been a roller coaster ever since entering the world of the big bad wolf.
Arriving at the Cullens, I spotted Leah with Jasper and Alice. They appeared to be talking at least, until Leah spotted me.
"Hey," she smirked. "Where's Jake?"
"He's out for the count," I jutted my thumb back the way I had come. "So, I headed here to avoid the snores."
"Does he know that?" she raised a brow.
"Well, sister," I sighed, sounding exasperated, putting my hands on my hips. "I don't think we should tell him his snores chase people away. It might make the little guy self-conscious."
"Not that, you dork," she rolled her eyes. "That you left."
"Oh, that," I shrugged. "What he doesn't know can't hurt him, I suppose."
"Yet, he will find out," she snorted.
"Details, details," I waved her off and she sighed before walking inside. Jasper, Alice and I watched her disappear into the house before the blond-haired major, turned to me with golden eyes.
"You must be very trying on Jacob's patience," Jasper remarked, almost looking concerned, and I smirked at him.
"Without me, his life would be soooo boring," I replied. "He'd never admit it, of course, but I know. Intuition. If it weren't true, he'd have killed me a long time ago."
"Maybe not so drastic," Jasper said with amusement. "But something interesting, I'm sure."
"How are Trevor and Alexa?" I finally asked.
"Oh, they haven't woken up yet," Alice answered me. "But they're alive and that's what counts."
"Of course, it counts," Emmett strode out of the house and came up. "Always getting into trouble with us vampires...it's lucky they even survived."
"Technically, you vampires cause the trouble," I snorted. "You know, wreaking havoc, eating people, dazzling the cops with your pretty faces so you don't get speeding tickets with your stupid, fancy-fast cars..."
"Um, no," Emmett snickered, shaking his head.
"Um, yes!" I stomped my foot. "Then we have to be all badass and take you out!"
"I'm sorry," Emmett looked down at me, his pearly whites showing yet not even looking like a tool to bite down into a throat and drain someone's blood. "I can't hear you from all the way up here."
"Was that a shot at my size?" I demanded. "You asshat! I can take you out, no sweat."
"Come on, you two," Alice giggled slightly. "You're gonna start something."
"He started it," I pointed at him accusingly.
"Now, now," Emmett patted my head and I bristled as Alice sighed heavily. "We all know that vampires are so much more scary than little werewolves."
"Care to wager on that?" I bit out and he grinned widely.
"You don't want to make a bet with me, Princess," he held up his hands in a defensive-position. "I'd take you for all your worth."
"Fine! Arm-wrestle me! I bet I'll win!"
It was so on.
Alexa's POV
A Few Minutes Prior
Grogginess and tiredness held on tight as I opened my eyes blearily. My nose was burning and I figured vampire stench was still stuck to my clothes after what happened. I was relieved to be out of that hellhole. Sitting up, I found all my injuries wrapped and my eyes slowly took in a rather large bedroom with...medical equipment. I stood and found myself wearing sweats and a nice-tank top, rather than the ragged clothes I'd been wearing when that leech kidnapped us. I walked over to the door warily, brushing back my messy blond hair.
Opening it slowly, I found a long hall. Where was I? I could faintly smell Noah and even to my surprise, Luna. But there was too much vampire scent. Where was that coming from?
Stepping out, I froze nearly instantly to see the tallest, large man ever right in front of me. I blanched. He was a vampire and he looked at me with rather curious eyes. Shit! What do I do? I'm hurt and alone. I couldn't take him on at this point in time. A grin formed on his handsome face and he gave a little wave which made every part of me grow stiff.
"Hey, how's it going?" he greeted and I was thoroughly confused. I began hyperventilating and his eyes widened. "Whoa! Whoa! Calm down!"
"Don't touch me!" I shrieked, prepared for more to jump out. "And if you eat me, I swear-"
"Sorry, sweetheart," he chuckled, waggling his eyebrows suggestively. "As pretty as you are, I'm already married to a blonde. Besides, I don't think you could handle me." I scoffed and grabbed the nearest thing I could. A vase. He immediately looked horrified. "Whoa! Hold on! That's Esme's!"
I threw it as hard as I could and he caught it gingerly, holding up a hand when I looked for something else. However, strong arms grabbed me as Noah's warm scent wrapped around me.
"Noah? Vampire!" I pointed. Noah smiled gently, holding my tightly until my squirms stopped.
