I had been unconscious and when I opened my blurry eyes I saw three figures lurching over me. One was Lissa, the other Caleb, and then the last Adrian. My heart sank as I saw him. The last time I had with him wasn't exactly on the best of terms. "Oh Rose!" Lissa exclaimed noticing that I was awake. I embraced her hug. I was in a bed, I wasn't sure if it was hers or not. "You're at Adrian's house. I didn't know who else I could ask for help. Caleb is quite the man. He got rid of Belle's body in a flash. And then he hurriedly carried you to Adrian, with my directing."
I was half listening to her because I could see Adrian's eyes lingering on my face. His expression was sad, unusually sad. I felt awful for him. I mean for the way things turned out between us. "Well at least she's okay now." Caleb spoke up. I noticed him near the window. It then occurred to me that I was in Adrian's bed. I felt dizzy, but I picked myself up and swung my legs off the bed. "Whoa, whoa, whoa. What do you think you're doing?" Caleb asked, rushing over to me.
"I am leaving. I came back to protect Lissa, and that's what I'm going to do. Not sit around and feel helpless. I am fine. I just fainted. Thank you ever so much for helping me, but now I am perfectly fine." I fussed at him. He looked angry for a split second, but then the expression was gone and he moved out of my way. The whole time Adrian stayed in the corner, his eyes not leaving my face.
"Rose, listen, I know you're tough and all, but please don't strain yourself. I'm fine." Lissa said gently. I looked at her next to me. "I'm fine Liss, I've endured much harder things than this." I pointed out. This made her sigh and help me to my feet. I walked towards the door. Lissa noticed my pause and lead Caleb outside. I needed to talk to Adrian.
"Thank you. For everything." I said quietly to him. He looked away from me for the first time since I'd opened my eyes. He stayed quiet. "Are you okay?" I asked dumbly. His eyes then came back to mine in an instant and he made his way quickly towards me. He grabbed my hair gently. "Rose, I don't know what I am going to do without you. You were my reason to get up in the morning. The reason I stayed sober. Now, all is lost. And this time you won't come back for me. Ever." He breathed. I swore I could see tears brimming in his brilliant jade eyes.
"Adrian, please. Don't do this to yourself." I breathed. His expression became one filled with anger and hatred. He let me go and stormed to the other side of the room. He picked up a bottle of some sort of alcohol, which was almost empty. "Adrian stop this! Stop!" I fussed and walked over trying to take the bottle from his hand. He pulled his arm back. "NO ROSE! NOT ANYMORE! I WON'T STOP! MY LIFE IS RUINED!" He screamed, this time a few tears escaped. He was scaring me.
"You haven't even lived your life Adrian. Get away from this place. Go live. Outside of this Court. Experience the wonders of this world. Don't limit yourself to booze and cigarettes Adrian." I reasoned. Looking at him desperately. He looked like he was about to break into a million pieces. And then out of nowhere he broke down. He fell to the floor. "The babies are gone and now you're gone. I am nothing. My life is meaningless. The two things I had to look forward to in life are gone. I should have known it wouldn't last forever." He sobbed. His body heaving. Now I was starting to cry too. I had never seen Adrian like this.
He looked up and smashed the bottle against the window sill. This shocked me. Before I could stop him he picked up a shard and made a deep gash across both of his wrists. I yelled and rushed over to him. I threw the glass from his hand and sank down next to him. "ADRIAN! NO PLEASE! STOP!" I hollered. I grabbed him by the shoulders. I brought him to his feet. Blood was flowing heavily from the cuts he had made. He was blinking rapidly. I was now frantic. I rushed towards the bathroom, stumbling on the way. I ripped out the drawers until I found the toilet paper. I ran back to the room. Adrian was not moving. His eyes barely open. He had fallen back on the bed. "Oh no Adrian. Please no." I begged. I took his arms and wrapped the cuts as tightly as I could. Nearly using the whole roll.
I lifted him up. I looked at him. His expression still slightly distraught. I held him closer to me. "R-rose." He muttered. I looked down at him my eyes full of tears. "Yes." I barely choked out the word. "I-I," He was struggling. "I l-love you." He finally managed to say. My tears spilled over. "Adrian. Sweet, sweet Adrian." I said silently, brushing his messy hair from his eyes. He rolled his face towards my hand. I cupped his face. I bent down, inches from his lips. I lingered there. This may be the last kiss I will ever share with him. I kissed him passionately, wanting to remember him with the warmth of his kiss. I pulled away but he grabbed me and pulled me back. I stayed there.
"Adrian, I have to get you help. You're bleeding out." I suddenly cried out. He slowly shook his head. "No Rose. I'm going to stay right here with you. I want to die with the memory of you near me." he simply requested. "I can't let you do that." I said sadly and then ran to get Lissa.
Once Lissa saw him lying on the bed, eyes shut, barely breathing, she screamed in horror. "How could he do this?" She yelled. Caleb rushed in behind her. Quickly, she put her hands on his wrists, ripping off the poorly done bandaging I had just done. She closed her eyes and within minutes healed Adrian's cuts. His eyes opened. "Lissa, why?" He asked, She slapped him across the face. "Don't bother." She said storming off and slamming the door behind her. Caleb trailed after her. "I'll calm her down." he said, leaving us alone again.
I stood there in shock. "How could you do that to me Adrian?" I asked, pain welling up inside me. He stood up. He tried to come closer to me but I held my hand out. "Don't come closer." I said, turning angry. "I just kissed you because I thought it'd be the last thing I could remember you by. I felt sorry for you. I am sorry for everything that's occurred, but I can't help it. You know this. I don't want this to hurt for you, but the reality is, it will hurt. But you have to fight through it. It hurt me more than you can imagine when I had to leave you. When I lost both of our babies." My words were hitting him repeatedly. His face sank every time I said something.
"None of this is going to heal overnight. Hell, it may never heal. But I'm not giving up on my true love. I have been through horrible things just to have what I do now. Dimitri was who I've always wanted to be with. And I'm so sorry for that. But I can't fight my heart. I love you Adrian, I always will, but it's not the love that I can live off of like the love I have for Dimitri." Those last words broke him.
"Well if you love him so much then get the fuck out." He said angrily, "FINE ADRIAN! BE MISERABLE! LIVE YOUR LIFE A DRUNK PISSED OFF BASTARD!" I yelled storming off towards the door, but not before I ran back and kissed him with all the strength I had inside. I pulled away looked him in the eye and said, "This is goodbye."