SEDKDA Chapter 25 - Shattered
"What?" Edward said. "You and Emmett?" he asked me. "I…I…I don't understand."
"Oh shit," Emmett muttered and then turned and tried to walk out of the room. "I can't be here for this."
"Wait! I can explain," I cried out and Emmett turned to look between me and Edward.
"You can explain?! You can EXPLAIN?!" Edward exploded and the room fell silent.
Ben Cheney looked embarrassed and ashamed that he might have had a hand in this and excused himself from the room. Jessica disappeared into one of the bedrooms, and Alice and Rosalie stood there waiting to see what would happen. Emmett stood right by the door, his hand holding the handle, waiting to escape.
"I can Edward, I can. Just let me," I pleaded with him, tears welling up in my eyes.
"You mean you can explain that you fucked my cousin? And even after I told you who Emmett was, you still couldn't find it in yourself to tell me everything? If you lied to me then what's to say that you won't lie to me now? How can I trust you?" Edward said and I didn't know what to say back.
"I…I…you…you can trust me Edward. I wanted to tell you, so many times. I just couldn't do it. I was afraid of what you would say, how you would look at me, what you would think. I'm sorry…" I trailed off after he glared at me when the word 'sorry' left my mouth.
"Sorry? SORRY?! What are you sorry for? That you lied to me? That you cheated on me? That you used me? Which part Bella? Which part are you sorry about because I am beginning to be sorry that I ever asked you to marry me."
"Don't say that Edward! You don't mean it! And I am sorry. I lied to you and never should have but I never cheated on you! I swear I never did!"
"You forgot one," Edward said coldly. "What about using me?"
I choked. I had used him, in the beginning. But then I fell I love with him and it was only him. But how could I get him to understand that?
"No Edward, I didn't use you." I whispered.
"You mean to tell me that you didn't sleep with me then write about it for a fucking book? You didn't use our intimate times to further your career? Is that what you're saying? Because it sounds like it and it sounds like bullshit!"
"Edward! Don't say that! I love you. Everything we did, it was love!"
"So you loved all the others too? By the way, you never answered the question. How many guys was it?"
"I…I…I don't know."
"Well we know about Emmett and me so that's two. Anyone else in this room?" Edward spat at me and my eyes instinctively cut towards Rosalie who had started to tiptoe out of the room. "So her too huh? Well that's just fantastic," Edward seethed. "Anyone else I know?" Edward asked and I just shrugged my shoulders.
I couldn't say the names. I couldn't throw anyone under the bus that I would be living under for the rest of my life. It was bad enough that I had hurt Edward; no one else needed it too.
"You know what? I really don't want to know. I don't think I could look at them the same. But I will tell you what I do know. We. Are. Over. You need to go to MY house and pack YOUR shit and get out. You better be gone before I get there. Goodbye Bella." Edward turned and walked out of the room followed by Emmett who looked at me apologetically.
I collapsed into a heap on the floor crying my eyes out. Alice wrapped her arms around me and held me for god only knows how long. She was finally able to get me to stand up and someone handed her my things before she ushered me out of the room and to the elevator.
I was oblivious to my surroundings. My whole world was blank without Edward. I didn't remember the journey from the elevator to Alice's car but the next thing I knew, we were in it and heading toward Edward's house. I was vaguely aware of Alice talking beside me but ignored everything. Nothing meant anything without Edward.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"Are you ok?"
"I'm here if you need me."
There were other questions from Alice but they all went unanswered. There was only one person I wanted to talk to and he had made it clear that we were over. We pulled up to his house and I finally spoke to Alice.
"I need to do this alone ok?" I asked.
"Ok. I'll be right here," she said and turned the car off to wait for me. She got out and popped the trunk for my stuff too.
I headed inside and started looking around the den for my stuff. I had some books and movies over here. As I leaned over the arm of the couch to grab my afghan I was hit with a flashback of mine and Edward's first time in this room.
