A/N: I'm kinda really excited about this chapter. It's a little different. Because I decided to write this story in first person and not third, I wasn't sure how to make this chapter happen within L's and Light's POV's, so I hope you enjoy this chapter. It was fun to write. And let me know what you think!

*Sayu's POV*

"Here," I whispered, handing Ryusaki a warm styrofoam cup of tea. He nodded and took the cup from my hand, careful not to wake Light who was sleeping soundly against him. "You look like you've been to hell and back. Like you're living on too much adrenaline and nothing else."

"That's a fair assumption," he muttered on his odd monotone voice before taking a sip of the tea and setting it on the tray beside him.

I took a seat at the small makeshift table I had made from one of the extra beside trays that now had my computer up on it with my homework. I picked up my notebook from the floor, and rested it on my lap, writing down some words down from the page I had up.

"What are you working on?" Ryusaki questioned. I glanced up at him from my computer, turning off the video that was on the screen and flipping it over to my assignment.

"Calculus." I gave a sigh. "I'm not very good at it. Usually Light helps me. Or..." I trailed off and looked over at my brother who was a very sickly pale, but sleeping deeply. "He used to. I guess it's been a while."

"Could I be of assistance?"

I laughed as I looked over the ruffled and battered man. His eyes narrowed at the sound. Not in an unkind way. It was more of confusion. "I think you should be getting sleep, like him."

"Are you not jet lagged?" Ryusaki questioned, looking over me, causing a blush to come to my cheeks. I knew his gaze was nothing but calculating, but I had never had someone look at me like that before. "You should be absolutely exhausted."

I cleared my throat and looked back at my screen. "Whether I am jet lagged or not, that's not going to change the fact that I am missing school and have to make up the work." I glanced over the problem and sighed. "I would not say no to some help."

"Read it aloud to me?"

He helped me through a few problems, somehow able to do them in his head. Not even Light could do that. Light had to write them down and solve them before walking me through all of the steps. No wonder Light loved him so much. There was someone who was finally smarter than him. A challenge. Someone who could keep up and go beyond.

Eventually several nurses came in and Ryuzaki had to move so that Light could go get his CT scan. Ryuzaki came over by me and sat down in the empty chair and looked over my screen. I had two more problems left before I moved onto my computer programing homeworking.

"That's interesting. What are you planning to do with that?" Ryuzaki leaned closer to my computer screen and I pushed him back slightly so he wasn't in my space.

"I'm not sure yet," I explained, opening up a document so I could read over it. "Not sure if I want to go into police work like my dad and Light or if I want to fix computers. It is interesting though."

"Yes," he replied thoughtfully and leaned back in his chair. I could sense his eyes flickering across the page I had up, though I felt like he was more interested in the small details around my computer like my bookmarks and whatnot instead of the theories that were splattered over the document. "You have a lot of information saved on the Kira case. You even have a news station up on the other tab."

"My dad is head of the case. I like to make sure he's safe," I answered, scribbling down into my notebook. There was silence and I paused and glanced back at Ryuzaki, whose eyes were still intently focused on my computer screen. Or... Maybe they weren't. They were focused right above my screen.

"Something's wrong," he said, getting to his feet. "It's Light."

"How can you-" I broke off as Ryuzaki raced to the door and could see the large figure of Ryuk standing in the middle of the room. I had found that the shinigami had in turn become more of a death omen, a reaper to my brother than it had been anything else.

I rose to my feet and moved around my makeshift desk, now alone with the shinigami. I stepped closer to him and tipped my head to the side.

"I didn't think I'd see you again so soon."

"I like to give the boys a scare now and then. It's so boring. Cases and marriage."

"I thought we had a deal." I stepped in front of Ryuk and his smile grew widley. "You know my life is no object in any situation dealing with my brother."

"I'm not here for your brother yet. This is just a bonus to watch. You should know better than any other the affects a death note has on a life." He gave a cackle and I frowned. "Besides, I'm not keen on losing my life yet anyways."

I eyed him carefully.

"Light gets a long life with Ryuzaki," I reminded. And if Ryuk didn't follow the deal, I kill myself and the king of the shinigami's kills Ryuk. It didn't take much to convince the king once I finally had him listening. That did take time though. But the deal was easy enough. 20 apples for my brother to be happy.

"You idolize Light far too much."

"He saved me. I owe him this," I folded my arms and walked over to the door, looking out. I would have asked a passing nurse what was happening, but my English was nonexistent at best. The only thing I chose to be good at was computer code. "Can Ryuzaki see you?"

"You're preceptive. Yes, he has touched the death note before."

I glanced back up the hallway again before deciding that Ryuzaki wasn't going to come back anytime soon and went back to my desk. Light would be ok with whatever had happened to him.

"How? Did he find it like me?" I leaned back in my chair, legs crossed and arms folded over my chest.