"Yes, Allie," he nodded, speaking slowly as if I were stupid. "It is a vampire. This is Emmett. Emmett, this is Alexa." Why the hell was he introducing us? Why wasn't he doing anything? It was a vampire! We were born to kill them!
"Yeah. We've met," Emmett snorted, setting the vase back down and looking around nervously, as if he'd get in trouble.
"Allie, he's a nice vampire," Noah explained to me. "He eats animals. Not humans. The Quileute Pack is allied with them."
"Huh?" I was so lost and overwhelmed, I could feel tears brimming up. I had no idea what was going on. This wasn't normal. Vampires were our enemies yet Noah Montoya stood here talking with one as if they were buddies. Last time I saw Noah fight, he tore a vampire to pieces with little to no effort.
"Dude, she's crying," Emmett, the big ass vampire, pointed at me in alarm. Noah rubbed my back, holding me close and pulling me into his chest as I started sobbing.
"She's had a very stressful week," Noah retorted, glaring at him with blue eyes. "Breaking packs, kidnapping, torture...You'd cry, too."
"I'm dead. I can't cry," Emmett responded and the puffed out his chest like a rooster. "Not only that...I'm a man. So, I don't cry. Later. Nice meeting ya, Pretty Wolf." He headed down the hall and Noah groaned.
"It's okay, Al," he soothed. "How do you feel?"
"Sore," I sniffled. "Confused. Why the hell are you acting like he's not a vampire?"
"He is a vampire," Noah answered. "Just not one I can kill. He doesn't kill humans, kid. This pack's alpha is imprinted on that dude's niece, first of all. Second, they're good people. You'll see and get used to the idea. Now come on, the mother vamp, is wicked in the kitchen. Let's get you something to eat."
Noah's strong arm was tight around me, creating a protective feel inside me as we went down some stairs. I found my hands gripping tightly to the gray t-shirt Noah was wearing and I'd never been so happy to see the guy. I'd always loved Noah like a brother, even though we never hung out, I always had a soft spot for him and Trevor. That's when Leah came into view at the bottom of the staircase, arms folded and a solemn expression. Leah and I had never really been friends but she held out a tissue just the same. I thanked her silently as I took it and wiped my eyes.
"Don't worry about the vampires," she advised. "They won't hurt you and if anything, they'll protect you against those who would hurt you."
"This is so backwards..." I muttered.
"Get used to it," she nodded. "It's pretty dysfuntional up here."
"We're not that dysfuntional," a voice retorted and I looked up to see a sweet young male wolf with a cute smile. Thank god, there was no imprint. I couldn't handle that quite yet. "I'm Seth, Leah's brother."
"I'm Alexa," I smiled back and looked at the male who joined him. Like all male wolves, he was attractive, with a gentle expression and a more mature face than the wolf next to him.
"This is Embry," Seth introduced him. "We're both part of your new pack."
"Nice to meet you," I sounded wary. These guys were pretty nice. There was always tension in our old pack and you seldom made friendly with anyone. It was a survival and dominance thing but...this was more of a family feel. I liked it but my skin felt cold the moment the vampire scent got thicker and turning to the side, I saw a motherly-looking vampire smiling at me. Noah felt my grip tighten and held me tighter.
"Allie, it's okay," he said. "This is Esme Cullen." I felt grateful that the female vampire kept her distance but the tender smile remained on her face.
"It's a pleasure to meet you, dear," she said softly. "I know quite well that wolves tend to always be hungry...perhaps something to eat will help you get stronger?" I watched her for a moment and silently compared her to Jerome.
Jerome's eyes told me that he held no regard for human life, that I was a pawn in his much bigger scheme. This woman before me...her eyes reminded me of a mother, someone who wanted nothing more than your wellbeing. It frightened me to no end but I nodded quietly, making her smile again and vanish into the kitchen with vampire speed. This was so not normal.
"No, I suppose it isn't," someone said and I sunk into Noah as a flawless male vampire stepped into my view, with tousled bronze hair, golden eyes and a rather charming smile. I didn't say anything which gave away his gift instantly. I'd have to watch myself around him. I had enough people in my head when I was phased and sometimes Luna could be in my head while I was in human form. My mind. My thoughts. My business. This vampire only chuckled.
"Yeah, that's Edward," Leah sneered. "He can be nosey."
"Leah," Edward sighed. "You of all people know I can't help it." He paused suddenly and turned toward the front of the house as if intrigued by something. When he headed for the door, Noah pulled me with him, following.