He licked one nipple before pulling it into his mouth and sucking on it lightly. I moaned out and my fingers carded into his bronze locks. Edward massaged my neglected breast and rolled the nipple between his thumb and index finger. My head fell back and my eyes closed as the sensations overtook me. He moved his mouth to the other nipple and repeated the process before reaching for my pants and slowly pulling them down. I lifted my hips as he slid them over my ass and down my thighs. He removed his mouth from my breast and pulled the pants down my calves before removing them completely. I hadn't put on the boxers so I was now fully exposed for him.
Edward removed his shirt and looked at me, raking his eyes over my body. I gasped when he licked his lips before he slammed his lips into mine again. Edward grabbed my hips and pulled them towards him, grinding his hips and dick against my soaked core. We both whimpered at the friction and I bucked my hips against him, begging for more contact. Edward pulled back slightly and wrapped his hand around his cock. He rubbed the tip up and down my wet slit and teased my clit unmercifully with it.
"Please Edward," I breathed out, begging for more. Edward complied as he slid fluidly into me. I called out his name as he fully sheathed himself into me and completed my desire.
"Oh god Bella, you feel so good!" Edward moaned out as he slid almost all the way out of me before plunging back into my depths. He kept up a slow and steady pace as he propelled in and out of me slowly and deliberately. He assaulted my neck and mouth with deep kisses and licks and bites. I tugged on his hair and dragged my nails up his shoulders and back. I felt the fires start to burn deep inside of me and begged for more, for it to be faster but Edward kept the pace, extending the release. I tried to wiggle my hips and get more contact but he firmly grabbed my hips and held them in place at the edge of the cushion. The sensation drove me over the edge and my climax hit like a ton of bricks.
"OH MY GOD EDWARD! OH FUCK! FUCK MEEEEEEEEEE!" I screamed out as he prolonged the orgasm by continuing to thrust in and out of me.
Just as the waves of it were slowing he picked up his pace and moved his thumb to my clit, rubbing it almost raw with passion and fury. I started to gasp with pleasure as the next orgasm crashed through me like a tornado, wreaking havoc on my nerves and sending me deeper and deeper into the abyss. Edward let that one subside before picking me up into his arms, never removing himself from me.
I locked my arms and legs around him as he continued to pump into me as he walked down the hallway to his bedroom. His lips were attached to mine and we constantly bumped and slammed into walls and furniture on the way there.
We reached his room and he walked me over to the bed, laying me down on it then rolling me over onto my stomach. He had my hips positioned on the edge of the bed and he entered me from behind, calling out my name breathlessly as he did so. I grabbed onto the comforter as he plunged farther and farther into my depths and reached around to fondle my raw clit. I screamed out and my toes curled as another fierce orgasm slammed into my body.
My feet had followed the flashback and I found myself staring at the bed that we had shared. I had to turn my back on it so I didn't break down. I needed to do what I came here to do and get home before the pain and hurt could overwhelm me. I saw my suitcases in the closet and pulled them out to fill them with my clothes that had been brought over. I put in my books and movies too and started to clean out the dresser drawers of my things.
Next, I headed to the bathroom to grab my toiletries. I found myself breathing in Edward's shampoo and cologne instinctively. I remembered how I would spritz the pillow with his cologne if he was going to be gone for a while so I could cuddle up with something that smelled like him.
I felt a tear escape and quickly wiped it away. I had a job to do and needed to do it. I headed back into the bedroom and about collapsed when the next flashback hit me.