"What's in it for me?" Ryuk questioned, not turning away from the door.

"I'll go get you an apple from the cafeteria," I suggested, watching Ryuk carefully. I didn't trust him with anything. He hadn't broken a deal of ours yet, but that didn't mean much to me. Anything that was willing to destroy humanity for laughs and giggles was just wrong.

"Light gave him the death note," Ryuk said in a bored tone. "Light brought him back from the grave and had to explain it somehow."

"Brought him back to life?" I blurted out, sitting forward in my chair. "I didn't know that was possible.

"It's a much harsher deal than the shinigami eyes are." Ryuk finally turned around to look at me, his yellow eyes intent in their stare.

"Is Ryuzaki the reason that Light stopped being Kira?"

"Yes."

I put a hand to my mouth in thought. That didn't make sense to me. There had to be another reason other than Light liking Ryuzaki to make him stop being Kira. I knew that Light wouldn't just stop. That wasn't like him, not in the slightest. There was a reason he was still the top student in Japan even though it had been a while since he had been in high school. When he had his mind set to something, he didn't stop until he got what he wanted.

"What am I missing?" I muttered aloud, running hands through my hair. I sighed and rubbed at my tired eyes. Ryuzaki had been right. I was jet lagged.

"If you get me two apples, I'll tell you a secret. It might make everything much more fun around here."

I nodded and got to my feet, wandering out into the hallway and towards where a spoon and fork on a sign pointed me. Eventually I found the cafeteria and bought the two apples with the small amount of money Watari gave me so that I could pay the taxis.

I made my way back upstairs and tossed the two apples to Ryuk who dug into the first one. I took my seat and waited for him to finish patiently. But he took his sweet time and when he began to lick his fingers I was about to lose it. I rolled my eyes and cleared my throat loudly.

"Ryuzaki has many other names."

"How the hell is that supposed to help me?" I demanded in a growl.

"One of them is Detective L."

I paused and I couldn't stop my eyes from going wide. There was no way. That wasn't possible. What was so special about L? And what the fuck was L? I had never expected L to be in anyway normal in a mental way, but the way he acted and portrayed himself was bizarre.

But I had been right. I knew he was someone important. His computer had said that much. He at least worked for or with my father. That's why I had sent the virus. That's why I had made that video and killed that horrible bitch teacher Chiho. Sleeping with students and boosting their grade. She was a sick fuck.

This would be my downfall. There was no where else for me to go. I had trapped myself in this deal and Ryuk knew it. He knew it and this was where my life came to a halt. I couldn't kill L and finish what my brother started, because the deal said that if anything happened to Light or Ryuzaki that Ryuk and I would forfeit our lives as well.

I sighed and lowered my head into my hands and dug my nails into my head at the cackling laugh from Ryuk. Shit. Shit. Shit.

I had two choices. Either my Kira went away, or I just kept playing this game for as long as I could before I was caught. And I would be caught. L had found Light and he knew about the death notes. I didn't have that surprised anymore. I never did.

But I couldn't just stop. There was no way. Not after what my brother did for me, whether he knew it or not. I had to repay him. I had to do something. He had saved me from that mugger.

That man had taken my purse and then ripped my shirt, beating me. I remembered having to put on so much makeup to hide my bruises over my face and arms. And then his hands went around my neck. I couldn't wear tight clothes or necklaces anymore because they mimicked his hands around my neck, cutting off my air.

I could feel my hands shaking just at the thought.

And then he had died. Heart attack. Right over the top of me. It was terrifying, just the way he slumped over on top of me. I shoved him off and raced home. The next day he was on the news. He had been part of a large money laundering scheme and had been killed by Kira. But I didn't know it was really true until I found Light's death note in his desk.

It was easy enough to figure out his little bomb. I wasn't stupid. The only thing I wasn't very good at was math. The rest was because I didn't try. All of it was so boring. None of it met my interest and so I didn't bother.

I was just curious what was so important that he had to create that to hide it. And that's when I met Ryuk and saw the mugger's name written on one of the pages. My brother had saved me.

And so, I would keep working. I would keep writing names down in my own death note. I would keep being Kira to make the world better and to save more people, like Light saved me. And I would play this game until L finally found me. My father wouldn't any time soon. He refused to believe that Light was Kira, so why would his own little girl who was obsessed with boys and makeup be a killer?

And this was a game. I would make it a game. I would keep myself entertained with L. He was so easy to tease. Even just with the piano, he was so easy to manipulate. Maybe I could stretch this out a bit longer. And he was distracted with Light at the moment. I could get a lot of work done.

I sat back up and waved Ryuk away who was still watching me intently as I had pieced everything together. Ryuk simply laughed again before disappearing in his weird little way of dissolving in thin air.

I snatched my death note from my backpack and pulled up the news tab on my laptop. I was going to make a dent in humanity. Every chance I had, I would delete everyone that wasn't worthy of living. And I would give L a run for his money.

