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Stephenie Meyer owns all things Twilight...I own a 2000 Toyota Echo. Looks like Bella's, only worse.
BPOV
A baby. Our baby. Edward's baby. My baby. What episode of the twilight zone am i starring in now? After our shower, we make our way downstairs to find Edward's parents in the backyard, pretending not to wait for us. We decide to just tell them since they basically only need confirmation, anyway.
"Good morning, Isabella. Did you sleep well?" Esme kisses my cheek.
"I did, very well. I'm sorry about all the commotion this morning. I know it's a busy day for you guys. I apologize if I messed up the schedule in any way." I look at her, and I can see that she is dying to ask about the pregnancy test.
"Nonsense, dear. I'm just glad that you seem to be feeling better." Her smile is radiant.
"If you guys have a few minutes to spare, Edward and I would like to talk to you about some stuff." I move to sit down on the beautiful, plush patio furniture that has yet to be moved for the party.
I swear Esme squeals and Carlisle looks like he just won the lottery. They sit down, grabbing each other's hands and smiling huge, face splitting smiles. I find myself wanting to draw it out and make them suffer, but I feel the nausea creeping back up, and I know I won't be able to hold out.
"Well..." I look at Edward and he squeezes my hand. He's being uncharacteristically quiet, and I'm not sure why. I try to smile at him to let him know how excited I am, but I am really nervous. "I know that I haven't known either of you for very long, seeing as how we just met, but I hope that you won't mind terribly if Edward and I give you a grandbaby." I try my best to keep a straight face, but it's impossible.
Esme and Carlisle are up out of their seats, wrapping in their arms. Esme is wiping tears from her eyes and Carlisle is shaking Edwards hand, patting him on the back. I watch Edward and try to gauge his emotion. He looks almost sad, definitely not how he looked when we were alone. When he sees me looking at him the corner of his mouth lifts into the crooked smile I love so much, but it doesn't reach his eyes.
"We won't mind at all, Isabella. In fact we couldn't be happier," Carlisle says before he hugs me and then links his fingers with his wife's. "How are you feeling now? I could prescribe you something for the nausea, if you need it."
"I feel pretty good at the moment, actually. I'll let you know if it comes back or gets any worse." Just knowing that I have Carlisle's help if I need it is comforting to me.
"Please don't hesitate. There is no reason for you to be uncomfortable if you don't need to be. I'll be happy to help." Edward's father gives me the smirk that I now know runs in the family, and I giggle like a school girl at him.
"Are you giggling at my dad, Bells?" Edward asks as he wraps his arm around my waist.
"I totally am, but I don't know why. Maybe it was the smirk. Or maybe it's the hormones again." I look up at him to see his reaction.
"Ew, B! No hormonal giggling over my father, please. At least not in front of me." He looks shocked, but he kisses my nose and pulls me closer to him.
His parents watch us with smiles on their faces and tears in there eyes, in Esme's case. I feel like I fit in, seamlessly, and it makes me think of my dad. I'm not sure what he will have to say about all of this, but part of me knows that he will be just as happy as they are.
"You know, we are going to have to tell Charlie about the baby," I whisper as I reach up to kiss his chin.
"I know. I'm a little scared about it, too. I barely won him over, and now I have to tell him that I knocked you up... before I married you. He's gonna kick my ass," he groans.
"Actually, my dad isn't all that fond of marriage... seeing as it didn't work out all that well for him. You may have lucked out as far as he is concerned. Your folks, on the other hand, are probably going to want a matrimonial extravaganza the likes of which this town has never seen." I pinch his cheeks before I laugh loudly in his face.
I choose his moment of shock to walk over and join his parents back on the couch and start to nibble on the pastries that have appeared on the table courtesy of Esme. The rest of the morning is spent with stories of baby Edward and some of Ben. We laugh and eat while the party is set up around us. At one point, Esme looks around and seems surprised.
"Oh, my! I've completely forgotten about the event. I guess we should start getting ready!" Esme grabs my hand and starts to pull me away. I look back at Edward and find him already heading off in the other direction with his father.
"Come, dear. We can talk inside." I link my arm with Esme's, and we head upstairs.
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EPOV
I'm not sure what's got into me. I feel nervous and overwhelmed as I listen to my girl tell my parents that we are going to have a baby. I guess that's normal, but what's not normal is that I start to feel sad. I'm not sure what it means, and I don't want to worry Bella with it, but I can see on her face that she knows something.
"Dad? How did you feel when you first found out you were going to be a father?" I ask, trying not to look him in the eyes.
"With Rose, I was scared shit-less to be quite honest. I was young and still in school, but I loved your mother so much I couldn't help but be happy. Though that feeling of sheer terror, that I'm sure you are experiencing right now, never really goes away." He chuckles and pats me on the back.