I didn't get what was going on but I looked out into the large yard to see several other vampires and to my surprise, the scrawny little Omega who could kick my ass.
"Lu's here?" Noah asked. "I thought Jake took her home."
"She snuck here this morning," Leah answered him. "I bet he's probably looking for her as we speak."
I tuned them out to see what she was doing. Luna stood small as always, wearing a maroon t-shirt, brown capris and her usual flip flops. Her messy brown hair was hidden under a backwards baseball cap and I felt rather happy to see her. There was something about her that calmed the mood and made me feel a little bit better. I was surprised to see her yelling at the big vampire I had run into but for some reason, it reminded me of a toy dog barking at a much large dog. It made me want to laugh given that the large vampire had his hands up in defense.
"Fine! Arm wrestle me! I bet I'll win!" she cried and Emmett laughed.
"Oh, please. I don't wanna hurt you," he seemed very sure of himself.
"Psh. You're just scared you'll lose," Luna folded her arms and Emmett grinned.
"Alright, you're on, puppy."
"Emmett, please be careful," there was a blond male vampire who spoke. He stood brooding under a nearby tree. "She's much smaller than you." I doubt that would really matter in the end.
"Ease up, Jasper. I'll be careful," Emmett rolled his eyes. He went over to a rather large rock and as he put his elbow on it, Luna hopped over and put hers on as well, only she had to stand on a second rock, given that she couldn't reach it. I was almost entertained to see the large vampire's hand completely envelope Luna's dainty hand. Though I knew that dainty hand and that tiny form...was a lot stronger than it appeared. I had seen that girl punch through trees and even rocks.
"Ready...Set...GO!" a small vampire, even shorter than Luna, had directed them and I saw Luna immediately go into it. Emmett was almost taken by surprise by the strength and actually began to put effort when his hand almost slammed down.
"Holy shit!" he hissed under his breath and Noah chuckled. As a black mercedes pulled up, I took in a second blond vampire male with a dress-shirt on and nice pants. His face held no imperfections and like the mother vampire, he had almost a parental feel to him. I watched him look at what was happening and noticed the look of alarm on his face. However as Emmett and Luna became more determined, I heard a cracking sound and as their faces went to ones of 'oh shit', the rock shattered beneath them and debris and dust shot up.
The well-dressed male vampire shot forward into the clearing dust and within the blink of an eye, he was holding Luna up from underneath her arms, like she was a small child. She sneezed and squirmed until he put her down. As she wiped the dirt off of her face, he brushed some dirt off of her shoulders and shot a look of complete and utter disapproval at Emmett, who looked sheepish.
"Emmett," he admonished. "She almost died a week ago and you're already rough-housing." He then turned to her as she took on a taken aback expression, as if not expecting him to reprimand her, too. "And you. You should be more careful. Your injuries are still healing." I think this had to be one of the more amusing things I had ever seen. Luna getting scolded by a vampire...that was freaking hilarious.
"Sorry," she sounded disgruntled.
"A week ago?" I frowned, looking up at Noah.
"Jerome's goons paid a visit," he informed me. "Luna got hurt...bad. We almost lost her."
"Yo!" we both turned to see Luna looking at us. "When did you wake up?"
"Like fifteen minutes ago," I said and she stalked up to us with an irritated expression on her fair-skinned face, her green eyes sharp.
"About time, dammit," she growled fiercely. "I never want to see Noah dragging your sorry ass anywhere again, got it?" I opened my mouth to counter her rather rude comment but Noah stopped me.
"That's Luna speak for 'Glad you're okay'," he explained and Luna scoffed, making my lips twitch ever so slightly.
"What? I have my own language and you're a translator now?" she snapped. "Shit, Noah! I said what I meant and I meant what I said." He patted her head.
"Okay, Lulu."
"Why does everybody keep patting my head?" she spazzed slighty, slapping her hands at Noah's.
My insides seemed to burn with something...contentment. Having Noah and Luna back, made me feel complete again, like I was supposed to be here. Rafael had been a weight on us...but now, he was a thing of the past. At least until he figured out, Trevor and I, still lived. And so did, Luna.
Luna's POV
A familiar scent came up my nose, mixed with wolf, pine and that certain scent that was a certain Alpha's own unique mix. I turned to see him striding out of the forest but to my wariness, he looked surprisingly calm. I shifted my weight to the other foot and took on a sweet expression, prepared for whatever rage he might dish out for my leaving before he woke up.