I wasn't sure how long it was, but I went through all of the Japanese news sites that I normally followed and then went through the files from my father's computer.

And then I moved to my file of L's computer. The smart ass had stopped my virus before it could copy his whole system, but I did get a decent chunk of files. Most were previous cases that I had looked through, but hadn't read much of. But now was my chance.

And I didn't care. I didn't care whose name came up in those files, I would end them. Show L that I meant business.

All is fair in love and war.

"Light had another seizure," L said as he walked through the door.

My heart stopped and I jumped at his voice. A hand went to my chest and I laughed. "You scared me." I exhaled deeply, reaching out to close all of the files I had open on my laptop. "Is he doing ok?"

"They want to keep him here for a little while longer. Said they were bringing in a doctor for him. Supposed to be the best in the UK. We'll see." L crossed the room and took a seat beside me. "He better be worth the money."

"By the look of your house, I think money isn't an issue," I muttered.

I carefully closed up my deathnote, making sure the back cover was up and placed it back into my backpack with my other notebooks, hoping it would blend in.

"That sounds serious," I pressed, trying to get him to talk about it.

"Well, they don't know what's wrong. The MRI didn't show any inaccuracies and they weren't able to finish the CT scan."

To be honest, I wasn't truly worried. Ryuk would have told me if something worse was going to happen to Light. Light was safe from death. But I wasn't sure on what the seizures would do to his mind.

His mind is what made Light Light. It was what made him my brother.

I sighed and leaned back in my chair. "When is the doctor supposed to be here?" I glanced over at L when there was nothing but silence. "Ryuzaki?" He sat in his odd position that would make my feet fall asleep in minutes and his head was resting on his knees as he stared at my computer screen.

"I'm not sure when the doctor will show up. I'm just worried," he muttered softly. "This isn't normal and I don't have any idea what it could be. I have researched possibilities for what feels like days on end, and I have nothing to go on. And it's not that I don't trust the doctors, but I doubt that they will be able to come to a conclusion if I haven't."

"I see." I shook out my hair and folded my arms over my chest. "I'm sure he'll be ok. He's been through a lot and made it out the other side."

"I suppose so." L inhaled deeply and I watched his face carefully. He was very interesting. His face stayed blank, but his eyes... You could see the whole world in those dark eyes.

I reached out and patted his back, unsure of what else to do. I expected him to pull back at my touch, but it didn't faze him.

And I didn't hate him. Even though I knew where this game was going, even though I knew that it didn't end well for me at the end of the road, I wasn't mad. L was doing his job. He was finding a mass murderer. I knew I was in the wrong from the world's eyes. But I had justified it to myself countless times, that it didn't matter if what I was doing was right or wrong, I knew it was for the greater good.

And L was family now. I was sure that my parents would never find out, but that didn't change anything. L was my brother and that was special. He was special to Light and if a person was that important to my brother then he was worth keeping around, even if it meant ending me.

I gave a curious look as L lifted his head up, to focus more on my computer. "Why do you have a gaming computer?" he questioned.

"It has more than enough room for homework and the games I play, why?" I asked curiously. Did he know it was a lie? Did he know I needed all the space so I could hold all of the police files?

He reached out towards my laptop and moved the mouse over to a tab I had open and clicked on it.

It opened to a youtube page that had a song up on it. I had been listening to it before I got on the plane and didn't close the tab.

He recognized it. I was in trouble if he connected the dots faster than I intended. What was I supposed to do? I couldn't make up an excuse yet. It would seem suspicious.

"You don't know English. How do you know this song?" L asked, his eyes turning to me. I could see the gears turning in his head. I could see his deductions as if they were written across his head. He knew.

"It's based on a video game my friends and I like," I explained. It wasn't a lie. I did like the game. "The game is called Doki Doki Literature Club. It's interesting. Monica is my favorite. My friend likes the youtuber and showed me the song. I looked up the lyrics once. I think it's called delete me or something. I just like the tune."

I had said too much. I had given too many details. This was it. It was over. My run was done.

"When did you get this computer?"

"Umm..." I paused, looking up in thought. "My other computer died around... Late September, early October."

L's eyes flickered over my face curiously. I just wanted to know what he was going to do. What conclusions had he come up with? I felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest, it hurt so badly.

L opened his mouth, but stopped at a knock on the door. A man stepped in, looking down at his clipboard. He had thin brown hair that was peppered with grey. His face structure was tight over his cheek bones and there was a hint of familiarity in the face, though I couldn't quite place it.

L lowered his feet to the ground, hesitantly getting to his feet.

I couldn't understand much of what he said. A greeting and then my brother's name. He must have been Light's doctor. My eyes moved between L and the doctor standing in the room. It clicked. I knew why he looked familiar.

And the next word that came from L I knew.

"Dad?"