"I'm definitely scared, but I think I feel sad. I'm not sad that Bella's pregnant. I think ever since Ben...um, passed...anything that has to do with babies makes me sad. I miss him so much, and I failed him so terribly. How could I ever deserve a second chance?" Tears sting my eyes, and I sigh heavily, trying to hold them back.
My father hugs me, the way that only a father can hug his son, and then pulls away to look me in the eyes. "Edward, you did not fail your son. You were an amazing father, and that baby loved you endlessly. More importantly, he knew how much you loved him. I don't know why he got taken from you the way that he did, but I do know that you are more than deserving of a second chance. You deserve to be happy and to make that beautiful woman of yours happy. I know you miss Ben, son, we all do. Don't let that take away form the miracle that you and Bella have been given because it is a miracle."
"It is, isn't it? I can't believe it's happening so fast, but it wouldn't be us if it went any other way." We both laugh as we make our way back towards the house.
"You two are going to do just fine, Edward. Take care of each other, and there is no way that you can go wrong. Love her and accept the love that she gives to you. That's the best advice I can offer you," he says before he heads into his office.
When I get upstairs, I find Bella sitting on the bed with her clothes and accessories laid out before her. She smiles when she sees me, and I feel like all of my anxiety is melting away. Maybe my dad is right, maybe we will be okay.
"Hey, baby girl. What are you doing up here by yourself?" I try not to mess with any of her stuff when I lie down on the bed.
"I'm just trying to get an idea of how to put all this stuff together. I hope it's appropriate. All Rose said was that it should be floral. Do you think it's okay?" She looks at me, and I can see the uncertainty in her eyes.
"Of course it is appropriate, love. You are going to look so gorgeous. I can't wait to show you off." I wrap my arms around her and pull her closer to me. "I swear I'm going to be the luckiest bastard at this shindig, baby." She lets me nuzzle her belly while I tell her about the people she will meet tonight. She knows Alice will be here soon, and I can feel her excitement about seeing her friend.
"Do you think it's too soon for us to tell people about the baby?" she asks, running her fingers through my hair.
I rub my hand across her abdomen and draw circles on her hip bones. "I don't know. I do know that I want to be able to tell Alice, Rose, and Emmett before everyone else knows, or they'll be pissed at us."
"What do you think they're gonna say? Do you think they will be happy for us?" She actually sounds a little worried.
"Of course they are going to be happy for us, B. They love you and they love me and they know how much we love each other. There is no way they won't be as excited as we are about the baby." I sit up and face her, and I see that there are tears in her eyes. "You are still excited aren't you? I mean, we don't have to tell anyone if you don't want to, or we can tell everyone. It's up to you. I can get on the mic tonight at the party and tell every motherfucker in the city, if that's what you want, Bella. Just please don't cry. You know I can't take it when you cry."
"I'm crying because I'm happy. You just included my Ali with your family, and I think the hormones are kicking in hardcore, baby. I don't know what's wrong with me!" She is smiling as the tears fall down her cheeks, and I can't help but smile at here.
"I love you, so much. I hope you never forget that. Some fucked up shit is about to happen to your body and your emotions. You are going to want to kill me in my sleep more than once before this baby is born, and I just want you to remember that no matter how loud I chew, or how many times I leave the toilet seat up, or bring home the wrong flavor of ice cream... I love you." We both burst into laughter at the same time. I can't help but lean over and kiss her tummy. It's like I'm drawn to it now that I know what it carries. I feel her fingers in my hair as I rest my head on my new favorite part of her body.
Her voice is soft when she finally speaks. "I love you too, Edward. I'm glad you are anticipating things not going smoothly. I won't feel so bad when I throw the toothpaste at your head after I fall into the toilet one to many times." She kisses my head, and in that moment, I'm filled with so much hope that it scares me.
I press kisses over every part of her body that I can reach, moving slowly until I hover over her. The look she gives me lets me know that she doesn't want me to stop. I crash my mouth to hers and swallow the loud moan that escapes her lips. Her fingers are pulling at my shirt, trying to get it over my head, and I have to sit up so that she can get it off.
"Off, Edward..." she pants, staring up at me, "all of it. Off."
Before I can even get myself undressed, her clothes are flying passed me, and before long, I find her completely naked beneath me. She is gorgeous and smiling, and I think I'm the happiest I've been in a long time, just knowing that her smile is for me.
"What's going on in that head of yours, Edward? You look like you're a million miles away." She rubs my shoulders and pulls me closer to her.
"I'm just thinking about how happy you make me and how much you have changed my life." I bury my face in the crook of her neck and taste the sensitive skin there. I feel her legs tighten around my waist as I push into her slowly.
"God, Bella. I hope it's always this good. Never leave me, baby." I push the hair from her face and look into her beautiful brown eyes.
Her smile is so wide, and she leans forward to kiss the spot just over my heart. "Not a chance, silly boy. You are stuck with me now. I'm yours, completely."