"Morning, Jakers," I greeted him carefully. "Miss me?"
"Not really," he answered. "I figured you'd run off before I woke up." I pouted unhappily. This wasn't what I expected and I wasn't used to being taken off guard.
"Well, that's no fun," I complained. "If you're starting to predict my actions, I may have to get creative here." He glared at me with dark eyes and a chill ran up my spine.
"I dare you, furball," he said and looked at Alexa. He paused before reaching a hand out to her and I raised my eyebrows when she paled and shut her eyes tight. I think everyone noticed the tension and Jacob flinched back, looking slightly hurt by the reaction. When she peeked back up at him, she saw us all staring at her and he hesitated. "Um, I...wasn't gonna hit you...you know? I was gonna shake your hand...I'm Jake..."
Alexa blushed and looked a little lost for a moment. I wondered what Rafael had turned into to make her have a reaction like that.
"It's okay, Allie," Noah smiled. "This is Jacob Black, Alpha Extraodinaire."
"Sorry," she apologized timidly and he smiled warmly down at her.
"It's okay," he said, putting his hands in his pockets. "You don't have to say you're 'sorry'. Welcome to the Pack." She nodded mutely and seemed as though she were trying to disappear into Noah as she pressed against him. I heard Leah scoff.
"Geez, Jake," Leah smirked. "Trying to scare everyone?"
"Shut up, Leah," he snapped instantly and reached down to pinch me when I snickered.
"Ouch!"
"Come on, Lu," he said. "We have things to do." This time, it was my cheeks that flamed up red. This was unheard of, yours truly being caught off guard and embarrassed within five minutes.
"B-but...I wanna see Trevor!" I whined, knowing exactly what Jacob meant.
"He's not awake yet, right?" He looked at Edward for confirmation, and the vampire nodded with a smile. "He can wait. He's in good hands. Guys, call or text if you need anything. We'll be a while."
"A while?" I squeaked and noticed Jacob give me a look that told me to shut up as he was probably trying to block his mind at the moment. I assumed Edward didn't know about things yet...ooh. That would make a fun conversation.
"Where are you two going?" Embry folded his arms, raising one eyebrow.
"Places," Jacob grinned wolfishly and as we slipped between the trees, I saw amusement on Leah's and Noah's faces and confusion everywhere else. I began to soak in the fact that Edward and Bella, probably still needed to be informed about their daughter's loyal companion deciding a possible new path.
"When are you gonna tell them?" I asked as we headed deeper into the woods.
"Soon," Jacob exhaled. "I'd rather wait until it's not so crowded and the drama has died down." He headed for some bushes. "I'm gonna shift. I'll meet you at the house."
"Sure," I nodded and ran off, knowing he'd have no problem catching up.
Would the drama die down? I mean, once Jacob told them...what level of betrayal would they feel? I was being so selfish with this but was it wrong to want to be happy? What if...in the end...Jacob decided I wasn't what he wanted? I didn't know what I would do. I'd never let anyone see the real me for long periods or let them in deep enough to figure me out. That feeling of being completely and totally vulnerable to someone else...was something that was important in a relationship but...getting there...and hoping that you were opening up to the right person...was agonizing. Glancing behind me, I could see the giant russet wolf tailing me and I pushed faster. Jacob was trustworthy...but the imprint made him unpredictable...
Sometimes...I wished I were Alice and could just...know.
As I came to a stop, I waited patiently for Jacob to come out and as he walked out, pulling on a shirt, I folded my arms.
"Alright, Lu," he began. "This is how today is gonna start. I need a favor."
"...okay? What is it?" I narrowed my eyes.
"No games," he told me. "I want to know the real you." I paused and nodded in agreement.
"Okay, Jakers," I sighed and then looked at him hard. "But I also need a favor."
"And that is?"
"You're with me today," I told him sternly. "Not Renesmee." He raised his eyebrows and for a moment I expected him to bite back but he only gave me a smile.
"Of course."
"Alright!" I punched the air. "First things first. I don't care where we're going but I'm not going back in the house to get girlified." Jacob threw back his head and laughed.
"I wouldn't have it any other way," he grinned down at me. "A girly Luna isn't something I'm quite ready for yet."
I grimaced and pictured myself out of the boyish-easy-to-get-around clothes and in a sleeveless gown with heels, make-up and jewelry...It had been a long time since I'd worn a dress. Jacob would be waiting a very long time to see that if he stuck around long enough to see it.
