Chapter 25: Fantasies...
They woke up the next morning tired of last night's events...Liv wouldn't move she was afraid that as soon as they would be up Alex would move backward and change her mind...
"You can open your eyes babe..."Alex said gently kissing Liv's neck...
Liv opened her eyes...
"You knew I was awake?"Liv replied naively..
"Yes, your breathing is different when you're awake then when you're asleep..."Alex said moving slowly on top of her...
"OH ok, sorry I just need a few minutes to think..."Liv replied amazed by how well Alex knew her...
"Oh babe you don't need to worry I won't change my mind about moving in with you..I love you and I want us to have our own appartement.."Alex said looking into Liv's brown eyes,how could she ever change her mind?
"I'm sorry every morning I wake up scared that you will change your mind and realize that you deserve so much then I can give you and after last night and your dad making it clear that a Cabot deserves much more then me...I thought.."
"You thought wrong...I don't care about what my psycho rigid, snob of a dad says : I love you Olivia Benson and not only you're good enough for me but you 're too good for me so let's live our lives without thinking about my dad ok?
"Oh Alex, I love you too but I know it's gonna break you if you dad doesn't give us your consent.."
"No it's not, it's time for me to stand up for myself and to stop caring so much about what my dad says and besides you were right: time will help him accept you and us now would you just shut up and make love to me."Alex ordered..
"Damn I love it when you give me orders like that, It gives me some ideas...kinky ideas..."Liv said starting to kiss Alex...
"What kind of ideas?"Alex asked intrigued..
"I don't know..don't get me wrong I love the way we make love but I guess I have fantasies..."Liv said a bit worried...Even if she noticed that Alex was a lot more into sex then she used too she remembered that Alex called her sexual freak...
"Don't worry Liv you can tell me or ask me anything, nothing will ever change the way I feel about you..."Alex said gently kissing her forehead...
"I know babe and I'm not into weird stuff but you know you call me sexual maniac once so..."
"Oh I'm sorry I was so fucked up back then you're not a maniac you're the most gentle, passionate person I ever made love with..."
"And the last one I hope..."Liv said.
"That goes without saying...So I guess your fantasies don't include tree ways?"
"No way!I would never bare sharing you!"
"Good, me neither, now tell me Detective how can I make you come harder then you ever came?"Alex said slowly putting her hand under Liv's top tank...
"Oh babe you shouldn't do that, it's not fair..."Liv said starting moaning...
"What's unfair, this?"Alex asked continuing to caress Liv's right nipple with her thumb...
"Ok I will tell you but stop you how crazy that makes me feel..."
"OK, tell me..."
"I would love to make love to you in your office, on your desk..."Liv said a little embarrassed.
"Wouldn't you prefer Judge Petrovsky 's office?"Alex asked...
"Oh yeah I would love to just to see be able to look at her everytime she challenges us and say to myself"If you knew what we did on your desk."Liv said with a big smile on her face...
"I would love that too...But that would be unethical...but I will think about it...and about my office you're welcome anytime you want honey..."
"How about you Alex what's your fantasy...?"
Alex knew exactly what she wanted to answer but she didn't know if she should...
"Nothing in particular..."Alex said looking down...
"Alexandra Madeleine Cabot don't you lie to me please tell me...I won't judge ok?"Liv said taking her in her arms to reassure her...
"I know you just might not like it..."
"Then I will say so, let me decide ok?"
"OK...Well I can show you if you want..."
"OK..."Liv replied a little worried...
Alex got out of bed and went in her closet and picked up a metallic box with a little lock, she then went into her night table to take the key...
"What do you have here babe?"Liv asked knowing the answer...
"First of all I love you, more then you can imagine and I'm fully satisfied with you even beyond my expectations..."Alex said opening the box...
Inside where several dildos and vibrator if several sizes and shape.
"What do we have here councillor?"Liv said intrigued...
"I'm sorry Liv I don't wanna go back to men...but I like them…"Alex said more and more ashamed...
"Have you used them since we 've been together?."Liv asked a little worried.
"Of course not!Only when we were broken up and In the WPP.."Alex said ashamed.
"Then You didn't do anything wrong you have needs and I like that you explored your body like that…"Liv said kissing her lips.
"You're so understanding ,you know when I was In WPP I did my best to forget you I made mistakes, including sleeping with men...lots if them...but they weren't you,so I decided to stop and to used substitutes instead…"Alex whispered.
"I understand don't worry babe,were you thinking about me using them?."
"Yeah.."Alex replied embarrassed.
"Oh that's adorable!"Liv said taking her in her arms.
"Adorable?"
"You loved me all along, it's all that matters, if you want to use sex toys we will, no worries, I found it quite exciting to be honest…"Liv said taking one in her hand…
"So if we do play with name and I come harder then I ever came with you you won't think I miss men?"
"Of course not, I will just think that I know you very well and know I to use those toys to make you come…At least I hope so…"
"Of course you will Liv, You know my body better then myself.."
"You know what I would love?"
"Tell me..."Alex said a little worried.
"I would like you to play with one of them while I watch you, you know, I want to see how you like to use them..."Liv said holding her breath waiting for her reaction.
"Really?Would that excite you touching yourself while watching me play with a big black dildo?"Alex said slipping her hand inside Liv's pants...
"Yes it would..."Liv said totally turned on.
"I can see that..."Alex said taking her hand off Liv's pants.
"Yes indeed, so which one would you like to use?"Liv asked...
"My favorite is the black one..It doesn't vibrate or anything, but I like the shape..."Alex said a bit embarrassed.
"Let's get this party started councilor." Liv said overexcited.
Truth was Liv loved Alex and making love to her, but sex became quite random these past few weeks she needed to spice things up a bit and she was happy Alex was ready to take that step with her.
I know , I'm teasing you!Next chapter will be a hot love making sessions with sex toys...So stay tuned for the steamy stuff!