He walked in and turned around to look at me, his back towards the bed. I smirked before I reached out and shoved him with both of my hands, sending him flying onto the bed. In a split second I was standing there, shocked as I watched him contort his leonine body as he slipped his handcuffed wrists around his ass and legs, bringing them to rest in front of him. "How did you do that?" I asked, shocked at his contortions. "This isn't my first time in handcuffs love," Edward said in a low tone that he knew drove me wild. "I don't know if that is a turn on or not… Well, now you have ruined my plans and you will just have to be punished," I said as I tossed off the hat and launched myself onto the bed with him. I pinned him to the bed and grabbed the handcuffs, pulling his arms over his head. I pulled the first of several silk ties out of my pocket and tied one end around the chain on the cuffs and the other around the headboard post, making sure to position my crotch over his face. Edward growled as I rubbed it against his chin before sliding back down his chest and retrieving another tie from my pocket. This one I tied around his eyes, blinding him to my actions. "Bella," Edward breathed out as I stood up and moved away from the bed. "Don't go anywhere, I will be right back," I said with a giggle as I slipped out of the room and headed towards the kitchen. I retrieved the key and a small bowl of ice cubes before heading back to the bedroom. Edward was fidgeting on the bed trying to escape and I just couldn't have that. I walked up to him and aimed, before grasping both of his nipples in my fingers and pinching some, knowing that he liked it rough. "OH GOD!" Edward moaned as he bit down on his lip. I smirked when I saw his pants tighten under the strain of his erection. "Don't try to escape again or next time it will be worse," I warned and he stilled his movements. I moved my hands from his nipples and started to unbutton his shirt and slacks. I left his shirt hanging open and then helped him worm his way out of his slacks, socks, shoes, and boxers. He was left only in his shirt and the silk ties, his dick standing straight up like a Popsicle just waiting to be sucked. How could I deny him? I crouched over him and lowered my lips down his shaft earning a groan and a growl from him. I slid my tongue up and down his shaft a few times before removing my mouth and getting a whimper in response. I smiled to myself as I reached for the bowl of ice cubes that I had deposited on the nightstand. I picked one up and popped it into my mouth before returning to Edward's luscious member.
I stopped the memory there, afraid to remember and hurt myself more. Quickly, I gathered my suitcases and pulled them out of the house. Alice helped me put them in the trunk. I returned to the house and turned on the foyer light to gather my things from the hall closet. The flash of the light coming on caused another memory to surface.
I strapped on my shoes and got out of the car, locking it behind me. I carefully made my way to Edward's front door and was about to knock when I noticed it was open slightly and I heard soft music coming from inside. I pushed it open and was greeted by the flash of a camera. "Edward!" I half screamed at him as I tried to recover my vision. I looked and saw my surroundings as he chuckled at my surprised expression. He had moved everything out of the main room and the only things that adorned it were lights, a white antique couch, a white alpaca fur rug, and candles. Edward had his camera, his professional one, up on a tripod and was standing beside it with his hands behind his back smiling at me. Edward was wearing black tuxedo pants, a white tuxedo shirt. He had on a bow tie but it was not tied up, and he was barefoot. "Hello love, you look ravishing," Edward said with his crooked grin. He twisted his finger around, motioning for me to twirl for him and I obliged, carefully. "Absolutely delicious." The flash of the camera caught me when I was halfway through my turn and peering over my shoulder at him. "Edward! Why are you taking my picture?" I asked. "Why not?" he replied in a cocky tone. God I loved a cocky Edward. "Because!" I pouted as I completed my turn and stood before him with my arms crossed and my lower lip pooched out. FLASH Another blinding flash of the lights and Edward smirked at me. "You are absolutely beautiful. I would just like some mementos of tonight if you don't mind," Edward said in his velvety smooth voice. "Edward!" I pouted again. "I hate having my picture taken." It was my only argument and I hoped it worked. "I can assure you that you will enjoy this by the end of it. Ok? And if you don't then, I will let you personally destroy all of the pictures that I have taken of you." CRAP! There goes my one and only argument. "Fine!" I huffed as he flashed another picture of me. "But can you tone down the blinding flash? It is going to give me a headache." Edward complied and turned the flash lights down but also adjusted some of the settings on the camera. I noticed it was flashing pictures without him near the camera. Once Edward was satisfied with the camera and light settings, he turned and crossed the room to me. He pulled me into a passionate embrace as his nose skimmed my neck and he breathed in my scent. I moaned into the movement but cringed at the loss