"Where are we going?" I asked when he led the way to his car.
"We're going out to eat first," he answered me as he opened the passenger door for me. "I recommend keeping the appetite down so we can appear normal but the questions begin now."
"Questions?" I repeated and sat down. He shut the door and hurried to the driver's seat, stepping in and starting the car.
"Basics about yourself," he nodded. "Lu, tell me about your siblings. Something basic." I buckled up and took a deep breath...Here we go.
"I have a brother and two sisters," I informed him. "My brother, Caleb, is the eldest and well, we aren't exactly close."
"Why is that?"
"Dunno," I looked out the window as Jake started driving. "We're thirteen years apart and well, by the time I would have really been old enough to bond with him and remember it, he was out of the house and in college. I didn't see much of him until I was like ten, when I was the flowergirl in his wedding. Our personalities clash and I think he's unable to process that I'm not exactly a baby anymore. He continues to treat me like a kid despite whatever maturity I throw at him. Sometimes, I think he never liked the idea that I had a different father than him and my sisters."
"I see...and your sisters?"
"Well, first, there's Andrea," I continued, glancing over at him. "She's right after my brother...and the most motherly of any of us. My mom, being single, was working multiple jobs to keep us all fed, so Andrea was forced to watch us my other sister and I at nine. My brother was often out with his friends. Today, she's one of the most loving people I've ever known, soft-spoken and always wanting to take care of me." That was true...which is why it surprised me when she'd never spoken a word at my departure.
"She sounds nice," Jacob smiled, meeting my eyes with his dark ones, making my heart flutter just a bit and I smiled back.
"She is," I confirmed. "Next, we have Sabrina, lover of all things pretty, fashionable and girly. My complete opposite. We grew up screaming at each other, never getting along and we grew closer over the years. She married a military man and given that, she had to move away, living everywhere from Turkey to Alabama. She loves to travel so it was no fur off her back, especially since she got to go to Italy for her birthday. Only recently, did she move closer to home."
"I hate to ask...but how did they react to your Phasing?" Jacob questioned, turning onto the highway by now.
"Caleb rejected the idea completely," I retorted. "I was raised Catholic and so...the idea of me transforming into a beast...wasn't exactly cool. My brother claimed I was possessed, that I had to be for shit like that to happen. My sister-in-law, whom I also don't get along with, backed him up completely, of course. Andrea didn't...say anything. She didn't speak at all to me when it happened and still hasn't...Sabrina...she called me a 'freak' and backed up my brother...They were trying to convince my mother to have me recieve an exorcism."
"Religious fanatics?" Jacob raised a dark brow and I shook my head.
"I wouldn't go that far," I said. "Labeling anyone as a fanatic is unfortunate. We're all free to practice our beliefs and being called a crazy person for it, is unfair. This is America, after all. Then again, everyone has a right to their own opinion."
"And if that belief involves turning into a wolf?" My alpha grimaced.
"I'd say that is closer to life-style and culture," I shrugged, using a matter-of-fact tone. "I am Native American and you know what? I'm a Vampire Butt-Kicker."
"True," Jacob chuckled deeply. "What did your mother do?"
"I wasn't really her daughter anymore," I frowned down at my hands. "I think in the end...it was too much for her to handle. She wanted the exorcism, too. But...I refused. I didn't want a priest knowing anything about shit. I think...had my Grandmother still been alive, she would have supported me. She told me stories of the Spirit Chasers, how they killed the Cold Ones and protected the tribe...But she wasn't there...so my family was more than happy to send me off. I'm now not allowed back at home until I agree to recieve an exorcism."
"I'm sorry," Jacob sounded quiet now and I looked at him. Given the troubled look on his handsome face, I leaned over him, disgruntled and I flicked him in the forehead. "Ow!"
"No sympathy," I scolded him, ignoring the dark look he gave me. "Sympathy is bull pocky right now so don't you dare give it to me. I have my pack for family and for all I know, my blood family will accept it...Maybe...some part of them misses me."
"I know they do," Jacob replied, rubbing where I flicked him before taking hold of the steering wheel again. "You can't just toss out family without missing their presence. That's pretty harsh. My family accepted the idea just fine."
"Your family, is closer to the Quilteute culture," I said coolly. "I wasn't raised on the Cupeno Reservation and I have less Native American Blood in me, than you. I'm also Spanish and Irish...and you can plainly see, the Irish blood took over my looks. This skin...does not tan, dearest Alpha."