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BPOV
Edward and I lie together, just enjoying the silence before what I'm sure will be an eventful evening. I'm so excited to see Alice and hopefully get a chance to share our news with everyone who are important. I know there is some superstition about not telling people you're pregnant before a certain point in the pregnancy, but we aren't the superstitious type. In fact, I'm sure Edward will laugh at me if I tell him we have to wait because of an old wives tale.
Soon enough, it's time for us to start getting ready, and I watch as my man gets out of bed and walks toward the bathroom totally naked.
"Really, Edward? Are you trying to lure me back into the shower with you? Haven't you had enough yet?" I raise an eyebrow at him and he tries to look innocent.
"Me? I'll never get enough of you, not ever, but I'm just trying to get clean, baby. Besides we already rocked the shower. I could throw you up on the counter top if you'd like." He winks at me, and somehow, I know he isn't joking.
"Take a shower you pervert. I'm some one's mother for God's sake; you can't just throw me up on the counter! Have some respect, man." The look on his face is priceless, but I see the moment that his senses return.
"Would you rather I bend you over the counter?" He wiggles his eyebrows at me and gives me his sexy smirk before he closes the door, not waiting for my response.
I give him some privacy for about ten minutes before I decide to crash his party. I have to get ready, too.
"Babe, if you get in here, we are never going to get out of here." He laughs as I step under the spray.
"Yes we will, just keep your hands to yourself and there won't be a problem. I need to get washed up and get out of here. I have a lot of work to do to make myself presentable for your mother's company," I say, and I slap his hands away from me.
I leave him to his shower once I'm done and pull on the undergarments that I brought with me. I know that Edward loves the garter belt and stockings, and I can't wait for him too see them later tonight. I may even give him a little teaser before we go downstairs. I throw his hoodie on and sit down at the desk to put on my make up.
I've never been very good at the make up thing. I don't usually have reason to wear much of it, but I find myself wanting to look pretty so Edward can feel proud to have me on his arm tonight. Being immersed into his family's inner circle isn't something that I ever thought would happen. Now here I am, about to meet their friends and colleagues. How will he introduce me? Girlfriend just seems like such a ridiculous title now that we know our lives will be intertwined forever. Our blood is pumping through the veins of a human being that we created. I'm amazed and so, so in love with the idea.
I decide to just go with the basics. I brush on some blush, mascara, and lip gloss. Just as I move to put on my dress, Edward walks out of the bathroom in nothing but a towel. His body is glistening with drops of water from his shower, and all I can think is that I want to lick them off of him.
"Aww... come on, Eddie! What are you trying to do to me?" I whine, trying not to look at his chest.
"Why what do you mean, Bella? Are you insinuating that I'm trying to tease you? Because you know that the last thing that I would ever do is tease you, baby." His fingers unzip the hoodie and push it from my shoulders. "Damn. You're going to be wearing this under your dress all night? How am I supposed to keep my hands off of you, knowing that?"
"No one said that you had to keep your hands off of me. I'm all yours, you know that," I say as I step into my dress and turn so that my back is facing him. "Will you zip me up, please?"
I look over my shoulder at him.
I feel wet kisses on the back of my neck before I am zipped into my dress. He always manages to make me feel wanted and sexy. Once the zipper is up, his arms slide around my waist, and he pulls me against him.
"I love you, Edward." I whisper without reason.
"I love you too, baby girl. So fucking much, and I can't wait to show you off tonight." He breathes against my neck before kissing my hair. "You have no idea how happy you make me, but I tend to spend the rest of my life showing you."
"Don't get all sappy on me now, baby. I'll start crying and will never be able to stop." I turn to face him and run my hands up his bare chest. "Hormonal, remember?"
"How could I forget? You stripped my clothes off and had your way with me a little while ago. It was fucking fantastic." He kisses me hard, effectively smearing my lip gloss all over both of us.
"Eww!" I squeal wiping my mouth on the back of my hand and I watch him do the same.
"What is that shit, baby? You don't need that stuff all over your face. You're beautiful without it."
"Edward! I want to look pretty for the party. I can't just go out there looking like a hot mess and have you tell people I'm your girl." I give him the pouty face, knowing he can't resist it.
He kisses me again, long and hard, leaving me breathless. "Lip gloss or not, you are my girl, and I am going to go out there tonight and tell every mother fucker out there that will listen to me how much I love you. Now fix yourself up, baby, and let's do this thing!" he shouts before slapping me on the ass and heading back into the bathroom.
God I love him. How could I not?
Is this a dream?
If it is please, don't wake me from this high
I'd become comfortably numb, until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like when everything's right, I can't believe
You found me when no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through all of my confusion
The ups and the downs and you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me, you found me
So, here we are and that's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back, I'm fading out, all that has faded me within
You're by my side, now everything's fine, I can't believe
You found me when no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through all of my confusion
The ups and the downs and you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me, you found me
You Found Me ~ Kelly Clarkson