when Edward released me and backed up to the couch, taking a seat on it. "Now, Bella, you are going to do something for me, that is, if you are willing to go along with this. I assure you that you will be heavily rewarded by the end, if you comply," Edward said as he leaned back and rested his arms along the back of the couch. "Well, what am I doing?" I asked as I started to slowly walk his direction. He lifted his hand to stop my approach and I noticed I was standing in the middle of the rug. I looked down at the geometric patterns sewn into the fur then back up into Edward's smoldering emerald eyes. "Do you agree? You have to agree before I will tell you what we are doing." "Ok, I agree." "Good love, now, I want you to slowly remove your dress. Leave the heels, gloves, and any undergarments on." "What?" I asked, slightly bewildered. "I said, slowly remove your dress. I'm waiting." "O…ok." As I took in Edward's words my body shivered in lust. I couldn't help the smile that came across my face and I knew how I would make this an evenly matched situation. I would turn the tables on the sexy Adonis ordering me to disrobe. He would be begging by the time I was done with him. I gave him a mock shy look and then started to slowly move my hips to the sultry tones that were playing through the speakers. I started to lightly graze my gloved fingers up my body, starting at my thighs and moving to my hips, abdomen, chest, and finally up and around my neck. Edward looked at me hungrily and I watched as he shifted in his seat, his pants starting to tighten around his arousal. I reached up to my hair and pulled out the pins that were keeping it twisted up, letting it drop down my back in waves. Edward sucked in a breath as I flipped my head around, sending my hair flying into full bouncy waves. I looked back at him and his eyes scorched into me, making me wet with desire. I reached back up and undid the clasp that held the neck and breast of the dress up. I held the ends in my hands and started to slowly lower them. Edward noticed and drew in another sharp breath. I stopped and moved the straps back up and Edward's jaw dropped. "Bella! Please! Please, just drop the dress down!" Edward practically begged. His prior commanding tone had disappeared and now he sounded extremely frustrated, in a good way. "Please what?" I asked as I lowered the straps some more, making his tongue dart out to lick his lips. I saw the sudden extra strain against his pants and knew that I was winning this one. "Please Bella, I will do anything! Please remove the dress! I need to see you!" "On one condition," I knew that Edward would go for it too! "What's that," Edward asked as he stood up from the couch and took a step towards me. "You have to strip down too…" A wild growl ripped through Edward's throat as he ripped off the bow tie and then grasped the collar of his shirt and threw it open, scattering the buttons across the room. He was hungry for me and I couldn't deny him. I dropped the straps as he was about to unbutton his pants and he froze, his gaze fixed on my exposed breasts. I heard a groan come from his throat as he popped the button on his pants, releasing the pressure on my results. I stared him in the eyes as I reached behind me to untie the string that connected under the bust. Once it was released the dressed dropped to the floor and I was left standing there only in shoes and gloves. I wore no jewelry or undergarments and I had shaved completely bare for him. My chest was heaving with the lustful thickness that filled the air. Edward's eyes raked up and down my body, then back up before he settled them on mine.
My eyes refocused from the memory and caught sight of a photo of Edward and me hanging on the wall. When did he put that there? I lifted my hand up to caress his face through the glass. His green eyes were focused on me in the photo and I saw the look of love that we had shared.
My legs folded under me and I was on the floor of the foyer, crying as I realized that this was going to be my last time here. I realized that this would be the last time I would see that look of coming from his deep emerald pools. I struggled to pick myself back up but the tears wouldn't stop. I finally got them under control and went to stand up when someone cleared their throat behind me.
I turned around to see Edward's assistant, Leah Clearwater, standing there with a sympathetic look on her face.
"I'm sorry Bella. But he wanted me to stop by. He asked me to get something from you," Leah said softly.
"What do you need Leah?" I said. Just get to the point I thought.
"He told me to get the ring back."
I gasped as I realized what she was talking about and looked down at the beautiful ring on my left hand. I gripped it lightly in my fingers and spun it around a few times. I didn't want to let go of it. It was all I had left of him. But I had to. He had asked for it and I couldn't deny him after what I had put him through.
As I slid the ring off of my finger I couldn't help the broken sob that escaped my lips. I was losing my last piece of Edward and would never have him back, he had made that clear. I turned away from Leah and sprinted to Alice's car, blinded by the torrent of tears. I got in and closed the door before taking one last glimpse at my lost future with Edward. As we drove away I felt my heart tear wide open.