"Yeah, I figured," Jacob snorted with amusement. "You're as pale as the Cullens."
"Charming," I rolled my eyes. "Totally my goal in life...to look like a Cullen."
"That could be a good thing," Jacob smiled charmingly. "Those Cullens...they're pretty attractive."
I stiffened and blushed heavily, making Jacob laugh, his large shoulders shaking. I found my lips twitching though, wanting to join him in laughter. While this man affected me more than I would like to admit...he also made me want to trust so much more.
Jacob Black pulled up to a restaurant in Forks, allowing us to stay close to home in case of an emergency. It wasn't too fancy and it wasn't too casual. It was perfect for a first date in my own opinion. After we were seated and had ordered drinks, he turned back to me.
"Ready for more?" he asked.
"I'm not sure," I admitted. "This is getting pretty personal."
"You don't like personal," he stated, as an observation.
"I like distance," I responded and he gave me a look, which told me to explain. "Distance allows me to watch everyone, their reactions, analyze them and make a move from there. It keeps me from bringing anyone close and gives me the advantage of being the puppeteer, in the greater picture. Just knowing your surroundings and how people are feeling in a situation...is an incredible benefit. Just a few words and pulling a few strings...allows the situation to go whichever way you want."
"But distance doesn't allow you bonds," Jacob pointed out.
"Bonds usually get you killed," I scowled. "Nawishmal is proof of that."
"Bonds get you true love, too," Jacob said. "Edward and Bella are proof of that, even if I tried to interfere. Aren't you all about finding true love?" I groaned.
"I'm for it, yes," I nodded and my heart screamed at me. All of this brutal honesty, all of this telling him how I really felt...it felt like I was covering myself in meat before greeting a starving lion. "But that doesn't mean I enjoy having to make myself vulnerable to someone...It's...hard and it...scares me."
"Everyone is scared, Luna," Jacob placed a large hand over the one I had on the table. "Yes, you're one of those people who've been hurt more than usual...but...it doesn't mean you cut everyone away."
"Yeah, I know," I sighed. "If I wasn't still trying...I wouldn't have said anything to you...I wouldn't be sitting here with you now. I'll be damned if I let a fear overcome my entire life completely."
"Come on now," he grinned. "We all know I'm irresistible. You had to come sit with me." He flexed an arm and I laughed.
"Cocky will get you nowhere," I wagged a finger at him and he scoffed.
"It's not cocky if you can back it up, sweetie," he told me and I smirked. And back it up, he could. In every way, the man was irresistible. His looks alone, could attract any girl and his personality, made you seek out his company...you could never get quite enough of him and his strength. And strength, he did have. I'd seen him fight and every part of me wanted to believe...there wasn't a vampire in the world who could fight Jake and live to tell about it...or die to tell about it? How does that work anyways? We paused for a moment as the waitress gave us our drinks and once she walked away, Jake leaned forward. "I do have a rather important question."
"Yeah?" I took a swig of my soda.
"You knew I was imprinted," Jacob started out. "You're against letting anyone in but when you try...you try for me...someone who could very well hurt you with a simple answer like 'no'...why do that?"
"Because...you make me feel safe," I blushed to myself, trying to hide it. I paused for a long moment before continuing to admit things to him. "You make all the bad go away and you make everything okay again...You're so strong and protective...I lost that feeling of peace before...now that you give it to me again...I don't wanna let it go. It's lonely, you know? Being a wolf...keeping secrets...hiding...bloodshed...If all I have left is fighting for someone who makes me happy...I'll die first before I let that go."
"It's a huge risk..." he murmured.
"And that's what true love entails...no?" I pursed my lips. "Risks. Obstacles. Overcoming them. I could ask you why you decided to try to fight your imprint and really give me the chance to well,...be with you. It's a huge risk, too."
Jacob only laughed and looked at me with warm eyes.
"Some things...are worth the risk."
A/N: So...what did you think? Was it really bad? Was it really good? Was it in between? You tell me. I'm trying here. And Thank you for all of the support. I won't rewrite just yet. lol, but this date isn't finished. I want more fluff and stuff. Do you? I hope it's everything you wanted and more...Please review!
I was asked what Luna Dantes looks like. Well, she is Irish, Cupeno Indian and Spanish, (mainly). In my head, she's about 5'2'', has short dark brown hair, slender and her eyes are greenish. She's very fair-skinned and looks younger than she actually is.
Lots of Love!